Yes, that is what I do. I work for 10 dollars an hour. Plus bonuses and mileage. And I’m a schizophrenic. All things considered I’m an outstanding success.
But I hold myself to a high level of expectation. I always have. I remember saying to one of my aunts when I was very young that I knew I was going to do something BIG. I just didn’t know what that thing would be.
And life has it’s way with you. And you have to go with the flow. It’s not all going to work out as if you have written a script for your life. Some things will be granted to you and somethings will not. Some things, I think, will take more time than others…. Like success. You have to overcome failure to have success. At least I think that’s the case.
All I can tell you how to do at this point is make 10 dollars an hour because that’s what I do consistently and that’s what I’ve made of my life so far. I could tell you how to make almost 20 dollars an hour because I’ve done that too… but I lost it all and had to start over. So I’m not really sure how to make 20 dollars an hour anymore. All I know is how to make 10 and get some bonuses along the way.
And to get the ten dollars an hour you have to work hard. You have to do it fast. You have to put love into your work. You have to do what your bosses tell you to do. You have to work well with others. You have to be part of a team. You have to do your job.
And if I, as a schizophrenic, can make 10 dollars an hour I know that anyone can do it. Your still living in poverty but 15,000 dollars a year is better than nothing… and you can always improve.
And improve I will. I will continue to learn… mainly to read books and experience my daily life in a way that will benefit me and others. And I will execute on my knowledge and write books and this blog and share my life with the world. It’s a beautiful thing to do. It’s art. It has value, to me and hopefully to others. And it’s something that I can do with my time that is constructive.
It’s better than sitting around drinking and smoking everyday, all day. Garbage in garbage out. Good in, good out. I’ve seen the light and it’s told me to quit smoking and drinking and keep working, and working on my life when I’m not working.
Work, Read, Write… Repeat. Love my family, spend good times with them. Go to church, thank God for another day and for all the good things in my life. I heard in a sermon that going to church was the highest form of prayer. I wouldn’t want to miss that! I love praying. It helps me to build a relationship with God. It helps me figure out my priorities and what I really want out of life. And I work.
And part of my work is writing. Creating content that is the most valuable content in the world. And writing the experience of being schizophrenic and having success earning an income is, in my opinion, one of the most valuable things on the planet earth. Some schizophrenics can’t work and are reliant on the government for any income. I personally am a success making 10 dollars an hour, although not much is still a living that I can save for retirement with. Save for college tuition for my children. Save for my daughters marriage. Save for the new ring I want to buy my wife as a symbol of making it in the world. “We made it” I want the ring to say.
So I have my dreams and things I’m working towards… but right now I’m still a success because I’m a schizophrenic who can work for an income. I have a lot of reasons to do well and they support me in my endeavors. The schizophrenia strengthens me and propels me towards independent thinking, my own choices, making the right choice, choosing good over evil, and choosing to progress over stagnation.
And that’s how you make ten dollars an hour as a schizophrenic. After a while it’s like your a normal person. You hear voices but that’s normal for you and it doesn’t bother you. Sometimes it entertains you, sometimes it enhances you, sometimes it teaches you… it’s almost as if you have an advantage over the regular person who doesn’t hear voices. Everyday schizophrenia teaches you more about life and that is why I consider it a blessing rather than a curse.
At times, when the schizophrenia was bad, it seemed like my marriage could be cursed, my life cursed, my life doomed, my success only a dream, my immaturity broadcasted to the world, pained by my own stupidity.
But Thank God, I lived through that. Now I’ve come out the other side a better person for it. Mainly because I’ve stopped smoking. The voices talked a lot about cancer especially when the smoking was making me feel like I was sick or dying.
But really, I’ve gotten over all of that. I have a beautiful family and I’ve got to improve my life so that I can give more to them. And I’m on the right track. I’m no where close to where I want to be, but I’m getting better by the day. And the reading and the writing really makes me feel like I’m becoming a more valuable person.
Years ago, while I was trying to make it in network marketing I came across a Jim Rohn quote that said ” Formal education will make you a living, but self education will make you a fortune”. I wanted to skip the formal education and go right to the self education. Why spend all that time just making a living when you could be making a fortune. Still, despite my best efforts at self education I failed at network marketing and took losses.
But I haven’t given up on self education making me that fortune. I think it can be done and I think the formula is work, read, write. Make an income while you write. Save money, pay your bills. By the end of 5 years I should have my credit card paid off with a nice chunck of cash sitting being invested. Not to mention 6 books. I’ve already got one written, I’m in the process of printing it out and rereading it… and editing it. But that’s the rate I want to go at. 1 book per year. See what I come up with. Print them all out and keep them. Maybe seek publishing.
Publishing really should be a no brainer for me. It would take courage to release my work unto the world, because of the bad things that could happen to me and my family because of it. But I think there would be more good than bad, and that the bad could be turned into good, and we could all benefit from it.
And writing could take my income to the next level. Realistically that would take years to do… but I’ve got nothing but time. No money and plenty of time. At least no money I want to spend. I’d rather save and invest. That how I hear you get wealthy and I’d like to try and get wealthy. Not a lot of people make it, and the odds are stacked against me, especially with my condition, but I’m going to do it anyways. I’m going to make something of myself for myself and for my family, and for other people. To give. That’s what I want to do. And part of that giving is my writing. And part of my mission is to make myself and my writing more valuable. And I think the key to becoming more valuable is to read more books.
And the right books, books on improvement.
Tony Robbins claims to have read over 700 books on his course to writing his own books and his writing is filled with quotes from other writers. I want to do more of that myself. Quote other authors to help prove my point. “Success leaves clues”…. that’s a quote I’ve heard from multiple sources. Once when I was in network marketing and once recently when I was reading a Tony Robbins book.
Really though, this desire to improve and read books and write books and write a journal and keep a journal, and work…. really it’s only recently that I’ve gotten the motivation to do those things. Many times in the not so distance past I would just sit on the couch all day and listen to the voices, talking and playing with them. Or being freaked out by them. That and smoking. I did a lot of that. Only by God’s grace did I live through that, and now I never want to go back to that lifestyle. I seek health, wealth, wisdom, family, friends, customers, coworkers, God, fulfillment, pleasure, growth, love, and all things that are good in life. And for God’s sake, more money. We live in the richest land on earth… America… and I want to pay my dues to get my piece of it. And I have defined my piece of it to be 2 or more million dollars.
But I know that God has a will and my own will will only be done if it is in harmony with God’s will. Otherwise I’ll just be failing.
Right now God’s will is for me to work at Honeybaked Ham and grow with the opportunity to sell the product. But who knows… perhaps with time God may call me to write books for a living, and post to this blog. That would be a dream come true and I know I can make it happen… I’m putting in the work right now.
And work hard I will. Because I know that people can make fortunes off of writing blogs and books and with schizophrenia I think I should have a gold mine of work to sell to people. What I really think will make it a gold mine though is the reading. The self education. The more I learn the better I will be able to think and the better able I am to think the better able I will be to write.
I had some old journals on the bookshelf in my townhouse’s basement and my wife took them off because she thought they were ugly. She put them on the floor. She told me to put them away. I thought they were fine where they were but this is marriage after all and there is some adjustments that have to be made in order to create harmony.
So I brought a ham box home from work. Plenty big enough for all of my journals. And I went through them today and read a page or two in each of them. What I found right off the bat was Og Mandino’s Ten Scrolls. If you’ve never heard of them look it up. I think you can find it for free on the internet. I’m going to give them another try. The thing he tells you to do is read this empowering material 3 times a day for 30 days… for each section. There are 10 sections. I’m going to give it another go. The first time I did it I only made it thirteen days through the first scroll. I know I can do better than that. The 10 scrolls came out of the book “The Greatest Salesman In The World” written by Og Mandino. I am a salesman, so I think this may help me. It’s meant to condition your subconscious for success. Hence, all the repetition.
But that’s really all that’s going on right now. Working for 10 dollars an hour and trying to make a fortune by reading and writing. I’m sure I’ll find my way and I’m sure that it will be good. Thanks for reading. I love you. Jesse Creel.