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Working For Almost 12 Hours And Then Playing For The Jackpot

I spent 5 dollars.

One on a 43 million dollar jackpot, and 4 on a 228 million dollar jackpot.

I hope I win.

But I also delivered over 6,000 box lunches to the race track over the last two days.  That was an accomplishment.

And I got to work with my brother.  We delivered together.

It was nice of them to put us two together for the delivery.

But we did it.

For about 5 hours I spent my time putting the box lunches into bags, marking the bags, and stacking them up.

Then putting them onto the truck, which was running to keep the cooling on.  It ran for hours.

And the team I was working on was kicking ass.  We were doing double what the other team was doing, and they really had me working.

When I walked in this morning I was told my team was going to be the best because I was on it.  I said they were too nice.  I’m just a regular guy.  That’s what I told them.

On the first trip, yesterday to deliver 100 bags or so, the GPS took us through the city, when we could have just gone around the beltway.  But I didn’t know how to get there so I was at the mercy of the GPS.  My brother was with me, and he sort of lost his mind over the traffic on the way back yesterday.

So today we got the directions from the president of the company and it took us right there.  It was a lot easier.

Today when we were there I was noticing a particularly attractive woman, who was wearing high heeled shoes and a tight dress and she had some very attractive legs.

There was another woman after I had my look who was standing in front of her, and then another woman came out of nowhere and starting walking right up to the truck to where I was sitting.

She looked at me and I looked at her and she kind of mimicked my gesture to her and then she looked at me again and grabbed her crotch.  Like I was a rockstar and I was being given attention by whores.

I did have two rockstar energy drinks today, one on the way to the first delivery.

I drove there twice today.

And I drove a larger box truck then I was used to driving.

8 feet longer.

And 18 footer.

And I don’t know how we would have delivered all 6,000 box lunches in our little 10 foot truck.  We would have had to made 3 trips.

But we had an 18 footer, so we only had to make 2 trips and there was plenty of room.

When I delivered the first delivery though there was 366 bags.  It took up almost all of the 18 feet.  It was by far the biggest of the sections we had to do.

If you figure there are 9 box lunches in each bag, that’s a lot of box lunches.

And I, my brother, and one other guy got them all there.  It was just me and my brother on that last trip.  It was nice because he didn’t complain much.

But all in all it was a good thing.

I got plenty of hours this week, and that’s a good thing for me and my family.

And I want to do more for them, as much as I can do, to help support them.

That’s why I write this blog.  For them.  So that I can be a better father by earning income from my writing.

It is much harder than it seems though.

At least that’s the way it’s been for me.

I feel like some of the commentors on this site are yanking my chain.  Telling me it’s good and not being genuine.  I would rather they come right out and say they don’t like me.  Instead of being nice and leaving trash in their comments.

I still have no subscribers to my list, so that’s a failure.  An ongoing one.  But I really need to spend some sober time editing my ebook so I can give that away as a freebie.  Something to get people to put their email address in.

Because I would love to start a business online and sell products to people.  I just need readers, and that comes with writing.

So I gotta write.  And write I will.  Write until the cows come home.

And that’s what I say we all could do.  Write.  Write like our lives depended on it.  Write and put blood, sweat, and tears into it.  I say that’s the way we get it done.

And we may never make any money at all off of our work.  But 10 years down the line that won’t matter, because we will have grown.  We will have accomplished something.

We’ll probably end up giving up the cigarettes.  So we can be wealthy.

Or we’ll just keep smoking and smoke our money.  We might have so much of it that it won’t matter, and we’ll still be able to leave our children money when we die.

That’s what I’m going for…. health, wealth, and wisdom.

And I figure you can have all three and still drink and smoke.

Probably would be better if you didn’t, but you want to enjoy yourself, so here’s to you.

But after working 12 hours, and driving a big box truck all day I was tired.

So tired I passed out.  I couldn’t drink anymore.  It was making me feel sick.

Tonight my wife and I are going out to eat.  I’m really looking forward to it as we haven’t been out in a while.  I’m going to eat a lot and drink a little.  I’m really looking forward to it.

But I’ve got to get my stuff together.  And I don’t curse on purpose, because I want everyone to be comfortable.  But I really do.

I’ve got to stop spending all my money on cigarettes and alcohol, and then buying groceries and gas on my credit card.  I’ve paid it off a thousand dollars, but now I’m spending on it again, and I’m really losing control.

Internet, if I can ever get my habits under control, and not buy alcohol and cigarettes when I don’t have the money, I’ll be in a lot better place.

And I think that’s what my writing is leading me to.  That’s where it’s leading us to.  Sober, non smoker, exerciser.

But really that would be no fun, and I’m really at my best when I’m smoking and drinking.

So it’s going to be hard to stop.

I’ve been trying since the beginning of this year.  We’re almost 6 months into it and I’m still smoking.

But back to the work.

The work of writing.

And work it is.

I go for 2,000 words each post.  I don’t always get there but often times I do.

I’ve still got a ways to go before I reach that word count, but I’ve already told you about my day.

So what do I blog about next?

How do I make this blog post worth it for you?

I could tell you I’m going to win 228 million dollars tonight, and become a multimillionaire overnight.

But what good would that do you?

I’m looking for the real value here.

What can I give to you?

I can give you my love.

And I do.

I can tell you that woman grabbing her crotch while I was looking at the pretty girl was an encounter.

She wasn’t bad looking either.  Not exceptionally pretty, but good looking.

The one woman though, she had legs forever.  A real nice looking body.  I like being around those kinds of people.  They get my motor going.

I guess you could say that I’m one of those attractive people.  Although my addictions are pretty ugly, I’m not bad looking on the outside.  Older women are always telling me how beautiful my eyes are.

Not to brag, but the ladies are attracted to me in a bad kinda way.  They like me smoking and drinking.  And I like them smoking and drinking.  Not that I would ever do anything about it, I’m married.  But I like seeing them.  I like talking to them.  I like being around them.  Especially when I’m working.

Although really when I was working there was an attractive manager that kept telling me how good I was and because I didn’t turn on my member and get it going with her there seemed to be a disconnect working with her.

I’m married and I don’t play games.  I don’t have the energy.  I just do my job, that’s what I need to do.  And I write this blog.  I almost do want to write dirty things.

Like what I want to do to my wife tonight while our daughter is out sleeping over my parents house.

But I try to be a gentleman so really I can’t go into that.

What I can tell you is that I sometimes try not to even look at other woman.  Don’t want to get the thoughts about doing them in my head.  But that makes it so when I do look, I look to much or I’m too much of a creep and I weird people out.  I should probably just look more.

I don’t think it makes you a bad person if you look at other women when your married to a perfectly good woman already.  Your only looking.  I like it.

I don’t want to like it too much though.  I don’t want to get started doing things I shouldn’t be doing.  Maybe if I ever made a million dollars off this blog it would be easier to have a girlfriend, but that doesn’t mean I WOULD have one.

What I would do if I had a million dollars is travel all the time.  And write about my experiences on this website.  That would be the life.

I want to do it.  Let me know how I can better serve you in the comments.  Or sign up for my list.  I’ll send you primo content.  Right to your inbox.

This is the way it is done.  You write your content until it’s done.  You write until you meet your quota.  Do this thing.  Do this thing now.  You can do it.  Write your blog post.

I worked for 12 hours, and I’m a schizophrenic.  That’s an accomplishment.  Even if I’m only getting paid $20,000 a year.  I definitely want to find out how I can make more money, but I think it all starts with me doing what I’m doing now.  Which is writing.

I do rely quite a bit on intuition so it may piss you off I do have any evidence for what I “think”.  That’s okay with me.  I’m still going to go with my gut.  I’m going to make the right call for myself and for my family.  I’m going to do the thing and have the power.

That’s all I can do, or anyone can do.  You have to write from the heart.  What comes to you.  This is the way it is done.  I can say because I write all the time.  I know how to write.  And it can be done by anyone who can write.  And that would be a lot of people.

But working at my job for 12 hours at 12 dollars an hour is a good day for me.  I used to try to sell and I sucked at being a business man so I had to take a low paying hourly job just to create an income.  It sucks, but it’s also a blessing because so far I haven’t found any other job I can DO.

And I want to do a job.  I want to work hourly.  It’s good for me.  I like it. I want to do more.  I have the weekend off and then I’m back to work.  But I’ve really got to get something going on this website because I’m going back to 30 hours a week and I’m going to have plenty of time to work on my business.

So here’s to working when your off, so that you have the chance to enjoy the benefits of your work later.  There’s always the possibility.

Thanks for reading,

Jesse Creel

The Greatest Post Of This 90 Days Blogging Thus Far, I Expect Tomorrow To Be Better

Art baby.

That’s what this is all about.

Because when your drinking while your writing how can you expect to help people take action and improve their lives.  This should really be educational but I think it’s more like art.

Writing I think is an art.  A great thing.  And something one can become great at.

It just takes time, years and years of working on writing to really get it there.  Really if you decide to write then you might be looking at doing it for the rest of your life.

Because it’s not about retirement with writing.  You could make 100 million dollars and still want to write.  Because you have the passion for it.  Because you know you can make money.  So you do the work it takes to become valuable, by reading, and through life experience, and then you can write!

It’s a good experience writing.  Especially when you get stuff done and it pays off in traffic and comments.  I still have a list up and you can get on it if you want and you can buy things from me.  Be it rock and roll recordings, ebooks, or network marketing.  You can definitely come to me to help you boost your income.

Because I can tell you people like to party.  It’s a fun time.  And you can meet people.

Then again the voices and images in my head tell me maybe some people don’t want to be bothered.  I think I should take it on a case by case basis as any fair person would do.

Because the voices would tell me things that aren’t going to effect my actions.  I’m not going to worry about my son dying before me because I won the lottery.  Because unfortunately today that’s what the voices were talking about.

I was in the box truck for 4 hours starting at 9:15 this morning.  I drove to Fredricksburg Virginia.  From Severna Park Maryland.  There and back.  I picked up 12 boxes of ham.  I don’t really know why they make me do this, for only 12 boxes, but I do it because I don’t make the decisions about what I do.  I am their slave.

Because during the holidays I have the habit of going to work for almost 60 hours per week.  And to be away from your family for every holiday is hard.  But it does help the bank account.  And that helps my family.  So I’m really doing them a service to be picking up all those hours during the holidays when a lot of people are off.  I’m working and helping to support my family.

And God help me pay my credit card.  If I only made $$15,000 I would still be able to get out of credit card debt.  And I think that’s a reasonable goal to want to achieve off of selling your first ebook.  And that would really be an accomplishment.  To be debt free.  Of course, I really want $$$$15,000,000.00 to retire and stop working if I want to.  I think I might be able to get those kinds of numbers in network marketing.  I don’t think I’ll make that much off of ebooks and rock and roll albums.  Then again, I might!  Who knows.

What I do know is there is a whole lot of work that needs to get done to get me there.  So that means not only do I have to write this blog for 90 days straight, I also have to write songs, and read books, and take care of my family.  So really I have a lot of work in front of me.  But really it’s the work I want to do.  That’s what I do when I’m selling and I’m only getting 4 or 5 hours a day.  I spend the rest of the time working on myself.  So far it’s gotten me to you.

And I really want to love you for reading this so I’m going to keep writing.  I ‘m going to try and get some real value to you.  Hopefully get you to take action in your own life and start blogging, or blog everyday.  It could set you free from your job!

And don’t I want to write about some exciting things.  I think if I won the lottery I would take it anonymously and then just write an ebook about it and sell that to people.  I’m sure if I won the lottery I would be getting a lot of attention.  My traffic would probably skyrocket once word got out.

I would tell people how I won the lottery.  So that they hopefully will be able to duplicate the feat.  And I bet if it was a good book, some people, 2 or more would win the jackpot because of reading it.

Maybe that would take a little time, but I’m sure they would write in to tell me that I helped them and now they are rich and can give more to the people they love and to charity.

And I think that’s a good story.  I think that’s where the lottery helps people out.  When it’s in the name of giving.  To family, friends, to strangers, to charity.

I was thinking about giving to the 700 club.  They build wells in foreign countries for the people there to have better lives.  I think that’s cool.  I want to be a part of that.  I think I would be helping the world.

But I do give to the church.  I had a hard time with it on Easter Sunday though.  The guy would only take my donation for the first collection.  I had the twenty all ready for him and I held my arm out with the money and he just took the basket away.  The guy next to me made the comment that I couldn’t give it away.  We both almost laughed.

The voices at church were giving me a hard time about drinking.  Some good some bad, some stuff about my family, but everyone was civil.  Although there was a loud noise that was made that made the preacher stop and ask if everything was alright.

Right now the voices of the priests are in my head telling me that I should leave.  Really it’s nothing I haven’t heard before.  I have gotten into the habit of staying places, like marriage, even when I’m told to leave or go home.  And that habit serves me.  It keeps me together with my wife.

But I have to admit it’s taken a lot of work to get my relationship with my wife to where it is.  Admittedly she helps me a lot, but I also have learned to live with her.  When she’s screaming I just have to live with her getting that way sometimes.  I do love her a lot as any good husband should.  Really I would like to be a GREAT husband and retire her.  I really believe I can do that.

So that’s why I’m working everyday.  That’s why I work on this blog.  Because I believe in passive income.  Work once and have it pay you forever.

But that’s not going to keep you from continuing to work.

You gotta figure you gotta make a lot of money.

And you know when you have a family you need money.  Everybody needs money, but when you have a family you have more you need to provide for than just yourself.  As anyone would know.

But maybe what they wouldn’t know is how to blog for 90 days straight, and get more traffic as a result of working that much.  Because my traffic is going up each week and at this rate I’ll have a 100 visitors a month in about a week.  That’s up from 50.

If you want to buy something from me, because you really love this writing and want more of my stuff I’m going to make that a possibility for you.  I’m going to be working on that for the next two days, I have those two days off, the first two consecutive days off in a while.  And my family won’t be home so I’ll have the house all to myself.  I’ll most likely be spending most of my time in the basement.  Where the books are, the computer, the guitar…

You can do it all, I really believe that.  And I know bad things are going to happen.  You can’t stop that.  But the meanings you take from those things and questions you ask yourself are either going to make you or break you.  We have to find empowering meanings to the bad things that happen to us.

That I think is worth a million dollars or more.  You tell me in the comments what you think it’s worth.  Tell me what you think this blog post was worth to your life, and if your going to take action and improve your life as a result of reading this.

I love you, many blessings to you now and forever.

Jesse Creel

“Take Action And Improve!” An EBook By Jesse Creel

And that’s what I’m here to talk about today.

“Take Action And Improve!”.

It took me 40 hours to write the book.  I did it in about a month.  I was drinking wine and smoking cigarettes.  Go figure that’s how you write a book on personal improvement.

But I did it.  And the first chapter, after re-reading and editing it, is rather taboo.  I go into detail about how one may want to consider the idea of masturbation as a tool to relax and cope.  Considering that’s the first chapter, on the Physical, it’s not really setting the stage for a remarkable book.

Or maybe it is.

The truth is that how much of it I sell will be the indicator of how good it is.  If it’s really good, it might sell a million copies, and I’d be rich and able to quit my job.  Not that I don’t love my job, I do.

But this is not about my job.  This is about the book I wrote for you to buy, IF you want to, and enjoy to reading pleasure, to the tune of $4.99.

Because I sight no sources on how you can blog and make money, other than that of David Wood of the Empower Network, and because the book is only 75 pages long, I don’t want to charge what other people would for their e books, $29.99.

You could make a lot more money charging that as opposed to $4.99, but to charge $29.99 I would want a 700 page  book full of quotes and stories and citations.

I don’t know that I could ever do that.  I might just write novels and sell them cheap and see if I could go for quantity.  If the word got out that I was good, people would buy more.  And I could really make a living off of the personal work I’ve done to myself when I wasn’t working or spending time with my family.

So I want to keep writing this blog so I can get more traffic and have more people to sell to.  Because I’m a salesman by profession, and wouldn’t it be great if what we were selling was our own products?

Books and music?

And who knows, if you made it with books and music, maybe you could launch a network marketing company and throw a big party for everyone to celebrate the money made.  Really get rich, make your 15 million.

Because if you figure it, you could probably make more in business than you can in books.  Empower Network is a great business for the people who make money doing, and if you join with me, there’s no guarantee you’ll make any money at all.  And you could drop $5,000 or $6,000 dollars on it to try and work it for a couple years and still sell nothing.

That’s exactly what happened to me.  And selling Empower Network is one thing my counselor tells me I would feel bad about, that is, if I did ever sell anything.

Part of me thinks I should get a new counselor.  One that’s alright with taking money from people. Everyone gets what they deserve and besides, at the Empower Network there’s an intense product you get in exchange for your money so you get what you pay for.

Pay $6,000 dollars to sell network marketing, get a $6,000 experience.  That’s what I got.  Valuable information.

But I am afterall, a schizophrenic.  And that stuff messed me up.  Especially when your trying to make money to support a wife and children on the way.

Thank God I found my job.  The basis of all I do.  Without my job I wouldn’t have this website, and I wouldn’t be able to talk to you.  At least not for very long.  My credit would run out and I’d be left with the bill and no sales.

At least that’s the way it’s come out so far.

But I think a change is a comin’.

I think I’m going to write this blog for 90 days straight and get more traffic.  You never know, people may put their email addresses in and my money could really start working for me.  I am afterall paying 30 dollars a month to have that list.

But this is not a sob story about losing it all, after working your tail off.

This is a story about redemption.  About doing wrong, and then making it right.  About being a good person.  About doing the right things.  And I propose we could all live better lives if we were a little more grateful for what we have, and we’re working to improve it.

And that’s really what my book is about.  “Take Action and Improve!” is about you taking your life to the next level right now.  There are 13 different chapters. Each chapter is meant for you to do something that is going to make a difference in your life.  It’s meant to help YOU improve yourself.  That’s pretty much it.  It’s 75 pages long and it should really be a page turner.  I read it in a day.

But really right now, as of this writing, the book hasn’t even been finished yet.  I’ve written and edited it, but I haven’t yet put it into format for consumption.  Something I have yet to do.  But maybe I’ll get it up for sale shortly on this site and maybe another bookseller, and get something going.  I really want to get something going so that I can escape my job.  Although I love my job, profits are better than wages, and I need to learn how to be a business owner so I CAN profit.

And I’m sure you will learn a tremendous amount about me over these next few months, me writing a post a day… I hope it serves you to read these posts and that your life is blessed because of it.  I put hard work into my writing, and I do it even when I don’t feel like it.  I feel like that makes me a better writer when I do it everyday.  It’s going to take quiet a few more years to master this blogging thing so I’ve got a lot of work ahead of me.  But I figure I can take off and start making money a lot sooner than the time it takes to master it.

And as I think for myself, I also think for you…

So here’s to your great success!

Thanks for reading,

Jesse Creel

How Can I Support My Family The Best That I Know How…


It can drive us, it can push us to succeed.  It can unravel us.  It can hold us together.  We can weather the storms with our families and take comfort in their presence.  We love them.  They are the most important people in the world to us.  And we have to work for them so that they have everything they need to be a success.

Family can make us.  If we can adjust to having sex with just one woman for the rest of our lives, we can really do some good in the world.  Just imagine, that when you jerk off, you only jerk off to your wife.  Images of your wife and what she COULD do to you.  For you.  I say that would make for a healthy ride.

Why visualize other women?

In my experience that only leads to nightmares.  Nightmares of asses and roast beef.  So I say stay clean.  Have sex with your wife and when you jerk off think of her.

But this post is about supporting your family the best you know how.  I am a schizophrenic, and I was diagnosed as a result of my inability to function in the workplace.  I thought I had cancer.

As it turns out I do not have cancer, and I hear voices in my head.  Sometimes it’s good, sometimes it bad, but any way it comes, I’ve learned to love it.

And because I’ve had so much trouble in the workplace at one point I was a pretty sorry excuse for a husband and a dad.  I was contributing nothing and taking money from my wife.  I’ve since got my act somewhat together and am now giving my wife money.

But it hadn’t always been that way.

The way I see it, my wife has had it pretty good with me being an influence on her life.  And she took on the burden of having me go on a sales/debt/network marketing binge after I lost my job, not knowing what to do, and she loved me the whole way through.

I didn’t think she was loving me, but she was.

And now it’s time to repay the debt.  It’s time for me to make something of myself.  How do you contribute to your family?  By doing the very best that you can.  You can do it!

And I have been repaying the debt.  I’ve given her 150 a few times, 200 once, and 100.  Not much but it was enough to buy her tires and insurance for the tires, and an alignment, without her having to do anything.

Anything but wait.

She came with me and the wait for them to put the tires on and do the alignment was 3 hours.  They said it was going to be an hour and a half, so it was a long wait.

But we got it done, the tires are on there, and I paid for it.

And I’m going to keep giving her money.

I just got a bonus that after taxes I got 415 dollars, and I could have kept that money to myself, but I told her, celebrated, and gave her 100 dollars.  I put 200 on my credit card.  The rest I saved for her birthday present, and I bought a book.

But really, I’m barely making it through.  The problem is cigarettes, and if I didn’t buy cigarettes I would probably be able to live within my means.  But the credit card is there and I fell to the temptation to spend on it, when I didn’t have the money to back it up.

It was so freeing to spend that money.  And I learned a lot from doing that.  Probably one of the biggest lessons of my life.  Credit should be used to make more money, and you should never just lose money.

For instance, if I bought a list on my credit card, say from Aweber, that would be a good investment in myself, that could return a profit.  I could make money from having a list!  That would be an instance where the credit card would serve you well.

But buying cigarettes and alcohol on credit is when your losing money.  Sure, you may be having a good time, but you gotta ask yourself… is it worth it?

How many hours would I have to work to pay off that debt?

How does that feel?  Still want to do the same thing?

I’ve done it, and let me tell you, it doesn’t feel good.  Nor does it help you support your family.  So really, I guess that’s an example of what NOT to do.

I do think a glass of wine a day is good for you, maybe even two.  And that a cigarette a day isn’t going to hurt you.  You could save money by not buying either, but don’t you want to enjoy yourself a little?

All I know is that me personally, I could really use a break.  Some sort of financial windfall that helped me get out of debt, and into a better place with my family.

I’m supporting my family to some degree, but I definitely want to improve and earn more.  I think that’s going above and beyond doing the best you can for your family.

Work on yourself harder than you do at your job, and you’ll be fine.  That’s what I say.

So you may do what you can for your family with what you’ve been given, but you want more and so what?  What are you going to do about it?

I propose we blog and write ebooks.  Maybe come up with a series of videos we sell.  Get into the information market and provide more value there than anyone else is giving.

If your doing well at your hourly job, be hungry for God’s sake, and want to do more.  More for your family.  Buy them a house and a college education.  Do well for them, get them off to a good start.  The rest is up to them, but they better do good.

But I say that the best we can do is be a great example for our children.  To help lead them up the path of life.  So don’t you want to become more valuable?  Don’t you want to create something that provides more value to the reader than anything they’ve ever read?  Or at least in the league with the best they’ve ever read.

Because of the few, there are many who are good examples.  You just have to become one of those people.  And I propose you can do that by reading good or great books and writing a blog and e books.

It’s simple really.  If you want to support your family in a way that realizes your dreams, you’ve just got to become more valuable.  And the best way I’ve found to become more valuable is to READ.

So that’s what I suggest.  You READ.  And read fast.  Read as much as you can, as fast as you can.  Even if that means taking notes on what you’ve read, and slowing yourself down a little to absorb more.

This may come as common sense, but I think it bears an exclamation point.  Read!  I try to read as much as I can.  I read for 2 hours today.  It’s the weekend so I have more time, but I try to read at least a half hour a day.

And I think the world would be a better place if more people read a half hour a day.  At least that’s what I propose.  Even the average hourly worker.

I think they would move up in the company, and be more valuable, and live better personal lives as a result of them reading just a half hour a day.

That is, of course, as long as they were reading books on personal development and self improvement.

Because, I propose that is what you have to read if you want to become more valuable.  And when you have a family, money is important.  And the more valuable you can become, the more the opportunity for you to increase your income.

So I focus on improvement, and it’s working, even though I’m a schizophrenic.  That’s part of the reason I believe this stuff can be done by anyone anywhere in the world.

Work your hourly job, do the best for your family that you can at the time, write your blog, work on your e books.  Be stable and work towards a better future.  It will take time no doubt, and I almost want to tell you you could do it in 90 days.

But really it takes years, if you haven’t started yet, to make any money at all on the internet.  You have to establish yourself, and create an audience.  That’s about the stage I’m at now, but I’m a leading learner, and I’m reporting on how I’m doing as I go.  I think it could help people improve.

And how I’m doing now is that I’m getting a lot of comments on 2 of my posts, and I’m creating some engagement with the beginnings of my audience.

The comments, a lot are trash, just to be honest.  There are some that approve of what I do and encourage it, there are one or two haters, and there is a lot of spam.  I love it all.  I’m in love with doing this.  With being a part of the internet.  God Bless America and God Bless the World.

But you can only do what’s best for you and your family.  We can’t control when the world is going to end.  We can only seek to improve.  And with reading and writing, I think we are well equipped to do just that.  Improve.

That and a lot of hard work.

But I propose that if your smart you can work now and get paid later, and then you can relax.  Enjoy the profits.  That’s what I say.

I do however live by the principle that one should die with their boots on.  Never stop doing what you do.  Do it to your dying day.  David Bowie died just last year, and he had just made a new album!  He died with his boots on.  I plan to write until I’m dead.  See what comes of it.  See if I make an impression.  I propose that YOU can make an impression.  I propose that YOU can be one of the few who succeeds and makes millions of dollars.  Maybe there’s even a potential billionaire out there reading this right now.  Whatever your goals, just know that I support you in living a better quality of life.  I support you in improving.  I support you in reading and writing.  I believe it’s good for the human race.  For the world.  Just do your best to be the most valuable you can be, and see where it takes you.

Why don’t you see if you can become the most valuable person in the world?

That’s what I propose, and a few of you, I believe will do it.  You WILL BE the most valuable person in the world to a lot of different people.  To many, many, many, many people.  Just self educate, and write your blog, and write your books.  I believe the rest will follow.  The wealth.  Become the most valuable person in the world, and receive the money.  As the most valuable person in the world, you will probably give away most of your fortune to good causes, that is of course, after your family is taken care of.

So just do the best you can for your family now, and strive to do more for them in the future.  That’s the lesson I’ve learned from being in a bad place and doing the wrong things with mine.  Fortunately for you, now that you’ve read this post, you don’t have to take money from your family because you have no motivation to work.  You can skip that part, and build your future, not waste any time, and improve and become more valuable now, instead of wasting your twenties trying to figure it out.

So my advice to you is to go buy your name as a domain and start your first blog post today.  Then build.  Then improve.  Then become more valuable.  Make a career out of it.  Make it on the internet.  You can do it!

The point is now that you’ve read this to go TAKE ACTION and provide a better life for your family.  Sure, do the best that you can, but work to make your best a little better each day.  You can do it!  I believe in you!  Just for God’s sake, do the right thing.  Don’t cheat, and don’t steal.  Do good and have good done to you.

Thanks for reading.

Jesse Creel

Hearing Voices, A Guide To Navigating The Waters

If your hearing voices everyday, you should definitely go see a psychiatrist.  They’ll most likely give you some drugs that will help you cope.  And you should take them, for the sake of stability.  And you should also seek talk therapy.

But I am not a doctor, and I can’t give medical advice.  All I can tell you is that taking RisperiDONE and talk therapy helped to stabilize me.  I have now been able to hold a job for a year and a half, and am receiving promotions there too!  I am able to contribute to my family and help support my two children and my wife.  Things are not always easy, but they are getting better.

Even with the Risperidone and therapy I still hear voices.  They just don’t effect my actions like they used to.  Now I know that I can have success, I just have to work hard it at.  And working hard I am.

I am however taking on new stress.  I have been promoted to Sales Coordinator at my job at Honeybaked Ham and my new job, one that I will do for a few hours a week, it to grow the companies sales.  This involves dropping off free samples and then following up, following up, following up, following up, following up.

I say that 5 times because in the book my boss gave me to read about selling their product, they say that you have to have 5 points of contact to sell anything.  So there’s much more to the job then just dropping off a free lunches and praying for sales.  There’s work involved, and it’s stressful.

I don’t want to come off as annoying, but I have to call my prospects repeatedly if I want to make any headway.  And I must make headway. I must make sales, and I must make many of them.  I’ve done great at working there as an hourly employee but this new position is going to require that I produce more.  Bring more to the table.  Be more.  Find it within myself to sell.  And on top of it all, I hear voices everyday, and sometimes I hear my prospects in my head!  Sometimes it seems like their actually talking out loud to each other, like the voices would in my head, and their saying hateful things about me.

But I can handle it, besides, we all get what we deserve.  This is just an opportunity for me.

But if you hear voices everyday, then you should probably just listen to them, and then, MAKE UP YOUR OWN MIND as to whether you want to act on the things their talking about.  Unless that of course is hurting yourself or other people.

For instance, the other morning, one of the voices shouted at me to floss! as I was brushing my teeth.  I thought that was a good idea and was happy to have a little reminder to take good care of myself.  That is an instance where I would recommend you listen to your voices.  If they are telling you to call out of work I would recommend that you just go into work anyways, and make your money.

Sometimes the voices will have good ideas, sometimes they will have bad ideas, just like you.  Part of life it making those decisions that are going to impact your life in a positive way.  We all just have to grow up and make good choices.

I suppose, in short, that my guide for navigating the waters of hearing voices everyday is to master yourself.  Their just voices in your head, they don’t control you, you control you.  You can succeed despite the challenges.  And take heart that there are other people out there, with the same challenges as you, living good lives.  You can have a family, a job, friends, a life.  I just want you to know, I believe in you, and I know that anyone can overcome what their going through and come out the other side a better person, better off.

Take care, and with time, may you live a great life.

Thanks for reading.

Finding Value In Those Things Which Make Us Suffer

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet.  Only through the experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.”  -Helen Keller

For me, one of those things that makes me suffer is schizophrenia.  I’m recovered but at times it still irritates and annoys me that I hear voices.  They are not always friendly and at times they can be downright bad.  What good can come from a voice that regularly wishes you’d die?  The answer, I’ve found, is to thank God everyday, for everyday that I’m above ground.  Life is a blessing, and like any other person on the path of lifelong learning, I seek to improve.

And I am making improvements.  They’ve been coming slowly, but they are definitely showing up in my life as a result of my hard work.  I am a very grateful person and I am always being blessed as a result of being grateful for what I have.  And, because of my gratitude, I am finding new things and more things to be grateful for.  For example, my job is a blessing.

I came on with my company about a year and a half ago, and I started at the bottom.  It just so happened that the store I was working in needed good people to run it so the opportunity for growth was there.  And I’ve seen growth.

On my birthday in 2016 I got a dollar twenty five pay increase.  You may be saying, well, that’s not much at all, but for a low paying part time job, that’s definitely a step in the right direction.  Along with the raise I was also given more opportunity.

My company was aware that I had an interest in sales, that really I loved sales and wanted to be a part of it.  They have been telling me since I started working there that I’m great with the customers.  I do love the our customers.  And I’ve had the privilege of driving the companies box truck on deliveries and various other places and on these trips in some cases I’ve needed rides back to the store.  On these rides back I was driven by who is now the president of our 3 stores.  We had the opportunity to have conversations about life and I expressed the desire to get back into sales at some point.  At first they recommended I try something with my spare time as the job is only part time and they are flexible with hours.

But as time went on the company needed a salesperson.  They needed someone who would be able to expand business and develop new relationships.  So the conversations I had with our president were remembered and they decided to give me a shot at being a salesperson.

So I’ve been doing some work as a salesperson.  Up to this point I haven’t been dedicated on a consistent basis to sales because the store needed me to do the work of keeping it running.  But with one of the other people chosen to be a salesperson deciding that the job wasn’t for them, my company decided to let me have another territory, another store.

There are 3 stores in all, and now I had two of them.  I was the salesperson for two of the three stores and my job was to build relationships.  I was to take free samples of our products around to businesses that have a need for our food and build relationships with them.

Just yesterday I was informed that the president was excited about this new role I was taking on, and that I should be the person to take on all three stores!  I went from being a salesperson at my home store to taking on all three stores in the company!  This position also comes with the title of Sales Coordinator, which is a big step up from just being an associate.  I don’t believe this would have happened if I hadn’t taken the leap into sales in 2010 after I lost my job.  I don’t believe this would have happened if I hadn’t been self educating myself on the topics of sales, leadership, and self improvement.  And this wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t first taken the step to just take an hourly wage and forget about sales for a while, while I worked for a steady paycheck.

More good news is that now with 3 stores to sell for, I may also get another hourly pay increase!  At least that’s what they told me today.  I don’t know how much, or when it will happen, but another hourly increase wouldn’t even included the bonuses for successful selling.  I am growing and improving at my little job and I never expected this kind of opportunity when I first started.

Needless to say, I’m excited.  But the work has only just begun.  Sales is a lot harder than just working at the store, cutting the meat and making sandwiches for customers.  I’m going to have to work my butt off for any success and even if I work hard success isn’t guaranteed.  I’m going to have to work smart, develop myself, add value, and act with integrity.  I’m going to have to keep learning… learning about how to build long term relationships with healthy businesses.  I’m going to have to make a success of this opportunity, because failure just isn’t an option.  Success must be my destiny.

So I’ve built my character along the way… especially being a schizophrenic and at one point totally dropping the ball on my responsibility to my wife and children.  I have struggled to work and now that I’ve made a success of myself as an hourly employee I’m being given the opportunity to make a success of myself in sales.  And I have a lot going for me when it comes to my company supporting my endeavors.  I have all the tools for success.  I just have to make it happen.  But as for now, my success in sales has yet to be seen.  I am successful at working a job and growing with a company, and I have that as an asset going into the responsibility of this position.

And there is no doubt in my mind that I will continue to grow as a result of the suffering that comes along with sales.  People say no, they don’t want to talk to you, their short with you, they don’t have a need.  But some people, and I know this for sure, will buy. I just have to find them and demonstrate to them that I am the best at what I do, and that they will benefit by working with me.  My struggle will continue and it can and must lead to success.

But the value I can get from my suffering… the suffering of being a schizophrenic, the suffering of being someone who smoked for 14 years, the suffering of being a husband and a father (where the good vastly outweighs the trouble), the suffering of being in debt, the suffering of spending just as much or more than I make, all of it I can learn from and benefit from, for the highest good of all concerned.

The value of suffering, from whatever your going through, is that it gives you a story to tell.  The stories of going from the bottom to the top are nearly endless when you look up stories of successful people.  You know the story, they start poor, with nothing, aspire to rise above their circumstances and end up changing the world for the better.  They become a blessing for a massive number of people.  Take Tony Robbins for example.  He came from a family who didn’t even have the money to put together a thanksgiving meal.  He swore he would make a better life for himself and look what he’s accomplished!  Granted you can find those stories of success, but they are not common.  It takes a lot more than just hard work to be someone great, and to live a life that’s to your designing.

But to find your value in your suffering, let it make you great.  You came from somewhere that no one would want to come from, and despite your challenges you can make something great of yourself.  And I believe whether you fail or not, whether your successful or not, is entirely up to you.  I believe God will help us when we ask for the help and are deserving of it.  And we are deserving of it when we are working hard and learning, and continuing to grow.  In the name of not only ourselves, or our families, but in the name of adding value to a massive number of people.  When we aim to make the world a better place, and take massive action to make it so, we are stepping into our power.  We are leaving a legacy, we are contributing.  We are making lives better.  We become a blessing to others.  And none of this would be possible without suffering.

So really, it just can’t be done without suffering.  And the more you go through, the better your story will be.  So although suffering isn’t fun or enjoyable, it should be welcomed.  As someone who’s optimistic I would say… “This too shall pass” and you’ll be better off for it.  Squeeze every ounce of value out of your suffering and make the most of it.  When you reach your success, you’ll be happy you had those character building times that made you who you are.  As for me I’m going to take my suffering and make the most of it.  I’m going to stop spending more than I make, and I’m going to save more.  I’m going to commit to quitting cigarettes and be one of the 10% of schizophrenics who don’t smoke (according to wikipedia, 90% of schizophrenics smoke).  I’m going to pay off my debt in the shortest amount of time possible.  I’m going to give more to my family and to my church.  I’m going to start exercising again and make the most of my gym membership.  The change of becoming a non-smoker has taken me 14 years to begin to translate into reality, so I don’t expect all these changes to happen overnight.  I am optimistic however, and I know that if I keep working hard, keep learning, keep improving, it’s going to pay off.  The future is bright, despite my challenges.

If you would like to share your story of struggle, and the value it gives to you, then leave a comment.  I would love to hear from you.  Here’s to your success, and to benefiting from whatever your going through, for you, your family, and for the rest of the world.  Thanks for reading.  Bless and be blessed.

The Advantages Of Living With A Mild Case Of Schizophrenia

Yes, I am a schizophrenic, but I think you could call my particular case mild.  I still hear voices everyday, and a lot of times they tell me to die or they just scream the word “cancer” at me, but at times the voices are an aide and they become useful.

Don’t get me wrong, there are limitations imposed upon any schizophrenic’s thinking.  To me what that means is that as a schizophrenic I just have to work harder than the average person for success.  One of the advantages the schizophrenia has taught me is the strength to focus.  If the voices go off in different directions, I just have to work harder to maintain my focus so I can get done what I need to get done.

But my case of schizophrenia is mild.  It really doesn’t effect my own thinking, and my own emotions, and my own actions.  At least it doesn’t anymore.  I’ve made many big mistakes as I was learning to cope with my schizophrenia.  They’ve told me to lie, cheat, and steal and I’ve had to come to terms with my own values and learn to say NO!

So one big advantage of schizophrenia is that you learn what you value and what you will and will not do.  You learn, or re-learn from experience the difference between right and wrong.  And sometimes the schizophrenia acts as the voice of the conscious.  Letting you know about all the wrongs you’ve done in your life and the advantage of that is to learn from them, and begin again to do the right thing.

Another advantage of schizophrenia is that it sometimes aides in visualization.  I’ve heard stories of very successful people practicing positive self talk before a big presentation and hearing the voices of the crowd say YES!  It’s much like that in that when I’m visualizing, with enough focus and effort I can hear the sounds of success from the voices.  They tell me I’m famous, that my work is good, that I’ll make lots of money, that I have a good family, and that I overall am the greatest human being on planet earth.  And I can feel those words in my body.  I can feel more powerful because I have the reinforcement of voices that seem to be coming from a place other than my own mind.  And that is valuable in the respect that it gives me hope for a better future.

Another advantage of having a mild case of schizophrenia is it increases creativity.  It gives you things to write about.  I’ve written an entire book on a year of my life that without the schizophrenia it wouldn’t be much of a story at all.  This blog is also host to many posts on schizophrenia, so really the problem I have has given me a lot to write about.  I was just reading some other schizophrenic’s poetry online when I was searching for the title “schizophrenic writes about love”.  His poetry was dark though.  I just can’t do that.  I have to stay positive and optimistic about the present and the future.  And I have to share my stuff with the world… for better or worse.  Although when asking myself the question “How do I add value for a massive number of people” I think that the majority of my work is going to be positive.  And really not only do I want it to be positive, but I want it to be the best in the world.  The best on the internet.  I want to be the greatest schizophrenic alive.  And I think I can do that through creative writing.  And I think you can do that too!

And finally, yet another advantage of schizophrenia is that, for me at least, it’s taught me how to thank God for everyday.  There’s very few days that go bye that I don’t thank God for another day.  Any of us could die at any time from any reason and my schizophrenia is a constant daily reminder of that.  I thank God for another day, each day and I am daily being taught how to live my life to the fullest.  That is probably the greatest advantage of the schizophrenia that I have noticed.

I hope that you have gained some valuable insights from this post.  Feel free to write me at any time if you feel the need and let me know what you think of this whole thing.  You can reach me at  Thank you, I love you, and God Bless!

What is Schizophrenia?

I wanted to answer that question not only for someone who wants to know the answer, but I wanted to define it for myself…. as someone who has it.

The short answer is schizophrenia is the condition in which someone hears voices in their head on a daily basis.  Sometimes they are saying good things, sometimes they are saying bad things and it really all depends on how your doing that day what kind of mood the voices are in.

I had one of the voices tell me the other day that she is going to say to me whatever she feels like saying at that moment.  I was in the shower.  Sometimes it’s easier for them to communicate with me when there is background noise like a shower or the faucet running.

Schizophrenia for me has been a blessing.  It’s better allowed me to distinguish right from wrong and to make more of the right decisions.  And the voices approve of those better choices and bless me for it.  Like the decision to quit smoking.  They blessed me for that just today.  Just because schizophrenia is not normal doesn’t make it unhealthy or bad.  It’s the person with the schizophrenia that can make their lives either good or bad depending on their decisions and what they do with what they have.
Schizophrenia for me is really not a good or a bad thing.  It’s just the way things are.  And it’s a frame of reference for how I’m doing.  When I feel like I’m doing good the voices will many times agree.  When I feel like I could do better they have something to say too.

Schizophrenia is when you hear the voices of public figures in your head, and you hear those people who are close to you in your head… and you hear all the public, neighbors and even people you don’t know…. they are all in your head.  And many of them have something to say.  And if your not doing well they will not be ashamed to tell you they want you to die, and that they would like to kill you.

So you take the good with the bad.  Like everything else in life.

One of the things schizophrenia has taught me is to be grateful for everyday.  And I thank God daily for another day.  I have been told to die in my head so many times and I feel like I could be dying right now… that it sometimes seems like I really could die at any moment.  One of those pains could overtake me and that would be it.  So I’m grateful and just want to be good and a strong role model for my children.  That’s why I’m quitting smoking.  I’m also writing a book on it.  Stating my progress each day.  Today I started over at day one.  I want to go two weeks without one.  I have a vaporizer that I think will help me through the mornings because those are the toughest times not to smoke.

Schizophrenia doesn’t have to be a disability either.  Sure when I wasn’t working and hated working I tried to get social security disability… I was denied and set out to repeal the decision.  But the desire to get money, the necessity promoted the opportunity to work and I found a job, thanks to my brother.  I do have a lot of help from my family, thank God… but I am still attempting to become independent and make enough money to pull at least my own weight.

Because sadly, I do not pull all of my own weight right now.  My wife is the primary breadwinner.  I give her as much money as I can, but I would like to be able to pay at least half of the bills.  That way I’m pulling all of my own weight.  We would still be helping each other and relying on each other, but our lives would both be better if I could make more money.

So I don’t look at schizophrenia as a disability but rather a trait that helps me write, work, and live a good life.

It can even be spiritual at times.  The voices talk in mysteries sometimes and it’s hard to make sense of what their saying.  Like a dream that isn’t literal.  You can learn about yourself from it, but it’s not to be taken too seriously.  You have to get on with what you think your meant to do here.

Schizophrenia is just a daily hallucination that either helps you or hinders you depending upon your outlook.  Personally I often look to God for help and I credit all the good things I have in my life not to my own hard work, but to God Himself working in the world today.  The way I look at it is we are all here co-creating our lives with each other and with God and working hard we are destined to make something good of ourselves.  I think we all just have to learn to benefit from whatever happens to us, good and bad, and be grateful for life.  I think the point of life is to learn right from wrong and do everything in our power to make the most good out of our lives that we can.  To help God make the world a better place.

And the world will be a better place if we grow.  And we can grow by learning to face our problems more than we run from them.  If we can learn to consistently face our problems, and the pain that comes along with them, we will grow in our lives and will be in a better position to help other people.  And the problems will never end, there will only be better problems for us to work on that will result in a better quality of life when we solve them.  And God willing we will solve them.

But back to what schizophrenia is and isn’t… schizophrenia should have no bearing on how much money you make in your life.  It may add flavor to your consciousness but it’s your own thoughts and actions that will determine the quality of your life.  That’s the way it is for everyone and schizophrenics are no exception.

I should also say, in reference to those people who are overwhelmed by more intense schizophrenia the government should give you money, as they do.  Even though it’s not much… they should still give something, and they do.  I’m happy to contribute something to the government that’s going to help take care of and heal our sick people.  Taxes are a good price to pay when it’s going to help make our world, or at least our country, a better place to live in.

Schizophrenia for me has been a blessing.  It helped rearrange my life and get my priorities in order.  I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, but I think I only did it to myself with the decisions I made and messing with people not thinking of the consequences.  Messing with myself.

I always say “We all get what we deserve” and life will teach you that.  And in the end there’s a judgement to see how you did.  But life will make you suffer, whether you have schizophrenia or not.  We all have to deal with pain.  What makes us good is when we learn and improve.  There’s no sense in crying about it.  I saw on a couple different fire trucks a sign that said “don’t cry, just supply”.  That’s a good quote for when people are going through hard times and you have a job to do.  Just supply.  Yes!  Firetrucks are good.

But schizophrenia is when you hear voices in your mind and they seem to have their own consciousness and their own intelligence.  They are not always nice but personally I couldn’t imagine life without them and it makes for an interesting adventure.  It makes the game of life special everyday and I look forward to more improvement and positive change in my life and the lives of others.

May we all bless and be blessed.  Thank God, Amen.

Writing is Work and I Have Hours And Hours

To do nothing but write.

My wife is taking care of the kids.  I want to provide for her and them.  I can do that I think by writing.

And what I can tell you is to work hard and be lucky and just do what they ask you to do and you will find love.  I am a testament to that.

And find God.

If you ask God to help you he will.  If you ask God to do it all for you he will.

God does everything for me so I can’t imagine why he wouldn’t do it for anybody else.

And I want to win the lottery in the next 5 years.  Or write so much that it pays me 2 million dollars.

Be at some point a multimillionaire.  Live a wealthy life.  That’s what the blog is about.  Creating a wealthy life.  I could, and have written a book about it.  No rather I wrote a  book about working at Honeybaked Ham.  Not working the Christmas because I was a schizophrenic, and then working the Christmas all the way through… It was a triumph.

And something that simple as working one Christmas at Honeybaked changes my life.  I turn into a hard worker.  Someone who can do 55 hours a week.  Someone who can do their part to make sure Honeybaked makes it through the holiday season.

And I got treated well!  What goes around comes around and I think I’m going to hit the lottery!

But I could write a book for a publisher.  No problem.  Just tell me what to write it on.  Tell me what to do, because I can do it, no problem.

And I write.  I write for glory, I write for the voices, the voices say it’s medicine.   I write for my family who I dearly love.  I write for my bosses, I write for you.  Improve your life, that’s what I say, I’m a friendly schizophrenic.

And make it.. I say if you write enough you’ll have enough to give to people that they will publish you.  That’s what I say.  I have it in me and I believe you do too.  And if your going to make money at it why not make a lot.  If that’s the way you can create it then why not live a wealthy life.  Family, kids, money, friends, work, life, challenges, solutions, future.  I love my life and I am eager for more of it.

But I’ve been thinking about direction and I just finished a book I was writing.  Half assed finished it but still finished it.  I want to start another memoirs chronicling quitting cigarettes.  I think that would be a fine topic to write about.  It could be my time without cigarettes, or pot, or wine.

And I would be about my job at Honeybaked, selling ham and turkey, and working in the store, and driving… and I would be about playing the lottery, and I would be about saving money so I can invest in the stock market.  And paying off my debt.  Those are all major themes in my writing.  I can do this, I know I can do this.  I am a rockstar, and so are you.  We can do this together.  We all are brilliant.  We can do this.  I know this for a fact.  It doesn’t matter if we fail.  We are a success.  We will win.  This is a fact.  It’s just the way it works in The United States Of America. I have great visions for the future.

Peace and Harmony and Heaven on Earth.  Those are my dreams.  And making sure everyone has enough to eat.  Because you need to eat to live.  That’s a fact.  Take care of yourself, people love you and want you to be around.

So what value can I bring to you.  How about a faith in humanity.  To boldly do the right thing.  To do good and to give and receive love. And to sell the shit out of whatever your selling so you can take care of your family and the other people that are around you.

So what do you want to sell?  Can you write a book and sell it on your blog?  Can you do that?  Do you want to do that?  I say go for it.  I’m doing it and it’s awesome and I haven’t even made any money yet.  I’m just syked for the process.  And the creative process is indeed amazing.

Even if your just writing the first things that come to your mind.  I say you can do it.  I say I can do it.  I want you.  I want to write for you.  To give you something you want to read.  Something good.  And something exciting that keeps you turning the pages.  I love you and I want to write exceptionally good for you.

So I ask you, what food did you eat today?  Was is it good for you or could it have been better?  How is your diet effecting you?  Could you use more water in your day and less energy drinks?  Believe me I struggle with the same things.  One day during the holiday I drank 4 energy drinks in one day.  I felt terrible.  I made it through the day though, only by God’s grace.  I’m only 32 and as a schizophrenic I already feel like I’m dying.  I think I could recover but I need to stop smoking and that’s hard.

I love you and I want you to know I believe your mostly good.

But the question is how do you and I deliver content that’s worth 2 million dollars?

Provide content that’s worth 100 million dollars.  And how do you do that?  Write well.

I almost wish I could just win the lottery so I wouldn’t have to go thru this writing bullshit.  But I have to because there is nothing else for me to do.  I haven’t won yet and I don’t even have  a ticket for tonight, and I just don’t care.  I want to win the lottery like a drowning man wants air but I’ve got to write and I’ve got to give you value.  Things I’ve learned.

And what I’ve learned is to not use credit cards to live off of, and don’t buy into network marketing companies because you probably won’t resell anything and it will just waste your money.

But there are stories of people making it.  I want to make it writing after all of that.  I think that would be a good dream.  I tried music but didn’t make any money at it.  That was my first dream, music.

But I’m 32 and I’m still creating my life as I go.  The best way to predict the future is to invent it or so a quote said from a book I read.  I don’t remember the author and I don’t remember the book but you can trust that I read it somewhere and have passes it on to you.

But I say bleed on the keys.  Whatever you have to do to write, just write.  I don’t know how you could even sweat on the keys but figuratively you know you could do it.  Bleed on the keys.

But as time passes I get richer, you know why?  I save 10% of my income.  I want to read Money, the book by Tony Robbins so I can learn how to invest.  I want to take my savings and invest it.  Get rich.  Live a wealthy life.  And I say you can do the same thing!

In a nutshell, I want you to succeed.  And what I can tell you is what I’ve learned along the way.  And that is that you should work a job and then play the the lottery.  That way you have an income along with your dream.  You can’t quit your job thinking that you’ll win the lottery because you need an income.  It’s where your everything happens.  I’ve been through a lot of shit with the voices and what I can say is that anything can be overcome with God’s help.  And help you I believe he will.   If you ask and if you do the right things and if you give.

Because He’s blessed me in my life and if you want Him to bless you in your life you’ve got to forgive yourself and sin no more.  That’s the way to redemption.  Love yourself and you will be loved.  Love your neighbor because it’s the right thing to do.  Even if the world hates you for it.  Because life isn’t without suffering and the right thing to do isn’t without pain.  But it’s a good pain.

Life really isn’t good or evil, it’s just grey.  Not bad and not good.  Somewhere in between.  And then you die and have to pay your maker for all the bad things you did.  At least that’s what I think,  but who am I but your poet, your writer, your worker, your family man, your friend.

Your salesman.

And I could be, and I will be, with God’s help I will sell Honeybaked like every American in the country has ham fever and needs Honeybaked in their life.  And I will sell this blog and my book and it will be good times for all family and friends.  And I have that dream for you too.  To improve, to become better, to live a better life.  I love you and I want you to know that.

How can I demonstrate my love for you?

Write, and give you something to read…. that’s what I say, and you can do it to.  Use my material as fuel for your own writing.  Write a book, write a blog, do both, sell everything.  You can be successful.  If I only had someone that could read my blog and tell me how to improve it, how I could make money off of it, that would be awesome.  I would love to have Tony Robbins review my blog.  That would be a dream come true.  Life coach stepping in to help improve things.  Beauty.

Maybe that will happen and maybe it won’t.  The point is to keep writing, because with every word I’m leaving a legacy for the world.  You know who I am, because I write, you know me.  Without ever having to meet me.  You know me.  I tell you everything.  At least all the important stuff. The rest is bullshit.  At least not shareable.  I love you and I share deeply with you because I love you.

How can I show you I love you?  By telling you that you can do it.  I know you can.  If other people can do it, you can do it too.  And don’t stop on your first try either.  Keep at it,it will pay off in more ways than you can count.  I know it has for me and I thank God for more and more everyday.  I give and I receive.  The blessings don’t stop, and I thank God for them and more of them everyday.

Let’s make it our goal to make money writing, no matter what and see what happens.  I have the goal of 2 million dollars in 5 years.  What is your goal?  Write me and tell me.

I would love to hear from you.  I say write on and write I will.  I will write until I’m dead.  I don’t care what happens, and people will have something to read.  It doesn’t matter.  I don’t care if it never gets read at all. I want to write, because it helps me.  I want you to live and do well, I want you to live an outstanding success of a life, I want you to love and be loved.  I want you to do well.  To have everything you want, within God’s rules… but I say it’s within God’s rules to be wealthy, and live a wealthy life.  I say he wants us to enjoy it.  He wants us to be wealthy, so be wealthy we must!  Now is the time, write my friends, write!

This is all for now.  I love you if I haven’t said it enough.  One more time.  It bears repeating.  I love you.  Good luck.


So It’s Another Christmas Wrapped

And work was good.  I worked a lot of hours for a schizophrenic but the voices weren’t bothering me much.  There are people out there that I imagine don’t like the things I write but that doesn’t bother me much either.  I write because it’s work and I love working.

It gives me something to do.  And if your lucky you get paid for it.  The best I’ve ever done was 18.50 an hour.  I got paid for playing a gig or two with my band but I never really made any money with music.

I tried though.  And I put my everything into it.

It just so happened that I got married and started a family.  And that changed me.

And changed me for the better.

I no longer cheat, steal, I try not to lie, and I’ve pretty much put away all of my sins.  I have a recognition of good and evil and want to think, speak, and act in whatsoever ways are good.  I want to give and give fully of myself.  To my family, to my friends, to my coworkers, to my customers, to the world.

And writing is work thank God.  It gives me something to do.  I think you can do it too.  And whatever you write is for your own highest good.  Plus you get to leave something behind.  A legacy.

My therapist would say that that wasn’t a big deal compared to being a father and playing a part in my children’s lives.  And he’s right. But I think I am more than capable of doing both.  Writing and being a father.  In fact, I’m doing it right now.  And this could lead to money, and wouldn’t that be amazing.

So I’m just going to keep cranking it out.  I’m going to keep writing.  Because others make it a profession and I want to do it too.  And I got nothing but time.  I only work 32 hours a week!  They are always letting me off early.

Don’t get me wrong.  They work me.  But that’s only really during the holidays.  The rest of the year is easy.

So I’ll write.  And make something of it.  I could make 2 million dollars between now and 2022 or I could just make a living writing.  Be able to quit my job in fact have to quit so I can do book tours and signings and things like that.  I want to be a best selling author and I only have a high school education.  I want to write for money.  I want to make money.  I want you to make money.  I want to do it with my brains.  I want to do it with my mind.  I want to do it with my heart.

But I still could win the lottery.  That IS a possibility.  I bought a ticket tonight with a box of wine and my powerball number, the last one at the end was 07.  The numbers looked good, the rest of them.  They looked like winners, like they could be winners, although they are probably not.  The winners look like numbers you don’t even expect.

But all I know is that I need to keep busy and I can do that by writing.  And the beauty is you can write about anything.  Just keep your mind free.  Write at will.

But by this time I’ve had several glasses of wine and I’m trying to quit cigarettes… I’m feeling good.  I want to keep writing because I know other people have made it writing and the only way I’m going to find out if I can make it writing is to write.  And I can’t forget to read too.  I have a new book, not one by Tony Robbins like I’ve been reading so much of, but one by another author.  It’s about spiritual growth in a time of anxiety.  It’s written by a therapist. He’s written 9 books so far.   I could probably learn a great deal from him.

I finished my book today.  It took me a year to write.  I took a break towards the end because I lost the enthusiasm because I didn’t think I would be able to publish it.  Too personal.  But I finished it and I want to read it to see what I wrote.  I want to publish it just to publish it. To see if someone would have me. I am a lucky guy.  I think they would.  You just have to put in the work.  You have to write.  And write well.  Write like it’s your profession.  Bleed on the keys.  That’s what I say.  You have to write until you can write no more and then write more.  You have to work 13 hour days, or more and then eat and sleep and take your days off to write.  That’s what I say, be a writer.

Something will come of this writing.  Or maybe it won’t.  All I know is that I love to write and I’m going to do it whether I get paid for it or not.  What i really know is that I really want to get paid for it.  So what do I have to do?  What do we have to do to get paid to write?  If you wanted to write for a living.

I say just write.  Write your life.  Write your experience.  Write what you want.  Write whatsoever is lovely.  I’m a schizophrenic and it’s great!  I can still work and the voices even help me at times.

They make me feel, the voices, like I’m living a different life at time.  Like I’m rich, famous, wealthy, living the life of my dreams.  It’s all in my head, but that’s probably just the lottery playing tricks on me, right?

Or is it real just in the making.  Is it going to happen and I’m going to be wealthy or am I just dreaming.

All I know is that I have to forge this life.  To make it happen for me and my family, friends, and the whole world.  I have to have a positive impact in this lifetime, and writing is for me.  If it’s for you too I say go for it… and write 2,000 words every night.

I’m only at 1000 right now and I don’t know how much longer I have left in me.  I have to work tomorrow and I’ve had a few glasses of wine.  Probably a poor excuse not to write 2000 words, but 1000 is still good and it’s still worth the read.  In fact most people would probably have already lost their attention at 700 words so really I’m going the extra mile here.

I’m working on writing.  I think it’s a worth while goal to get published.  Though I don’t know that I ever will be published.

What I do know is that I have an awesome 2 kids and wife and a very supportive family that is very generous and loving.  I am very fortunate.  Really, working this job, even without making money writing, I’ve got it made.  All I have to do is quit cigarettes and I won’t be spending more than I make and I can pay my credit card off to a zero balance.

But that’s not very sexy.  I want the sexy of making 2 million dollars in five years.  My friend asked me what business I was going to do that in.  I told him I would write.  He really didn’t have anything to say.  I imagine some people would say I could never make that kind of money writing and to them I say, we shall see.  We shall see.

But I’m going to take my ass to bed now.  I had my wine for the night, and I’ve finished my book, plus I’ve written on my blog.  I’m tired and I have work tomorrow.  It should be a good day though.  Everyday is a good day that your alive.  I love life.  Thank God for everyday.  And for all the blessings our lives are filled with.  Thank You, and Thank you, and thank you.

But I’m a schizophrenic and i hear voices as I’m writing this.  And clicking sounds in the house.  The schizophrenia is really a spiritual thing.  It lets me know when things are going good.

But I love you and Thank You for reading.  You are really special to me, each and every one of you.  You are my readers and without you I would be alone and who in their lives wants to be alone.  You want to do it with other people.  You want to be a part of a team.  You maybe even want to lead the team.  Hell Yeah!  Do it!  You are the best and you can do it!  That’s what I say.  Be the best.  Do it.  Make it happen.  Do it for your family.  Do it for yourself.  Do it for God.  Do it for other people.  Just do it.

These I say are only blog posts, but the next book I write will probably be a memoirs of someone who has quit cigarettes.  It will probably be about alot more than just quitting cigarettes but quitting cigarettes will have to be the central them for 2017.  And I can write a book in a year.

2 pages a day for a year.  That’s a book.  You can do it too.  I’m telling you there is limitless potential.  You can do anything.  But I’ll talk more on this subject once I’ve made it and made 2 million dollars.  Is my writing worth 2 million dollars?

If I could give you more value I think it could be worth 2 million dollars.  that’s the key, value.  I want to give you something.  Something I’ve learned that I can pass on.  And what I can tell you is when the voices tell you to call out of work, don’t listen to them, and go in anyways.  You’ll be happy you did.  Your doing something and that’s good.  Keep doing it, you’ve got bills to pay.  You’ve got marriages to pay for, you’ve got colleges to pay for, you’ve got your kids sports you’ve got to pay for, and not to mention Christmas every year.

But I am very lucky and I am sure that God has a plan for me and that I will live a good life.  Lottery or not, writing or not, I will work and change my life so I become a better person as I grow older.

Thank you for reading, I sure do appreciate you.  I wish you the best, that you win money, that you do what you love, that you and your family are healthy, that all good things come to you… but what does that matter… you tell me.  Give me some feed back, write a comment.  Get involved.

But it really doesn’t matter.  I’m going to keep on writing, like I’m getting paid to do it, and hope that I do get paid to do it at some point.  And some point in the near future.  Because I need a lot of money pronto.

So I keep writing.  Because writing is work, and work pays you money, and if I work at this long enough I could get paid.  Content is king and I have plenty of that.  I don’t know that anyone will want to read what I’ve written but it’s worth a shot and if I fail so what…. it doesn’t matter anyways.  I’m still getting a steady paycheck at my job.  How could the writing not work!  I do it in my free time!

But good nite.  I love you.  Sweet dreams and may all good things come to you.

Love, Jesse Creel.

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