Yes, I am a schizophrenic.
And I have been for about 7 years. Since I lost my job in 2010. That’s a landmark for me. I’ve since recovered and have another job.
But it wasn’t always this way. At one point I had to heavily rely on my family to stay with them and get by. They helped me pay my debts when I didn’t have the motivation to pay them myself. At one point I hated working and wasn’t able to like the things I had to do. So I didn’t do them. I would just sit around and listen to the voices tell me to die, and at one point they had me convinced I was going to die. That this was it. That it was over. Tears came down my eyes.
And they still tell me to die. But I haven’t yet, and I’m recovered and working. And I’m in the process of improving. Of living life again. Of solving problems, or at least working on them… and I’ve come to a conclusion.
If I have schizophrenia all that means is that I have to work harder than a normal person to achieve success. So that’s exactly what I’m doing.
I have some serious issues to tackle, like my credit card debt. Which is almost more than I can handle… but I’ve got to stay committed to paying it off to a zero balance in the shortest amount of time possible. And I can do it. Tied into my problem of debt is my problem of not getting enough hours at my job. I’m working and that’s a success, but I’m not consistently getting 40 hour work weeks. I’ve got to increase my income, and get full time work… so I’m working on finding another job.
I do love the one I’m working now though. I’ve met some great people working there and the job is practically easy. But it’s something you do when you can’t do anything else. And at the time I took the job, I really couldn’t do anything else.
But now I’m getting it together and I’d like to work at a place that offered benefits like a 401k. I’m looking forward to the future now. For my family. You see, I have a wife and two kids.
And I’ve really got to start looking out for myself, for them. Rock and roll, sales, and network marketing really took their tolls on my working life and I lost far more than I gained. At the same time those were some of my most valuable life lessons. I learned later that you should only seeks gains when there’s little or no risk. Otherwise you could end up losing it all. And that’s exactly what I did.
And although I’m working successfully I still haven’t recovered from the losses I took when I was finding my path. My path now is not to rely on social security for disability but to work 40 or 50 hours every week and pay off my debt as fast as possible.
And there are millions of jobs out there so I’m optimistic. I’m thinking I’ll will eventually find the right job for me and I’ll be able to work full time, and I will have improved my life again.
And I must keep those improvements coming.
So now that I’ve healed parts of my life of the schizophrenia and I can still work in spite of it… I’m ready to move on to other parts of my life and heal and become empowered in them as well. And if you want to take that journey with me as well, my friend, you are more than welcome to. The way I see it is we are in for a lot of hard work, and a lot of blessings too. May they come in avalanches of abundance.
So I’m empowered to make progress, and the faster it is the better. We’ve got to find ways to speed things up because you do know that our time is one of our most valuable resources. Only so much of it, and then it’s over so better make the best of it.
I know for certain that hard work is a good thing and it amounts to something. What it amounts to depends on how well you do it, but no matter what your capacity hard work is a good value. I have learned to like hard work. And I love putting hard work into my creativity because that’s just so much fun. So as we work, we can have fun, and doesn’t that make your day just so much better?!
If we could only get our creativity to lead to income, now then we’d really be talking. And walking. Walking the walk. That’s what we want to do so it’s time to take massive action right now. Think of something you can do that will add value to a massive number of people, and do that thing right now! Stop reading this and go do it, the blog will be here when you’ve finished. Take massive action!
I hope that empowered you to take the first step, or the next step… if you didn’t yet stop and take massive action toward one of your goals, then go do it now! I’m writing this to tell you I believe in you and I know you can live the life of your dreams. Get on with it!
And if your a schizophrenic and your say, waiting to get on disability, and you need money now, go out and find a job! You can do it! And you can work and recover and get your life in better shape. I did it, you can too!
And you know there’s going to be haters out there, hating on you for doing you. You just got to “Shake it off” as Taylor Swift says.
And work your tail off. You can do it!
So if your schizophrenic, or suffering from any other problem… heal! and be empowered! Share your story with others once you’ve got a better hold on your life and help others to avoid the same mistakes you made. A few will learn from you and put into action what they’ve learned. And those few people who become better because you helped them are benefited by your contribution. Become a better person and have a more positive impact on the world!
I love you, thanks for reading.