I spent 5 dollars.

One on a 43 million dollar jackpot, and 4 on a 228 million dollar jackpot.

I hope I win.

But I also delivered over 6,000 box lunches to the race track over the last two days.  That was an accomplishment.

And I got to work with my brother.  We delivered together.

It was nice of them to put us two together for the delivery.

But we did it.

For about 5 hours I spent my time putting the box lunches into bags, marking the bags, and stacking them up.

Then putting them onto the truck, which was running to keep the cooling on.  It ran for hours.

And the team I was working on was kicking ass.  We were doing double what the other team was doing, and they really had me working.

When I walked in this morning I was told my team was going to be the best because I was on it.  I said they were too nice.  I’m just a regular guy.  That’s what I told them.

On the first trip, yesterday to deliver 100 bags or so, the GPS took us through the city, when we could have just gone around the beltway.  But I didn’t know how to get there so I was at the mercy of the GPS.  My brother was with me, and he sort of lost his mind over the traffic on the way back yesterday.

So today we got the directions from the president of the company and it took us right there.  It was a lot easier.

Today when we were there I was noticing a particularly attractive woman, who was wearing high heeled shoes and a tight dress and she had some very attractive legs.

There was another woman after I had my look who was standing in front of her, and then another woman came out of nowhere and starting walking right up to the truck to where I was sitting.

She looked at me and I looked at her and she kind of mimicked my gesture to her and then she looked at me again and grabbed her crotch.  Like I was a rockstar and I was being given attention by whores.

I did have two rockstar energy drinks today, one on the way to the first delivery.

I drove there twice today.

And I drove a larger box truck then I was used to driving.

8 feet longer.

And 18 footer.

And I don’t know how we would have delivered all 6,000 box lunches in our little 10 foot truck.  We would have had to made 3 trips.

But we had an 18 footer, so we only had to make 2 trips and there was plenty of room.

When I delivered the first delivery though there was 366 bags.  It took up almost all of the 18 feet.  It was by far the biggest of the sections we had to do.

If you figure there are 9 box lunches in each bag, that’s a lot of box lunches.

And I, my brother, and one other guy got them all there.  It was just me and my brother on that last trip.  It was nice because he didn’t complain much.

But all in all it was a good thing.

I got plenty of hours this week, and that’s a good thing for me and my family.

And I want to do more for them, as much as I can do, to help support them.

That’s why I write this blog.  For them.  So that I can be a better father by earning income from my writing.

It is much harder than it seems though.

At least that’s the way it’s been for me.

I feel like some of the commentors on this site are yanking my chain.  Telling me it’s good and not being genuine.  I would rather they come right out and say they don’t like me.  Instead of being nice and leaving trash in their comments.

I still have no subscribers to my list, so that’s a failure.  An ongoing one.  But I really need to spend some sober time editing my ebook so I can give that away as a freebie.  Something to get people to put their email address in.

Because I would love to start a business online and sell products to people.  I just need readers, and that comes with writing.

So I gotta write.  And write I will.  Write until the cows come home.

And that’s what I say we all could do.  Write.  Write like our lives depended on it.  Write and put blood, sweat, and tears into it.  I say that’s the way we get it done.

And we may never make any money at all off of our work.  But 10 years down the line that won’t matter, because we will have grown.  We will have accomplished something.

We’ll probably end up giving up the cigarettes.  So we can be wealthy.

Or we’ll just keep smoking and smoke our money.  We might have so much of it that it won’t matter, and we’ll still be able to leave our children money when we die.

That’s what I’m going for…. health, wealth, and wisdom.

And I figure you can have all three and still drink and smoke.

Probably would be better if you didn’t, but you want to enjoy yourself, so here’s to you.

But after working 12 hours, and driving a big box truck all day I was tired.

So tired I passed out.  I couldn’t drink anymore.  It was making me feel sick.

Tonight my wife and I are going out to eat.  I’m really looking forward to it as we haven’t been out in a while.  I’m going to eat a lot and drink a little.  I’m really looking forward to it.

But I’ve got to get my stuff together.  And I don’t curse on purpose, because I want everyone to be comfortable.  But I really do.

I’ve got to stop spending all my money on cigarettes and alcohol, and then buying groceries and gas on my credit card.  I’ve paid it off a thousand dollars, but now I’m spending on it again, and I’m really losing control.

Internet, if I can ever get my habits under control, and not buy alcohol and cigarettes when I don’t have the money, I’ll be in a lot better place.

And I think that’s what my writing is leading me to.  That’s where it’s leading us to.  Sober, non smoker, exerciser.

But really that would be no fun, and I’m really at my best when I’m smoking and drinking.

So it’s going to be hard to stop.

I’ve been trying since the beginning of this year.  We’re almost 6 months into it and I’m still smoking.

But back to the work.

The work of writing.

And work it is.

I go for 2,000 words each post.  I don’t always get there but often times I do.

I’ve still got a ways to go before I reach that word count, but I’ve already told you about my day.

So what do I blog about next?

How do I make this blog post worth it for you?

I could tell you I’m going to win 228 million dollars tonight, and become a multimillionaire overnight.

But what good would that do you?

I’m looking for the real value here.

What can I give to you?

I can give you my love.

And I do.

I can tell you that woman grabbing her crotch while I was looking at the pretty girl was an encounter.

She wasn’t bad looking either.  Not exceptionally pretty, but good looking.

The one woman though, she had legs forever.  A real nice looking body.  I like being around those kinds of people.  They get my motor going.

I guess you could say that I’m one of those attractive people.  Although my addictions are pretty ugly, I’m not bad looking on the outside.  Older women are always telling me how beautiful my eyes are.

Not to brag, but the ladies are attracted to me in a bad kinda way.  They like me smoking and drinking.  And I like them smoking and drinking.  Not that I would ever do anything about it, I’m married.  But I like seeing them.  I like talking to them.  I like being around them.  Especially when I’m working.

Although really when I was working there was an attractive manager that kept telling me how good I was and because I didn’t turn on my member and get it going with her there seemed to be a disconnect working with her.

I’m married and I don’t play games.  I don’t have the energy.  I just do my job, that’s what I need to do.  And I write this blog.  I almost do want to write dirty things.

Like what I want to do to my wife tonight while our daughter is out sleeping over my parents house.

But I try to be a gentleman so really I can’t go into that.

What I can tell you is that I sometimes try not to even look at other woman.  Don’t want to get the thoughts about doing them in my head.  But that makes it so when I do look, I look to much or I’m too much of a creep and I weird people out.  I should probably just look more.

I don’t think it makes you a bad person if you look at other women when your married to a perfectly good woman already.  Your only looking.  I like it.

I don’t want to like it too much though.  I don’t want to get started doing things I shouldn’t be doing.  Maybe if I ever made a million dollars off this blog it would be easier to have a girlfriend, but that doesn’t mean I WOULD have one.

What I would do if I had a million dollars is travel all the time.  And write about my experiences on this website.  That would be the life.

I want to do it.  Let me know how I can better serve you in the comments.  Or sign up for my list.  I’ll send you primo content.  Right to your inbox.

This is the way it is done.  You write your content until it’s done.  You write until you meet your quota.  Do this thing.  Do this thing now.  You can do it.  Write your blog post.

I worked for 12 hours, and I’m a schizophrenic.  That’s an accomplishment.  Even if I’m only getting paid $20,000 a year.  I definitely want to find out how I can make more money, but I think it all starts with me doing what I’m doing now.  Which is writing.

I do rely quite a bit on intuition so it may piss you off I do have any evidence for what I “think”.  That’s okay with me.  I’m still going to go with my gut.  I’m going to make the right call for myself and for my family.  I’m going to do the thing and have the power.

That’s all I can do, or anyone can do.  You have to write from the heart.  What comes to you.  This is the way it is done.  I can say because I write all the time.  I know how to write.  And it can be done by anyone who can write.  And that would be a lot of people.

But working at my job for 12 hours at 12 dollars an hour is a good day for me.  I used to try to sell and I sucked at being a business man so I had to take a low paying hourly job just to create an income.  It sucks, but it’s also a blessing because so far I haven’t found any other job I can DO.

And I want to do a job.  I want to work hourly.  It’s good for me.  I like it. I want to do more.  I have the weekend off and then I’m back to work.  But I’ve really got to get something going on this website because I’m going back to 30 hours a week and I’m going to have plenty of time to work on my business.

So here’s to working when your off, so that you have the chance to enjoy the benefits of your work later.  There’s always the possibility.

Thanks for reading,

Jesse Creel