The simple answer is instead of visualizing yourself dying, visualize yourself getting better.

The simple question “how do I improve?” is a powerful one.

It will take your mind away from killing yourself and put it to use doing something constructive.

That all depends on your answers to the question “how do I improve?”.

For me I would like to stop smoking and drinking, maybe limit myself to one glass of red a day, and quit cigarettes.  But right now that seems like a far off dream.

But I want to make it happen rapidly so that I can save enough money to start selling on commission again.

You see, that’s where I made a mistake in my past.  I sold while paying my expenses with a credit card.  This time I don’t want to repeat that mistake, so I’m going to save three months of pay and when I have that I’m going to make the jump into commission.  It could really make this blog come alive!

I no doubt would be working more, but I really would have the opportunity to make a lot more.

I read today on a Craigslist ad that one of this companies top earners made $200,000 last year.  And being the way I am I want to be a top earner too.  So I figure that’s the kind of money I’m looking at if I’m successful in my next commission job.

That would be way up from $20,000.

That would be the kind of money I’m talking about.

Once you’ve made that kind of money, you have GOT to know how to improve and make it even better.  On your way to being a multi millionaire.

All through smarts.

And I think books are vital.

I don’t read enough.

I’m always writing.

But I’m going to get back into it, and order some more books on sales.  I want to learn more and become better.  Filled with MORE knowledge.

I just think that’s the way it should be done.

And I’m a successful schizophrenic.  Successful in the way that I earn an income working an hourly job.  And I get promoted at this job.  I am now their salesperson.

I really am making the most of my time at my job.  I doing well.  And I hear voices everyday.  When I try to stop smoking the voices and the visions of people talking to me become more intense.

So I smoke because it’s easier to live.

But I know it’s not good for me, so I’m trying to stop.

I’m only 32 so I figure with modern medicine I should still have a pretty long life ahead of me.

With my own self, taking care of myself, I should be fine.  And so will my family.  They will be fine.

I think I got these promotions at my job by asking myself the question how do I improve?.  And I even told my bosses I was schizophrenic and was trying to stop smoking and drinking.  They liked talking to me.  They say they trust me.

And they must because they send me out with no leads and 16 box lunches to deliver to local businesses.  For free!  I’m giving away two free box lunches to each place I stop at.  That’s my job.

But I figure this blog can only help me develop myself and become a better salesman and ultimately make more money and help more people.

Because in all honesty I’ve thought about it, and I have ways I could make money off this blog, but they are just going to take time.  And I could probably make more money working a commission sales job in a short period of time, then trying to sell ebooks and rock and roll albums.

Although I want to do both.

Really I just have to get incredibly busy.  I’ve got my ebook that needs editing, I’ve got rock and roll songs to write.  I’ve got this blog to keep up with.  I STILL am trying to write for 90 days straight.  So far I’ve taken quite a few days off.

But I’m still writing and I will try to write everyday until the end of July.  That would be something like doing it for 90 days.  I say that would be good for anyone.  I know it’s good for me and this blog.

More content the better.

Even if it’s not your best stuff, your still doing something.  Your still TRYING to add value.  Your working on your masterpiece.  And some of your posts really hit the nail on the head.  You’ve just got to keep doing it.  You’ve just got to keep rocking it.

But my boss told me that if we make more money then we’re supposed to this summer, as a result of my sales calls, I might be looking at another promotion.  At least that’s what I got out of it.  All I know is that I just want to do my job well and do it better than the best I can do it.

I told my boss today, that I just tried to enjoy the ride.  I figure if I’m enjoying talking to people and giving away free lunches, then that will rub off on the people I talk to.  And they will have a better experience.  A free lunch and a good feeling.

And that kind of work pays off.  People buy and tip when you do those kinds of things.  And some of them don’t just buy once, they buy several times.

But selling again on commission, well I could fall flat on my face again.  The way I see it is, that won’t matter.  What does matter is that I did it the right way.  I saved enough money to not work for 3 months, and try commission selling again, and if it didn’t work after 3 months then I could go back to my old job.  Because I gave them notice of course.

So really there would be nothing to lose and everything to gain.  The next step for me is to save diligently until I get to the point where I can do something like that.

And you bet I would buy some nice clothes, maybe even a couple new suits.  If I stopped smoking and drinking I would save an incredible amount of money and could afford to do this much more easily.

That’s the trick.  I’m a schizophrenic and the voices disturb me when I’m not smoking so I smoke.  It’s really very screwy.  Relying on something to make you happy.  I would probably learn a lot if I could ever get myself to quit.  God help me, at some point I will.

And live my life more in balance.

But I figure the best thing I can do in the meantime is to blog.  People are reading my work and commenting on it.  I’m doing a good job with this blog.  I want to keep putting the good work into it so it blossoms into something beautiful.  What that will be at this point I don’t know.  It could just be a mission of personal development.

But I could really stand to make a profit off of my work.  I’ve just got to figure out a way to do that.  I guess I’m going to have to start writing another ebook.  Another one, and one I could sell. Whether it be a commission sales job or this blog I’m going to make a lot of money doing something.  My $20,000.00 a year gig is not all there is for me.

I’m not afraid of hard work.  I’ll write until I bleed if I have to.  In fact that’s the only way I want it.  I WANT it to be a labor of love.  So I’ve just got to keep doing it and make a masterpiece of it.

Some folks say I write about nothing.  But I think I write for you to take action and improve your life.  I think my writing could be the catalyst for you to take a walk or a run and that would make your life better.  Either run out what you just read or savor the material and let it make you rich.

Either way I’m a busy guy.

So how do you improve when your a schizophrenic?

I say when your voices start telling you to die, you simply change your focus to how you can improve your life right now and take action on those thoughts.

Work, blog, spend time with your family, do housework, clean, write in your journal, read a book, exercise, eat something that’s good for you.  Do something right in your life.

And if you are a schizophrenic, don’t forget to shower and shave.  It will be good for you to keep up on your hygiene.  And don’t forget to floss.

How do you take action and improve?

Ask yourself that question for the next 24 hours and see what happens to you.

See if you want to keep asking yourself that question.

I do, and I hope you will too.

When I ask myself that question it leads me to how I can improve this blog…

Get my picture up, offer a freebee for getting on my list, editing my ebook, writing another e book, one I could sell, and that’s a lot for starters.  I could also get off my blog and start commenting on other blogs and putting my website on other websites.

All things I plan to do now that I’m going to reel back the drinking and smoking.

You’ll be getting a better quality of work from me, I’m sure, as each day that passes I get better.  I really think I can make it blogging.  I’m going to keep doing it for the rest of my life and see what happens.

Or maybe not the rest of my life, maybe just for the next 8 years.  I’ve already got 2 years into it, I figure I’ll go another 8 and make it 10 and see what I have then.  If I don’t have a successful business by then, maybe I’ll just hang it up or just blog for fun.

But the way I see it is, I’ll probably have a six figure income from this blog in the time it takes to save enough to start a commission sales job.  And I’ll have plenty of money to start with another network marketing company if I want.  The future does look pretty good.

All because I found a job, thanks to my brother, who I love and am grateful for.

And that job lets me do everything I do.  Without it I would have nothing.  So suiting up and showing up is no problem for me.

And if more mild schizophrenics like me, took the attitude of positivity and made the most of what they were doing, the world would be a better place for schizophrenics and others alike.  I’m just an example of ONE mild schizophrenic who is becoming part of the community.

Not just laying on the couch listening to the voices.

But actively contributing to society.  Earning an income and paying taxes.

Helping to keep everything running.

And I know not all schizophrenics can do that.  But to those of you who WANT to work, just know you can.  You CAN find a job where your boss likes you and wants you to succeed.  You CAN find a job where you can get promotions and feel like your growing in your professional life.  You CAN WRITE! and keep a list of all the things that are happening to you, to let the world know you are alive and kicking and things are getting better.

This can be done.  I know you and I can do this.  We can work, we can blog, we can take care of ourselves and help to take care of our families.  It can be a very beautiful life.  Take action and take control of your life now and start writing.

You will be happy you did.

Thanks for reading,

As always, take care,

Jesse Creel