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How Do I Improve When I Have Schizophrenia?

The simple answer is instead of visualizing yourself dying, visualize yourself getting better.

The simple question “how do I improve?” is a powerful one.

It will take your mind away from killing yourself and put it to use doing something constructive.

That all depends on your answers to the question “how do I improve?”.

For me I would like to stop smoking and drinking, maybe limit myself to one glass of red a day, and quit cigarettes.  But right now that seems like a far off dream.

But I want to make it happen rapidly so that I can save enough money to start selling on commission again.

You see, that’s where I made a mistake in my past.  I sold while paying my expenses with a credit card.  This time I don’t want to repeat that mistake, so I’m going to save three months of pay and when I have that I’m going to make the jump into commission.  It could really make this blog come alive!

I no doubt would be working more, but I really would have the opportunity to make a lot more.

I read today on a Craigslist ad that one of this companies top earners made $200,000 last year.  And being the way I am I want to be a top earner too.  So I figure that’s the kind of money I’m looking at if I’m successful in my next commission job.

That would be way up from $20,000.

That would be the kind of money I’m talking about.

Once you’ve made that kind of money, you have GOT to know how to improve and make it even better.  On your way to being a multi millionaire.

All through smarts.

And I think books are vital.

I don’t read enough.

I’m always writing.

But I’m going to get back into it, and order some more books on sales.  I want to learn more and become better.  Filled with MORE knowledge.

I just think that’s the way it should be done.

And I’m a successful schizophrenic.  Successful in the way that I earn an income working an hourly job.  And I get promoted at this job.  I am now their salesperson.

I really am making the most of my time at my job.  I doing well.  And I hear voices everyday.  When I try to stop smoking the voices and the visions of people talking to me become more intense.

So I smoke because it’s easier to live.

But I know it’s not good for me, so I’m trying to stop.

I’m only 32 so I figure with modern medicine I should still have a pretty long life ahead of me.

With my own self, taking care of myself, I should be fine.  And so will my family.  They will be fine.

I think I got these promotions at my job by asking myself the question how do I improve?.  And I even told my bosses I was schizophrenic and was trying to stop smoking and drinking.  They liked talking to me.  They say they trust me.

And they must because they send me out with no leads and 16 box lunches to deliver to local businesses.  For free!  I’m giving away two free box lunches to each place I stop at.  That’s my job.

But I figure this blog can only help me develop myself and become a better salesman and ultimately make more money and help more people.

Because in all honesty I’ve thought about it, and I have ways I could make money off this blog, but they are just going to take time.  And I could probably make more money working a commission sales job in a short period of time, then trying to sell ebooks and rock and roll albums.

Although I want to do both.

Really I just have to get incredibly busy.  I’ve got my ebook that needs editing, I’ve got rock and roll songs to write.  I’ve got this blog to keep up with.  I STILL am trying to write for 90 days straight.  So far I’ve taken quite a few days off.

But I’m still writing and I will try to write everyday until the end of July.  That would be something like doing it for 90 days.  I say that would be good for anyone.  I know it’s good for me and this blog.

More content the better.

Even if it’s not your best stuff, your still doing something.  Your still TRYING to add value.  Your working on your masterpiece.  And some of your posts really hit the nail on the head.  You’ve just got to keep doing it.  You’ve just got to keep rocking it.

But my boss told me that if we make more money then we’re supposed to this summer, as a result of my sales calls, I might be looking at another promotion.  At least that’s what I got out of it.  All I know is that I just want to do my job well and do it better than the best I can do it.

I told my boss today, that I just tried to enjoy the ride.  I figure if I’m enjoying talking to people and giving away free lunches, then that will rub off on the people I talk to.  And they will have a better experience.  A free lunch and a good feeling.

And that kind of work pays off.  People buy and tip when you do those kinds of things.  And some of them don’t just buy once, they buy several times.

But selling again on commission, well I could fall flat on my face again.  The way I see it is, that won’t matter.  What does matter is that I did it the right way.  I saved enough money to not work for 3 months, and try commission selling again, and if it didn’t work after 3 months then I could go back to my old job.  Because I gave them notice of course.

So really there would be nothing to lose and everything to gain.  The next step for me is to save diligently until I get to the point where I can do something like that.

And you bet I would buy some nice clothes, maybe even a couple new suits.  If I stopped smoking and drinking I would save an incredible amount of money and could afford to do this much more easily.

That’s the trick.  I’m a schizophrenic and the voices disturb me when I’m not smoking so I smoke.  It’s really very screwy.  Relying on something to make you happy.  I would probably learn a lot if I could ever get myself to quit.  God help me, at some point I will.

And live my life more in balance.

But I figure the best thing I can do in the meantime is to blog.  People are reading my work and commenting on it.  I’m doing a good job with this blog.  I want to keep putting the good work into it so it blossoms into something beautiful.  What that will be at this point I don’t know.  It could just be a mission of personal development.

But I could really stand to make a profit off of my work.  I’ve just got to figure out a way to do that.  I guess I’m going to have to start writing another ebook.  Another one, and one I could sell. Whether it be a commission sales job or this blog I’m going to make a lot of money doing something.  My $20,000.00 a year gig is not all there is for me.

I’m not afraid of hard work.  I’ll write until I bleed if I have to.  In fact that’s the only way I want it.  I WANT it to be a labor of love.  So I’ve just got to keep doing it and make a masterpiece of it.

Some folks say I write about nothing.  But I think I write for you to take action and improve your life.  I think my writing could be the catalyst for you to take a walk or a run and that would make your life better.  Either run out what you just read or savor the material and let it make you rich.

Either way I’m a busy guy.

So how do you improve when your a schizophrenic?

I say when your voices start telling you to die, you simply change your focus to how you can improve your life right now and take action on those thoughts.

Work, blog, spend time with your family, do housework, clean, write in your journal, read a book, exercise, eat something that’s good for you.  Do something right in your life.

And if you are a schizophrenic, don’t forget to shower and shave.  It will be good for you to keep up on your hygiene.  And don’t forget to floss.

How do you take action and improve?

Ask yourself that question for the next 24 hours and see what happens to you.

See if you want to keep asking yourself that question.

I do, and I hope you will too.

When I ask myself that question it leads me to how I can improve this blog…

Get my picture up, offer a freebee for getting on my list, editing my ebook, writing another e book, one I could sell, and that’s a lot for starters.  I could also get off my blog and start commenting on other blogs and putting my website on other websites.

All things I plan to do now that I’m going to reel back the drinking and smoking.

You’ll be getting a better quality of work from me, I’m sure, as each day that passes I get better.  I really think I can make it blogging.  I’m going to keep doing it for the rest of my life and see what happens.

Or maybe not the rest of my life, maybe just for the next 8 years.  I’ve already got 2 years into it, I figure I’ll go another 8 and make it 10 and see what I have then.  If I don’t have a successful business by then, maybe I’ll just hang it up or just blog for fun.

But the way I see it is, I’ll probably have a six figure income from this blog in the time it takes to save enough to start a commission sales job.  And I’ll have plenty of money to start with another network marketing company if I want.  The future does look pretty good.

All because I found a job, thanks to my brother, who I love and am grateful for.

And that job lets me do everything I do.  Without it I would have nothing.  So suiting up and showing up is no problem for me.

And if more mild schizophrenics like me, took the attitude of positivity and made the most of what they were doing, the world would be a better place for schizophrenics and others alike.  I’m just an example of ONE mild schizophrenic who is becoming part of the community.

Not just laying on the couch listening to the voices.

But actively contributing to society.  Earning an income and paying taxes.

Helping to keep everything running.

And I know not all schizophrenics can do that.  But to those of you who WANT to work, just know you can.  You CAN find a job where your boss likes you and wants you to succeed.  You CAN find a job where you can get promotions and feel like your growing in your professional life.  You CAN WRITE! and keep a list of all the things that are happening to you, to let the world know you are alive and kicking and things are getting better.

This can be done.  I know you and I can do this.  We can work, we can blog, we can take care of ourselves and help to take care of our families.  It can be a very beautiful life.  Take action and take control of your life now and start writing.

You will be happy you did.

Thanks for reading,

As always, take care,

Jesse Creel

How Can I Support My Family The Best That I Know How…


It can drive us, it can push us to succeed.  It can unravel us.  It can hold us together.  We can weather the storms with our families and take comfort in their presence.  We love them.  They are the most important people in the world to us.  And we have to work for them so that they have everything they need to be a success.

Family can make us.  If we can adjust to having sex with just one woman for the rest of our lives, we can really do some good in the world.  Just imagine, that when you jerk off, you only jerk off to your wife.  Images of your wife and what she COULD do to you.  For you.  I say that would make for a healthy ride.

Why visualize other women?

In my experience that only leads to nightmares.  Nightmares of asses and roast beef.  So I say stay clean.  Have sex with your wife and when you jerk off think of her.

But this post is about supporting your family the best you know how.  I am a schizophrenic, and I was diagnosed as a result of my inability to function in the workplace.  I thought I had cancer.

As it turns out I do not have cancer, and I hear voices in my head.  Sometimes it’s good, sometimes it bad, but any way it comes, I’ve learned to love it.

And because I’ve had so much trouble in the workplace at one point I was a pretty sorry excuse for a husband and a dad.  I was contributing nothing and taking money from my wife.  I’ve since got my act somewhat together and am now giving my wife money.

But it hadn’t always been that way.

The way I see it, my wife has had it pretty good with me being an influence on her life.  And she took on the burden of having me go on a sales/debt/network marketing binge after I lost my job, not knowing what to do, and she loved me the whole way through.

I didn’t think she was loving me, but she was.

And now it’s time to repay the debt.  It’s time for me to make something of myself.  How do you contribute to your family?  By doing the very best that you can.  You can do it!

And I have been repaying the debt.  I’ve given her 150 a few times, 200 once, and 100.  Not much but it was enough to buy her tires and insurance for the tires, and an alignment, without her having to do anything.

Anything but wait.

She came with me and the wait for them to put the tires on and do the alignment was 3 hours.  They said it was going to be an hour and a half, so it was a long wait.

But we got it done, the tires are on there, and I paid for it.

And I’m going to keep giving her money.

I just got a bonus that after taxes I got 415 dollars, and I could have kept that money to myself, but I told her, celebrated, and gave her 100 dollars.  I put 200 on my credit card.  The rest I saved for her birthday present, and I bought a book.

But really, I’m barely making it through.  The problem is cigarettes, and if I didn’t buy cigarettes I would probably be able to live within my means.  But the credit card is there and I fell to the temptation to spend on it, when I didn’t have the money to back it up.

It was so freeing to spend that money.  And I learned a lot from doing that.  Probably one of the biggest lessons of my life.  Credit should be used to make more money, and you should never just lose money.

For instance, if I bought a list on my credit card, say from Aweber, that would be a good investment in myself, that could return a profit.  I could make money from having a list!  That would be an instance where the credit card would serve you well.

But buying cigarettes and alcohol on credit is when your losing money.  Sure, you may be having a good time, but you gotta ask yourself… is it worth it?

How many hours would I have to work to pay off that debt?

How does that feel?  Still want to do the same thing?

I’ve done it, and let me tell you, it doesn’t feel good.  Nor does it help you support your family.  So really, I guess that’s an example of what NOT to do.

I do think a glass of wine a day is good for you, maybe even two.  And that a cigarette a day isn’t going to hurt you.  You could save money by not buying either, but don’t you want to enjoy yourself a little?

All I know is that me personally, I could really use a break.  Some sort of financial windfall that helped me get out of debt, and into a better place with my family.

I’m supporting my family to some degree, but I definitely want to improve and earn more.  I think that’s going above and beyond doing the best you can for your family.

Work on yourself harder than you do at your job, and you’ll be fine.  That’s what I say.

So you may do what you can for your family with what you’ve been given, but you want more and so what?  What are you going to do about it?

I propose we blog and write ebooks.  Maybe come up with a series of videos we sell.  Get into the information market and provide more value there than anyone else is giving.

If your doing well at your hourly job, be hungry for God’s sake, and want to do more.  More for your family.  Buy them a house and a college education.  Do well for them, get them off to a good start.  The rest is up to them, but they better do good.

But I say that the best we can do is be a great example for our children.  To help lead them up the path of life.  So don’t you want to become more valuable?  Don’t you want to create something that provides more value to the reader than anything they’ve ever read?  Or at least in the league with the best they’ve ever read.

Because of the few, there are many who are good examples.  You just have to become one of those people.  And I propose you can do that by reading good or great books and writing a blog and e books.

It’s simple really.  If you want to support your family in a way that realizes your dreams, you’ve just got to become more valuable.  And the best way I’ve found to become more valuable is to READ.

So that’s what I suggest.  You READ.  And read fast.  Read as much as you can, as fast as you can.  Even if that means taking notes on what you’ve read, and slowing yourself down a little to absorb more.

This may come as common sense, but I think it bears an exclamation point.  Read!  I try to read as much as I can.  I read for 2 hours today.  It’s the weekend so I have more time, but I try to read at least a half hour a day.

And I think the world would be a better place if more people read a half hour a day.  At least that’s what I propose.  Even the average hourly worker.

I think they would move up in the company, and be more valuable, and live better personal lives as a result of them reading just a half hour a day.

That is, of course, as long as they were reading books on personal development and self improvement.

Because, I propose that is what you have to read if you want to become more valuable.  And when you have a family, money is important.  And the more valuable you can become, the more the opportunity for you to increase your income.

So I focus on improvement, and it’s working, even though I’m a schizophrenic.  That’s part of the reason I believe this stuff can be done by anyone anywhere in the world.

Work your hourly job, do the best for your family that you can at the time, write your blog, work on your e books.  Be stable and work towards a better future.  It will take time no doubt, and I almost want to tell you you could do it in 90 days.

But really it takes years, if you haven’t started yet, to make any money at all on the internet.  You have to establish yourself, and create an audience.  That’s about the stage I’m at now, but I’m a leading learner, and I’m reporting on how I’m doing as I go.  I think it could help people improve.

And how I’m doing now is that I’m getting a lot of comments on 2 of my posts, and I’m creating some engagement with the beginnings of my audience.

The comments, a lot are trash, just to be honest.  There are some that approve of what I do and encourage it, there are one or two haters, and there is a lot of spam.  I love it all.  I’m in love with doing this.  With being a part of the internet.  God Bless America and God Bless the World.

But you can only do what’s best for you and your family.  We can’t control when the world is going to end.  We can only seek to improve.  And with reading and writing, I think we are well equipped to do just that.  Improve.

That and a lot of hard work.

But I propose that if your smart you can work now and get paid later, and then you can relax.  Enjoy the profits.  That’s what I say.

I do however live by the principle that one should die with their boots on.  Never stop doing what you do.  Do it to your dying day.  David Bowie died just last year, and he had just made a new album!  He died with his boots on.  I plan to write until I’m dead.  See what comes of it.  See if I make an impression.  I propose that YOU can make an impression.  I propose that YOU can be one of the few who succeeds and makes millions of dollars.  Maybe there’s even a potential billionaire out there reading this right now.  Whatever your goals, just know that I support you in living a better quality of life.  I support you in improving.  I support you in reading and writing.  I believe it’s good for the human race.  For the world.  Just do your best to be the most valuable you can be, and see where it takes you.

Why don’t you see if you can become the most valuable person in the world?

That’s what I propose, and a few of you, I believe will do it.  You WILL BE the most valuable person in the world to a lot of different people.  To many, many, many, many people.  Just self educate, and write your blog, and write your books.  I believe the rest will follow.  The wealth.  Become the most valuable person in the world, and receive the money.  As the most valuable person in the world, you will probably give away most of your fortune to good causes, that is of course, after your family is taken care of.

So just do the best you can for your family now, and strive to do more for them in the future.  That’s the lesson I’ve learned from being in a bad place and doing the wrong things with mine.  Fortunately for you, now that you’ve read this post, you don’t have to take money from your family because you have no motivation to work.  You can skip that part, and build your future, not waste any time, and improve and become more valuable now, instead of wasting your twenties trying to figure it out.

So my advice to you is to go buy your name as a domain and start your first blog post today.  Then build.  Then improve.  Then become more valuable.  Make a career out of it.  Make it on the internet.  You can do it!

The point is now that you’ve read this to go TAKE ACTION and provide a better life for your family.  Sure, do the best that you can, but work to make your best a little better each day.  You can do it!  I believe in you!  Just for God’s sake, do the right thing.  Don’t cheat, and don’t steal.  Do good and have good done to you.

Thanks for reading.

Jesse Creel

Value Based Writing For Those Who Want To Improve

And isn’t that all of us… Those who want to improve.

I say the way to improvement is to read books and keep a journal, and most importantly to experience everyday life.

Right now I work hourly and collect my pay.  I’m moving up and becoming a salesperson, and that’s great but as Jim Rohn put it “Work harder on yourself than you do at your job”.

So that’s what I do.  I read and write and keep notes.  It’s hard to put into words how that learning can help you, but I believe it does.  You just have to keep the faith.  Your learning will help you.  So that’s what I do, I learn.

But as they say, experience is the best teacher.  And I get experience at my hourly job.  So that is my best teacher right now.  I hope that this blog becomes my best teacher and that I have an impact on millions of people, but that is yet to come.  Right now the best I can do is work hourly and collect my pay, and learn and read and write in my free time.  So that’s what I do.  It’s simple really, do the thing and you will have the power, so Ralph Waldo Emerson says.

The value here is to tell you, you can do it!  You can be a success at your hourly job and you can be a success writing a blog.  It can be done!  And you can do it too!  You just have to try and try harder and work towards your dreams.  I don’t know that I will ever make a million dollars off of one of my ebooks, but I can try!  I can write it and let the words do the work for me!  And you can do it too!  You just have to try!  And like my boss says at my hourly job, you have to do MORE than just try! You have to DO IT!  So that’s my plan, and that’s what I’m doing right now as your reading this, I’m making it happen.

And you can do it too!  Be inspired to take action in your life and become a success in whatever your doing.  Whether that be working your hourly job, whether that be becoming a success in sales, whether that be becoming a success with your blog and ebook, I’m here to help you.  I want you to succeed.  Take your coffee and drink it, and feel good that your in good company that is really interested in your success.

And if you really want to go over the top, and become a public speaker, then make a video and put it on your blog.  That’s one thing I learned from going “all in” at the Empower Network.  Make videos and put them on your blog.  You’ll learn from them and they will make you into a good public speaker.  You may not please everybody from the start, in fact you may have a very rocky road, but you will learn and you will become better.  So just do it.  You will have the power.  I trust you.  I want you to learn.  Become better, and have a better impact on the world.  You can do it!

Right now I’m writing this and I’ve had a couple of beers and now I’m drinking a glass of wine.  I’m also struggling with quitting cigarettes.  Sometimes they make me feel great, other times they make me feel terrible.  But I figure that with enough income I can live whatever lifestyle I want, whether that be a lifestyle of drinking and smoking or not.  I would be able to do it if I made enough money.  So I’ve got to make more money if I want to drink and smoke.  Otherwise, I’ll have to quit and just work my hourly job and pay my bills.  Pay my bills over time and get debt free.  That’s my ticket, or my ticket is to write this blog, add value to a massive number of people and then make my money that way.  Chances are I would make a lot more money that way than just working an hourly job.  So I’m going for it.  And I want you to know that if your doing it too, I’m in it with you.  I’m in it for the long haul.  I know success doesn’t happen overnight, so I’m willing to work for it.  And work hard I will.  It just takes time.  So time I will give it.  And I know that if I keep learning, and keep working on my blog, that if I keep adding value, people will be attracted to me and want to buy things from me.  That’s my ticket and that’s what I’m working towards.  I hope the same for you.

Because with the age of the internet, anything is possible.  Yes the climate is getting warmer and it’s nice but it’s also scary… are we effecting things in a way we can’t reverse?  Are we doing something wrong as a whole?  All I know is that you can only do what YOU can do, and you can’t put the whole of society on your shoulders and say it’s my fault.  Because it’s not, it’s just our evolution.  And if our evolution is to destroy our planet and everything in it, then so be it.  We’ve had a good run and can’t expect to live forever.  On the other hand we can learn to improve and become better, which is what I’m striving towards.  We can eat less meat, smoke less cigarettes, drink less wine, and live a better life.  That’s what I say, become better.

“Don’t wish it were easier, wish you were better” -Jim Rohn

Because that’s what you’ve got to do, and by God we will do it.  We will become better, we will succeed.  We will be the best versions of ourselves.  And that’s what this website is about.  It’s about improving people’s lives.  It’s about making the best of what we have.  It’s about taking that best of what we have and making it better.  It’s about taking more from life than life has initially given you.  And it’s about giving.  It’s about giving more of yourself, and doing everything you can to have an impact on people in a positive way.  To influence people to TAKE ACTION and make positive change in their lives.  Please TAKE ACTION NOW.

It’s all about making your life better.  If that means doing the dishes, then do the dishes.  If you have laundry to do, do the laundry.  If you have to take the trash out, don’t hesitate or wait, take the trash out now.  If it means you have to go to work and do your hourly job, then go to work on time and do your hourly job.  If it means you have to write a blog post to inspire the world, the write the God blessed blog post that is going to inspire the world.  Just do the thing.  You will be happy you did.  You will leave a legacy for the rest of the world to know who you were and what you stood for.  I just went on a walk today and this is what I found.

I was thinking about my values because I want to live a value based lifestyle.  I want my values to guide my actions.  I don’t want to act on my impulses anymore.  So I wanted to think of the top 4 values in my life.  This is what I came up with:

  1. Health
  2. Love
  3. Growth
  4. Success

I think these are good values to live by and want to live by them myself.  So that means little to no smoking, and continuing self education until I succeed.

These are just the values I want to live by, you can come up with your own.  You may want adventure, freedom, security, or whatever.  There are alot of values you could come up with, you have to choose your own.  I just thought that for me, this was a good starting point.

The point here is you’ve got to read good books on personal development to get these kinds of lessons.  You’ve got to think and keep a journal so you can write down your own list of values and know what they are so you can live by them.  And not just your values, but how you can work hourly, how you can sell, and how you can blog… and how you can write ebooks.  Because that’s what were after right?  We want to make a million dollars selling our first ebook.  And God help me I will show you the way.  I’ve just got to do it first.  But I believe it can be done, and I’m here to be a leading learner, and show you my results as I go.  Right now, I’m getting comments and getting twitter followers.  I know that anyone else can do the same.  Now I’m set on selling an ebook and making millions of dollars, and when that happens the blog posts I make will be of a different tune.  For now, they are for inspiration, they are for your enlightenment, they are for your pleasure.  As I think they will be after I make my first million.  And trust me, I will make a million dollars on the internet, or much much more.  It’s coming the time when this is going to happen.  Trust me, I’m going to make it happen.  Just wait and see.  Like Jack White said in his “ball and a biscuit” song…. I’m the seventh son, and you might not care about me now, but you will by the time I’m done.

So I leave you with that.

Take care of yourself, and good luck in life,

Jesse Creel

Flashbanc, The Credit Card Processing Sales Job

So I have the plan of using this website to attract buyers to go in with me on their credit card processing needs.  Their not in a rush to make a decision, they have my card which has the name of this website on it.  Here they can find out all about me who I am and what I stand for.  Basically what the customer needs to know is that their GOING to save money and their GOING to feel good doing it.

Like the blues songs I play, I only know one progression so I play the same thing over and over again and do it just to rant lyrics off at the top of my head because well I enjoy doing that.  It’s my passion.  Or one of them.  Sales is another.  Especially the sale, gets you excited.  I’m talking about lots of sales…. a career’s worth of them.  I can do it part time marketing with Flashbanc.  If I get to making enough money I might even be able to quit my day job and go full time marketing.  Expand and grow.  Spend the nite in a hotel and write it off on the taxes.  Travel.  That’d be fun.  And isn’t that part of the reason we’re all in this, for fun.

I only know one joke.  Why does snoop dogg have an umbrella?

Fo Drizzle.

But I can spin that joke of perfectly.  I did it just the other day.  He laughed a little, not really into it though, he’s my brother and he got me the job i currently have so he’s not really into anything I do but working and not thinking about the lottery.  Working has been going pretty good though.  I’m earning a steady paycheck and paying off my credit card.  I’m worth it to you to buy from because I’ve paid my dues.  Because I market myself, because you get value from me.  Or this could be a pile of shit to you, that all depends on how you apprechiate your works. And my works are these writings, my recordings, my job, now sales, I’m adding to the things I’m doing so I have more to do with my time.  And I think I’ll enjoy going out to business parks and malls to meet with business owners.  No matter who they are though, their getting my card and my website.  Not to mention my phone number if they want to set up a meeting.

But I could let it get me down that I’m schizophrenic, and that I hear voices that tell me to die, that I don’t make much money,  that we don’t have a house big enough for our family, and my wife has to work.  But instead I’m going to pull the positive from my situations and make the best of it the best way I know how.  Get out there and use my other 15 hours to make cold calls and visit shopping malls and the severna park plaza where I work.  I think I’ll start there and work my way around the world.  At least the US.  Big dream.  I need a nice hunk of cash for the house I’m dreaming about living in.  That a few other things and some charity and I’d be good.  I think I would still do something to make more money even if I did win the lottery.  Selling something.  I tried writing a book but it became too personal and really just became a day by day diary.  Here I have a purpose, and that is to gain your trust so that you will be comfortable putting your credit card processing needs in my hands and in the competent hands of my boss Ron.  Get in touch with me, I can get you in touch with Ron, and Ron will work his magic.  Save you some money, make sure your up to date on everything, and provide a feel good experience.  He really knows how to listen to people, Ron.  He’d chat with you all day if you wanted.  He is a busy guy though so sometimes he’s got to go.  That’s been my experience so far.

But I told him all about how I was a schizophrenic.  He told me he was sorry about that how I heard voices that were telling me to die.  That didn’t deter him from encouraging me though.  And encouraging he was.  He wants to make some money. Make a lot of money.  And improve the quality of lives of the people who give you the money.  Ron said that was the name of the game and you better believe it.  And I could be the one to help you put more money in your wallet.  Who doesn’t want that?

Someone who’s busy… can’t get ahold of the business owners.  They don’t have time.  When can I come back.  When would be a better time… The thoughts go through my head.  The marketing.  How am I going to get business owners on the phone with Ron.  The answer to that question I think is simple…. Go in, ask if their there… be wearing a suit, if their there ask to speak with them, if their not leave a message, or promise to come back, and leave a card.  Repeat.  Over and over again.  Until the sale comes.  Break the ice, first one.  Maybe it’ll be Honeybaked Ham where I work now.  I plan on asking them.  It’s a secret.   I don’t know if my work will want to buy credit card processing machines from me knowing I’m a schizophrenic.  Just like you… I don’t know if your going to discriminate on me or not.  It happens, but most people are nice about it.  They mostly don’t mind or think that it’s interesting.  But I work for you.  I work for your readership.  I work for the sales.  I work for the music.  I work for the creativity.  I love sales, it really gets me in the mood to write.  The promise of a better life.  I still haven’t given up on the dream of making it on my own.  Ron said full time average sales rep makes 50,000 dollars a year.  If I got to really closing some deals, I mean, really getting in front of people, getting them to my stuff, convincing them they want to work with me, because I put in the work… I might be able to do this full time.  And that would be a step up in pay, a step up in work discipline a step up in status… it would be a win win.

But really, I think it’s time to get back into the game and sell.  Sell credit card processing services.  Save people money and make them feel good.  Work part time at Honeybaked Ham… Been there for a year next month.  Ready to do something else with my spare time.  Tried playing guitar, couldn’t do it in front of a crowd anymore… I forget all the words to the songs and have a hard time playing covers.  So I just do a blues improv thing at home on my iphone.  It gets my messages out there.  My feelings, and my soul.  It does it in a way that only music can.  Even though you could argue that what I do isn’t music.  Really it’s more like poetry.  Just sang over a never ending blues track.

But there is guitar in there.  I play it, and I play it well.  I can really solo.  I learned how.  I could stand to learn more, but I can pass for a song.  It’s pretty cool.  So I’m a rock and roller and that’s not going to stop me from selling credit card processing services.  In fact it should attract customers!  People who like to let it out.  And let it out I do.  And I’m confident it’s art. Really it should be up for sale.  But for now it’s free.  Until I attract a record producers attention that’s probably be the way it will remain.  Hopefully you like the recordings enough to buy the credit card machines from me.  And hopefully I talk to enough of you that I can make the 50,000 a year selling machines full time.  Really though I could keep working at Honeybaked Ham, my job now at 25 hours a week and be fine.  Just quit the smoking and drinking and I would have plenty of money.  At least enough to get by and not spend on my credit card.  It is hard to stop smoking.  I almost want to just make more money so I could smoke.  I want to quit though.  More badly I want success.  Success with the lottery, success in sales, success in working 40 hours a week. Or even 50, success with paying my credit card to a zero balance, success with buying a bigger house for my family to grow up in.  For charity.  All visions, all dreams,  all a possibility with God.  He has a plan for everything and I don’t know what his plan is so I’ve got to keep trying until I get wealthy.  And give more to people, help more people, give to more people.

So my best to you, I’ve hope you’ve enjoyed this ride, for a September night in 2016 it sure has been an exciting one.  Join me and let me help you, so you can help yourself do whatever you want with the money you save.

A Story About A Schizophrenic Who Became Successful

This is a story about a schizophrenic who became successful.

I was in sales for 5 years.  I went from job to job eating the pavement all the way along.  I did make some money selling credit card processing machines but that was sketchy and the company I was working for I don’t think was that ethical.

But now for the story about a schizophrenic who became successful.

I work now at Honey Ham.  I am a delivery driver and a kitchen helper.  I tried glazing with a torch and the ham and the sugar but I wasn’t any good at it so they have me doing other things.  So I’m not a total success but I’m working on becoming more than I am right now and that’s a story about a schizophrenic who became successful.

A story about a schizophrenic who became successful starts at home.  I have a lovely wife and 2 kids and they help motivate me when I don’t feel like doing anything.  I’m lucky to have them and I know it and the story about a schizophrenic who became successful I think starts with them.

I have a great support system with my family and I love them for helping me the way they do.  I would love them even if they didn’t help me but they do and I am forever grateful to them for their service to me.

But this is a story about a schizophrenic who became successful.  And I am a success.  I am working about 30 hours a week and I am happy to have those hours.  And I am successful in working those hours.  I get sick often because I am a smoker and don’t take that great of care of myself and they hate it when I call out, my brother especially but I am usually at work.

My story, or the story about a schizophrenic who became successful is the story of a man who wants to provide for his family by paying off his credit card to a zero balance and then using the extra money he was paying off his credit card with and help with the bills around the house.  It’s embarrassing but my wife pays all the bills.  She pays the mortgage, the phone bills, the car insurance, the water bill, the electricity bill.  She makes ok money as a teacher, but she makes a hell of a lot more than me.  I wanted to get a phone job for 15 dollars an hour but they wouldn’t hire me I think because I told them I was hospitalized at the last call center job I had.  That’s what  my counselor told me to tell them so that’s what I said, but I didn’t get the job.  They love me at Honey Ham though and I have a good thing going and that’s a story about the schizophrenic who became successful.

A story about a schizophrenic who became successful would not be complete until they got rich.  Because they wanted to get rich, for themselves and their families.  So this is an incomplete story.  I am not rich yet.  I hope to be.  I hope this blog, or the lottery, or a donation, or a check of any kind sets me free.  I would only need 100 million and I’d be fine.  A billionaire could do that.  and I hope they do.  Or I hope I win the lottery.  I would still keep this blog but I wouldn’t have to do this SEO bullshit that always has me writing a story about a schizophrenic who became successful.

I hear the voices say somethings I couldn’t understand and the voices say the word hate.  I live with this.  A story about a schizophrenic who became successful would also not be complete without some adversity.  Yes! the voices say.  Drink the voices say.  I’m having a glass of wine and I just finished it and I’m think about pouring another.  Do the voices say.  I also have a cigarette that’s waiting to be smoked sitting on the computer desk.  I have my challenges in a story about a schizophrenic who became successful but I am holding a job so that’s a serious accomplishment.

But anyways, back to a story about a schizophrenic who became successful.  I am successful.  I have cultivated an energy of wealth within myself.  I know I will receive 100 million dollars, one way or the other.  I shouldn’t even be telling you this because your supposed to keep your manifestations a secret until they happen but I just have to think, speak and act as if it’s already happened.  I give 10 % to God.

The word count on that last paragraph was 777 so I must be doing something right.

I love you the voices say, they are helpful sometimes.  The only time they are not helpful is when I’m smoking too much or drinking too much wine.

But this is a story about a schizophrenic who became successful.  It’s not the time to talk about how I’m quitting my vices.  Now is the time to talk about how I am successful in working a job.  It took a while and I had to go through some jobs.  But I found one that loves me and at work I see the number 777 all the time too.  I think the place is lucky.  The storage units number is 7F.  Everything there works around 7’s.  I was late one day and my manager called me and I told them I was 7 minutes away.  I think I’ll win the lottery there.  The time is now.

I’m going to buy a ticket.

I love you, more peace and love into the universe now.

Thank You,

Jesse Creel


My intention with this blog is that it helps people.

I would like to earn money off of it.

If I genuinely help by working hard enough I think it’s a given I’ll make money.

And I need a lot of money, so I really need to be working hard, putting a lot of time into this blog.

I aim to help people improve.

Improve their personal lives so that they can make more money.

I think I can do it, I’m a very positive person.

So really my intention with this blog, as of right now, is to EARN $100,000.00 by helping people so much they are happy to pay.

I am confident I can accomplish this feat, along with much much more, but this is a starting point where I can launch from.

I am extremely excited about this blog and the future possibilities.

I hope only the best for YOU, as you will be buying from me.  I am here to serve you.

Thank you, and I look forward to working with you,

Jesse Creel

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