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A Tip If Your Schizophrenic And Love Personal Development

That tip is simple.

Put What The Voices Say Into Your Own Words

I’ve been experimenting with this for a while, and it just came to light that I should put it down into words, so that other people might benefit from it as well.

As a schizophrenic myself, I know what it’s like to live daily with voices in your head.  I’ve been dealing with it for years.  It was so mild at first that I simply thought I was gifted and in tune with the universe.  When things went badly and then got worse and worse, until finally I had to admit to a doctor that I heard voices, I was diagnosed and received treatment.

Over the course of the last 7 years I’ve been through a whirlwind.  I finally, over the course of the last 2 years been able to stabilize my work situation.  I would say that my success is attributed to God above all else, but that therapy and medication have also leveled me out a good deal.  I don’t know that I could have done what I have done without the aide of doctors and therapists.

What I have done is to realize that work is just a part of life, and that I shouldn’t invest all of my energy in playing the lottery.  When I left the job I was diagnosed as a schizophrenic at, I prayed I would finally win the jackpot, and I wouldn’t have to worry about trying to work when I was hearing all these voices telling me they wanted me to die.  Whether it be of Cancer, or murder.  Once I realized that work was just a part of life, that I could go on playing the lottery but it would be even better if I liked my job, then I was not seeking, but was given an opportunity at a new job where I would get more hours.

The truth of the matter was I didn’t want to work.  I hated work.  I dreaded the day, everyday, would sleep as much as possible (I thought that was the best part of my day) and would do nothing with my time but listen to the voices.  That was at one of my lowest points.  At this point in time I’ve been holding a job for almost two years, and I like it, and they keep promoting me.  I’ve even been made a salesman-the only one in the company- and I sell for 3 different stores.

One of the tricks I’ve developed is to make what the voices say my own when I’m explaining it to myself or someone else.  When it’s just a bunch of emotional blabber I don’t think much about it.  When they tell me I’m a loser, I replace what they say with my own idea of myself (that I’m a winner) and visualize what that looks like.  It happens all throughout the day.  The truth is I’m really only mildly schizophrenic, the voices don’t consume my existence.  Sometimes, at points in the day I may go a while without even hearing any voices at all but I still do hear some hallucination everyday, without fail.  When the voices get deep, soul-less, and scary, that’s when I know that I have a condition, and that I’m not imagining I’m a schizophrenic.  I really am a schizophrenic.  No one else hears these things.  Although the voices would have me believe that other people CAN hear what’s going on in my head and the freaky part of it is that sometimes other people’s body language confirms that idea.

Maybe it’s just my own feelings influencing what other people are experiencing, and that would explain the body language.  They can’t hear what’s going on in my head, even though it might seem like they can.  I find that on my sales work, when I talk to people, they really have no clue whats going on in my head, they are just happy to serve.

The point of this post was to get you to think about what the voices are telling you, and how you can put your own spin on it, and make it positive.  If they are telling you to kill yourself, well maybe that should lead you to question whether or not your living your life in balance.  Maybe you need to make some changes in your behavior that’s going to support a healthier life.  If your in the personal development niche like me, your going to want to make positive changes in your life, and your going to want to be a little better today than you were yesterday.  So maybe your voices can help you to improve your life?

Whatever they tell you, make sure you make the story your own.  Put your own take on what the voices are telling you and shed some light on it.  In this way you can take control of your mind and feed it positive messages that will help you to persevere and create the life you want to live.  Personal development (i.e. reading self improvement books, and journaling) will help you to put that positive direction on what the voices are telling you and really, will help you to become unstoppable in everything you do.  Because we are positive people, we are going to have a positive effect on the world.

I just wanted to take the time today to write this and let you know how I have managed to cope and prosper with hearing voices everyday.  I hope that my work serves you to help you better cope and prosper in your own life.

Here’s To Your Success,

Jesse Creel

Schizophrenic Sells Deal Number 10

Success

This picture is my personal approval of journaling and writing to grow your life.

The point of this post though is to inform you that I’ve made another sale.

This brings my count to 10 that I know of.  It’s possible there have been sales even though they didn’t say my name when they ordered.  In some ways it’s difficult to track what’s your sale.

But I’ve been keeping a count of my sales, and so far it looks like after I found out from one of the managers I had made another sale, I’m up to 10 now.  She said that they called and wanted to place a $200 order, but in working with the customer, the manager said she was a little crazy.

The manager said that she clearly took the order for a veggie tray, and the woman said she thought she had ordered a fruit tray.  The manager said the customer was just a little off. I figure the quality of the customer will increase over time, as I get better.

So it’s a celebration.  I’m having green tea and writing this blog post.

Really I can’t tell you what it’s like to be on the phone with a customer actually taking the order, the people at the stores do that.  I just send them to the store and they are served by the associate.  I can tell you what it’s like to do the work.

I was out today for instance.  Selling.  One of them told me no, they didn’t want the food, and on the way out there were wasps blocking me.  I had to proceed slowly with caution.

There were also dragonflies.

I just walk in and offer them lunch.  Two box lunches to be exact, one ham and one turkey.  Both made that morning.  On top of the sandwich they get a side, a drink, a cookie, and a pickle.  They get two of those, and a fold with some ordering forms, lunch specials, and coupons if they want to come into the store.

I park at a large office building or business park.  Today it was a business park.  I took 4 bags and 4 folders and started walking.  I went into the first place.

They wanted the lunches.  They were nice.  I went to the next place, they didn’t eat meat.  Then I gave away the 2nd.  And so on.

A couple people told me they didn’t want it, but for the most part everyone accepted and was friendly and happy to see me.

One particular place, a skin therapy place, the people were very friendly and happy to see me.  They were both women, and we got along great.

On top of getting delivery orders I’m also getting foot traffic.

Just today, I did a followup to a real estate agent, and he said he was going to come in for lunch today.  It just so happened I was in the store he was in, and I got to thank him on his way out.  It was great.

I did hear something like his voice after I was off.  I was outside.  I couldn’t make out what he was saying but his message seemed like it was saying I was good.

I love it when the schizophrenia makes me feel good.  Like I’m good.  Schizophrenia can really be a blessing.

And you can stay thankful for your blessings everyday when the voices start telling you you are going to die.  Thankful for another day you can live life. Another day you can raise your family, you can work your job, you can work on your goals, you can try and get a little better, another day.

What I’ve learned is that we are all going to die.  You can be certain that you only have so much time left.  That being said, with respect to that, it makes you want to live more fully today.  It’s a special trick you can learn from schizophrenia, a deep gratitude for life. You’ll need that gratitude when your selling.

For me it comes easy because I’ve landed a job that pays me whether I sell or not.  I do sell, and I will probably be getting bonuses, but right now it’s my hourly.  Not everything I do is sales activity, I do work in the store helping the customers or doing prep work.  I enjoy working with the food in the store, and I enjoy doing the sales work.  I enjoy getting results.  Sales.  More sales.  Many sales.

That’s where I’m going, many sales.  Who knows, I might even be able to drastically increase my income in my current job.  I’d like a 6 figure a year job, but considering my inability to work for several years, I think staying where I am is a good move.

They like me where I work.  They’ve promoted me.  I do things no other associate in our 3 store company does.  My advice to you if you hear voices, is get a job with people you can work with.  People who will love working with you, and that you can love working with.  I know it’s possible, because I’ve found such a place.

Even if you don’t make that much money, you hear voices and you can do your job.  You bring home SOME bacon.  Being a productive member of society is much better than just staying at home only working on your dreams.  It’s much better to work and then have your side hustle, that is IF you CAN work.

So my message to you, if or if you don’t hear voices everyday, is to work.  If you want your line of work to be in sales, then sell.  It’s hard for normal people to sell, your going to have to work extra hard and extra smart just to do the same job a normal person would do, but you can do it!  Just find that right place for you, and work your tail off.

Also if you want to get a free ebook on how to sell when you hear voices you can get it on the home page.  www.jessecreel.com

Thanks for reading, here’s to your success,

Jesse Creel

The Silence In Between The Voices Is Enlightenment

Hello,

My name is Jesse Creel.  I heard in a podcast that you should write as if someone has never read any of your other work.  So I’m writing this to you to tell you I’m a schizophrenic, and I was diagnosed at Christmas 2014.   I had done all kinds of sales jobs after the voices first started to mess with my day, and I lost control and asked some guy to fight at my work, because I thought they were all disrespecting me. That’s when the music really started to turn against me.  That’s went all the drinking and smoking and living my life out of balance really kicked me in the ass.

I had the best job I have ever had in my life, or maybe the second best considering where I now am, but it was a good job that paid me a good living.  And I was making guitars!  I was contributing to rock and roll!  Really what got me was my lack of interpersonal effectiveness.  I had a primo job, and I asked to be moved to a different, less prestigious department.  It was all because of the group of people I was working with, and it made me want to leave.  I was delusional, and the schizophrenia-which I didn’t know I had at the time, I thought I was psychic- was feeding into the delusions.  The delusion was they didn’t want me there.  The music was confirming my feelings.

I remember the stark contrast between the voices and reality when I heard a song, right after I had asked to be moved- that said “Your making my dreams come true”.  When I overheard my boss tell one of my coworkers I was moving I heard his reply that that was not the best idea.  Hindsight tells me my coworker was right.

I should have stayed where I was, and tried better to live with my coworkers, one in particular.  Gotten along with the grab-assing, and did my job, and eventually manage them all.  That’s not the way history played out though.

In the end, I enjoy the work I do more than I ever did making guitars.  I get paid less than what I made at the guitar factory, but I get more time off.  Really, if you take what I make by the hour now, I’m making more than what I made at the guitar factory.  What it comes down to now, is just making more deals.

Because the schizophrenia, to you schizophrenics out there wondering, is not what is actually going to happen.  The voices have a lot to say.  That doesn’t mean you should believe what they are saying.

Here’s another tip.  If you’re thinking of something you want to do, and you know that you’re going to be unhappy until you get it, and your choosing carefully what you want to be unhappy about until you get it, then it won’t matter if the voices tell you no.  You’ll be able to accept rejection and move on to the sale.  If you can get shaky like me, don’t worry, the shakes will pass.  You are unstoppable, and if you take that attitude, and do the work, shakes or not, you will be happy you did it.  Especially when you’re getting results.

So it doesn’t matter what the voices say.  Take the good with the bad.  And you don’t have to take the bad, and believe in some f*cked up future outcome if that’s not what you want.  You can offer them tea in your mind, and let them know “I hear you”.  Acknowledge them, and they may even leave after a while.

This, my friends, leads me to the point of this article.  Short and sweet, but it’s here for your pleasure.  And that is, enlightenment, for a schizophrenic, is the sound between the voices, when there is no sound.  Things are clear, you know what you have to do.  I read it in a book that that’s the way it is for meditation.  When your own thoughts stop and there is just silence.  For schizophrenics, even if your mild like me, when the voices stop, and your not thinking anymore, that’s when the enlightenment comes.  At least that’s what it feels like to me.

For me what I have to do is sell.  I have a sales job.  I am a schizophrenic, my bosses know I’m a schizophrenic, and they knew I wanted to sell, and they made me a salesman.  I have a great company behind me, and it’s really easy to sell.  I don’t even have any quotas!  I just sell what I sell and they pay me by the hour.

So far I have 9 sales that I know of, and most likely more I don’t know of.  My plan is to stick it out through Christmas and see if I can land a Christmas deal.  My company has a gifting program, where companies can buy gift cards, hams, or turkeys for their employee’s for that special time of the year.  I’m collecting the leads for gifting now, in the summertime, so when September comes around I’ll have some places I can go to.

I would like to land a 6 figure a year sales job, and I don’t think that it’s unrealistic to think I could do that.  Sure it would be 5 times what I’m making now, sure it would be more pressure, and sure the voices would probably get worse at times… but my job now is giving me a great deal of confidence that I CAN sell.

Then again, you never know.

My quit date is tomorrow, July 15, 2017.  I’m going to save a lot of money, and more importantly my health.  There won’t be this unnecessary suffering.  I’ll be tobacco free.  If I just quit cigarettes I’ll save $200 dollars a month, and I won’t need to get a better job to pay my bills.  I won’t need money for anything but wine.  And of course food, to pay my credit card bill, to save, and to give my wife some money.  And maybe take the kids out to the carnival.

We all need money.  And I’m making it.  And I’m a schizophrenic.  A mild schizophrenic, but a schizophrenic non the less.  On top of that I’m selling and getting results!  It doesn’t matter what the voices say!  You can have success, you just have to do the work!  So do the work!

I really appreciate you reading.

Here’s to your success,

Jesse Creel

Jesse Creel Makes Sale Number 9 On His Path To $100K A Year

Hell Yes!  I made another sale.

I wouldn’t have even known I made it if I weren’t for the fact that I was the delivery person today.  I asked to leave early and had 45 minutes until I was going to leave, after doing my sales work and followups for the day, and there was a delivery that needed to be done.

So they sent me out to do it.  And upon arriving, I recognized the place as a place where I had dropped off a couple box lunches about a month ago, and cookies last week.  We really do our best to make sure that our prospects know about us, and we give them a little free product to wet their whistles.  That was the case with this sale.

I went in to do the delivery and there were two people in there.  One of them had me place the bag on a table and signed the credit card receipt.  On the way out I told the other one that we really appreciated their business and we are happy to serve them.  I also told them that I hoped they would really enjoy the food.

In my head, on the way back to the store, I saw myself spitting on a sandwich.  I’m a mild schizophrenic, so I’m always seeing and hearing things in my head, some of which I don’t want- like the spitting, and some of which I do want- like I love this.  In my head my own vision of me encouraged me to hock a loogie onto the sandwich, to really get some mucus on it.  I found myself actually wanting to clear my throat of mucus.  I have to fight not to have those visions, but they come consistently and it takes work.  I DO NOT spit on the sandwiches, and I think it’s disgusting to even imagine it.  So it’s constant work, but it’s the work I want to do.  It takes work to fight off negative visualizations and come to a place that’s peaceful and harmonious.  That’s part of the job for this schizophrenic.

Working for my company that I work for now is a great experience.  They have taken me from a broke deadbeat to someone who can contribute a little to my family and to the world.  Just yesterday I gave a homeless person a five dollar bill.  I like to do that, it makes me feel like I’m giving back.  And it’s easy to do, because there are a lot of homeless people begging for money, but it’s more than just to give, although that’s one of the main reasons.  Another big reason is that it’s helping to teach me how to sell again, something I’ve tried doing for years, without any consistent success. Now with my current job, I make money whether I sell or not, which is a blessing because at first I didn’t know if I had it in me to sell or not.  I had failed so much that all I wanted to do was work hourly.  As the universe would have it, an taking an hourly job was not the end of my sales career.

I recently saw an ad on Craigslist, for a sales job, selling solar panels, that claimed to pay $100-150K a year.  With that kind of money I could do a tremendous amount of giving, especially to my family.  I do after all have a wife and two kids.  Right now I’m paying some money to help support them, but I’m not even coming close to what it takes to support a household.  The only reason we are afloat is because of my wife’s work. That doesn’t feel good to me.  I, even though I am a mild schizophrenic, want to be the breadwinner.  Even if my wife were to keep her job, I should be able, and want to be able, to put my family into a bigger house, where both kids would have their own rooms.  Right now we live in a 2 bedroom townhouse, and don’t get me wrong, we’re blessed to have a roof over our head, but if I keep working on this sales thing, we could have a better roof over our head.

The way I figure it is, each sale is a sale closer to a job that pays me 6 figures a year.  Right now I make a 5th of that, if that, working the hours I work.  But I am learning, and I am growing.  My job is giving me the confidence I need that I CAN sell a great product.  I’m going to give it some time, and let the sales come in, and keep track the best I can-which is difficult because when the prospect becomes a customer, they don’t always tell the store that I was the one who peaked their interest.  Nevertheless I’m keeping track the best I can, and so far I’ve sold 9, with the prospect of getting 10 in a few weeks.  Right now my goal is to earn 2 sales each time I go out with 8-10 stops.  I think that’s a good goal, realistic, and will put me in a position of confidence with my sales job.

So, in short, I’m working on it.  I know at the perfect time, with the due amount of work, my dreams will come true.  My goals will manifest, I will be the success that I deserve to be, schizophrenia or not.  My hope for you is that no matter what you’re going through you can gain some insight from my story and maybe find the inspiration you need to continue working in sales, no matter what your body, your mind, or the world is telling you.  I had to suck it up and get an hourly job after failing for 5 years in sales, and I would give you the same advice, if sales doesn’t work for you, then get an hourly job.  You never know where it might take you, it might take you to where you wanted to be in the first place!

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Take care!

Here’s to your success!

Jesse Creel

How Does A Schizophrenic Sell Another Deal?

The answer is simple… WORK!

For a schizophrenic in sales, work means more than one thing.

It means you do the physical work, of prospecting, talking to, and following up with businesses, and it also means you do the work inside of your head that allows you to think clearly about loving your customer.

For me it means eliminating sex from the equation.  Sure, sex sells, but so does a good product.  You don’t have to be sexy, and you don’t have to be wanting sex or wanting to give sex in order to sell.  What you have to do is talk to your voices and tell them that you love them and thank them for being in your head.

When my thoughts and my words have aligned, the voices will tell me to get “out”.  That simple means to speak what I’m thinking.  If I’m working in the store giving out samples of the product and I think to myself that I’m going to wish that customer that’s about to walk out of the door a great day, then I get “out” and say exactly that.  A lot of times the voices of the customers will say that “I am”.  It means whatever you want it to mean.  For me it means that I’m in the game, and I’m here to serve.

If you are a schizophrenic and want to sell another deal, or maybe sell your first one, my recommendation is get with a product that sells itself.  If you look for it, it will look for you and you will find each other.  For me, my product is food.  Everyone needs to eat to live, so as some of the great sales books I’ve read have taught me, you must be in the business of supporting life.  I think it was Tony Robbins who wrote that “Life supports that which supports life.”  All I can say is that I do my best, and I’m starting to sell some deals.

So far, my results have been ok.  They are not great, and they are not terrible.  For me, as a schizophrenic doing ok is an accomplishment.  I would like to do better, and I work to be a little better everyday that I’m alive, so I would eventually like to become GREAT.  For now, I just do ok and I have 8 deals under my belt that I know of.  I may be responsible for more, but right now I’m not interested in taking credit, I’m more interested in doing the job well.  So as far as I know, I have 8 deals to my name and am looking to up that number each day that I sell.

What’s great about today is that I found out that I made that 8th sale, and it came from the work I did the day before.  I dropped off a cookie tray at a construction business and on the very next day they placed an order.  The product and the sales system the company has in place do all the work for me.  All I have to do is suit up, show up, and allow the deal to happen.  If you are a schizophrenic like me and have been struggling in sales for years, then it may be time to get an hourly job that gives you a steady paycheck to pay your bills, and then work your way to a better position within the company.

For me that’s the way it worked.  I got a job at a low hourly rate, and worked my tail off.  I have to give credit to my boss that hired me, because she gave me a chance when I wasn’t doing well with working.  She believed in me, and helped me to grow.

Fast forward 2 years and I’ve received several promotions and am now a salesperson for all three stores in the company.  Out of all the people working there I was the one they chose to sell their product for all three stores.  It’s really a prestigious position as I get to work with the president and owner of the company. I am the only one who does what I do.  Part of the credit goes to my reading and writing habit which has helped me develop as a person and shoot off useful quotes in conversation, and part of the credit goes to me being honest with them about my schizophrenia, and my path of limiting alcohol and quitting cigarettes.  I’m trying to move my life in a more positive direction, and that got their attention.  Along with expressing a desire to be in sales because of the growth potential eventually landed me the gig I have now.

The main benefit is that it gives me a greater opportunity to serve, which is the purpose of my life.  Service is what I am setting my life up to do, at work, at home, and on this blog.  I especially want to serve schizophrenics, and help them achieve things in life that the voices, whether it be their own or someone else, say they cannot do.  I want to serve as the catalyst for schizophrenics to breakthrough addiction, dependence, and bad choices because of the combination of their own missteps and what the voices have led them to believe.  I want to be a light for schizophrenics to show them that you don’t have to cheat on your wife or girlfriend, that you can work and you can do ok in sales, and that you can quit smoking.  I want to do all this and more, and I’m not going to stop until it’s done.

So there’s a taste of my plans for this blog but mainly I wanted to let you know that I’m a mild schizophrenic, and I’m selling things.  I’m doing ok.  I’m quitting cigarettes and have reduced the number I smoke by one each day.  Yesterday I smoked 12, down from a whole pack a week and a half ago.  My quit date is on July 15th, 2017.  I’m not looking forward to smoking none.

Then again, I am.

I just wanted to write this to you to let you know that you can do it, you can sell.  Work with the voices and let your own thoughts co-create what you hear, and direct your mind and your feelings to a place where people will know, like, and trust you.  You can do it!

Here’s to your sales success,

Jesse Creel

Good Morning Schizophrenia

It’s 8am on Sunday morning, July 2nd.  In my sleep I don’t hear voices.  It’s the only time I get a break.  When I wake up music is going through my head and the voices start talking to me.  I don’t believe anything they tell me anymore.

They tell me I’m going to win the lottery, they tell me I’m going to die at an early age in a lot of pain, they tell me I’m going to get murdered, they tell me to cheat on my wife, they tell me to smoke and not to smoke, they tell me I’m going to get Cancer, they tell me to sell, they tell me to work with my hands instead of selling, it’s a rollercoaster ride.

I talk to them.  That’s how I deal with it.  I have an inner dialogue with the voices.  I tell them what I think of them.  I tell them I’m faithful, healthy, that I’m going to quit smoking, that I’m going to be a success on this blog, that I’m going to quit playing the lottery, and that I’m going to work.  It’s a hell ride keeping up with the voices because they always seem to be reading my doubts about myself, and they are fast at speaking.  I am constantly managing them and it’s exhausting.  The silver lining, and there always is one, is that the schizophrenia makes me stronger.  It makes me know what I want and what I do not want, and then it’s up to me to take the actions necessary to move me closer to those things that I do want.

If you have a mild case of schizophrenia as I do, my suggestion would be to work hourly with your hands, at a place where your bosses like you.  If your like me your bosses voices will get in your head and they will be positive telling you things like “work” and “be good”.  My bosses want me at work, and that is a blessing.  I have had a lot of jobs where I felt like I wasn’t wanted there, and it depressed me.  The schizophrenia only added to those feelings, and I became overwhelmed.  If you want to work, you must find a place where you feel like you can fit in.  If I can do it, you can do it too.

If you can work, you have the cornerstone of success to build on.  I am a leading learner, and I’m here to teach you that you can work, and then you can come home and work harder on yourself than you do at your job.  For me, working on myself means I read, journal, do affirmations, work on this blog, exercise by walking, doing pushups, crunches, squats, listen to helpful podcasts that are going to help me succeed online, visualization, love my family everyday, and other things that are set up to make my life as productive and as helpful to other people as possible.  I set up a to-do list and put it inside of a frame and hung it above my dresser so I can see it every morning.  So far it has helped me stay focused on systems that are going to move me in a positive direction in life.

I read in “Tools of Titans” two things from two different people.  The first one said that there is a difference between dreams and goals.  Dreams you can’t really do anything about, but goals you can take action and move towards.  I thought that was good advice.  Then came the second piece of advice.  It said that “losers have goals, winners have systems”.  That at first seemed like conflicting advice to me, especially because I liked the idea of having goals instead of dreams, so that I could set up my life to work on success like I want.  Later, it occurred to me that it really wasn’t contradictory, that the second piece of advice was just building on the first.  Goals you can work towards, but when you have systems in place (like reading for a half hour a day, and blogging everyday) you will move towards creating the life you want to make for yourself.  It’s not about the goal.  It’s about setting your actions up so that each day you are building something of value.  So my to-do list as mentioned above is set up to create those systems in my everyday life.  I am becoming more productive, and I am growing. As a mild schizophrenic, simply having those systems in place, and taking action on them everyday is an accomplishment.  The results don’t matter.  What matters is that I’m taking the right actions!

So I’ll leave you with the recommendation to work hourly, and grow yourself and know yourself with a blog.  Do your best each day to serve others and do it for the sake of being good, without expectation of a reward.  Serve simply to be of service.  I know being useful to others makes me feel good, and it feels like it’s the right thing to do with my time on earth.

Thanks for reading, make sure you subscribe to my list to get updates on this blog, and have a great day!

Jesse Creel

 

A Day I Will Never Forget

That day I speak of is my wedding day.

We were married on June 25th, 2011.  We recently had our 6 year anniversary and spent it on the road, coming back from another wedding in North Carolina.

For our 6 years I got my wife a necklace.  I went to a place right next door to where I work when I got off and picked her out the one I thought she would like best.  I would have liked to spend more, but I don’t make much, am in debt, and have wasted a ton of money on drinking and smoking.

Still, I couldn’t go without buying her something, so I put it on my credit card and vowed to pay it off.

I will never forget the day I got married, as any man would.  I heard somewhere you should show your scars, so I wanted to write about the one I have on my wedding ring finger.  I got cut, I don’t know how, right before we were married, and the bizarre but fitting thing is that the scar from where I was cut is in the shape of a heart.  The skin never completely separated from my finger and the ring kept the hanging skin in place.  To this day, if I move the ring up my finger just a little bit, it will expose the scar that is in the shape of a heart.  The bottom of the heart faces inward, towards me.  Fitting and I’ll tell you why.

Marriage has been difficult for me.  I’ve done things I am ashamed of.  I wasn’t a good husband when we first started.  I had a gut feeling that we weren’t meant to be together.  I felt like the world was telling me I shouldn’t be with her.  That we weren’t meant for each other.  We had emotional conversations with each other where tears were shed and she did everything in her power to tell me that she loved me and that’s what we needed to be together.  I did love her, and I do love her, but that went against everything my gut was telling me. It was telling me that bad things would happen if we stayed together.  That it wasn’t right for us to be together.  I have been a schizophrenic since before we got married, but I wasn’t diagnosed until 2014 when the voices telling me I had cancer forced me to consult a doctor and he told me I was a schizophrenic.

Since I got married I have been hearing my father in laws voice in my head and he mostly gives me bad advice.  He tells me to drink more all the time, he tells me to die smoking, he tells me to get cancer.  I see him on a regular basis and when we are together I still hear his voice in my head, and he tells me he can hear what I’m thinking.  My schizophrenia seems to lead me to believe everyone can hear voices, that they hear my voice, and the voices of everyone else.  It’s as if my thoughts are on display for everyone that’s around me.  It makes me want to vacation in a log cabin in the woods, where there are no other people around, just nature.  I can handle when the animals and trees talk to me.

I don’t know if it was just schizophrenia, or if it was a combination of drinking too much, smoking too much pot, smoking cigarettes, generally living my life out of balance, and fooling around with marrying someone that was way over my head.  Either way, I lost the best job I ever had at a guitar factory for losing control of my emotions.  I was hearing music that told me to kill myself, and I was taking offense to it, as if everyone there was plotting against me, didn’t like me or hated me, and wanted me to get lost.  It was a tragic end to a job where I excelled.  I fell and it was very difficult to find another job that I could work well at.

I have found that job, a job I can do.  They keep promoting me so that’s a good thing.  I’m drinking less, and I’ve recently called a help line to quit smoking.  My quit date is on July 15th, 2017.  I must quit because I’m feeling pain in my body that I believe without smoking I wouldn’t be feeling.

I am at a crossroads in life.  My gut tells me I’m never going to make it online.  It tells me my only shot at becoming a millionaire is to win the lottery.  And that’s my gut talking to me, as a schizophrenic.  When it talks to me I can see written words in my midsection and it tells me things that would completely change my life if I were to follow it.

As of yesterday, it was telling me I should win the lottery jackpot, and then leave my family so that I can have sex with other women because “I want”.  My gut also tells me that if I stay with my wife my life will end in tragedy.  That leads me to what I experience on my honeymoon.

After sex at one point, when we were in Cane Garden Bay, a beautiful place, my father in laws voice said that our marriage would “end in divorce”.  This was on our honeymoon!  Imagine being told over and over that your marriage was a mistake but there was no way to stop it from happening.  All in your own mind!  And the reality is no one else can hear these things, even though it seems like they can.  So my wife goes on living like nothing is wrong, and I’m hearing all these screwed up things about the end, and death, and cheating, and it makes me want to get out.  From day one I wanted to get out.

The way it happened though is that my wife’s will was stronger than mine.  I tried to end it, I even demanded that she give me back the ring… but it was to no avail and she ended up keeping me.   6 years later we have a 4 and 1 year old, and are living our lives together the best we can.  She is a teacher and I work at a ham store, and she supports our family.  She is the breadwinner, all I do is support a little.  She pays the mortgage and all the bills.  It embarrasses me, but that’s the way it is.

I can’t say that I’m not trying to become the primary breadwinner and move us into a bigger house, retire my wife so she can raise our kids full time, and live a life that is the calling for all men.  I was in church recently and they said that men had a “divine” calling to support their wives.  It made me feel bad that my it’s the other way around with my wife and I.  Still my wife seems happy with the way things are going, and she tells me she loves me and holds my hand.  My father put it accurately “it could always be worse”.

To this day, I am told to die in my head, and that my life will end “in prison”.  The voices are persistant in seeking my death, but I command myself to LIVE and I try to do the right things that are going to lead to better quality of life.  Reading, journaling, blogging, meditation, visualization, exercise, eating right, quitting smoking, listening to podcasts are among some of the things I do to create that better quality of life.  I still don’t know if I should work with my hands or try to make it in sales at my current job, but all I know is that I need to quit smoking.

The statistic is that 90% of schizophrenics smoke.  I would like to be a part of the 10% who do not.  It has ruined relationships and made me an unhealthy person, and I seek to quit for the good of everyone.  It’s not too late for me, I can still create a better life.

I will always remember June 25th, 2017, the day I married my wife.  Our life together has been a mess, and one I am still in the process of cleaning up, but there is a silver lining to everything.  She loves me and my kids make me smile so no matter what the voices are telling me I can take shelter in that. The voices are a nightmare I can’t wake up from, but they make me stronger.  They help me to decide what I want and what I do not want.  They test me, and it’s time I start passing the test and be faithful, not smoke, be happy, and live.

This is a personal development blog aimed at helping me to orient myself, and I hope that you too can benefit by reading it.   I encourage you to explore it further, and continue to check back for new posts.  They will get better with time.  If you want to make it easy on yourself, you can subscribe to my list and I’ll send you updates to this blog so you know when a new post comes out.

Here’s to you knowing what you want, no matter what the voices or anyone or anything else tells you,

Jesse Creel

40 Ways For A Schizophrenic To Get And Hold A Job

Hello internet world.  This is Jesse Creel and I’m writing to you today to let you know I care.  I want to help.  So if your a schizophrenic who wants to work, I figured these tips might help you on your way.  Drink deeply of them, and soak it up.  I’ve been working for 2 years now at the same job and I’ve been a schizophrenic the entire time.  I had a really hard time at first when things first went haywire.  Now I’m back to working, and I’m happy to be paying taxes and contributing to society.  The same can be with you.  If your a schizophrenic and want to work, then this is for you.  I hope you gain some insight from this post, and can put one or two things to work in your life and that you benefit from reading this post.  Here’s to your success even though you hear voices!

  1. Love Your Job- Even if you hate working, love your work.  It will take discipline to do this, but it will be well worth it, and you may even get promoted for doing such a good job.  Not only should you love the hands on work you do, you should also love your customers.  Put love into your work with the product, and love your customers for paying your check to you.  Love your job, even if it’s a conscious choice.
  2. Do Something You Can Love-  Yes again, it’s all about the love.  If you can’t stand working a cash register then get a job where you get to work more with your hands.  I’ve found, as a schizophrenic, it really helps to have hands on work.  The voices can’t chase away your work ethic, so if you can be a hard worker everyday, there’s a good chance you’ll be able to get and hold a job.  That would be a good thing for all things that are right in the world.  At least until you win that lottery drawing.
  3. Find Reasons To Work-  Maybe you’ve applied for disability and it’s taking too long.  Maybe you have a family and need the money to support them.  Maybe you just need to pay your bills so you don’t have to rely on your family to support you, and you can be free of being a burden to them… at least partly depending on how much money you make.  Find many, many, many, many reasons to work.  Money can definitely be a motivator so use that motivation to get you out of bed in the morning and get into work.  Use that motivation to swallow your pride and take a job that you think maybe is beneath you.  You may find that it’s the perfect fit and they want to give you everything you want in a job.
  4. Work With A Family Member-  For me, working with my younger brother really helped me.  He got me my current job, the one I’ve had for the past 2 years.  He has since moved on, but I count the times I worked with him as precious, even though he was an incredible pain to me.  For me, working with my younger brother required that I swallow my pride and take HIS advice.  That was very difficult for me, but it landed me the second best job I’ve ever had.  Where I CAN do the job, and my bosses like me.  If you can get a job with a brother, sister, parent, cousin, anyone, you may find the opportunity your looking for.  Take their advice, snap out of your delusions about money just coming to you, and take action and work!  You can have all the dreams you want as long as your working and contributing something.  That’s the way I look at it and I’m a schizophrenic who makes a living working a job!
  5. Love Your Bosses-  Again, and I can’t say it enough, you gotta put love into it.  Everything will turn out better.  So love your bosses too.  That may or may not be difficult, but it will result in a better relationship with your company.  If you love your bosses, you will do everything you need to do, in your power, to make their lives easier.  And if their life is easier because of what you do, then you’re going to have a good time about it.  They most likely will be kind to you, and treat you with respect for your wishes.  They will make you work, but your getting paid anyways, so you might as well do the job the best you can do it.  So love your bosses, do your work with love, and collect your paycheck.  If you keep it up, chances are those paychecks are going to be getting bigger.
  6. Don’t Complain-  Once you’ve gotten your job, you’re going to have to work.  So there’s no sense in complaining about it.  You have to work, and there’s going to be pains you experience as a result, but why fuss?   Your getting paid, and your contributing, so you might as well suck it up and do what they ask you to do, without reservation.  If you don’t complain when your bosses ask you to do things that the average employee would complain about you’ll get brownie points, and that could lead to a raise.  So don’t complain, and reap the rewards!
  7. Sleep Enough-  Work and the voices will wear you down.  Make sure you get plenty of rest.  You work hard, and you have a hand in life that you MUST play.  Make the most of it.  Don’t get me wrong, you shouldn’t sleep so much you don’t get anything done in your personal life, but make sure you’re sleeping enough so that your not miserable at your job.  Part of my success I attribute to getting enough sleep at night.  So sleep enough, and get your rest, you deserve it as a schizophrenic who works.
  8. Make Work A Priority-  Yes, work should be a priority.  Again, you have to come up with reasons to work if you want to do it.  For me it’s my family, and it’s living a better life than just sitting on the couch and being a house cat.  You are going to be of more value if your working while you work on these crazy dreams of yours that are going to make you rich someday.  So find the motivation to work, and make working a priority, above all other things you have to do that day.  Unless of course your family needs you.  Family first, that’s what I say… but for me my children are taken care of during the day, everyday, so I have nothing better to do than work.  Make work a priority, and reap the rewards!
  9. Please Your Boss’s Voice That’s In Your Head-  As a schizophrenic, hearing voices, you may hear your boss’s voice in your head.  For me, it’s been a blessing, because she tells me things that are going to benefit me, for instance that I should “work!”.  To be honest I have heard once or twice that my boss is sick and tired of me, but that doesn’t bother me, because I am not sick or tired of her.  I just want to make her life easier, we all have to live with each other, and sometimes we want somebody to leave when they’re doing things we don’t like.  Sometimes I smoke too many cigarettes and the people I work with seem to know how I feel, and it’s not good and they don’t like it.  What I recommend you do, is talk to your voices, give them your point of view, and do it with love.  Try to make your head a better place to live in for the voices, especially for your bosses voice.  If you ever get enough money to quit, then you’ll have other voices that you’ll have to live with.  At any rate, as a successful schizophrenic, I believe we have to be civil with our voices, so that means no fighting.  Just go with it, make the best of it, put your filters in place (meaning don’t let the voices make you think what they say is reality), and do the best you can.  Take care of your boss, and your boss’s voice, and be happy you have a job!
  10. Shower Everyday-  Hygiene is important.  You want to be a clean schizophrenic.  It helps you be more normal.  You CAN take a shower everyday, there is nothing stopping you from doing that.  And you’ll be a better, cleaner person because of it.  You don’t want to go without showering.  Don’t let yourself go.  Take control, and promote cleanliness.
  11. Pray For Jobs You Can Do-  When I first started I prayed, and thanked God that I had a job I COULD do.  I was very happy that I could do SOME things around the store that would contribute to it’s running smoothly and growing.  I would not count out the power of prayer to help you in your life.  So ask God to help you, and you never know, he just might!
  12. Do Your Job With Confidence-  If something needs to get done, be the man or woman who CAN do it!  You don’t need to know any more to get the job done, you just need to have the confidence that you can serve and do the job well.  You’ll figure out the rest as you go along.  And each day you will get better.  The more time you have in, the better, more seasoned you will be.  And that will lead to even more confidence in your ability to do the job.  Do the job with confidence, and be a better leader.
  13. Treat Each Day Like It’s Going To Be A Good Experience-  My boss said to someone else, I overheard the conversation, that all the hours and the people over the holidays would be a good experience for them.  I heard that and took it to heart.  All the hours during the holidays were going to be good for me, and each day I work, even when it’s not the holiday, are going to be good experiences for me.  I recommend you look at it the same way.  Each day is going to be a good experience for you.  Even if you hear voices, it’s not all bad, and you can still do your job, so it IS a good experience, your getting paid!
  14. Ask Yourself The Question, How Do I Improve?-  This is the basis for what I believe has led me to several promotions.  I am always asking myself “How do I improve?”.  And I get answers from my voices.  A lot of the time it’s helpful and I just do my job better.  Think of what you could do for your own life if you were constantly asking yourself how you could improve.  Give it a try for a week and see what happens.  Keep it up and you may be surprised at the positive experience you have.
  15. Swallow Your Pride And Take Advice-  This one has already been touched on but it’s important and bears repeating.  If your hard headed like me, you won’t want to work for your money, and you’ll try to do things that would land you on easy street for no work at all.  I’ve been there, and it took a serious attitude adjustment to do what I do now.  And that attitude adjustment wouldn’t have come without me sucking it up and taking advice from my younger brother.  He told me to work, not to hate it, to act like I liked my life, and to stop playing the lottery.  I’ve done it all, except for the lottery, I still play that.  But I’m working and that’s a big step up for me.  As it could be for you as well.  Keep trying, and take advice, even if it means you may not be the miracle making lottery winner just yet.  You can do it!  You can work!
  16. Exercise Plenty-  For me, this means walking 2 to 3 miles a day.  I also do yoga, and crunches, and some pushups, and I stretch.  Exercise will do you good.  It’s one of those physical things that the voices can’t control.  You CAN exercise and become stronger.  You can do it even if you hear voices.  It will help you work your job, and you’ll be healthier.  So exercise!  It’s good for you.
  17. Drink A Lot Of Water And Eat Healthy-  This is common sense, but it’s still important.  You want to be mindful of what your putting into your body.  It could make you or break you.  Water is the giver of life, and we are made up of mostly fluid as human beings, so we had better be refreshing ourselves each day.  Eat well along with drinking plenty of water and you’ll feel good and be better prepared to deal with the voices and the work you have to do to contribute to your family and to society.
  18. Take Your Medication Everyday-  This is so important it can’t be overstated.  You have to stay on your medication if you want to be stable.  Don’t play with doses, don’t skip days.  Take it religiously, everyday, and do your self a favor and control your hallucinations.  Take your medication everyday, that is all.
  19. See A Therapist On A Regular Basis-  For me, therapy has helped me work.  My therapist helps me to discern reality just a bit more clearly, and he gives me insight as to how a smart human being would look at my life.  I’m not doing that bad.  I just have to keep working.  And seeing my therapist once a month helps me to stay on track and making my life better each day.  I highly recommend talk therapy for schizophrenics as mandatory, to help you out with the false beliefs that can be caused by the voices.
  20. Give Money To Family And Charity, And Pay Your Bills-  You can do this now that your working!  Help yourself out by helping your family out, and don’t forget about the poor people out there once you’ve made a steady income.  They need you.  Pay your bills, or do the best you can do, and get out of debt.  Do everything you can do each day to get your butt into work so that you can do these things, and make a difference in the lives of those you love most, and in the lives of perfect strangers.  What goes around comes around.  So be good, and do good.  You’ll be happy you did.
  21. Pay Taxes-  It’s better than being on disability.  You not relying on the government to do your work for you.  It’s better for society IF you can work.  Not discouraging anyone from being on disability.  If you need that then there’s a reason it’s there.  But IF you CAN work, I say it’s better that you do.  That’s just this schizophrenic.  You can support all the things that your taxes pay for, like schools, firefighters, and police.  Not to mention the military.  If you are working your helping to support our hero’s, and that’s a good thing if you ask me.  I’m a working schizophrenic, and my view matters.  Work, and pay taxes.  You’ll be happy you did.  God help us all.
  22. Have Something You Can Work On In Your Free Time-  Yes, you want to work, and you want to contribute, but as Jim Rohn put it “Work harder on yourself than you do at your job” so you want to put some work in, in your free time.  There are endless ways you could do this, for me it’s blogging and writing e books.  For me, that’s the best way I can do it in my free time.  Besides, I really love doing it.  So pick something you can love, maybe it’s reading, and do that thing when your not working or taking care of your family.  Work it, and work it good.  Even better than you do at your job.  Because you CAN get and hold a job, and work it there.  Then you can come home and work it even harder on yourself!  Do something with your free time because your not wholly someone else’s slave.  You are a person with a passion, and you can unleash that passion onto the world.  See what happens, learn as you go along, course correct… work on something in your free time.
  23. Do What Your Told To Do-  Without complaining.  Said it before, say it again.  Make your boss’s job easier.  Just do what your told to do.
  24. Be Open To New Opportunity-  This is geared towards those folks who don’t yet have a job, or are not where they want to be.  Give yourself the opportunity to go somewhere, maybe with a family member, and submit to an hourly position.  You’re a schizophrenic and high paying commission sales jobs haven’t worked out.  You need to work with your hands and leave the people alone.  You are screwed up.  You need to work with your body.  This is just your hand in life.  Hopefully the blessing is that you work well with your hands.  So taking another hourly job, starting from the bottom again, is the right thing to do.  So be open to new opportunity, and maybe work with a family member.
  25. W0rk On Being Better Each Day-  This goes along with asking yourself the question… “how do I improve?”.  Work on being a little better today than you were yesterday.  Stay on a steady progression upwards, just like the stock market does over the long term.  Things grow, that’s just the nature of it.  So if the country is growing, you should be too… and you can help contribute to that growth.  By working.  And if you work on getting better each day you MUST ALSO increase your chances of getting a raise.  I really think it could be done at McDonald’s or anywhere else.  Being a good employee and getting raises over time.  EVEN IF your a schizophrenic.  Work on getting better each and every day, day in day out… and those improvements that you make little by little, will add up to big change in your life.
  26. Stay Close To Your Family And Listen To Them-  My family pulled us through when I was thinking of divorce.  The voices were just so crazy.  If it wasn’t for my family, professional help, and medication, I wouldn’t be working where I’m working today, or married, with 2 beautiful kids.  My parents really helped me out.  I’m in debt to them.  I owe them.  And I’m working my way to paying them all back.  My credit card, my parents… at one point I was thinking of going homeless.  My parents kept me sheltered. For a schizophrenic not having to worry about anything is a relief.  And if it weren’t for my brother I wouldn’t have my job, so not only am I indebted to my parents, I’m also indebted to my brother.  In my experience, if you lean on your family, they will get you through tough times.  I do not recommend chronically leaning on them.  The idea is to become independent of the family.  To make enough money to even SUPPORT a family.  But I say if your a schizophrenic and you can make over $1,000 a month, and you can give your family some money… you ARE doing something.  And giving back wouldn’t have been possible without the people you are giving it to.  Stay close to your family and listen to them.  Family is important for schizophrenics, or anyone for that matter.
  27. Calmly Fulfill Your Responsibilities-  Those days where I feel like I’m dying probably because of too many cigarettes, and the voices are telling me to die, and that I’m dying, and what I do is simply work.  If you can work when you feel like your dying, for the good of all concerned, you are certainly doing something.  It CAN BE a good experience.  Calmly fulfill your responsibilities and you will be a lady or a gentleman.  It won’t matter that you have schizophrenia and hear voices everyday.  No one can tell.  No one cares.  You do your job well.  You are weird, don’t lie to yourself, but that doesn’t mean you can do a hands on job very well.  Even if the voices are telling you to die, you can go into work and do the job, and everything will be fine.  You’re not going to die, it’s only a hallucination, and you can improve.  Instead of imagining yourself dying when the voices tell you to die, imagine how you can improve your life.  See what kind of results you get.
  28. Think Of Your Family As You Make Your Hourly Pay-  If you don’t have a wife and kids, maybe think of your parents, or who ever supported you when you were at your lowest.  Work and think of them that your doing your best for them and that will make you feel good.  It will make you feel useful.  What better a thing can a man or woman be?  Serve, because you were served and even if you were a multimillionaire, you may never be able to repay what has been given to you.  You sure could do something though.  Something good.  But seeing as you have to work an hourly job, and are not yet a multimillionaire, think of your family as you make your hourly pay, and know your doing the right thing.
  29. Breathe!- Don’t forget to breathe.  It can really get you through the other side of the pain.  You can come out alive by breathing.  Can’t say it enough… breathe!
  30. Don’t Let Your Disability Define You-  Sure you may be a schizophrenic, but all that means is you hear voices everyday.  That doesn’t make you, you.  What you do, your actions, your work, the present defines you.  This may sound a little crazy as your reading about a schizophrenic, but looking only at the disease is not getting the whole picture.  You can also be a family man or woman, a musician, a writer, a poet, a worker, a salesperson, a marketer, a closer, a leader, the list can be endless.
  31. TELL Your Bosses Your A Schizophrenic Trying To Get Your Life Together- One of two things will happen.  They will either look down on you because you have a disability, or they will trust you because you were honest with them.  If you are heartfelt in your confession, it’s more likely they will trust you.  Let me know in the comments how that goes for you, I would really like to know.  I don’t think they are allowed to fire you, and you can feel better that you were honest about why you didn’t have the best attendance at first.
  32. Be Honest-  That goes hand in hand with telling your bosses your a schizophrenic.  Don’t do anything stupid and tell them anything that would get you fired, but be honest about your intentions, and if they are good you are going to do well.  Tell them about how things are going, and don’t be afraid to share work you are proud of.  Do the right thing, so honesty comes naturally to you.  Be honest.
  33. Treat Your Coworkers Like The Ladies And Gentlemen They Are-  This for me and my coworkers, holding the door for each other and calling each other “sir” or “miss”.  It means having respect for your coworkers.  What you do will rub off on them, so rub them the right way, to the best of your ability.
  34. Work More Than You Want To IF You Have To-  The holidays at my place means 50 or 55 hours a week.  That time is necessary to get the job done.  My bosses need me there for that period of time to make sure the job goes smoothly.  So I work a lot more than I really want to.  The paychecks are nice, and I gladly work the hours, and part of me wishes that I could get those kinds of hours all year long, but it is a lot of work.  I do it though, and my bosses appreciate it.  So if they need you, stay and do the work.  Do the hours, you’re getting paid anyways.
  35. Work With Long Term Success In Mind-  I read somewhere that it takes 10 years to master any given subject.  So I figure if you want to master a job, it’s going to take 10 years of your life.  If you’ve found a good job, you may want to devote 10 years of your working life to that cause.  If you do, good things may come of it.  If your a schizophrenic like me, holding it down for 2 years is an accomplishment.  I say go for another 8, meanwhile working on your business that’s going to pull you in 6 figures a year.
  36. Tell Your Voices In Your Head “I Must Live”-  You have a say.  What the voices say isn’t necessarily what’s going to happen.  You have some control.  Tell your voices what you think and influence the conversation in your head.  Tell them, when they tell you to die, that you MUST live.  Silence the voices that tell you to die by breathing.  You can live, you MUST live.
  37. Be Special-  If your a schizophrenic, your not normal.  There are only about 3.5 million schizophrenics in the U.S.A. according to Quora.  So if your working a job, chances are you might be the only schizophrenic who works there.  Especially if it’s a small company.  So really, you ARE special.  You hear voices, you may even hear your coworkers.  That makes you special.  Embrace it.  You are different.  You are part of the flavor of the world.  Take pride that you hear voices and can still work.  That makes you some of the most special of the special.
  38. Take Care Of Yourself When Your Off-  As I already mentioned, sleep enough, get good food, and drink plenty of water.  Don’t drink too much alcohol, and try not to smoke too many cigarettes.
  39. Do What You Do And Don’t Mind If You Die Doing It, Nothing Is Going To Stop You-  You could die at any time, young or old.  So life can at times be fragile.  If you feel like your dying, and you hear voices encouraging you to die, maybe you will die.  Still, that won’t stop you from doing what you are doing.  If you’re going to die, your going to die with your bootstraps on.  NOTHING will stop you from doing your job.  Not the feelings, not the voices, not the cigarettes, not the alcohol you drank last night.  You consistently do your job, because that’s what you have to do and you want to make the most of it.  Take that attitude and see where it takes you if your a working schizophrenic.
  40. Be Grateful For Every Penny You Get-  I’ve been fired from a job before and now that I’ve been holding another one I won’t make the same mistake.  That mistake was not being grateful for my job.  I now embrace the attitude of gratitude and I am happy to do my job because that’s what God has given me to do.   And it’s work I CAN do.  So be grateful for every penny, every minute you get at work.  Some people don’t have jobs.

That’s my 40 tips for schizophrenics who want to work, or do better and get promoted.  I sincerely hope you enjoyed it and can pull at least one or two nuggets out of there that will change your life for the better.  Make sure you subscribe to my list as you will get the best content that you can’t get anywhere else.  I’m working on getting my subscriber count up so that I can build relationships with you folks out there on the internet.  If your interested, please put your name and email address into the form. You’ll be happy you did.

Thanks for reading, here’s to all of us getting a promotion,

Jesse Creel

How Do I Make $20,000 A Year When I’m A Schizophrenic

I’m not a doctor, but I will say take your medication everyday.

I’ve had a revelation.

I’ve discovered my audience.

I am writing for schizophrenics who want to work.

I am a schizophrenic, and I make $20,000 a year.

From basically nothing.

I am a story of success.

I hear voices everyday that tell me I’m dying.

I must live and I tell them so.

Today was my daughters dance recital.  She was a crayon.

But let me not get off topic.  It’s hard because I’m a worker, but I’m also a family man.

I tell you even if your schizophrenic and think you can’t work, you can, and you can make an honest living off of your own sweat and blood.

Though chances are, if your like me, cutting yourself will rarely happen.  Most of the time it will just be sweat your putting into it.

So how do you, when your a schizophrenic, work and make more than you can make to get disability?

My answer came in swallowing my pride and taking my younger brother’s advice and I took a job with him.

He was hell to work with because he was constantly scrutinizing me and he was my senior in the company so I just had to do what he was telling me.  And when that’s coming from your younger brother it really takes hard work to just work harder and faster so he will stop complaining.

My brother no longer works with me, but it was a good experience with him while we had it.

The point is he landed me a job, and I didn’t even have to have an interview.  They just took me in on my brothers word.  Which I needed because I didn’t really have any good references.  I was afterall fired from the best job I’ve ever had in my life, when I lost it and asked some guy to fight, thinking it would earn me some respect.

It was an upheaval of epic proportions.  I couldn’t stand to work there anymore.  I was becoming a schizophrenic and I was about to get married.  I wanted to be a rockstar and not the guy who was making the guitars for the rockstar.  I wanted to be in the game.  I wanted a band.  I wanted to travel.

At the same time I didn’t want to give up the 18.50 an hour and the benefits.  So I stayed and hated it and eventually blew up.

And it got me fired.

That’s a hard thing to come back from.

I was making almost $40,000 a year!  Back to nothing.  It was a huge loss.  I still haven’t completely recovered from that.

I now make half of what I used to make.  I’m at $12 dollars an hour now.

Which really is good if your thinking about what a fast food employee makes.

I have gotten a couple of raises, one of them ironically came on my birthday.  I got paid an extra two dollars and the check came on my birthday.  Pretty cool.  I think God has blessed me with this job.

And I definitely don’t want to screw it up.

I’ve learned my lesson and now I have an attitude of gratitude and I thank God for my job.  It’s something I can do and not hate, so it’s easy for me to do my job.

And it’s easy to ask yourself how you can improve.  I do it all the time and I look for ways to be a better employee.  And it pays off.  I get raises.  I’m growing.  And on top of it all I’m a schizophrenic.

So if your a schizophrenic, and you want to work.  If you want to make more money than disability is going to pay you, then work.  It’s so amazingly good for you.  I get paid to wash dishes and talk to customers.  I can’t believe I get paid to do such easy work.  And when your working with your hands, it’s a lot easier for a schizophrenic.

But I do both, I work with my hands, and I work with customers, or potential customers.

I’m grateful for the hands on work, because it’s less stressful.  Talking to people is harder than doing Manuel labor.  At least for this schizophrenic.

But I do both and I really love talking to people.  It’s what my raises have led me to.  So I happily take on more stress, and with the voices it’s like people don’t like me because I’m a schizophrenic.

It’s like they know I hear voices that are telling me to die, or that they want to murder me, mostly just to die from smoking, but I just keep on keeping on, and improving, and so far I’ve woken up everyday.

It’s really a trip.

Sometimes not a good one, sometimes a very sexy one.  Sometimes a positive one.  I take the good with the bad.  But I am still working a job.  And I’m helping to support my family in a little way.  Gotta start somewhere.  I figure supporting them in a little way is better than nothing, and it’s a good start to doing a better job.

Because I’m not stopping with my job.  I’m moving on towards blogging.  I’m going to kick ass and make a 6 figure business and then ladder up to a 7 figure business.

That’s my plan.

Because I’ve got nothing else to do with my free time, other then spend it with my family and clean the house.

I’ve got plenty of time to start a business in my free time.

So I’m keeping my options open.

But that’s not going to stop me from working my job.

I’m a schizophrenic, and I work.  That’s what I do.  I’m okay.  I’m good to go.  I’m diseased, but I can still do my job.  And I can do the job well.

On top of it all I can write!

And write I will.

As it could be with you too.  If your a schizophrenic and work a job, that’s something worth writing about.  You could write all about your voices and what it takes to contribute to society.

Something I read on blogtyrant.com said you should write long form content if you want to be successful.  That means 3,000 words or more.  I’ve been writing 2,000.

But my audience is schizophrenics who don’t have a job and want to work.  Or work better at their job.  So I have to write for my audience.

The truth is part of the way I live my life is to deal with the voices by drinking and smoking.  It’s a rock and roll lifestyle and it could land me in my grave if I don’t play my piss poor hand right.  I am afterall, a schizophrenic.  My doctor told me I just had to deal with the cards I was dealt with in life.  I blamed my failure in business on the voices telling me I had cancer.

I of course am healthy, and there is nothing wrong with me.  Except I hear voices that other people don’t hear.

It is interesting because sometimes it seems like other people CAN hear my voices.  And they say things out loud about it to other people.  Like the people I work with.  They are always talking to themselves out loud.

I also heard in a Pat Flynn’s podcast recently about how if you wouldn’t tell your grandmother what you were doing, then should you really be doing it?

As far as starting a business goes.

But the problem is hating work when your a schizophrenic.

So what do you do?

I say you find a job that you can do.  Let the Lord bless you with an opportunity, by being humble and taking good advice.  Do the hands on work you have to do, because you hear voices and think that scares sales away.

Because I’ve been in the sales game for 7 years now, and I can tell you it’s not easy.

I failed more than I have succeeded, and now God has given me the opportunity to sell again, this time I get paid whether I sell or not.  So it’s really a win.

And that’s my new job.

Go out, drive around to local businesses, give them a taste of our product, and follow up the next day.  It’s so simple anyone could do it.

But I AM the only person in the 3 store company who does it.  They chose me.

And I do a superb job.  I got 6 sales in one month.

And I took some time off and worked in the store for the holiday, but now I’m back on the road, and I’m marketing.

Because that’s really what I would call it.  It’s not sales.  It’s too soft for that.  All I do is drop off two box lunches, a ham sandwich and a turkey sandwich…. with a bag of chips, a soda, a cookie, and a pickle, so they get the whole deal, and then I tell them to make sure they pass my name along IF they order.

That way my company knows I’m doing something.

I’m a smart salesman, and i also smoke, which makes me so just stupid sexy.

For most of the day I’m smoking, in the car, in between businesses.

It’s probably not the best way to pass the time, but I’m addicted and I do it, and I’m still alive.

And I figure even if i die early, I’ll still have another 20 or 30 years in me.  Human beings can stand pain for decades.

Or I could change my life and shoot to live to 100.

Maybe I can live to 100 and drink and smoke.  People do it.

But how do you work when your schizophrenic?

You find a good boss who will call you babe, and your willing to do whatever they ask you to do.  Your very easy going and want to make your bosses life easier.

That kind of attitude will get you raises.

And they are sweet as candy when you talk to them.

How do you make $20,000 a year even if your schizophrenic?

Work hard and do a job you can love.  Personally, I work for all women and I think that’s the way to go for this schizophrenic.  The managers of all 3 stores are women.  And the president is a woman.  I know all of them.  Most or all of them know I hear voices.  It’s like they are giving me a second chance.

And I can tell you it’s better writing than tapping out.  I’m feeling pretty drunk and hungry but it’s not dinner time and I’m waiting for my family to get home.

I did learn a lot from a Pat Flynn podcast.  It was all about laddering up.  Going from zero to a six figure business to a seven figure business.

He talked about how you had to reply to every comment, and be mindful of telling people to get on your list.  Each and everyday.

For a while I was just approving comments and letting them fly.  Now I respond to each one and let them know I’m here for them.

And that’s just for comments.  Imagine how I would treat the people on my list.  They are going to get my best stuff!

For now I write to you on this blog.

I consider it rock and roll art.  Poetry from the heart.

And I do it all writing and maintaining this website.

But the question is still, how do you get $20,000 a year working as a schizophrenic.

That would be doing a lot better than being on disability.  You would be paying taxes and contributing to society.

And the way I work it is simple.  I just do what my bosses tell me to do, and I put in a little pizaazz of improvement in there with my comments.

At one point the president of the company was telling other employees that I was her favorite associate.

So if your a schizophrenic and want to work, take heart, I’m doing it.  And I’m a pretty stupid person for all the smoking and drinking I do.  I’m a schizophrenic, I do all this stuff, and I still hold a job and support my family.  If I can get this done, I know others can be inspired to do the same, and screw disability and get a job and make MORE money than they would on disability.

Just work with your hands, and screw the voices, and make your bosses job easier, and pray things go smoothly.  You’ll be fine.  I really sincerely wish the best for you.

Here’s to happy job hunting,

Jesse Creel

How Do Schizophrenics Get A Job That Pays Them $20,000 A Year?

And the answer is to drink and smoke and hate working until your in such a bad place that you will take advice from your younger brother and take a job with him.

And if your lucky like me, you’ll advance, even though your drinking and smoking in your free time, because it’s easier on the voices.

And I love working.  It pays me.  I love it also because I like my bosses.  They are sweet.  They have the sugar.  And their women.  So it’s easier for me to get along with them.

I’ve always gotten along better with the opposite sex.  There’s no alpha male drama just the mother taking care of her children.

But I really could be more of a man and make something of this blog.  I could be a better man if I could take my yearly income and make it my monthly income.  Then I would really have a start.  I would of course pay taxes, as every man has to, but I would be rolling in the doe.

That is of course if I don’t first hit the lottery.  I’m playing for this Mega Millions $36,000,000 jackpot.

It’s a small one, but I think that might make it even better.  I have found that the people who win more than one jackpot win smaller amounts.  They don’t take away a billion dollar jackpot.  But really if you play it right, you only have to win once to make a life for yourself.

But I can do it.  I know I can.  You find out on this blog how I do it.  I’m going to win the jackpot, or I’m going to eat my words.  But I would rather apologize for being wrong then to never go for it.  And you never know, this could be the best story on the news for a while.

Man writes on a blog about winning the jackpot, man wins the jackpot, man writes blog, man writes ebook, man starts internet business with the winnings, man makes a life for himself.  It would be beautiful.

And it all starts here.  At this blog.  I write, I work, I drink, I smoke, I raise a family, I am a husband, I’m a salesman, I’m a schizophrenic, and I could change my life right now if I wanted to.  But I’m hooked.  I’m hooked on the lottery, drinking and smoking.

I’ll probably never win the jackpot.  That’s just a reality.  But I don’t face that reality.  I dream.  And I dream big.  I could win not just one, but several jackpots in my lifetime.  I could be a youtube star.  I could be famous.

Then again, this probably will never work.  I probably will never win not even one jackpot.  I keep holding out hope for it though.  I know that if I win my life will be a lot better, so I hold out hope.

I keep hoping I win, I keep hoping I win.

Like Jesus said to do, whatsoever you ask for in prayer, in believing you shall receive it.

So I believe I already have the jackpot win.

I believe that I am already a multi millionaire overnight.

Not that it happened overnight.  It took years.  But it happened seemingly overnight and for that I’m thankful.

I’m thankful for that because it finally happened.  I’m finally a multimillionaire.

I’m grateful.  I’m pleased.  I’m thankful to the universe.

I hope I win.

This is probably a good joke for a comedian.  At least I can fulfill a role in society by being the butt of a joke.  That is only of course if I don’t win.

If I DO WIN, there will be an instructional ebook on how to win one of the big games with your mind.  At this point I don’t know if I would charge for that kind of information.  I could say that I want to be a public service and give it away for free, or I could say that it’s too valuable an there has to be a price tag.

Either way I would write the book.  And borrow liberally from the past 10 years journals.  One of my therapists voices in my head told me if she ever read my journal that she would think I had a problem with the lottery.

I probably do have a problem with the lottery.  But that doesn’t stop me from thinking I’ll win.

The voices say my name and tell me no.  I don’t know what to think.

I think I’m going to win the jackpot.  Just wait and see.  It’s going to happen.  Then I’ll be famous and so will this website, and we’ll make merry of it.

That’s all I think is going to happen.

And I’ll get a free ebook for my list and start getting a list together, and then sell network marketing.  It will be beautiful.  If that’s what I do end up doing.

Because I might not sell network marketing to my list, I might sell ebooks and rock and roll albums.

I just recorded a rock and roll poem with no guitar.  Just me singing it.  The words.  It was beautiful.  It was about winning 36 million dollars.  Just a small jackpot, but something to live off so you could start a business.

And start a business I would.  I would buy traffic for this site.  Get people reading my work.  Get them to a landing page where I could get their email addresses.  Make money doing that!

What do you think, a blogger, an ad man, a business man, getting paid for selling e books.  And rock and roll albums.  And maybe end up getting a record deal.  There’s more than one way to become a multimillionaire.  The lottery, yes.  But there are other things too.

But I’ve probably waited too long to get going, I’m probably going to land flat on my face.  On the other side of the coin the only option is success and you’ve got to have it so… what’s going to happen?

I say the best possible outcome will come with diligent hard work everyday.  Getting the hours in at work, and then coming home and getting a couple hours in on the blog.  That be my way of life.

And there’s more to it than just work and blogging.  There is also family life.  Very important to overall well being.  A healthy family.

I love my family.  They are the best.

And the schizophrenia makes me a better dad.  It helps me guide my family to the path that I think is right.

But i could be better if I didn’t drink and smoke.  I could lead my family better.

But I must write.  That is what I must do.  I know this could lead me places, and my family places.  I just have to commit to writing everyday and see what comes of it.  I’m looking for a 6 or 7 figure income.

So how does a schizophrenic like me go from a $20,000 a year job to a $240,000 a year income from writing a blog?

I’ll let you know all about it on this blog, just check back for the new posts.

And the voices tell me I’m too high to make that kind of money.  I say I just have to work harder than the average person to make that kind of money.

So that’s what I’m going to do.  I’m just going to work harder.

And you won’t find a lot of quotes in my stuff.  It’s straight from my own heart.  In a way you could look at it as fiction.  My own personal dream world.  But I also say you could stand to learn a lot from me.

You could learn how to live even when your being told to die and you feel like your dying.  You could live to the next day and get better.  You might still be told to die, but that happens everyday, and it’s nothing your not used to hearing.

I guess that’s all for me today.  I hope you have a good time.

Jesse Creel

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