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40 Ways For A Schizophrenic To Get And Hold A Job

Hello internet world.  This is Jesse Creel and I’m writing to you today to let you know I care.  I want to help.  So if your a schizophrenic who wants to work, I figured these tips might help you on your way.  Drink deeply of them, and soak it up.  I’ve been working for 2 years now at the same job and I’ve been a schizophrenic the entire time.  I had a really hard time at first when things first went haywire.  Now I’m back to working, and I’m happy to be paying taxes and contributing to society.  The same can be with you.  If your a schizophrenic and want to work, then this is for you.  I hope you gain some insight from this post, and can put one or two things to work in your life and that you benefit from reading this post.  Here’s to your success even though you hear voices!

  1. Love Your Job- Even if you hate working, love your work.  It will take discipline to do this, but it will be well worth it, and you may even get promoted for doing such a good job.  Not only should you love the hands on work you do, you should also love your customers.  Put love into your work with the product, and love your customers for paying your check to you.  Love your job, even if it’s a conscious choice.
  2. Do Something You Can Love-  Yes again, it’s all about the love.  If you can’t stand working a cash register then get a job where you get to work more with your hands.  I’ve found, as a schizophrenic, it really helps to have hands on work.  The voices can’t chase away your work ethic, so if you can be a hard worker everyday, there’s a good chance you’ll be able to get and hold a job.  That would be a good thing for all things that are right in the world.  At least until you win that lottery drawing.
  3. Find Reasons To Work-  Maybe you’ve applied for disability and it’s taking too long.  Maybe you have a family and need the money to support them.  Maybe you just need to pay your bills so you don’t have to rely on your family to support you, and you can be free of being a burden to them… at least partly depending on how much money you make.  Find many, many, many, many reasons to work.  Money can definitely be a motivator so use that motivation to get you out of bed in the morning and get into work.  Use that motivation to swallow your pride and take a job that you think maybe is beneath you.  You may find that it’s the perfect fit and they want to give you everything you want in a job.
  4. Work With A Family Member-  For me, working with my younger brother really helped me.  He got me my current job, the one I’ve had for the past 2 years.  He has since moved on, but I count the times I worked with him as precious, even though he was an incredible pain to me.  For me, working with my younger brother required that I swallow my pride and take HIS advice.  That was very difficult for me, but it landed me the second best job I’ve ever had.  Where I CAN do the job, and my bosses like me.  If you can get a job with a brother, sister, parent, cousin, anyone, you may find the opportunity your looking for.  Take their advice, snap out of your delusions about money just coming to you, and take action and work!  You can have all the dreams you want as long as your working and contributing something.  That’s the way I look at it and I’m a schizophrenic who makes a living working a job!
  5. Love Your Bosses-  Again, and I can’t say it enough, you gotta put love into it.  Everything will turn out better.  So love your bosses too.  That may or may not be difficult, but it will result in a better relationship with your company.  If you love your bosses, you will do everything you need to do, in your power, to make their lives easier.  And if their life is easier because of what you do, then you’re going to have a good time about it.  They most likely will be kind to you, and treat you with respect for your wishes.  They will make you work, but your getting paid anyways, so you might as well do the job the best you can do it.  So love your bosses, do your work with love, and collect your paycheck.  If you keep it up, chances are those paychecks are going to be getting bigger.
  6. Don’t Complain-  Once you’ve gotten your job, you’re going to have to work.  So there’s no sense in complaining about it.  You have to work, and there’s going to be pains you experience as a result, but why fuss?   Your getting paid, and your contributing, so you might as well suck it up and do what they ask you to do, without reservation.  If you don’t complain when your bosses ask you to do things that the average employee would complain about you’ll get brownie points, and that could lead to a raise.  So don’t complain, and reap the rewards!
  7. Sleep Enough-  Work and the voices will wear you down.  Make sure you get plenty of rest.  You work hard, and you have a hand in life that you MUST play.  Make the most of it.  Don’t get me wrong, you shouldn’t sleep so much you don’t get anything done in your personal life, but make sure you’re sleeping enough so that your not miserable at your job.  Part of my success I attribute to getting enough sleep at night.  So sleep enough, and get your rest, you deserve it as a schizophrenic who works.
  8. Make Work A Priority-  Yes, work should be a priority.  Again, you have to come up with reasons to work if you want to do it.  For me it’s my family, and it’s living a better life than just sitting on the couch and being a house cat.  You are going to be of more value if your working while you work on these crazy dreams of yours that are going to make you rich someday.  So find the motivation to work, and make working a priority, above all other things you have to do that day.  Unless of course your family needs you.  Family first, that’s what I say… but for me my children are taken care of during the day, everyday, so I have nothing better to do than work.  Make work a priority, and reap the rewards!
  9. Please Your Boss’s Voice That’s In Your Head-  As a schizophrenic, hearing voices, you may hear your boss’s voice in your head.  For me, it’s been a blessing, because she tells me things that are going to benefit me, for instance that I should “work!”.  To be honest I have heard once or twice that my boss is sick and tired of me, but that doesn’t bother me, because I am not sick or tired of her.  I just want to make her life easier, we all have to live with each other, and sometimes we want somebody to leave when they’re doing things we don’t like.  Sometimes I smoke too many cigarettes and the people I work with seem to know how I feel, and it’s not good and they don’t like it.  What I recommend you do, is talk to your voices, give them your point of view, and do it with love.  Try to make your head a better place to live in for the voices, especially for your bosses voice.  If you ever get enough money to quit, then you’ll have other voices that you’ll have to live with.  At any rate, as a successful schizophrenic, I believe we have to be civil with our voices, so that means no fighting.  Just go with it, make the best of it, put your filters in place (meaning don’t let the voices make you think what they say is reality), and do the best you can.  Take care of your boss, and your boss’s voice, and be happy you have a job!
  10. Shower Everyday-  Hygiene is important.  You want to be a clean schizophrenic.  It helps you be more normal.  You CAN take a shower everyday, there is nothing stopping you from doing that.  And you’ll be a better, cleaner person because of it.  You don’t want to go without showering.  Don’t let yourself go.  Take control, and promote cleanliness.
  11. Pray For Jobs You Can Do-  When I first started I prayed, and thanked God that I had a job I COULD do.  I was very happy that I could do SOME things around the store that would contribute to it’s running smoothly and growing.  I would not count out the power of prayer to help you in your life.  So ask God to help you, and you never know, he just might!
  12. Do Your Job With Confidence-  If something needs to get done, be the man or woman who CAN do it!  You don’t need to know any more to get the job done, you just need to have the confidence that you can serve and do the job well.  You’ll figure out the rest as you go along.  And each day you will get better.  The more time you have in, the better, more seasoned you will be.  And that will lead to even more confidence in your ability to do the job.  Do the job with confidence, and be a better leader.
  13. Treat Each Day Like It’s Going To Be A Good Experience-  My boss said to someone else, I overheard the conversation, that all the hours and the people over the holidays would be a good experience for them.  I heard that and took it to heart.  All the hours during the holidays were going to be good for me, and each day I work, even when it’s not the holiday, are going to be good experiences for me.  I recommend you look at it the same way.  Each day is going to be a good experience for you.  Even if you hear voices, it’s not all bad, and you can still do your job, so it IS a good experience, your getting paid!
  14. Ask Yourself The Question, How Do I Improve?-  This is the basis for what I believe has led me to several promotions.  I am always asking myself “How do I improve?”.  And I get answers from my voices.  A lot of the time it’s helpful and I just do my job better.  Think of what you could do for your own life if you were constantly asking yourself how you could improve.  Give it a try for a week and see what happens.  Keep it up and you may be surprised at the positive experience you have.
  15. Swallow Your Pride And Take Advice-  This one has already been touched on but it’s important and bears repeating.  If your hard headed like me, you won’t want to work for your money, and you’ll try to do things that would land you on easy street for no work at all.  I’ve been there, and it took a serious attitude adjustment to do what I do now.  And that attitude adjustment wouldn’t have come without me sucking it up and taking advice from my younger brother.  He told me to work, not to hate it, to act like I liked my life, and to stop playing the lottery.  I’ve done it all, except for the lottery, I still play that.  But I’m working and that’s a big step up for me.  As it could be for you as well.  Keep trying, and take advice, even if it means you may not be the miracle making lottery winner just yet.  You can do it!  You can work!
  16. Exercise Plenty-  For me, this means walking 2 to 3 miles a day.  I also do yoga, and crunches, and some pushups, and I stretch.  Exercise will do you good.  It’s one of those physical things that the voices can’t control.  You CAN exercise and become stronger.  You can do it even if you hear voices.  It will help you work your job, and you’ll be healthier.  So exercise!  It’s good for you.
  17. Drink A Lot Of Water And Eat Healthy-  This is common sense, but it’s still important.  You want to be mindful of what your putting into your body.  It could make you or break you.  Water is the giver of life, and we are made up of mostly fluid as human beings, so we had better be refreshing ourselves each day.  Eat well along with drinking plenty of water and you’ll feel good and be better prepared to deal with the voices and the work you have to do to contribute to your family and to society.
  18. Take Your Medication Everyday-  This is so important it can’t be overstated.  You have to stay on your medication if you want to be stable.  Don’t play with doses, don’t skip days.  Take it religiously, everyday, and do your self a favor and control your hallucinations.  Take your medication everyday, that is all.
  19. See A Therapist On A Regular Basis-  For me, therapy has helped me work.  My therapist helps me to discern reality just a bit more clearly, and he gives me insight as to how a smart human being would look at my life.  I’m not doing that bad.  I just have to keep working.  And seeing my therapist once a month helps me to stay on track and making my life better each day.  I highly recommend talk therapy for schizophrenics as mandatory, to help you out with the false beliefs that can be caused by the voices.
  20. Give Money To Family And Charity, And Pay Your Bills-  You can do this now that your working!  Help yourself out by helping your family out, and don’t forget about the poor people out there once you’ve made a steady income.  They need you.  Pay your bills, or do the best you can do, and get out of debt.  Do everything you can do each day to get your butt into work so that you can do these things, and make a difference in the lives of those you love most, and in the lives of perfect strangers.  What goes around comes around.  So be good, and do good.  You’ll be happy you did.
  21. Pay Taxes-  It’s better than being on disability.  You not relying on the government to do your work for you.  It’s better for society IF you can work.  Not discouraging anyone from being on disability.  If you need that then there’s a reason it’s there.  But IF you CAN work, I say it’s better that you do.  That’s just this schizophrenic.  You can support all the things that your taxes pay for, like schools, firefighters, and police.  Not to mention the military.  If you are working your helping to support our hero’s, and that’s a good thing if you ask me.  I’m a working schizophrenic, and my view matters.  Work, and pay taxes.  You’ll be happy you did.  God help us all.
  22. Have Something You Can Work On In Your Free Time-  Yes, you want to work, and you want to contribute, but as Jim Rohn put it “Work harder on yourself than you do at your job” so you want to put some work in, in your free time.  There are endless ways you could do this, for me it’s blogging and writing e books.  For me, that’s the best way I can do it in my free time.  Besides, I really love doing it.  So pick something you can love, maybe it’s reading, and do that thing when your not working or taking care of your family.  Work it, and work it good.  Even better than you do at your job.  Because you CAN get and hold a job, and work it there.  Then you can come home and work it even harder on yourself!  Do something with your free time because your not wholly someone else’s slave.  You are a person with a passion, and you can unleash that passion onto the world.  See what happens, learn as you go along, course correct… work on something in your free time.
  23. Do What Your Told To Do-  Without complaining.  Said it before, say it again.  Make your boss’s job easier.  Just do what your told to do.
  24. Be Open To New Opportunity-  This is geared towards those folks who don’t yet have a job, or are not where they want to be.  Give yourself the opportunity to go somewhere, maybe with a family member, and submit to an hourly position.  You’re a schizophrenic and high paying commission sales jobs haven’t worked out.  You need to work with your hands and leave the people alone.  You are screwed up.  You need to work with your body.  This is just your hand in life.  Hopefully the blessing is that you work well with your hands.  So taking another hourly job, starting from the bottom again, is the right thing to do.  So be open to new opportunity, and maybe work with a family member.
  25. W0rk On Being Better Each Day-  This goes along with asking yourself the question… “how do I improve?”.  Work on being a little better today than you were yesterday.  Stay on a steady progression upwards, just like the stock market does over the long term.  Things grow, that’s just the nature of it.  So if the country is growing, you should be too… and you can help contribute to that growth.  By working.  And if you work on getting better each day you MUST ALSO increase your chances of getting a raise.  I really think it could be done at McDonald’s or anywhere else.  Being a good employee and getting raises over time.  EVEN IF your a schizophrenic.  Work on getting better each and every day, day in day out… and those improvements that you make little by little, will add up to big change in your life.
  26. Stay Close To Your Family And Listen To Them-  My family pulled us through when I was thinking of divorce.  The voices were just so crazy.  If it wasn’t for my family, professional help, and medication, I wouldn’t be working where I’m working today, or married, with 2 beautiful kids.  My parents really helped me out.  I’m in debt to them.  I owe them.  And I’m working my way to paying them all back.  My credit card, my parents… at one point I was thinking of going homeless.  My parents kept me sheltered. For a schizophrenic not having to worry about anything is a relief.  And if it weren’t for my brother I wouldn’t have my job, so not only am I indebted to my parents, I’m also indebted to my brother.  In my experience, if you lean on your family, they will get you through tough times.  I do not recommend chronically leaning on them.  The idea is to become independent of the family.  To make enough money to even SUPPORT a family.  But I say if your a schizophrenic and you can make over $1,000 a month, and you can give your family some money… you ARE doing something.  And giving back wouldn’t have been possible without the people you are giving it to.  Stay close to your family and listen to them.  Family is important for schizophrenics, or anyone for that matter.
  27. Calmly Fulfill Your Responsibilities-  Those days where I feel like I’m dying probably because of too many cigarettes, and the voices are telling me to die, and that I’m dying, and what I do is simply work.  If you can work when you feel like your dying, for the good of all concerned, you are certainly doing something.  It CAN BE a good experience.  Calmly fulfill your responsibilities and you will be a lady or a gentleman.  It won’t matter that you have schizophrenia and hear voices everyday.  No one can tell.  No one cares.  You do your job well.  You are weird, don’t lie to yourself, but that doesn’t mean you can do a hands on job very well.  Even if the voices are telling you to die, you can go into work and do the job, and everything will be fine.  You’re not going to die, it’s only a hallucination, and you can improve.  Instead of imagining yourself dying when the voices tell you to die, imagine how you can improve your life.  See what kind of results you get.
  28. Think Of Your Family As You Make Your Hourly Pay-  If you don’t have a wife and kids, maybe think of your parents, or who ever supported you when you were at your lowest.  Work and think of them that your doing your best for them and that will make you feel good.  It will make you feel useful.  What better a thing can a man or woman be?  Serve, because you were served and even if you were a multimillionaire, you may never be able to repay what has been given to you.  You sure could do something though.  Something good.  But seeing as you have to work an hourly job, and are not yet a multimillionaire, think of your family as you make your hourly pay, and know your doing the right thing.
  29. Breathe!- Don’t forget to breathe.  It can really get you through the other side of the pain.  You can come out alive by breathing.  Can’t say it enough… breathe!
  30. Don’t Let Your Disability Define You-  Sure you may be a schizophrenic, but all that means is you hear voices everyday.  That doesn’t make you, you.  What you do, your actions, your work, the present defines you.  This may sound a little crazy as your reading about a schizophrenic, but looking only at the disease is not getting the whole picture.  You can also be a family man or woman, a musician, a writer, a poet, a worker, a salesperson, a marketer, a closer, a leader, the list can be endless.
  31. TELL Your Bosses Your A Schizophrenic Trying To Get Your Life Together- One of two things will happen.  They will either look down on you because you have a disability, or they will trust you because you were honest with them.  If you are heartfelt in your confession, it’s more likely they will trust you.  Let me know in the comments how that goes for you, I would really like to know.  I don’t think they are allowed to fire you, and you can feel better that you were honest about why you didn’t have the best attendance at first.
  32. Be Honest-  That goes hand in hand with telling your bosses your a schizophrenic.  Don’t do anything stupid and tell them anything that would get you fired, but be honest about your intentions, and if they are good you are going to do well.  Tell them about how things are going, and don’t be afraid to share work you are proud of.  Do the right thing, so honesty comes naturally to you.  Be honest.
  33. Treat Your Coworkers Like The Ladies And Gentlemen They Are-  This for me and my coworkers, holding the door for each other and calling each other “sir” or “miss”.  It means having respect for your coworkers.  What you do will rub off on them, so rub them the right way, to the best of your ability.
  34. Work More Than You Want To IF You Have To-  The holidays at my place means 50 or 55 hours a week.  That time is necessary to get the job done.  My bosses need me there for that period of time to make sure the job goes smoothly.  So I work a lot more than I really want to.  The paychecks are nice, and I gladly work the hours, and part of me wishes that I could get those kinds of hours all year long, but it is a lot of work.  I do it though, and my bosses appreciate it.  So if they need you, stay and do the work.  Do the hours, you’re getting paid anyways.
  35. Work With Long Term Success In Mind-  I read somewhere that it takes 10 years to master any given subject.  So I figure if you want to master a job, it’s going to take 10 years of your life.  If you’ve found a good job, you may want to devote 10 years of your working life to that cause.  If you do, good things may come of it.  If your a schizophrenic like me, holding it down for 2 years is an accomplishment.  I say go for another 8, meanwhile working on your business that’s going to pull you in 6 figures a year.
  36. Tell Your Voices In Your Head “I Must Live”-  You have a say.  What the voices say isn’t necessarily what’s going to happen.  You have some control.  Tell your voices what you think and influence the conversation in your head.  Tell them, when they tell you to die, that you MUST live.  Silence the voices that tell you to die by breathing.  You can live, you MUST live.
  37. Be Special-  If your a schizophrenic, your not normal.  There are only about 3.5 million schizophrenics in the U.S.A. according to Quora.  So if your working a job, chances are you might be the only schizophrenic who works there.  Especially if it’s a small company.  So really, you ARE special.  You hear voices, you may even hear your coworkers.  That makes you special.  Embrace it.  You are different.  You are part of the flavor of the world.  Take pride that you hear voices and can still work.  That makes you some of the most special of the special.
  38. Take Care Of Yourself When Your Off-  As I already mentioned, sleep enough, get good food, and drink plenty of water.  Don’t drink too much alcohol, and try not to smoke too many cigarettes.
  39. Do What You Do And Don’t Mind If You Die Doing It, Nothing Is Going To Stop You-  You could die at any time, young or old.  So life can at times be fragile.  If you feel like your dying, and you hear voices encouraging you to die, maybe you will die.  Still, that won’t stop you from doing what you are doing.  If you’re going to die, your going to die with your bootstraps on.  NOTHING will stop you from doing your job.  Not the feelings, not the voices, not the cigarettes, not the alcohol you drank last night.  You consistently do your job, because that’s what you have to do and you want to make the most of it.  Take that attitude and see where it takes you if your a working schizophrenic.
  40. Be Grateful For Every Penny You Get-  I’ve been fired from a job before and now that I’ve been holding another one I won’t make the same mistake.  That mistake was not being grateful for my job.  I now embrace the attitude of gratitude and I am happy to do my job because that’s what God has given me to do.   And it’s work I CAN do.  So be grateful for every penny, every minute you get at work.  Some people don’t have jobs.

That’s my 40 tips for schizophrenics who want to work, or do better and get promoted.  I sincerely hope you enjoyed it and can pull at least one or two nuggets out of there that will change your life for the better.  Make sure you subscribe to my list as you will get the best content that you can’t get anywhere else.  I’m working on getting my subscriber count up so that I can build relationships with you folks out there on the internet.  If your interested, please put your name and email address into the form. You’ll be happy you did.

Thanks for reading, here’s to all of us getting a promotion,

Jesse Creel

How Do I Make $20,000 A Year When I’m A Schizophrenic

I’m not a doctor, but I will say take your medication everyday.

I’ve had a revelation.

I’ve discovered my audience.

I am writing for schizophrenics who want to work.

I am a schizophrenic, and I make $20,000 a year.

From basically nothing.

I am a story of success.

I hear voices everyday that tell me I’m dying.

I must live and I tell them so.

Today was my daughters dance recital.  She was a crayon.

But let me not get off topic.  It’s hard because I’m a worker, but I’m also a family man.

I tell you even if your schizophrenic and think you can’t work, you can, and you can make an honest living off of your own sweat and blood.

Though chances are, if your like me, cutting yourself will rarely happen.  Most of the time it will just be sweat your putting into it.

So how do you, when your a schizophrenic, work and make more than you can make to get disability?

My answer came in swallowing my pride and taking my younger brother’s advice and I took a job with him.

He was hell to work with because he was constantly scrutinizing me and he was my senior in the company so I just had to do what he was telling me.  And when that’s coming from your younger brother it really takes hard work to just work harder and faster so he will stop complaining.

My brother no longer works with me, but it was a good experience with him while we had it.

The point is he landed me a job, and I didn’t even have to have an interview.  They just took me in on my brothers word.  Which I needed because I didn’t really have any good references.  I was afterall fired from the best job I’ve ever had in my life, when I lost it and asked some guy to fight, thinking it would earn me some respect.

It was an upheaval of epic proportions.  I couldn’t stand to work there anymore.  I was becoming a schizophrenic and I was about to get married.  I wanted to be a rockstar and not the guy who was making the guitars for the rockstar.  I wanted to be in the game.  I wanted a band.  I wanted to travel.

At the same time I didn’t want to give up the 18.50 an hour and the benefits.  So I stayed and hated it and eventually blew up.

And it got me fired.

That’s a hard thing to come back from.

I was making almost $40,000 a year!  Back to nothing.  It was a huge loss.  I still haven’t completely recovered from that.

I now make half of what I used to make.  I’m at $12 dollars an hour now.

Which really is good if your thinking about what a fast food employee makes.

I have gotten a couple of raises, one of them ironically came on my birthday.  I got paid an extra two dollars and the check came on my birthday.  Pretty cool.  I think God has blessed me with this job.

And I definitely don’t want to screw it up.

I’ve learned my lesson and now I have an attitude of gratitude and I thank God for my job.  It’s something I can do and not hate, so it’s easy for me to do my job.

And it’s easy to ask yourself how you can improve.  I do it all the time and I look for ways to be a better employee.  And it pays off.  I get raises.  I’m growing.  And on top of it all I’m a schizophrenic.

So if your a schizophrenic, and you want to work.  If you want to make more money than disability is going to pay you, then work.  It’s so amazingly good for you.  I get paid to wash dishes and talk to customers.  I can’t believe I get paid to do such easy work.  And when your working with your hands, it’s a lot easier for a schizophrenic.

But I do both, I work with my hands, and I work with customers, or potential customers.

I’m grateful for the hands on work, because it’s less stressful.  Talking to people is harder than doing Manuel labor.  At least for this schizophrenic.

But I do both and I really love talking to people.  It’s what my raises have led me to.  So I happily take on more stress, and with the voices it’s like people don’t like me because I’m a schizophrenic.

It’s like they know I hear voices that are telling me to die, or that they want to murder me, mostly just to die from smoking, but I just keep on keeping on, and improving, and so far I’ve woken up everyday.

It’s really a trip.

Sometimes not a good one, sometimes a very sexy one.  Sometimes a positive one.  I take the good with the bad.  But I am still working a job.  And I’m helping to support my family in a little way.  Gotta start somewhere.  I figure supporting them in a little way is better than nothing, and it’s a good start to doing a better job.

Because I’m not stopping with my job.  I’m moving on towards blogging.  I’m going to kick ass and make a 6 figure business and then ladder up to a 7 figure business.

That’s my plan.

Because I’ve got nothing else to do with my free time, other then spend it with my family and clean the house.

I’ve got plenty of time to start a business in my free time.

So I’m keeping my options open.

But that’s not going to stop me from working my job.

I’m a schizophrenic, and I work.  That’s what I do.  I’m okay.  I’m good to go.  I’m diseased, but I can still do my job.  And I can do the job well.

On top of it all I can write!

And write I will.

As it could be with you too.  If your a schizophrenic and work a job, that’s something worth writing about.  You could write all about your voices and what it takes to contribute to society.

Something I read on said you should write long form content if you want to be successful.  That means 3,000 words or more.  I’ve been writing 2,000.

But my audience is schizophrenics who don’t have a job and want to work.  Or work better at their job.  So I have to write for my audience.

The truth is part of the way I live my life is to deal with the voices by drinking and smoking.  It’s a rock and roll lifestyle and it could land me in my grave if I don’t play my piss poor hand right.  I am afterall, a schizophrenic.  My doctor told me I just had to deal with the cards I was dealt with in life.  I blamed my failure in business on the voices telling me I had cancer.

I of course am healthy, and there is nothing wrong with me.  Except I hear voices that other people don’t hear.

It is interesting because sometimes it seems like other people CAN hear my voices.  And they say things out loud about it to other people.  Like the people I work with.  They are always talking to themselves out loud.

I also heard in a Pat Flynn’s podcast recently about how if you wouldn’t tell your grandmother what you were doing, then should you really be doing it?

As far as starting a business goes.

But the problem is hating work when your a schizophrenic.

So what do you do?

I say you find a job that you can do.  Let the Lord bless you with an opportunity, by being humble and taking good advice.  Do the hands on work you have to do, because you hear voices and think that scares sales away.

Because I’ve been in the sales game for 7 years now, and I can tell you it’s not easy.

I failed more than I have succeeded, and now God has given me the opportunity to sell again, this time I get paid whether I sell or not.  So it’s really a win.

And that’s my new job.

Go out, drive around to local businesses, give them a taste of our product, and follow up the next day.  It’s so simple anyone could do it.

But I AM the only person in the 3 store company who does it.  They chose me.

And I do a superb job.  I got 6 sales in one month.

And I took some time off and worked in the store for the holiday, but now I’m back on the road, and I’m marketing.

Because that’s really what I would call it.  It’s not sales.  It’s too soft for that.  All I do is drop off two box lunches, a ham sandwich and a turkey sandwich…. with a bag of chips, a soda, a cookie, and a pickle, so they get the whole deal, and then I tell them to make sure they pass my name along IF they order.

That way my company knows I’m doing something.

I’m a smart salesman, and i also smoke, which makes me so just stupid sexy.

For most of the day I’m smoking, in the car, in between businesses.

It’s probably not the best way to pass the time, but I’m addicted and I do it, and I’m still alive.

And I figure even if i die early, I’ll still have another 20 or 30 years in me.  Human beings can stand pain for decades.

Or I could change my life and shoot to live to 100.

Maybe I can live to 100 and drink and smoke.  People do it.

But how do you work when your schizophrenic?

You find a good boss who will call you babe, and your willing to do whatever they ask you to do.  Your very easy going and want to make your bosses life easier.

That kind of attitude will get you raises.

And they are sweet as candy when you talk to them.

How do you make $20,000 a year even if your schizophrenic?

Work hard and do a job you can love.  Personally, I work for all women and I think that’s the way to go for this schizophrenic.  The managers of all 3 stores are women.  And the president is a woman.  I know all of them.  Most or all of them know I hear voices.  It’s like they are giving me a second chance.

And I can tell you it’s better writing than tapping out.  I’m feeling pretty drunk and hungry but it’s not dinner time and I’m waiting for my family to get home.

I did learn a lot from a Pat Flynn podcast.  It was all about laddering up.  Going from zero to a six figure business to a seven figure business.

He talked about how you had to reply to every comment, and be mindful of telling people to get on your list.  Each and everyday.

For a while I was just approving comments and letting them fly.  Now I respond to each one and let them know I’m here for them.

And that’s just for comments.  Imagine how I would treat the people on my list.  They are going to get my best stuff!

For now I write to you on this blog.

I consider it rock and roll art.  Poetry from the heart.

And I do it all writing and maintaining this website.

But the question is still, how do you get $20,000 a year working as a schizophrenic.

That would be doing a lot better than being on disability.  You would be paying taxes and contributing to society.

And the way I work it is simple.  I just do what my bosses tell me to do, and I put in a little pizaazz of improvement in there with my comments.

At one point the president of the company was telling other employees that I was her favorite associate.

So if your a schizophrenic and want to work, take heart, I’m doing it.  And I’m a pretty stupid person for all the smoking and drinking I do.  I’m a schizophrenic, I do all this stuff, and I still hold a job and support my family.  If I can get this done, I know others can be inspired to do the same, and screw disability and get a job and make MORE money than they would on disability.

Just work with your hands, and screw the voices, and make your bosses job easier, and pray things go smoothly.  You’ll be fine.  I really sincerely wish the best for you.

Here’s to happy job hunting,

Jesse Creel

How Do Schizophrenics Get A Job That Pays Them $20,000 A Year?

And the answer is to drink and smoke and hate working until your in such a bad place that you will take advice from your younger brother and take a job with him.

And if your lucky like me, you’ll advance, even though your drinking and smoking in your free time, because it’s easier on the voices.

And I love working.  It pays me.  I love it also because I like my bosses.  They are sweet.  They have the sugar.  And their women.  So it’s easier for me to get along with them.

I’ve always gotten along better with the opposite sex.  There’s no alpha male drama just the mother taking care of her children.

But I really could be more of a man and make something of this blog.  I could be a better man if I could take my yearly income and make it my monthly income.  Then I would really have a start.  I would of course pay taxes, as every man has to, but I would be rolling in the doe.

That is of course if I don’t first hit the lottery.  I’m playing for this Mega Millions $36,000,000 jackpot.

It’s a small one, but I think that might make it even better.  I have found that the people who win more than one jackpot win smaller amounts.  They don’t take away a billion dollar jackpot.  But really if you play it right, you only have to win once to make a life for yourself.

But I can do it.  I know I can.  You find out on this blog how I do it.  I’m going to win the jackpot, or I’m going to eat my words.  But I would rather apologize for being wrong then to never go for it.  And you never know, this could be the best story on the news for a while.

Man writes on a blog about winning the jackpot, man wins the jackpot, man writes blog, man writes ebook, man starts internet business with the winnings, man makes a life for himself.  It would be beautiful.

And it all starts here.  At this blog.  I write, I work, I drink, I smoke, I raise a family, I am a husband, I’m a salesman, I’m a schizophrenic, and I could change my life right now if I wanted to.  But I’m hooked.  I’m hooked on the lottery, drinking and smoking.

I’ll probably never win the jackpot.  That’s just a reality.  But I don’t face that reality.  I dream.  And I dream big.  I could win not just one, but several jackpots in my lifetime.  I could be a youtube star.  I could be famous.

Then again, this probably will never work.  I probably will never win not even one jackpot.  I keep holding out hope for it though.  I know that if I win my life will be a lot better, so I hold out hope.

I keep hoping I win, I keep hoping I win.

Like Jesus said to do, whatsoever you ask for in prayer, in believing you shall receive it.

So I believe I already have the jackpot win.

I believe that I am already a multi millionaire overnight.

Not that it happened overnight.  It took years.  But it happened seemingly overnight and for that I’m thankful.

I’m thankful for that because it finally happened.  I’m finally a multimillionaire.

I’m grateful.  I’m pleased.  I’m thankful to the universe.

I hope I win.

This is probably a good joke for a comedian.  At least I can fulfill a role in society by being the butt of a joke.  That is only of course if I don’t win.

If I DO WIN, there will be an instructional ebook on how to win one of the big games with your mind.  At this point I don’t know if I would charge for that kind of information.  I could say that I want to be a public service and give it away for free, or I could say that it’s too valuable an there has to be a price tag.

Either way I would write the book.  And borrow liberally from the past 10 years journals.  One of my therapists voices in my head told me if she ever read my journal that she would think I had a problem with the lottery.

I probably do have a problem with the lottery.  But that doesn’t stop me from thinking I’ll win.

The voices say my name and tell me no.  I don’t know what to think.

I think I’m going to win the jackpot.  Just wait and see.  It’s going to happen.  Then I’ll be famous and so will this website, and we’ll make merry of it.

That’s all I think is going to happen.

And I’ll get a free ebook for my list and start getting a list together, and then sell network marketing.  It will be beautiful.  If that’s what I do end up doing.

Because I might not sell network marketing to my list, I might sell ebooks and rock and roll albums.

I just recorded a rock and roll poem with no guitar.  Just me singing it.  The words.  It was beautiful.  It was about winning 36 million dollars.  Just a small jackpot, but something to live off so you could start a business.

And start a business I would.  I would buy traffic for this site.  Get people reading my work.  Get them to a landing page where I could get their email addresses.  Make money doing that!

What do you think, a blogger, an ad man, a business man, getting paid for selling e books.  And rock and roll albums.  And maybe end up getting a record deal.  There’s more than one way to become a multimillionaire.  The lottery, yes.  But there are other things too.

But I’ve probably waited too long to get going, I’m probably going to land flat on my face.  On the other side of the coin the only option is success and you’ve got to have it so… what’s going to happen?

I say the best possible outcome will come with diligent hard work everyday.  Getting the hours in at work, and then coming home and getting a couple hours in on the blog.  That be my way of life.

And there’s more to it than just work and blogging.  There is also family life.  Very important to overall well being.  A healthy family.

I love my family.  They are the best.

And the schizophrenia makes me a better dad.  It helps me guide my family to the path that I think is right.

But i could be better if I didn’t drink and smoke.  I could lead my family better.

But I must write.  That is what I must do.  I know this could lead me places, and my family places.  I just have to commit to writing everyday and see what comes of it.  I’m looking for a 6 or 7 figure income.

So how does a schizophrenic like me go from a $20,000 a year job to a $240,000 a year income from writing a blog?

I’ll let you know all about it on this blog, just check back for the new posts.

And the voices tell me I’m too high to make that kind of money.  I say I just have to work harder than the average person to make that kind of money.

So that’s what I’m going to do.  I’m just going to work harder.

And you won’t find a lot of quotes in my stuff.  It’s straight from my own heart.  In a way you could look at it as fiction.  My own personal dream world.  But I also say you could stand to learn a lot from me.

You could learn how to live even when your being told to die and you feel like your dying.  You could live to the next day and get better.  You might still be told to die, but that happens everyday, and it’s nothing your not used to hearing.

I guess that’s all for me today.  I hope you have a good time.

Jesse Creel

Schizophrenia And Drinking And Smoking

Yes, you could call me a schizophrenic.

But only if I told you I heard voices everyday.  And had visions of people.  People I know.

And the voices sometimes, a lot of times tell me to drink.  And a lot of times I do.

And basically I’m just praying I live.  Considering I smoke too.

I don’t advise this kind of writing to anyone, it’s too dangerous.

But reading it you might get a kick out of it.

I imagine feet.

That’s just how a schizophrenic writes.

I do my best though, and I really do want to bring massive value to the table.  And what I can tell you is even if your schizophrenic and drink and smoke everyday, you can still hold down a job and give some money to your family.

It would probably be more kid friendly without the smoking and the drinking, but they get by.

And I think my son has hater’s before he’s even done anything.  Because of me.  And my drinking and smoking.  Having a beautiful family.

Really I probably do lead a God damned life with all the drinking, smoking and lottery playing.

But that’s not stopping me from living.

And they say it’s a bad thing, but it’s legal!

What I have to do is find a way to get more traffic so more people see my list and will subscribe to it.

Because that’s how they say you can build a business.

It’s already costing me money to keep this site running, and I’m not making any money off of it yet.  I hope I will.  I hope that this is one of the ways I make my money.  The other two being my job and the lottery.

But really some authors think you should keep it a secret.  I say let it out and that way when you win people will have something to look at.  The story leading up to the win.  They can look back on it, and learn from you, and hopefully for some of them they learn how to win the lottery too!

Because that would just be awesome.  Getting a testimonial or several from people who have read your work, and then won the lottery.  Hit the jackpot.  Shared it with another person or won the whole thing.  Stories of both.  Because you won and shared what you knew.  It had a positive effect on the world.

The bible would probably say that is God damned too.  The bible with all of this God damnedness.

I’m probably no better than the devil though.  I’ll probably burn in hell when this life is over.  I’m a schizophrenic and when I go to church the preachers voice tells me not to drink and it makes me shaky.  I know they are just voices, but sometimes it’s like my body is listening to them when they tell me to die.

But I know it’s not.  I know I just have to be stronger.  I’m only 32.  I could suffer another 20 or 30 years this way.  This is far from over.  And I might even quit the life and live clean and sober and start running.

But really I’m already well pretty accustomed to this way of life.  I like it.  I enjoy the ride.

Probably going straight to hell though.

Even if I do win the lottery and give large sums of money away to charity.

That would be me just living life on earth.  Nothing to do with what happens to me after I die.

Or maybe it does.  I don’t know.

And if it pisses you off the way I write then go read something else.  Because your comments are what I need to stay just the way I am.  An artist.  A writer.

I may use and, and but too much, but that’s just the way I write.  I get the point across.  You know what I’m talking about and that’s what I’m talking about.

And I want to walk the walk too.  So I’m going to write the best blog post I can possibly write, right now.

And how do I create the worlds most valuable piece of writing everyday?

Just write and see what happens.

Probably with the drinking and smoking it will be less than average.  Or it will be stupendous.

I don’t know, you tell me in the comments.

What I can tell you is that I’m optimistic about tonight’s lottery.  I think I’m going to win.  Before I bought the two first tickets I wrote out a page in my journal about how I was a lottery winner, and drank my first glass of wine.

Then I went out and bought the first two tickets.

Then I ran out of cigarettes and went out and bought two more.

So I spent 8 dollars on lottery tickets today, and I’m praying I’ll win.  I’m praying to the universe, to my subconscious mind.

And what I’m hoping is that MY subconscious mind is powerful enough to influence a national lottery game.

Maybe I’m trying to catch the breeze with this one.

Maybe I’ll just buy my tickets and hope I win but do no more than that.

I doubt it.  I’ll probably never quit, and keep the faith, and eventually win.

I might even win a few times.  Just to win more money.  Just to be a winner.

If I could design it that’s what would happen.  I would win big several times.

I’m hoping that the 165 million on the line tonight is already mine.

I’ll write about it if I win.  I’ll also release my website in the press interview and get loads of traffic.

Then the world could see what I’m really all about.

Having schizophrenia, and drinking and smoking, and working a job, and taking care of my family, and cleaning the house, and writing, and playing guitar, and being a brother, and being a friend, and loving food, and dancing.

Well maybe not so much the dancing, but it’s more of a metaphor.

The dance of life.

And part of what I want to tell the world is that I love my wife.  So for all of you ladies out there, I’m taken, and I don’t plan on going back to a life of cheating any time soon.

I just want to raise our family in our dream home, and take lots of vacations all over the world.

I’m going to get my testes snipped so it will be impossible for us to have any more children.

And the vacation after that procedure will probably be well worth it.

It will be, and I intend to make it happen.

But really, I don’t think I can impose my will onto the universe.  Part of me thinks people just win the lottery.  There’s hardly ever any will involved.  People win by chance.

Sure maybe they get feelings like they are going to win, but I make myself have those everyday, and I haven’t won.  Of course that doesn’t mean I won’t win tonight.

I’ve already done a lot of work to win the jackpot.  I think it’s only a matter of time.  I would be famous if that happened, and this website and the Jesse Creel brand would explode.

How did I do it?

I drank and smoked, and played to win.  I wrote in my journal and I worked hard everyday.  I got to a place where I was secure at my job.  I succeeded at my job.  I helped my family.  I got to a better place.  I recovered from a loss.  Then I won the jackpot.  Then I got everything I wanted.  It was a miracle.  It was my special time.  I was a multi millionaire.

That’s how the story goes.

That’s how my story goes.  And if it’s madness I don’t care.  I like it and I’m a valuable part of society.  I deliver food.

Hopefully your reading this and I am already a multimillionaire.  Maybe you want to learn how to do the same for your own life.  I tell you my secret.  Never give up.

Even if the voices tell you that your wrong and your doing bad things, and things will never work out, and your going to die, you can STILL work a job and be a effective member of your family and your community.

Take the next step further like I do and keep a blog and you’ll start to influence the whole world.

There are going to be some special people that find your work and read your blog.  They will leave comments and tell you what they think about it.  Most of them will be nice.  You will like getting comments.  Subscribers would be better, but comments are still good.  They let you know how your doing.

And along with my own self navigation and the comments, I am lead to believe I’m doing good.  And I want more.  I must write.  I must deliver the content.  To the masses.  To my people.  To my good people.  The good people of the world.


I would say that “All are lunatics, but he who can analyze his delusion is called a philosopher.” -Ambrose Bierce

If I win the jackpot they will probably call me a prophet.  If I don’t a madman.

I’d rather have the former.

And I’m optimistic that I will.

Maybe I might lose some readers, but I stand to gain fame and fortune.

Time will tell what happens.

For now I stay optimistic.

I do the work on the lottery, though I don’t know that my work of writing and praying really does anything to your chances of winning.  Spiritually I think it does have an effect on your life.  Praying to win.  But I do it, because I never give up and I MUST win.  And if I get going once, I’m probably going to want to win a couple more times too, and I’m going to write about the whole thing.  It really should be spectacular.

And I do rock and roll albums too.

I have one in the works.

You can hear a sample of me playing guitar and singing here.

It’s not much.  It’s only about 10 years worth of work.  Maybe there is such a thing as not being able to work it into a success, but I can’t accept that.

I MUST keep doing what I do, even if it’s not good.

It’s all I know how to do.

I’m probably just too hard on myself, and I’m really great, I just need to keep working.

So keep working I will.

On this blog, on my job, on my life, on my family, on my friends, on the things that are important most to me.  Drinking and smoking the whole way through it.

But maybe I’ll win the jackpot tonight.  I’m very optimistic that I will.  And that I’ll have a good story to tell about it.  And that’s going to happen or I’m going to write for the rest of my life about it and be a loser.

Die empty handed.

I guess in the end it doesn’t matter anyways.  I say go for it.  It may be on the edge of madness but it’s also on the brink of genius.  Then again, that’s just what I think, go ahead and form your own opinion.  Am I mad?

Maybe if I got sober I would stand a better chance at manifesting a lottery win.  Maybe not.  All I know is my story could either be a really sad one or a really happy one, depending on how you look at it.

All I know is that people are going to call me a saint after I’ve given away some of my winnings to charity.

It’s going to be sinfully glorious to help other people out.  Going to burn in hell but at least I can live it up while I’m here.

Maybe I’ll be forgiven, Jesus afterall is a forgiver.

But you probably have to stop what your doing for him to forgive you and I am, still drinking and smoking.

I hope the best life for you,

Thanks for reading,

Jesse Creel

Back To The Routine Of Working And Writing Everyday

Today I did 5 hours.

When I got off I bought a 12 pack of Miller Lite cans.

I’ve had 2.

And I’m still smoking even though I asked my subconscious mind to help me stop last night.  I slept in and then bought a pack on my way to work.

There are two ways you could look at the way I live my life.

Either you could say that I just need to be stronger and it’s fine to live the way I do.

Or you could say that my life would be a lot better if I stopped drinking and smoking.  I would say my health, my money, it would be better for my kids, a number of reasons.

All I can say is that I’m trying to stop, and it’s not working.

Maybe you can help me by leaving an insightful comment.

I’ve been reading the web about how to make money off of your blog.

I read a post on yesterday when I was hanging out with my family that made me think that maybe I don’t have it in me to make $100,000.00 dollars dollars a month off this blog.  They do it, but they have several products for sale, all of varying prices.  And the top price is $10,000.00.

You can read it all by going here.  They do it, and they want to teach you how to do the same thing.  Go here and read it now, and then you’ll know what I’m talking about.

That blog, along with another I’ve read makes over $100,000.00 dollars dollars a month.

If you ask me, why NOT be obsessed with money.  It’s a good thing.  It helps you get to where you want to be.  It makes you feel good.

That’s why I write dollars dollars.

The crazy thing is that after reading that post, I don’t know if I CAN make a product that I could sell for $10,000.00, or $5,000.00, or $2,500.00.

I’m working on an ebook that I was thinking of putting up for sale for $4.99.  That’s all I’ve got!

So what in God’s name do I do.

Considering I thought by writing this blog everyday I was bringing myself closer to quitting my job and being an entrepreneur by profession.

Granted I did need some rest.  If you haven’t been reading everyday, the new posts, I wrote for about a month and took 5 days off during that month.  3 at the very end of it, all in a row.

I was drinking too much and wanting to quit cigarettes and heaven help me I didn’t want to write.

I tried one of the three nights to write, but I wanted to write about the Powerball and it just wasn’t doing it for me.

But this stuff has to be useful for people.  Even if I make no money at all…

I don’t want to write shit everyday.

I want to be a man of value.

I guess it comes down to my personal life, and how I live.

Because I’ve talked about work.  I’ve talked about my income at my job, and doing sales there and getting raises and bonuses.  Even though I’m not getting much, I’m getting more than the average worker there, and there are only a few people like that.  Besides me, the rest of the people making more money is managers with years into the company.

Anyways, I’m doing great at my job and the future is bright.

The point is how I’m living my personal life.

The point is the drinking and smoking is influencing me, even controlling me.

The voices have said I need to get help.

I HAVE help.  I have a therapist.

Really, my life is going great, it’s just that I don’t FEEL good.

Everyday there’s something about my body that makes me feel like I’m dying and the voices then tell me to die.  It’s ugly.  My customers voices say I have a coffin.

Really, sometimes, I don’t know what they mean.

Really though, I’m good.

But a lifestyle change of becoming a non smoker, sober, runner, would probably dramatically change my life for the better.

Except the suffering of eliminating those problems gets to me and I break down and drink and smoke.  It’s really a weakness.

This is the brutal truth people.  I wouldn’t be telling you this if it didn’t matter.  This is what’s happening to me right now, and I’m happy to report that overall things are going great.  Really if I am a drunk, I’m only an amateur drunk that could easily be out drinken by Hemingway or Bukowski.  They would probably boast that they could out drink me.

But I do drink enough that I don’t easily get drunk.  For me to get drunk it would take a lot of alcohol and the better part of the night.

At any rate, I hope this serves you and you can crack a beer and enjoy yourself, because your not me and you don’t have these problems.  Most of the world can drink moderately and enjoy themselves.  They don’t go through this misery.

But they say the cure is worse than the disease.  And trying to stop I can see what they are talking about.  But really I’ve got to be stronger and give it another go, for myself, for my family, for the rest of the world.

Because I’m a schizophrenic, and I think the voices may not effect the whole world, but they do affect my neighborhood, my country.  That could just be a delusion, but when your smoking too much and you start hearing other people coughing, it makes you think you might be making them sick by proximity.

I know that could be bullshit too, but it gets me thinking.  And I think I really would like to give it a try.  Try not smoking or drinking and see what happens.  It would probably be a lot of hell for a while, but then I think I would stand a better chance at being a better person.

Living more by my values.

Alas, the cigarettes help me cope with the voices.   The statistic is that 90% of schizophrenics smoke.  That’s part of why they attribute shorter lifespans for schizophrenics.  They smoke.

I could be in the 10%.

I want to be.

And I don’t.

It’s screwed.

What are you going to do.

I guess tonight I’m going to ask my subconscious again how I can quit smoking.  See what happens.

For now I just want you to take something from this.  And what you should take from it is that even if your drinking and smoking you can still work a job and support your family.  And you can still blog.

Whether or not you make any money off your blog will probably depend on whether or not you can get sober.  But who knows?

Most likely I will never make any substantial income from this blog.  That’s what the statistics say.  I read somewhere that the average writer only makes a few hundred dollars off each ebook if that.

That’s not going to cut it for me.

I need about 15 million.

So I’ve either got to be an outstanding success and sell a million copies of several different ebooks.  OR I’ve got to make a $10,000.00 product and others go along with it.

The problem I have, as I imagine many people do, is I don’t know how to make something that’s worth $10,000.00.  I learned a lot at the Empower Network, and one of their products cost $3,500, but I don’t know how I would make one of my own.

And I might not even put my first ebook up for sale.  I might give it away as a freebie for my email list.  I thought by the comments I was getting that I was going to get subscribers right away, but it must be over a month now and I still have zero.

But I’m not giving away anything for free.

So really I think I just have to do a better job.

I’m still waiting for my friend to review my first ebook so I can edit it AGAIN and rewrite some of it, so that it’s good for public consumption.

So maybe I’ll make that my freebie and then go from there.  I AM still a leading learner, and this is where I am, so this is what I’m teaching you.

And I can teach you to write 6 days a week for a month.  I’ve done that.

And I plan to write 6 days a week for 3 months.  Today is starting fresh.  Once I do that, I will be able to teach anyone how to blog for 90 days with passion and value.

But you tell me if it’s valuable.  Leave a comment.

What I can tell you is that you can be successful, even if your a schizophrenic married with children.  You don’t have to be a house dad.  You can go out there and work.  And you can sell!

I sold 6 deals in a month.  That’s better than one a week.  And I only do it for three days in a week.  So really, I’m maximizing what I do for them in shorter periods of time.

Which is fine, because it gives me time to work on my personal life.

Though part of me wants to work 40 hours a week, with the Holidays off, at a better pay rate.

Part of me wants to go into commission sales again, where I could make 6 figures a year.  Pre-set appointments.  All I have to do is sell.

But I don’t think I’ll be getting into commission any time soon because of my habits of drinking and smoking.  I need hourly to compensate for my failings personally.  If I lived my life in balance, I would probably have a better chance for success in commission sales.  So I really have a lot of work to do.

I will be sure to keep you updated on this blog so if your interested definitely check back and read some new posts.  I will do my best, better than my best, to make sure there is world class value in there for you to read and be entertained by.

But I still haven’t lost the fire.  I haven’t lost the enthusiasm.  People make $100,000.00 dollars dollars a month off of this stuff.  Well maybe not my stuff, but they do it blogging!  Why can’t we shoot to do the same thing!  Maybe the writing is just trying to improve us and lead us to sober nonsmoking…

I don’t know.

What I do know is that I do enjoy drinking and writing.  They seem to go together well.  I’ve got to break this habit though because it could lead to the destruction of my life.

Then again, who knows how long I could live as a drinker and a smoker.  I could never stop and just keep working and writing and do my thing.  And people would love it.

Or I could go for stopping, and deal with the pain for a couple weeks of not drinking or smoking, and then live my life more in balance and maybe get into commission sales.  We’ll see what happens.

I’ll tell you about it if you come back and read more…

For now I tell you I’m doing well at my hourly sales job and I’m expanding the companies sales.  And I’m doing it all while drinking and smoking in my personal life.

For the longest time I thought it was the drinking and the smoking that was holding me back from making it in sales.  Now that I’m successfully performing I think it’s only a matter of getting a sales job that will pay you a sum hourly.  So there’s no pressure.  Your getting paid whether they buy or not.  It’s a good place to be, and it’s a good place to learn.

So really I’m rocking it, and I don’t want you to be worried.  Worry never serves anyone.  Just look forward to a better future, like I do, and check back on this blog to see what I’ve accomplished.

Thanks for reading, here’s to your success,

Jesse Creel


Improve And Succeed With Your Sales Job

Right now I’m selling.

I do it about three times a week, sometimes two times a week…

But I’ve been getting out there each week for about a month now.  All I know is that they gave me a two dollar raise to do it.  And new clothes.

Plus a name-badge, which really makes me feel official.  I heard the voices talking today about how I was official.  It kind of made me feel nice.  The voices can definitely be a blessing.

But how did I manage to get this job?

Why are they giving me more money, buying me clothes and a name-badge.. engraved… why, why, why….

I think it’s because I pray for sales.  My good thoughts are with the company’s sales.  I used to work with this guy who blew everyone out of the water in sales, and he said it was because he prayed for sales.

So everyone got an email list from some prayer website and got their prayers delivered to their inboxes.

I’m talking about delivering my own email to people to inspire them to take action.  To buy the next book on your path to growth.  To get on an email list that’s going to help you.  I’m planning to have both in store for you.  And I’m also planning on quitting cigarettes because I think that quitting is a good thing.

For now I’m just trying to stick to only one glass of wine a day.  I think that’s good for your health.  Red wine.  A glass a day.

I’ve got a lot of life left in me, I’ve just got to get off the cigarettes and I think I’ll be fine.  But I’m keeping this blog!  I’m doing my thing!  And I’m getting new twitter followers every week.  I should easily be able to turn this website, or any other site, into a  money machine.  And yeah baby, wouldn’t that be “working harder on yourself than you do at your job”-Jim Rohn.

And I say you could do it to.  Anyone could do it, everyone has value.  And your ideas can go for money!  The key to it, at least as far as I can tell, is to build your content up so strong your readers will WANT to buy things from you.  Yes, that’s right… I’m talking about making on the internet with information products people can buy that help them improve.  I think that would be working very hard on myself…. and sharing value with others.  I’ve probably been blogging a year, year and a half on this site, under my name… and it’s changed over time.

It was about schizophrenia, but I didn’t want to limit myself to just my illness, and I wanted to follow my passion, so I started writing things as valuable as I could make them for other people who just wanted to improve their lives..

And if a schizophrenic like me can work on taking over the world with his blog, I think anyone can take the world over with their blog.  They can be part of the “it” thing.  And if a schizophrenic like me can hold down a job for 30 hours a week, where a two thirds the time is selling, I’d say I’m doing pretty good.

And I hear voices.  The truth of it is, sales makes it worse.  Or better, it’s better really.  Because the voices really are a blessing.  And that’s part of my philosophy.

My philosophy is that the more you can count the positive things about your circumstances, the better off you’ll be.  Even if it doesn’t look good, make it look good.  And don’t complain, your bosses will LOVE you.


Sales Success And Getting An Hourly Rate

So they pay me mileage, for what I drive, and they pay me hourly… 11 dollars an hour.  There’s talk about what they call bonuses, but I know it only as commission.  And when your getting hourly plus commission you know your in big business.

And I wanted to write this to you to report my progress and to notify you of the changes this website will be experiencing over the next few days. You see, I want to write about sales now.  I’ve written some about schizophrenia, and I want to move beyond my illness now.  It’s a chemical imbalance in my brain, and not a result of the bad things I’ve done in my life, or so my grandmother says.  I spoke with her on Friday, yesterday, Feburary 10th, 2017.

And I told my grandmother, just as I’m telling you now, that I went out for 3 days and came back with 2 orders!  One was for 450 dollars!  It was only my first full week working the sales job and already I have orders!  I haven’t even gotten my button up shirts, business cards, or name tags, and already I have sales!

This is obviously great news for me, my company, and everyone else involved.  Somebody gets to eat some food they can love, and I get to build a relationship!  How wonderful it is when your work pays off!  This should be an inspiration to schizophrenics and those who want to make it in sales that it can be done!  And it can be done no matter what your going through!  You may have to eat it for a while, working endlessly and getting nowhere, but keep plugging at it and you’ll get there.  I’m living proof.

Now I don’t want to get ahead of myself.  It’s only two sales.  I don’t want to be writing about building long term sales success after making only 2 sales, but I sure am a testament that if you work hard, read books, and keep a journal your going to do well.

And read the right books.  Things that are going to inspire you to take action in the direction of your financial dreams.  Your relationship dreams.  I want to sell but personally I think it would be awesome if I could set up a passive income stream from an ebook and this website that would be totally automatic!  Do the work once and it pays you for the rest of your life!  While you sleep!  And all the better the good reviews. And if you do your job as a writer then there will be no shortage of good reviews.

And I don’t want to bring politics into it but in Donald Trump’s inauguration speech he said at the end that “God was protecting us”.  And I believe that’s true.  I also believe he’s not only doing it for the USA!, but God is protecting the entire world, and every person in it.  There’s no doubt bad things can happen, but it’s about taking the lessons of those bad things an applying them to one’s life.  That’s about as political as I get.

And when I hear voices, because I do hear voices, voices that tell me their scared, that their mom is scared, it makes me think of how me selling might make someone fear for my life.  It can be a scary world out there, with lots of crazy people…(but most of them good, and interested in forward progress) and these people are concerned for me.  I just tell them I am fine and press on with my day.  That’s the way I know how to do it, I’m a machine.

But that’s really all I wanted to tell you.  I made one sale for 450 dollars and then I made another for 7 box lunches in the same day!  It worked!  I haven’t made any sales in years, and this is my first time back in the game.  I seek to improve and make more sales!  I think you can get an hourly job and work your way into sales! Even if your schizophrenic! Let your bosses trust you and you will get the best jobs!

My bosses are even talking about getting me a desk in the office!  And they were talking about giving me a raise to 11 dollars an hour and they did it.  That’s a lot especially if your getting bonuses.  And there’s talk about getting me bonuses!  I’m so happy I’ve been telling everyone about my success and celebrating it every chance I get.

Really though, now that I’m finishing this post and it’s Sunday, and I have to go back to work tomorrow, the celebrating is coming to an end.  The work will never stop and neither will I.

If you liked this post, and would like to share your sales success, please leave a comment.  Let me know what you liked best about this post and tell me how you think I might be able to improve it.  I would love your feedback.  Also tell me about any successes in sales that you’ve had.  That would be great to begin a kind of community that supports each other.

Thanks for reading!

Jesse Creel

Schizophrenia And Working A Sales Job

“Schizophrenia beats dining alone” -Oscar Levant

And that’s really how it should be with the schizophrenia.  Just friendly voices there to help you and guide you along the way.

But sometimes the voices are not friendly and they seek only to command you.  That’s just from my own experience.

But the schizophrenia bleeds out into the world and other voices, real voices can be heard… and those voices say dream like things that sometimes seem to relate to what’s going on in my own head.  Just from my experience.

But you see, you’ll get a lot of my own experience.  The way I see it, that’s what one should be reporting on anyways.  How one sees the world.  And I also think it’s important for one to be continually improving that vantage point.

So on with the improvements.

And I should have been asking myself that question over the last two days, while I was at work on my companies sales calls.  I have repeatedly asked myself the question “How do I improve?” when I was working in the store.  And it worked!  I was focused on improving what I was doing.  And I gained motivation to go the extra mile with things.  To really do them well.

Well, I got out of the habit of asking myself that question “How do I improve?” and now I have a sales job.  And I’ve been getting distracted because one of the ways I improve is to stop smoking and I’ve been putting that off.  I need to get it together and just quit, but that’s for another post.  One that I don’t want to write right now.

This post is about what it’s like in sales when you have schizophrenia.

When I got off and was smoking a cigarette I heard one of the neighbors say (and I don’t know if he said it out loud or if it was just in my head) he said “He’s on fire”.  It felt like he was talking about me.  How I don’t really feel right but I’m still smoking.

Today, when I was just getting started my day, I was at an office and it was a big score because I dropped off lunches to three different places in one building.  Saves a lot of time when you can hit more than one place in the same building.  And on the second one I started shaking a little bit.  By the third I was noticeably shaking and the guy I was talking to seemed a little distracted when he looked at my hand and saw me shaking.  He didn’t say anything though, thank God for that.  It would have made it a little uncomfortable if I would have had to explain myself.  Yeah, all the cigarettes are taking a toll on my life and sales sometimes shakes me up… who knows what I would have said…  I didn’t have to tell him I was fine.

But the whole thing, the shaking, calmed down and I proceeded with my day.  I felt a little nauseated yesterday and today, but I think all that’s telling me is not to drink alcohol. So I’m on with juice.  Minute maid berry punch.  “Put good in, get good out” reads the label and I love that.  I do kinda catch a buzz from drinking the juice too, and it really beats the wine buzz.  Especially when your talking the next day.

And I really shouldn’t be drinking, but parties get me going on drinking for days at a time.  I just need to cut the shit and be myself.  No cigarettes, no alcohol, no drugs.  And a lot of hard work.  Work at my job, in the store, and on sales… work on my life, with reading and journaling, and work on my dream, by writing this blog.  Not to mention working on my family life and my social life.  And I have time enough for everything.  I just have to use my time wisely.  I do need a little more sleep than the average person, I’ve always loved sleeping.  I do think it’s a waste of time though and would like to sleep less.  I’ve heard of successful people who were so driven that they went by on 4 hours a night.  Tony Robbins is one of those people.  I could get a lot more reading done!

But for now my bedtime is 10pm.  And that’s part of what I attribute my success at my job thus far to.  I always get enough rest.  I’m usually up by 7:30… though sometimes I lose motivation and get up at 8:30…. but it’s all changing now because with this sales job I have to drive farther to get to work, so I have to leave earlier.

But I’m up for the challenge and the voices don’t bother me much when I’m doing it either.  If they are talking they are encouraging me to sell.  So like the quote I started this post with, it’s better to sell with something encouraging you.  It’s really kind of nice.  They yell at me to sell, but I’ve had some sales managers in the past who actually screamed at me and they weren’t shy when it came to using profanity.  The voices I have weren’t as bad as some of my bosses have been when I was in credit card processing sales.

And with the schizophrenia, my bosses get in my head.  Different voices for each different manager.  Their mostly good influences though, my bosses voices.  They tell me to work, and sell, and do things that I should be doing as the valued employee that I am.  So when my bosses get in my head, and it usually doesn’t last long, they tell me to do what I’m supposed to do, which is be great!

I realize that I don’t even know I should be considered a schizophrenic when people I know have friends that have been institutionalized for 20 years.  My voices seem to be a blessing in comparison with what they go through.  Being restrained, being forced medication, being locked up and watched and feeling like the people who are supposed to be taken care of you are just finding you crazy with a grim prognosis.  At least that’s my paraphrase of how schizophrenia was described in “The Center Cannot Hold” by Elyn Saks.  I just finished that book a couple days ago and I thought it was a good read written by a well respected person.  Saks went to several colleges and is a teacher with all kinds of prestigious seats being given to her over her life.  I sure never had it as bad as she did, and I can’t expect to help everyone with schizophrenia work a job.  But I think I can try and help some, and at the very least add some value to the people lives who read this.  I’m supposing the value here is that even if your shaking like a leaf on a tree, you can still do your job, and do it well.  (On a side note, I think doing it well would result in sales, so I work in the store well, but have yet to be proven with the sales job…. as I’m not walking the walk with sales yet, although I pray that I have already walked the walk in sales, I would not recommend starting a sales career as a schizophrenic until I have successfully proven that it can be done… although here is proof schizophrenics can sell stuff too, it’s a story about a schizophrenic who works in the lawn and garden section of sears selling on commission and being the best one around.  And I pray that I sell too).

So here’s to working a job and getting promoted to a salesperson.  I will write more when I get my first sale, bonus, and most importantly relationship.  Really, I’m in the business of building relationships and I can tell you, it’s hard work.  I seek to improve and hope the same for you.  Here’s to your good health, wealth, and wisdom.  Thanks for Reading.

Jesse Creel

Schizophrenia and Playing To Win The Lottery Jackpot

Today I woke up and checked the numbers for last night’s drawing.  They didn’t look familiar.  I didn’t win the jackpot.  But I was visualizing like crazy over the last three days and I thought that would increase my chances of winning.

I just read an article on visualization and winning the lottery.  You can find it here.

In the article it basically says there are other ways you can get money, if that’s what your after, and winning the jackpot doesn’t have to be the way that happens.  It doesn’t advise for or against visualizing to win the lottery, but it encourages you to leave your options open.  As for the schizophrenia effecting me, and what I’m hearing, well… that’s a different story.

You see, I haven’t had problems with the schizophrenia effecting my behavior for a while.  I’ve been holding a job for a year and a half and I’ve been growing with the company.  They’ve made me a Sales Coordinator, the only person in our chain of 3 stores to have that position, and they’ve made it clear they will reward me for positive performance.

But even with another raise, and bonuses, I’m still not making the kind of money I want to make.  That I want to EARN.  So over the last 3 days I’ve turned my visualizations to that of winning the lottery and despite the schizophrenia, I’ve been very successful at visualizing that I’ve won the jackpot.

But as my visualizations grew stronger, and as I began to believe that I could too win the jackpot like Cynthia Stafford, I started hearing more voices, louder and clearer.

The one voice that stood out, above all the others, was that of my father in law.  His voice has been a staple in my consciousness since the day I got married.  He told me, after one of my visualizations, as I was smoking a cigarette, that he didn’t want me to win.  The other voices chimed in and said my life would be a mess, that I was a mess and money would only make it worse.  I kept saying to my father in laws voice “No” and I kept saying to myself “I just have to visualize harder to make this happen.”

One a separate occasion, yesterday, the day before I found out that I didn’t win, I heard his voice say “I don’t want you to win”.  Clear as day and coming to me as if he was right in front of me.  Sometimes the voices come from the right or left, but this time it was straight ahead, seeming to come out from the neighborhood.

I told him, in my head, that “it’s not up to you” whether I win the jackpot or not.  His voice agreed.  His voice just doesn’t want me to win.  According to his voice he wants to live a “peaceful life” and me winning the jackpot would be excitement that his voice doesn’t want in his life.

In reality, I love everyone.  I love friends and enemies alike.  I love prospects that tell me no, and prospects that will take extra time out of their day to talk to me.  And I love my father in laws voice, even when he seems to be telling me things I don’t want to hear.

You see, I love the voices.  To me, that’s the only way to be.  They talk nicer to me when I love them, in fact right now, their saying “love”.  They say, where your attention goes, energy flows.  So for me, it may as well be flowing towards love.  Love is what I love and I want more of it in my life, now.

And I also want more money.

Don’t get me wrong, I love what I’m doing right now, even when I’m counting the hours down, wanting to hate it, I replace that by saying to myself “I love this, this is what I want to do.”  You might say that keeps me stuck doing something I really don’t want to be doing, but hey, you could argue that this is the best job I’ve ever had, and your not going to go without some days dragging on.

So I want to work my current job, even if I get rich somehow, and keep that stream of income coming in strong.  The job makes me feel like I’m being of service to society, something that not all schizophrenics can do, and I value that feeling.  But I still want more money, and I want it any way I can get it.  Either from working more, winning the lottery, blogging, or writing books, I have to earn more income.  So in all likelyhood, I’m going to keep visualizing my lottery win.

But I like the above mentioned article on visualization and winning the lottery.  One of the suggestions it makes is to instead of visualize winning the lottery, visualize having more money!  That money could come from more than just the one way of winning the lottery!  For me it could come from working, or writing.  So I think I’m going to take my number, my goal, of 100 million and just visualize that money being in my bank account.  It could come from anywhere so I won’t limit my visualizations to just winning the lottery.  I will visualize the app on my phone that displays my balances, and visualize a balance of 100,000,000.00 dollars.  I think that’s a better ticket than just visualizing to win the jackpot.

Now you may be asking yourself, what value can I get from all this.  And the value here is that even if you lose a jackpot, even if you fail for years, it’s not over, you can still manifest success.  You can do it at your job, and you can do it at home.  There are varying degrees of success, and I am living a low level of success right now.  I’m holding an hourly job!  There paying me more money!  I’m taking care of my family!  And I’m doing it all as a schizophrenic.  So if I’m a schizophrenic, hearing voices that tell me to die on a regular basis, and if that’s not annoying I don’t know what is, and I can do have success, even if it’s on a small scale, I know that you can have success too.  Wasn’t that a run on sentence that was still worth reading?

Because my grammar isn’t perfect but the meaning inside of my words is passionate.  It’s alive and real and you can feel it, can’t you?  Leave a comment and let me know what you feel as a result of reading this.

Where’s the value?

The value is that in spite of something like schizophrenia, which actively seeks to disassemble the fact that I AM ALIVE, you can have success.  At your job, at home, wherever you go!  My result so far is that I’m working an hourly job successfully and holding it down for over a year.  But I won’t settle for just that.  I won’t settle for 15,000 or 16,000 or 17,000 dollars a year.  I have to make more than that.  I have to reach for my goals.  I have to take massive action in the direction of my goals.  And if you take the lottery and put it aside, my goal is to EARN 15,000,000 dollars.  That’s what I’ve calculated will sustain me and my wife, and my children for the rest of our lives.  And if I made 100,000.00 dollars a month, like Pat at does I would be able to hit my goal in less than 15 years.  More than likely my niche will change from schizophrenia to making money online, as there is a bigger audience of very hungry people out there for that niche.  Although it’s competitive, others have broken through, and I believe I can do the same…. but dear God I do have massive action to take to get there.

But writing blog posts is a good start.  I also post all of my blog posts onto my twitter account each time I publish a new one.  I’m getting new followers all the time.  I must be doing something right.  My next step is to get Adsense going on this site, a step which is causing me trouble as I don’t know what the hold up is.

But another piece of value you can get from me right now, is that, from everything I’ve learned up to this point if you want to make money online, one way you can do it is to blog.  And the more you write the more traffic you will get.  So my advice to you entrepreneurs out there is to write your tail off.  Write everyday, post everyday, and share your posts on social media.  And write whatever you want, but be sure to include value in there.  If you want your readers to like or love what you’ve written there’s got to be a lot in there for them.  So write everyday, and write valuable things.  It got me a comment, and it can do the same for you.  And you can be sure that I’m going to tell you about my little successes along the way, when I’m writing these posts.  I want to deliver advice, valuable advice, in a proven way.  I am going to walk the walk, so to speak, and tell you about it when I write.

So if you want to know how a schizophrenic can work an hourly job and grow in that job, or if you want to know how to get a comment on one of your posts, I’m your man, because I’ve done both.  I’m walking that walk.  And there’s plenty more where that came from.  I’m highly optimistic about the future and it motivates me to work, to do more, and I am attempting to do more for people than anyone else does in my niche.  I want to inspire schizophrenics, empower them, and be the one that is the catalyst for them to take their lives to the next level.  Because a diagnosis is not the end of the world.  It’s just something you have to work harder to overcome.  Really, you could even look at it as a blessing because now you know what you have to do… you have to work harder, and harder to overcome this condition.  And you can do it!  I am proof that it can be done!  Go for it and don’t let anything stop you!  You are unstoppable!

Work hard, read books on self improvement, write a journal, reread your journal, set goals, and take massive actions that are going to bring you closer to those goals.  That’s what this schizophrenic says.  You’ll have good days and bad days, but rest assured that if your working on your dreams, most of the time, things are going to be looking up (as long as your attitude permits that).  And rest assured that there are plenty of other people out there working just like you, even competing with you (good or bad), and you have cohorts in your journey to making your dreams a reality.  The value here?  Dream big, and take massive action.  You can do it!  I, Jesse Creel, BELIEVE IN YOU.

But I want to thank you for reading this.  I appreciate you in ways beyond what words could express.  Please leave a comment and let me know what you think of this post.  Your valuable time will not go without gratitude.

Thanks again, With Love and wishing you much much success,

Jesse Creel


Hearing Voices, A Guide To Navigating The Waters

If your hearing voices everyday, you should definitely go see a psychiatrist.  They’ll most likely give you some drugs that will help you cope.  And you should take them, for the sake of stability.  And you should also seek talk therapy.

But I am not a doctor, and I can’t give medical advice.  All I can tell you is that taking RisperiDONE and talk therapy helped to stabilize me.  I have now been able to hold a job for a year and a half, and am receiving promotions there too!  I am able to contribute to my family and help support my two children and my wife.  Things are not always easy, but they are getting better.

Even with the Risperidone and therapy I still hear voices.  They just don’t effect my actions like they used to.  Now I know that I can have success, I just have to work hard it at.  And working hard I am.

I am however taking on new stress.  I have been promoted to Sales Coordinator at my job at Honeybaked Ham and my new job, one that I will do for a few hours a week, it to grow the companies sales.  This involves dropping off free samples and then following up, following up, following up, following up, following up.

I say that 5 times because in the book my boss gave me to read about selling their product, they say that you have to have 5 points of contact to sell anything.  So there’s much more to the job then just dropping off a free lunches and praying for sales.  There’s work involved, and it’s stressful.

I don’t want to come off as annoying, but I have to call my prospects repeatedly if I want to make any headway.  And I must make headway. I must make sales, and I must make many of them.  I’ve done great at working there as an hourly employee but this new position is going to require that I produce more.  Bring more to the table.  Be more.  Find it within myself to sell.  And on top of it all, I hear voices everyday, and sometimes I hear my prospects in my head!  Sometimes it seems like their actually talking out loud to each other, like the voices would in my head, and their saying hateful things about me.

But I can handle it, besides, we all get what we deserve.  This is just an opportunity for me.

But if you hear voices everyday, then you should probably just listen to them, and then, MAKE UP YOUR OWN MIND as to whether you want to act on the things their talking about.  Unless that of course is hurting yourself or other people.

For instance, the other morning, one of the voices shouted at me to floss! as I was brushing my teeth.  I thought that was a good idea and was happy to have a little reminder to take good care of myself.  That is an instance where I would recommend you listen to your voices.  If they are telling you to call out of work I would recommend that you just go into work anyways, and make your money.

Sometimes the voices will have good ideas, sometimes they will have bad ideas, just like you.  Part of life it making those decisions that are going to impact your life in a positive way.  We all just have to grow up and make good choices.

I suppose, in short, that my guide for navigating the waters of hearing voices everyday is to master yourself.  Their just voices in your head, they don’t control you, you control you.  You can succeed despite the challenges.  And take heart that there are other people out there, with the same challenges as you, living good lives.  You can have a family, a job, friends, a life.  I just want you to know, I believe in you, and I know that anyone can overcome what their going through and come out the other side a better person, better off.

Take care, and with time, may you live a great life.

Thanks for reading.

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