Hell Yes!  I made another sale.

I wouldn’t have even known I made it if I weren’t for the fact that I was the delivery person today.  I asked to leave early and had 45 minutes until I was going to leave, after doing my sales work and followups for the day, and there was a delivery that needed to be done.

So they sent me out to do it.  And upon arriving, I recognized the place as a place where I had dropped off a couple box lunches about a month ago, and cookies last week.  We really do our best to make sure that our prospects know about us, and we give them a little free product to wet their whistles.  That was the case with this sale.

I went in to do the delivery and there were two people in there.  One of them had me place the bag on a table and signed the credit card receipt.  On the way out I told the other one that we really appreciated their business and we are happy to serve them.  I also told them that I hoped they would really enjoy the food.

In my head, on the way back to the store, I saw myself spitting on a sandwich.  I’m a mild schizophrenic, so I’m always seeing and hearing things in my head, some of which I don’t want- like the spitting, and some of which I do want- like I love this.  In my head my own vision of me encouraged me to hock a loogie onto the sandwich, to really get some mucus on it.  I found myself actually wanting to clear my throat of mucus.  I have to fight not to have those visions, but they come consistently and it takes work.  I DO NOT spit on the sandwiches, and I think it’s disgusting to even imagine it.  So it’s constant work, but it’s the work I want to do.  It takes work to fight off negative visualizations and come to a place that’s peaceful and harmonious.  That’s part of the job for this schizophrenic.

Working for my company that I work for now is a great experience.  They have taken me from a broke deadbeat to someone who can contribute a little to my family and to the world.  Just yesterday I gave a homeless person a five dollar bill.  I like to do that, it makes me feel like I’m giving back.  And it’s easy to do, because there are a lot of homeless people begging for money, but it’s more than just to give, although that’s one of the main reasons.  Another big reason is that it’s helping to teach me how to sell again, something I’ve tried doing for years, without any consistent success. Now with my current job, I make money whether I sell or not, which is a blessing because at first I didn’t know if I had it in me to sell or not.  I had failed so much that all I wanted to do was work hourly.  As the universe would have it, an taking an hourly job was not the end of my sales career.

I recently saw an ad on Craigslist, for a sales job, selling solar panels, that claimed to pay $100-150K a year.  With that kind of money I could do a tremendous amount of giving, especially to my family.  I do after all have a wife and two kids.  Right now I’m paying some money to help support them, but I’m not even coming close to what it takes to support a household.  The only reason we are afloat is because of my wife’s work. That doesn’t feel good to me.  I, even though I am a mild schizophrenic, want to be the breadwinner.  Even if my wife were to keep her job, I should be able, and want to be able, to put my family into a bigger house, where both kids would have their own rooms.  Right now we live in a 2 bedroom townhouse, and don’t get me wrong, we’re blessed to have a roof over our head, but if I keep working on this sales thing, we could have a better roof over our head.

The way I figure it is, each sale is a sale closer to a job that pays me 6 figures a year.  Right now I make a 5th of that, if that, working the hours I work.  But I am learning, and I am growing.  My job is giving me the confidence I need that I CAN sell a great product.  I’m going to give it some time, and let the sales come in, and keep track the best I can-which is difficult because when the prospect becomes a customer, they don’t always tell the store that I was the one who peaked their interest.  Nevertheless I’m keeping track the best I can, and so far I’ve sold 9, with the prospect of getting 10 in a few weeks.  Right now my goal is to earn 2 sales each time I go out with 8-10 stops.  I think that’s a good goal, realistic, and will put me in a position of confidence with my sales job.

So, in short, I’m working on it.  I know at the perfect time, with the due amount of work, my dreams will come true.  My goals will manifest, I will be the success that I deserve to be, schizophrenia or not.  My hope for you is that no matter what you’re going through you can gain some insight from my story and maybe find the inspiration you need to continue working in sales, no matter what your body, your mind, or the world is telling you.  I had to suck it up and get an hourly job after failing for 5 years in sales, and I would give you the same advice, if sales doesn’t work for you, then get an hourly job.  You never know where it might take you, it might take you to where you wanted to be in the first place!

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Here’s to your success!

Jesse Creel