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My New Quit Day Is Today, August 2nd, 2017

And I’m really going to go for it this time.

I just bought a vape and I’m going to stay true to being tobacco free.

I figured by telling this to the world via my blog, it will only help my chances of breaking free of tobacco and living a better quality of life.

In all honesty I’m very excited.

I’m excited about the money I’m going to save, and I’m excited about feeling better everyday.

I’ve got this goal of getting 2,000 email subscribers by 2018.  It’s a big goal, considering I’ve only got 2 email subscribers, one of them being myself.

But I think with the money I save from quitting smoking I’ll be able to buy some ads, and really get my home page some much needed attention from the internet.

I just wanted to write this to you to mark the day I officially stopped smoking for good, and see how long-hopefully for life, I can quit this time.

Rest assured, I’ll keep you updated and hopefully I can help other smokers stop smoking.

For now I’m going to get back to my personal development by reading and journaling.  I’ve got to do the work so I can get a business up and running on the internet.  I’ve got to keep putting the work in, day in day out, to get the job done.  And the job is to help schizophrenics work.  I really should buy another course and find out if my idea is going to work.  Maybe you could leave a comment and let me know if YOU think helping schizophrenics work could ever become a business that paid me.

So there’s a lot more to it that just quitting smoking.  It’s a lot of things.  Family, money, work/life balance, personal life balance, blogging… the list could go on and on.

I really just want to be of service.  I don’t know if any of this is going to work.  I’m just working on it.  I’ve got to figure it out.  I’ve got to see if my plan can work.

The only way I can do that is to work.  Right now I’m writing about schizophrenia and work, or schizophrenia and selling, and I think that that could really be helpful to people, or at least entertaining/inspiring.  What would be inspiring is if I had $100,000 in the bank from my work online.

But for now I have my job, that pays me a steady paycheck, and I’m not on disability.  That’s an accomplishment for a schizophrenic, and one I think is worth writing about.

So I can only go up from here, and quitting smoking is the smartest move I can make for long term gains.  I think you will like that I’m writing about quitting, as it’s healthy and will probably cut back on the number of unnecessary problems I have.

So if your in the business of personal development, like I am, you may want to quit smoking so you can be a better example for people, namely your children.  Here’s to your success in eliminating the source of suffering in your life, so that you can break free and be happier, and healthier.

Thanks for reading, and subscribe to my list for the free ebook “Schizophrenic Sales Success”,

Jesse Creel

Living Each Day To The Fullest And Making It A Masterpiece

Because that’s what I do.

Today I worked a four hour shift.

Not much to it.  Some work, then two deliveries and some more work and then I was done!  Nothing to it!

After I got off work I proceeded to write a rock and roll song for the album I’m getting together.  It’s going to be 12 songs long.  They will all be different but they will also all be the same.  I’m certain I’m going to turn some people off.

But that’s okay.  I think what I’m going to get in return will be far worth the trouble.

Then again, I may never release it.  The voices in my head get me thinking twice about it.  Do I really want to release that onto the world, knowing my family could get wind of it.

Because really, I’m not much of a guitar player.  The words are my instrument.  I love composing them.  I love writing them with a pen.  And I also do love the free style guitar in E that I play all day long.

And solo too.

I really make masterpieces with the guitar.  I think.  And I also think I’m going to find out how valuable it really is.

It’s probably not that valuable, then again it could be a million dollar miracle.  Only time will tell.

But I think it’s good and I definitely think it’s good enough to sell, so I might just do it.  You can find out what happens by checking back to this blog or signing up for my email list.

If I really wow you, you may want to.

And I think I can do that by telling you I’m kicking ass, and you can kick ass too.

I’m a schizophrenic AND I’m holding down a job.  Even better this job gives out promotions for more than just manager and assistant manager.  You can be a salesman.

And I am doing remarkably well at it.  I sold 6 sales in a month and at least one of them has ordered more than twice.

That’s one of my goals.  Repeat business.  Long term relationships.

Work, my sales life at my job, really does teach me a great deal about how to be successful.

You can really model your companies success and launch a business of your own.  At least get a blog going at least.

Really I could completely change my life, and my families life if I quit drinking and smoking.  There would be more energy and a lot more money.

But then again I am in the habit of drinking and smoking everyday.  It’s not good.  I’ve been doing it since my twenties, getting blacked out drunk at my 21st birthday, I really took my liberty.

And I’m grateful for it, but really it’s about time I moved my habits to something more constructive like running, pushups, crunches, walking, whatever.  Anything but smoke.  I will for the first time in my adult life be really in shape, which is a great thing but also kinda sad it took me so long to do.

I guess I had to go through the drinking and the smoking.

I wasn’t very frugal.  And now I have an addiction to break and I know that it’s going to be hard.  But it will be alright, and I’ll get better.

And that will be living my life to the fullest.  I’m sure I’ll get more reading done.  I’m sure my skills will skyrocket.  I’m sure that I’ll be better able to serve people.  All of those things are great things.  All because I didn’t smoke.

Or drink.

Sober, non smoker, runner.  That’s what I should be.  I could write about running.

But I think I’ll always write about income.  It’s just so interesting to me.  Right now I’m making almost $20,000.00 dollars working at my job a year.  I plan on creating additional income through this website, but I think I’ll keep my day job all throughout the whole thing.  Even if I have to work Holidays.

It’s a good income and it’s a job I like to have.  Plus it gives me time to work on my writing throughout the year.  I only have to work 60 hour weeks 3 times a year.

So really it’s not bad.  I have a lot of work to do on myself, and my job allows me the time to do it.  It’s a good job and if it weren’t for the cigarettes and alcohol it would give me all the money I needed.

So it’s really an exciting time for me, knowing I could change my life any day now.  I could quit cigarettes and be free of the addiction and all the bad things that come with it.  Maybe I just will.  I know I will.  I’m going to have to.

And another thing I know is that I’ve got to keep typing.  If I’m going to make something of myself, I had better get my words down.  And get really valuable words down so I can make even more money.  More so so I can build long term relationships, but also for the money.

I guess I’ll learn as I go.  They say an expert is someone who has made all the mistakes there is to make in a given field.  That comes paraphrased from a source I don’t know, something a college professor would hate about me.

But that makes sense, no matter if you have the source or not.  And if I’m going to make mistakes, at least I’m making them in the name of supporting my family and giving to charity.  I’m really trying to be of service to world!

And if your like me, I know you are too!  Trying to be of better service to the world.  And I say we can do it all blogging.

You gotta figure you have gotta write some ebooks too.  But you can make it on the internet in a year they say, I say maybe you may want to put a decade into it.  Really master the art.  That’s what I’m going for and this 90 days straight blogging will be one of many throughout the years.  At least that’s what I think I’m going to do.  Everything is subject to change.

You’ll find out what happens if you subscribe to my list.  It will just be one voice in your inbox that lets you know what’s happening in the world.  How one schizophrenic is making it.  And doing it at a job and online.  You’ll come to find out how I improve my life, so that you can duplicate that success in your life.  God help you, you will.

Or I could simply be here to entertain you.

Whatever the case, I’m writing and I’m not going to stop.

Talk to you tomorrow,

Jesse Creel

So I’m Going To Stop Praying To Win The Lottery

Because I have been and I think that God is trying to tell me something with my dreams.

I’ve been having nightmares where bad things happen to my wife.  She dies or gets beat up.  Maybe it’s not about the lottery and it’s more about how I’m living my life right now.

This really is all shit.  I am shit.  I do nothing.  I don’t earn alot of money.  I barely give to my family.  I keep smoking even though it’s killing me.  I keep drinking even though I don’t feel good about it.  The best I can do is just get into work and pay off my credit card bill.  Stop spending on the credit card and pay it off.  I can do it.  I know it’s going to be hard but I think I can do it.  I’ve got to give more money to my wife, and still pay off my credit card.  Really I have to quit smoking and drinking.

I threw my weed pipe away and I haven’t bought any weed in a couple weeks.  I’ve just got to get sober and do the right things.  Be a better example for my kids.  The schizophrenia wants me to die.  I’m having a glass of wine right now.  I need to turn my life around and quit worrying about who I should vote for.  I have the idea of writing in Tony Robbins for president though that would really be a waste since he’s not in the running.

But I’m through partying for now.  I’m going to drink this glass of wine and be happy with it… and drink no more.  I hope I mean what I say.  I’m sure that I will want more but it’s not good for my spirituality to drink so much.  And God is important to me.

I hope I can change and become a non smoker sober runner.  I think that would do wonders for my life.  The country would still be going to hell and who knows when the world is going to end but I would be in better health and fitness and those are paramount to a successful life.

Right now I just want to lay down.  I went for a bike ride to the gas station to get a lottery ticket even though I’m not going to pray to win anymore.  I’ll pray I can love God more.

I don’t think I’m going to make it in sales.  The schizophrenia bothers me too much.  It makes it seem like the world is against me.  It really bothers me.  I have to let go and let God.  I have to just work in the store and cut the meat.  I have to just do customer service.  I have to get sober and stop smoking and start running.

I say all these things and I don’t do them.  It makes me mad at myself and I want to beat myself up but I know that that will only make things worse.  I have to get my life together now for the highest good of all concerned.  And leave the rest up to God.  I don’t know what’s going to happen though.  I’m a little concerned for myself and my family.  What my actions are doing to them.  I think I may need help.  Maybe I should start going to alcoholics anonymous meetings.  I don’t know.  I do know that I’m making a mess of my life which is making a mess of my children’s lives.  I have to start over and commit to living a healthy life.

God help me and God help us all.

Schizophrenic breaksdown and Comes Back For Future Successes

Yes, The Schizophrenic Lives On…. or at least that’s the title to my book.  I am an example of what’s possible even when your a schizophrenic.  An Ex-Smoker.  No more pot, and no more cigarettes. And that means no more money spent on destructive things.  I guess I waste money playing the lottery, but I think I’m going to win so I don’t really think it’s a waste.  My wife hates it when I talk about the lottery.  But I’m a dreamer and I dream big and hitting the jackpot is a big dream.  Only happens to a few of us.  The main thing right now is that I’m not smoking cigarettes.  When I quit I basically finished off all the alcohol in the house, except for my wife’s wine, and smoked the rest of my pot.  Now that there’s basically nothing left I’m going to try to go sober.  Nay say I am committed to going sober and transforming my body.

I want a six pack.  Nice abs.  I think I can get it running and doing sit ups.  I start running in 9 days.  That’s two weeks without smoking.  I figured that’s enough time to give my body to adjust before I start to strain it by running and exercising.  I just can’t tolerate a destructive lifestyle anymore, at least not for me.  I’m only a reccommendation.  Don’t smoke or drink and go sober.  Except on holidays or family occasions where it’s good to spread the cheer with some drinks.

But I’m on the up and up.  I’m working on a book and making good progress there.  I’m doing good at my job.  I gave up cigarettes and I’m 5 days smoke free.  I get rewarded for not smoking when my daughter and wife cheer me on.  I told them today 5 days not smoking and they all said go dad, go dad…  So I get some positive reinforcement from them.

This is not to honk my own horn, but I think my writing is good.  It’s full of that something that moves people.  I like it and I hope I have a vast following far and wide one day.  That I’ll be discovered and moved to print.  I could start by writing on this blog more often.  Put some stuff out there for free and see what people think.  But I’ve had my breakdowns where I didn’t want to work anymore.

I have the dream of writing on an island.  Probably in the Carribbean or Hawaii.  That would be nice… I talked to my wife and she said that she could stand it if we spent 6 months a year there.  Sometimes I can still get her to dream with me.

A dream we can talk about right now is my return to success.  I am a schizophrenic, and though a mild one, have had many failures and attempts at success in the field of sales since 2010.  I had some success but nothing that lasted.  I now want long term lasting success, like I’m getting at my job that I have now…. and I want that to be 40 hours working on the phone.  Talking to people.  The job typically pays about 15 dollars an hour.  So I would be making a big jump in pay.  That would be good as I could pay my debts off faster.  It’s hard to make a dent right now and I end up spending more on the card and that isn’t good.  Part of the reason cigarettes had to go.  Spending money for everyday things, on my credit card, when if I didn’t smoke I would have the cash on me to buy those things without the credit card.

At least that’s what I hope for.  Basically, I hope for more money.  That’s not all I hope for but I definately hope for it.  I think sobriety will help me bring more money into my life also.  I was hearing some funky shit when I was smoking.  Outside everything seemed to be all messed up.  The voices hated it, and they didn’t like me smoking.  I heard on several occasions the voices telling me not to smoke.  Sometimes they would tell me to smoke and sometimes they wouldn’t…. It all depended on how I felt too.  If I wanted one they told me to smoke.  If I wasn’t feeling good they told me not to smoke.  I haven’t heard the voices telling me to smoke since I quit though, so that’s a good thing.  I haven’t even been thinking about it as a possibility.

But the question is why get another job when I do fine at the one I’m at and am paying 400 dollars a month towards my credit card bill and I’m writing a shitton.  This book really is going to be awesome.  It’s my story, day by day.  The story of a schizophrenic who wants to be rich like a drowning man wants air and is doing things to make his life better and his wallet fatter.  For himself and his family.  Who have done so much for him.  His desire to give back is great and he wants to empower himself to be able to give in big ways.  Give to his children, his wife, his parents and inlaws, his brothers, to everyone even perfect strangers he meets when he’s out.  That would be a truly blessed life to be able to give so much, be I would just be taking a page out of a Tony Robbins book and applying it to my life.  And forget a page, lets take a whole chapter, or the entire gianantic book, because it is large.  Big man writes a big book.  Makes sense.  My book will be about 300 pages when it’s done.  I hope it pays me.

But even if it doesn’t it would still be worth the journey to go through.  I really believe the ride is what you do it for… Not the destination.  And writing a book is definately a ride.  And so is any endeavor you take on in life, whether it be parenthood, a job, politics, whatever.

But i’m not the person to be writing about politics.  I don’t inform myself and to other people I look like someone who shouldn’t vote.  Because I don’t know anything, or at least I claim to know nothing of politics.

At least that’s what an exmilitary guy told me.  We were hanging around smoking pot and he told me not to vote because in his estimation I wasn’t informed enough.  My psychiatrist has told me to stay away from politics because it can make the schizophrenia worse.  Take what you will from it, but I think Donald Trump will be our next president.  It’s just too perfect for this nation.  Reality Star billionaire turned president.  It’s like Ronald Regan the movie star being president, except way more juiced up… and more fuck yeah america… at least that’s what I think.  I may offend some of you with the whole politics thing, but the country is going to run no matter who’s in there… and you are in control of your life, not anyone in office.

I think 1200 words is a good ending point and my advice to you if your schizophrenic and want to be on the up and up like me is take your medication and ignore the voices if they tell you not to go to work.  It’s better to make money and do something with yourself so you can become someone.  No matter what kind of disability you have.  It hasn’t discouraged me from sales, even though I have my reservations that I’ll ever be successful at a job like that.  That’s just one of my fears because I need to keep steady on paying my credit card off so I  can get that monkey off my back.  This was good I need to do it more often.

Thanks for reading.

I love you,

Jesse Creel

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