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Good Morning Schizophrenia

It’s 8am on Sunday morning, July 2nd.  In my sleep I don’t hear voices.  It’s the only time I get a break.  When I wake up music is going through my head and the voices start talking to me.  I don’t believe anything they tell me anymore.

They tell me I’m going to win the lottery, they tell me I’m going to die at an early age in a lot of pain, they tell me I’m going to get murdered, they tell me to cheat on my wife, they tell me to smoke and not to smoke, they tell me I’m going to get Cancer, they tell me to sell, they tell me to work with my hands instead of selling, it’s a rollercoaster ride.

I talk to them.  That’s how I deal with it.  I have an inner dialogue with the voices.  I tell them what I think of them.  I tell them I’m faithful, healthy, that I’m going to quit smoking, that I’m going to be a success on this blog, that I’m going to quit playing the lottery, and that I’m going to work.  It’s a hell ride keeping up with the voices because they always seem to be reading my doubts about myself, and they are fast at speaking.  I am constantly managing them and it’s exhausting.  The silver lining, and there always is one, is that the schizophrenia makes me stronger.  It makes me know what I want and what I do not want, and then it’s up to me to take the actions necessary to move me closer to those things that I do want.

If you have a mild case of schizophrenia as I do, my suggestion would be to work hourly with your hands, at a place where your bosses like you.  If your like me your bosses voices will get in your head and they will be positive telling you things like “work” and “be good”.  My bosses want me at work, and that is a blessing.  I have had a lot of jobs where I felt like I wasn’t wanted there, and it depressed me.  The schizophrenia only added to those feelings, and I became overwhelmed.  If you want to work, you must find a place where you feel like you can fit in.  If I can do it, you can do it too.

If you can work, you have the cornerstone of success to build on.  I am a leading learner, and I’m here to teach you that you can work, and then you can come home and work harder on yourself than you do at your job.  For me, working on myself means I read, journal, do affirmations, work on this blog, exercise by walking, doing pushups, crunches, squats, listen to helpful podcasts that are going to help me succeed online, visualization, love my family everyday, and other things that are set up to make my life as productive and as helpful to other people as possible.  I set up a to-do list and put it inside of a frame and hung it above my dresser so I can see it every morning.  So far it has helped me stay focused on systems that are going to move me in a positive direction in life.

I read in “Tools of Titans” two things from two different people.  The first one said that there is a difference between dreams and goals.  Dreams you can’t really do anything about, but goals you can take action and move towards.  I thought that was good advice.  Then came the second piece of advice.  It said that “losers have goals, winners have systems”.  That at first seemed like conflicting advice to me, especially because I liked the idea of having goals instead of dreams, so that I could set up my life to work on success like I want.  Later, it occurred to me that it really wasn’t contradictory, that the second piece of advice was just building on the first.  Goals you can work towards, but when you have systems in place (like reading for a half hour a day, and blogging everyday) you will move towards creating the life you want to make for yourself.  It’s not about the goal.  It’s about setting your actions up so that each day you are building something of value.  So my to-do list as mentioned above is set up to create those systems in my everyday life.  I am becoming more productive, and I am growing. As a mild schizophrenic, simply having those systems in place, and taking action on them everyday is an accomplishment.  The results don’t matter.  What matters is that I’m taking the right actions!

So I’ll leave you with the recommendation to work hourly, and grow yourself and know yourself with a blog.  Do your best each day to serve others and do it for the sake of being good, without expectation of a reward.  Serve simply to be of service.  I know being useful to others makes me feel good, and it feels like it’s the right thing to do with my time on earth.

Thanks for reading, make sure you subscribe to my list to get updates on this blog, and have a great day!

Jesse Creel

 

How Do I Make $20,000 A Year When I’m A Schizophrenic

I’m not a doctor, but I will say take your medication everyday.

I’ve had a revelation.

I’ve discovered my audience.

I am writing for schizophrenics who want to work.

I am a schizophrenic, and I make $20,000 a year.

From basically nothing.

I am a story of success.

I hear voices everyday that tell me I’m dying.

I must live and I tell them so.

Today was my daughters dance recital.  She was a crayon.

But let me not get off topic.  It’s hard because I’m a worker, but I’m also a family man.

I tell you even if your schizophrenic and think you can’t work, you can, and you can make an honest living off of your own sweat and blood.

Though chances are, if your like me, cutting yourself will rarely happen.  Most of the time it will just be sweat your putting into it.

So how do you, when your a schizophrenic, work and make more than you can make to get disability?

My answer came in swallowing my pride and taking my younger brother’s advice and I took a job with him.

He was hell to work with because he was constantly scrutinizing me and he was my senior in the company so I just had to do what he was telling me.  And when that’s coming from your younger brother it really takes hard work to just work harder and faster so he will stop complaining.

My brother no longer works with me, but it was a good experience with him while we had it.

The point is he landed me a job, and I didn’t even have to have an interview.  They just took me in on my brothers word.  Which I needed because I didn’t really have any good references.  I was afterall fired from the best job I’ve ever had in my life, when I lost it and asked some guy to fight, thinking it would earn me some respect.

It was an upheaval of epic proportions.  I couldn’t stand to work there anymore.  I was becoming a schizophrenic and I was about to get married.  I wanted to be a rockstar and not the guy who was making the guitars for the rockstar.  I wanted to be in the game.  I wanted a band.  I wanted to travel.

At the same time I didn’t want to give up the 18.50 an hour and the benefits.  So I stayed and hated it and eventually blew up.

And it got me fired.

That’s a hard thing to come back from.

I was making almost $40,000 a year!  Back to nothing.  It was a huge loss.  I still haven’t completely recovered from that.

I now make half of what I used to make.  I’m at $12 dollars an hour now.

Which really is good if your thinking about what a fast food employee makes.

I have gotten a couple of raises, one of them ironically came on my birthday.  I got paid an extra two dollars and the check came on my birthday.  Pretty cool.  I think God has blessed me with this job.

And I definitely don’t want to screw it up.

I’ve learned my lesson and now I have an attitude of gratitude and I thank God for my job.  It’s something I can do and not hate, so it’s easy for me to do my job.

And it’s easy to ask yourself how you can improve.  I do it all the time and I look for ways to be a better employee.  And it pays off.  I get raises.  I’m growing.  And on top of it all I’m a schizophrenic.

So if your a schizophrenic, and you want to work.  If you want to make more money than disability is going to pay you, then work.  It’s so amazingly good for you.  I get paid to wash dishes and talk to customers.  I can’t believe I get paid to do such easy work.  And when your working with your hands, it’s a lot easier for a schizophrenic.

But I do both, I work with my hands, and I work with customers, or potential customers.

I’m grateful for the hands on work, because it’s less stressful.  Talking to people is harder than doing Manuel labor.  At least for this schizophrenic.

But I do both and I really love talking to people.  It’s what my raises have led me to.  So I happily take on more stress, and with the voices it’s like people don’t like me because I’m a schizophrenic.

It’s like they know I hear voices that are telling me to die, or that they want to murder me, mostly just to die from smoking, but I just keep on keeping on, and improving, and so far I’ve woken up everyday.

It’s really a trip.

Sometimes not a good one, sometimes a very sexy one.  Sometimes a positive one.  I take the good with the bad.  But I am still working a job.  And I’m helping to support my family in a little way.  Gotta start somewhere.  I figure supporting them in a little way is better than nothing, and it’s a good start to doing a better job.

Because I’m not stopping with my job.  I’m moving on towards blogging.  I’m going to kick ass and make a 6 figure business and then ladder up to a 7 figure business.

That’s my plan.

Because I’ve got nothing else to do with my free time, other then spend it with my family and clean the house.

I’ve got plenty of time to start a business in my free time.

So I’m keeping my options open.

But that’s not going to stop me from working my job.

I’m a schizophrenic, and I work.  That’s what I do.  I’m okay.  I’m good to go.  I’m diseased, but I can still do my job.  And I can do the job well.

On top of it all I can write!

And write I will.

As it could be with you too.  If your a schizophrenic and work a job, that’s something worth writing about.  You could write all about your voices and what it takes to contribute to society.

Something I read on blogtyrant.com said you should write long form content if you want to be successful.  That means 3,000 words or more.  I’ve been writing 2,000.

But my audience is schizophrenics who don’t have a job and want to work.  Or work better at their job.  So I have to write for my audience.

The truth is part of the way I live my life is to deal with the voices by drinking and smoking.  It’s a rock and roll lifestyle and it could land me in my grave if I don’t play my piss poor hand right.  I am afterall, a schizophrenic.  My doctor told me I just had to deal with the cards I was dealt with in life.  I blamed my failure in business on the voices telling me I had cancer.

I of course am healthy, and there is nothing wrong with me.  Except I hear voices that other people don’t hear.

It is interesting because sometimes it seems like other people CAN hear my voices.  And they say things out loud about it to other people.  Like the people I work with.  They are always talking to themselves out loud.

I also heard in a Pat Flynn’s podcast recently about how if you wouldn’t tell your grandmother what you were doing, then should you really be doing it?

As far as starting a business goes.

But the problem is hating work when your a schizophrenic.

So what do you do?

I say you find a job that you can do.  Let the Lord bless you with an opportunity, by being humble and taking good advice.  Do the hands on work you have to do, because you hear voices and think that scares sales away.

Because I’ve been in the sales game for 7 years now, and I can tell you it’s not easy.

I failed more than I have succeeded, and now God has given me the opportunity to sell again, this time I get paid whether I sell or not.  So it’s really a win.

And that’s my new job.

Go out, drive around to local businesses, give them a taste of our product, and follow up the next day.  It’s so simple anyone could do it.

But I AM the only person in the 3 store company who does it.  They chose me.

And I do a superb job.  I got 6 sales in one month.

And I took some time off and worked in the store for the holiday, but now I’m back on the road, and I’m marketing.

Because that’s really what I would call it.  It’s not sales.  It’s too soft for that.  All I do is drop off two box lunches, a ham sandwich and a turkey sandwich…. with a bag of chips, a soda, a cookie, and a pickle, so they get the whole deal, and then I tell them to make sure they pass my name along IF they order.

That way my company knows I’m doing something.

I’m a smart salesman, and i also smoke, which makes me so just stupid sexy.

For most of the day I’m smoking, in the car, in between businesses.

It’s probably not the best way to pass the time, but I’m addicted and I do it, and I’m still alive.

And I figure even if i die early, I’ll still have another 20 or 30 years in me.  Human beings can stand pain for decades.

Or I could change my life and shoot to live to 100.

Maybe I can live to 100 and drink and smoke.  People do it.

But how do you work when your schizophrenic?

You find a good boss who will call you babe, and your willing to do whatever they ask you to do.  Your very easy going and want to make your bosses life easier.

That kind of attitude will get you raises.

And they are sweet as candy when you talk to them.

How do you make $20,000 a year even if your schizophrenic?

Work hard and do a job you can love.  Personally, I work for all women and I think that’s the way to go for this schizophrenic.  The managers of all 3 stores are women.  And the president is a woman.  I know all of them.  Most or all of them know I hear voices.  It’s like they are giving me a second chance.

And I can tell you it’s better writing than tapping out.  I’m feeling pretty drunk and hungry but it’s not dinner time and I’m waiting for my family to get home.

I did learn a lot from a Pat Flynn podcast.  It was all about laddering up.  Going from zero to a six figure business to a seven figure business.

He talked about how you had to reply to every comment, and be mindful of telling people to get on your list.  Each and everyday.

For a while I was just approving comments and letting them fly.  Now I respond to each one and let them know I’m here for them.

And that’s just for comments.  Imagine how I would treat the people on my list.  They are going to get my best stuff!

For now I write to you on this blog.

I consider it rock and roll art.  Poetry from the heart.

And I do it all writing and maintaining this website.

But the question is still, how do you get $20,000 a year working as a schizophrenic.

That would be doing a lot better than being on disability.  You would be paying taxes and contributing to society.

And the way I work it is simple.  I just do what my bosses tell me to do, and I put in a little pizaazz of improvement in there with my comments.

At one point the president of the company was telling other employees that I was her favorite associate.

So if your a schizophrenic and want to work, take heart, I’m doing it.  And I’m a pretty stupid person for all the smoking and drinking I do.  I’m a schizophrenic, I do all this stuff, and I still hold a job and support my family.  If I can get this done, I know others can be inspired to do the same, and screw disability and get a job and make MORE money than they would on disability.

Just work with your hands, and screw the voices, and make your bosses job easier, and pray things go smoothly.  You’ll be fine.  I really sincerely wish the best for you.

Here’s to happy job hunting,

Jesse Creel

How Do I Walk For An Hour Around The Neighborhood With My 1 Year Old Son

I say you just do it!

Even if your a schizophrenic like me.  And hear voices.  And hear the neighbors talking out loud, and sometimes it seems like their talking about your thoughts.

I drank 9 beers yesterday starting at 9 o’clock in the morning.  So I figured that it would be good to get out for a walk.  Sometimes I think if I weren’t drinking and smoking maybe I wouldn’t hear voices.  Or maybe the voices would be better to me.

I’m going to try and sober up for a while.  At least until I get paid again.  I’ve got a week to go, so that’s a good while for me to dry up.

And I can write about being sober.

And walking, or running.

But an hour around the sidewalk loop in my neighborhood is a good 2.5 miles.  And I walk it fast so I probably did it in under an hour.  But it takes roughly an hour to do that.

And I brought my son along with me because my wife and daughter were out at a party and I was watching him.  He sat in his chair for about an hour after my wife left, and watched Youtube videos on monster trucks during that time.

I was busy reading Tim Ferriss’s “Tools Of Titans”.  I just started it.

But after the walk we ate yogurt and it was time to put my son down for a nap.  He didn’t go quietly.  He calmed down quickly though.  I sat and did some thinking for a while and had a couple cigarettes, and now I’m busy writing.

So far the day has been great. I love walking.  It’s purifying.  At some point, eventually I’m going to make the transition into running, and start doing crunches 6 days a week and see if I can get a six pack.  Reading the section on health in “Tools of Titans” makes me want to get into better shape, and be more mindful of what I’m putting into my body.  There’s a lot of talk about fasting and that’s something I’m pretty used to.  Not eating much.

Don’t get me wrong, I can eat, but sometimes I go on very little for whatever reason.  I have a little on my midsection to keep me going on those lean times.  I almost want to get fat so I have the reserves if I don’t have the money for food.

Really if I were better at saving my money I wouldn’t have to worry about going without food because I would have plenty to eat whatever I want whenever I want.

But I drink and smoke too much and spend more than I make.  It’s really pretty screwy.  But I do things with my time during those periods of excess that lead me to believe I’m not wasting anything.

I would very much like to get rich.  And that way if I wanted to drink and smoke I could do so guilt free.  It pisses me off a little bit when I don’t win the Mega Millions or the Powerball.  I played 4 dollars for last nights drawing and I didn’t win.  It pisses me off.

There has got to be an effective way to use that anger, or transform it into something positive that I can use.

I like blogging and I think you could blog about whatever you want and get people to like it.  So I could do that.  My son and I had a great time walking today.

We were going to stop by the play ground but my son said he didn’t want to swing right then.  He said he wanted yogurt.

But we did go two loops.  Instead of the one we do when my wife and daughter go.  They can’t last for two.

And my son wanted to get out upon finishing the first loop, but I just kept on going and he sat quietly and enjoyed the ride.  I was talking to him for some of it too.  My grandmother asked me one time when he was just born if I talked to him.  That really wasn’t one thing I was particularly good at.  I’m good at being quiet.  It did make me think I should make a good effort to talk to him though.  Just another good thing I got from my grandmother who I am blessed to still have in my life.  For that, and for many other things I am very grateful.

I’m grateful for everything I have, good and bad or both.  So when I was hearing the voices of the neighborhood out on the walk, sometimes getting scary, I just keep on walking and find the courage to be out.  It’s so worth it.  Better than being trapped in the house by fear of the voices.

And I think it’s high time I quit drinking.  I’ve done enough of it.  I’ll have water and let my body recover from all the abuse.  And help the process by walking and maybe even running.  I really need to tackle smoking, but one thing at a time.

I can tell you all about my sobriety when you check back on this blog.  Keep reading, you might find something you like.  Subscribe to my list and I’ll send you primo content you can’t get anywhere else on the web.  I’m thinking write ups and poetry to help you improve and succeed and be inspired.  I really am going to pack value into the mail you get from me.  So it’s going to be worth it for you to join my email list.  You can do so now, by putting your name and email address into the sidebar at the top of this page.  Take a minute and do this now.

You of course, don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do.  But getting stuff from me is an option for you, and I would love to serve you if you ever have the need.  If you ever need motivation that you can do it, or you want to be inspired, or you just want to be entertained, then I’m your man.  And I can do a lot more than just motivate, inspire, and entertain you.  You might even change you life because of what you learn from me.

You might become a blogger and make 6 figures a year on the internet, working minimal hours and spending more time traveling and raising your family.  Just like I plan to.

In fact, I plan to make my first million dollars off this blog.  Unless I win the lottery first, that’s how I plan on getting the money.  Writing a blog, and selling products to the people on my list.  I’m not in a position to even offer a product right now, but it’s in the works, and I’m really working on it.

Maybe it’s a mistake to try and blog everyday for 90 days, but if it is, that’s a mistake I’m making.  And I’m betting my bottom dollar that I’m going to grow because of it.  And I’m also betting that this process is going to get me more traffic.

It’s really taking me a long time to even get close to making my first dollar off of this website, and it’s not because I’m not blogging.  I need to get a freebie for people who join my list and I think it’s going to be my first ebook “Take Action and Improve!”.  I’ve got to get busy editing it.  I had a friend read it and he wrote all over it.  So I’m going to get to it, and get busy editing after I finish this post.  I will probably be working until I go to bed at 10pm.  That’s my bedtime.  Early to bed early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise, or so Benjamin Franklin said.    So I do the thing and I have the power.  And so can anyone else.

If you want to walk around your neighborhood for an hour for your health, you can do it, assuming you have legs that work.  I know it’s not the case for everyone, but I would say that some people may need a push to get out there an succeed.  If your one of those people I’m hear for you to tell you that I hear voices and I do my thing everyday and am not bothered.  When I stop smoking I’m sure I’m going to suffer, but it will probably be worth it.  I’ll be more on my way to being wealthy.  I’ll be on my way to saving money instead of spending more than I make.  I still am not looking forward to it.

I didn’t smoke on my walk though.  I waited until I got back.

Really I’m addicted and it will be nothing short of a miracle if I can stop it.  And LIVE.

But I think long walks or long runs will help.  It may just be a matter of choice every moment of the day.  I’m going to find out.

But just like this blog post, I want to crank out my life at high speed.  Get it done.  Do the thing.  There will be more time for other things.  Like editing my ebook.  And writing another one.  A good one.  Worth 25 or 30 dollars each.  Maybe I can look into professional publishing as well and maybe get hard copies of my book sold all over the world.

Considering I don’t even have a marketable book at this point, I’m a ways off, but I know I can do it, and I’m going to keep working until I get what I want.

As it can be with anyone.

Just keep working on it.  Something that you can control.  Don’t spend your entire life working on the lottery alone.  I did that for 5 years and I just have had enough.  I need other things too that are going to support me and my family.  Working a job really helps even if it’s at a low hourly rate.  That’s what they are paying me, because that’s what I’m worth to society at this occupation.  And I’m fine with that.  It doesn’t mean I’m  not going to find other ways to make MORE  MONEY.

So I’m working my tail off on this blog, trying to write it everyday, and get the thing done.  Treat it like I AM being paid to do it.  Get the job done so the business can run smoothly.   That’s what I do at my job and I figure it could work on my own website as well.  It works at work, so why not apply it to my other work.

And if you want to blog about what you do, then blog about what you do.  Your only a few steps and a few dollars away from starting your own blog.  You can do it!  Anyone can do it!  You may not be good at it, but your going to grow.  And if you are good at it, you might be able to make a couple dollars.  You might be able to a make a million.  And then once you’ve earned your first million, don’t you think it will be a lot easier to make the next 14?  I just want to get to the first million mark because at that point I would feel like I’ve arrived.  I’m where I want to be.  I don’t have to work hourly anymore.  I’m free.  My family and I can travel.  We can spend more time together.  I could make some more friends and travel places to meet them.  I would go to events and meet other bloggers who are also earning money and learn from them and become better.  I would add value to the mastermind of people earning money from blogging and selling e books.  It’s really a fantastic vision.  And to live the lifestyle of a multimillionaire.  That would be amazing.  Complete freedom.  Live where you want to live, travel where you want to travel, do the work you love doing and get paid fantastically to do it.  Is it all a dream?

Or could it come true?

You tell me what you think in the comments, and if your feeling a little bold, share your own vision and dream for what you could do blogging or otherwise.

Thanks for reading, I really appreciate you,

Jesse Creel

How Do I Improve When I Have Schizophrenia?

The simple answer is instead of visualizing yourself dying, visualize yourself getting better.

The simple question “how do I improve?” is a powerful one.

It will take your mind away from killing yourself and put it to use doing something constructive.

That all depends on your answers to the question “how do I improve?”.

For me I would like to stop smoking and drinking, maybe limit myself to one glass of red a day, and quit cigarettes.  But right now that seems like a far off dream.

But I want to make it happen rapidly so that I can save enough money to start selling on commission again.

You see, that’s where I made a mistake in my past.  I sold while paying my expenses with a credit card.  This time I don’t want to repeat that mistake, so I’m going to save three months of pay and when I have that I’m going to make the jump into commission.  It could really make this blog come alive!

I no doubt would be working more, but I really would have the opportunity to make a lot more.

I read today on a Craigslist ad that one of this companies top earners made $200,000 last year.  And being the way I am I want to be a top earner too.  So I figure that’s the kind of money I’m looking at if I’m successful in my next commission job.

That would be way up from $20,000.

That would be the kind of money I’m talking about.

Once you’ve made that kind of money, you have GOT to know how to improve and make it even better.  On your way to being a multi millionaire.

All through smarts.

And I think books are vital.

I don’t read enough.

I’m always writing.

But I’m going to get back into it, and order some more books on sales.  I want to learn more and become better.  Filled with MORE knowledge.

I just think that’s the way it should be done.

And I’m a successful schizophrenic.  Successful in the way that I earn an income working an hourly job.  And I get promoted at this job.  I am now their salesperson.

I really am making the most of my time at my job.  I doing well.  And I hear voices everyday.  When I try to stop smoking the voices and the visions of people talking to me become more intense.

So I smoke because it’s easier to live.

But I know it’s not good for me, so I’m trying to stop.

I’m only 32 so I figure with modern medicine I should still have a pretty long life ahead of me.

With my own self, taking care of myself, I should be fine.  And so will my family.  They will be fine.

I think I got these promotions at my job by asking myself the question how do I improve?.  And I even told my bosses I was schizophrenic and was trying to stop smoking and drinking.  They liked talking to me.  They say they trust me.

And they must because they send me out with no leads and 16 box lunches to deliver to local businesses.  For free!  I’m giving away two free box lunches to each place I stop at.  That’s my job.

But I figure this blog can only help me develop myself and become a better salesman and ultimately make more money and help more people.

Because in all honesty I’ve thought about it, and I have ways I could make money off this blog, but they are just going to take time.  And I could probably make more money working a commission sales job in a short period of time, then trying to sell ebooks and rock and roll albums.

Although I want to do both.

Really I just have to get incredibly busy.  I’ve got my ebook that needs editing, I’ve got rock and roll songs to write.  I’ve got this blog to keep up with.  I STILL am trying to write for 90 days straight.  So far I’ve taken quite a few days off.

But I’m still writing and I will try to write everyday until the end of July.  That would be something like doing it for 90 days.  I say that would be good for anyone.  I know it’s good for me and this blog.

More content the better.

Even if it’s not your best stuff, your still doing something.  Your still TRYING to add value.  Your working on your masterpiece.  And some of your posts really hit the nail on the head.  You’ve just got to keep doing it.  You’ve just got to keep rocking it.

But my boss told me that if we make more money then we’re supposed to this summer, as a result of my sales calls, I might be looking at another promotion.  At least that’s what I got out of it.  All I know is that I just want to do my job well and do it better than the best I can do it.

I told my boss today, that I just tried to enjoy the ride.  I figure if I’m enjoying talking to people and giving away free lunches, then that will rub off on the people I talk to.  And they will have a better experience.  A free lunch and a good feeling.

And that kind of work pays off.  People buy and tip when you do those kinds of things.  And some of them don’t just buy once, they buy several times.

But selling again on commission, well I could fall flat on my face again.  The way I see it is, that won’t matter.  What does matter is that I did it the right way.  I saved enough money to not work for 3 months, and try commission selling again, and if it didn’t work after 3 months then I could go back to my old job.  Because I gave them notice of course.

So really there would be nothing to lose and everything to gain.  The next step for me is to save diligently until I get to the point where I can do something like that.

And you bet I would buy some nice clothes, maybe even a couple new suits.  If I stopped smoking and drinking I would save an incredible amount of money and could afford to do this much more easily.

That’s the trick.  I’m a schizophrenic and the voices disturb me when I’m not smoking so I smoke.  It’s really very screwy.  Relying on something to make you happy.  I would probably learn a lot if I could ever get myself to quit.  God help me, at some point I will.

And live my life more in balance.

But I figure the best thing I can do in the meantime is to blog.  People are reading my work and commenting on it.  I’m doing a good job with this blog.  I want to keep putting the good work into it so it blossoms into something beautiful.  What that will be at this point I don’t know.  It could just be a mission of personal development.

But I could really stand to make a profit off of my work.  I’ve just got to figure out a way to do that.  I guess I’m going to have to start writing another ebook.  Another one, and one I could sell. Whether it be a commission sales job or this blog I’m going to make a lot of money doing something.  My $20,000.00 a year gig is not all there is for me.

I’m not afraid of hard work.  I’ll write until I bleed if I have to.  In fact that’s the only way I want it.  I WANT it to be a labor of love.  So I’ve just got to keep doing it and make a masterpiece of it.

Some folks say I write about nothing.  But I think I write for you to take action and improve your life.  I think my writing could be the catalyst for you to take a walk or a run and that would make your life better.  Either run out what you just read or savor the material and let it make you rich.

Either way I’m a busy guy.

So how do you improve when your a schizophrenic?

I say when your voices start telling you to die, you simply change your focus to how you can improve your life right now and take action on those thoughts.

Work, blog, spend time with your family, do housework, clean, write in your journal, read a book, exercise, eat something that’s good for you.  Do something right in your life.

And if you are a schizophrenic, don’t forget to shower and shave.  It will be good for you to keep up on your hygiene.  And don’t forget to floss.

How do you take action and improve?

Ask yourself that question for the next 24 hours and see what happens to you.

See if you want to keep asking yourself that question.

I do, and I hope you will too.

When I ask myself that question it leads me to how I can improve this blog…

Get my picture up, offer a freebee for getting on my list, editing my ebook, writing another e book, one I could sell, and that’s a lot for starters.  I could also get off my blog and start commenting on other blogs and putting my website on other websites.

All things I plan to do now that I’m going to reel back the drinking and smoking.

You’ll be getting a better quality of work from me, I’m sure, as each day that passes I get better.  I really think I can make it blogging.  I’m going to keep doing it for the rest of my life and see what happens.

Or maybe not the rest of my life, maybe just for the next 8 years.  I’ve already got 2 years into it, I figure I’ll go another 8 and make it 10 and see what I have then.  If I don’t have a successful business by then, maybe I’ll just hang it up or just blog for fun.

But the way I see it is, I’ll probably have a six figure income from this blog in the time it takes to save enough to start a commission sales job.  And I’ll have plenty of money to start with another network marketing company if I want.  The future does look pretty good.

All because I found a job, thanks to my brother, who I love and am grateful for.

And that job lets me do everything I do.  Without it I would have nothing.  So suiting up and showing up is no problem for me.

And if more mild schizophrenics like me, took the attitude of positivity and made the most of what they were doing, the world would be a better place for schizophrenics and others alike.  I’m just an example of ONE mild schizophrenic who is becoming part of the community.

Not just laying on the couch listening to the voices.

But actively contributing to society.  Earning an income and paying taxes.

Helping to keep everything running.

And I know not all schizophrenics can do that.  But to those of you who WANT to work, just know you can.  You CAN find a job where your boss likes you and wants you to succeed.  You CAN find a job where you can get promotions and feel like your growing in your professional life.  You CAN WRITE! and keep a list of all the things that are happening to you, to let the world know you are alive and kicking and things are getting better.

This can be done.  I know you and I can do this.  We can work, we can blog, we can take care of ourselves and help to take care of our families.  It can be a very beautiful life.  Take action and take control of your life now and start writing.

You will be happy you did.

Thanks for reading,

As always, take care,

Jesse Creel

Working A Job To Pay The Bills

Nothing special here.  But I think you can make the mundane into something spectacular with your attitude.

“The greatest discovery of any generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitude.” ~ William James

So part of me thinks that  I just need to adopt the attitude that the drinking and smoking is good for me and that I’m better off with it than without it.

Because I’m doing it even though I want to stop.

I tried quitting this week.  Just led to more drinking and smoking.

I still work though, I still love my family, I still take care of my responsibilities.

You could say the drinking and the smoking ARE good things.

What can I teach you?

I can teach you how to read good work…. because if your drinking and smoking and feeling like it’s killing you, but are doing it anyway, you may as well write and see what comes of it.

Probably nothing will come of it at all…

But I don’t believe that’s true for me, and I don’t believe that’s true for you either.

I believe we have to work towards our dreams and making something great of ourselves.

Even if we’re not living by our values.  We can still do pretty good as drunks and addicts.

I guess that’s my message.

If your messed up, keep going, whether you have a choice or not depends on how deep you’ve gone.  Maybe it’s too late.  I don’t know.  What I do know is that I like drinking and smoking and part of me wants to keep doing it.

What good is this for you?

What can this do for you?

Maybe you could call me entertainment.  Something to read.  Something to look at.  Something special to see.

I don’t know, you make the call.

What I can tell you is I love my life and anyone can do this, even if your drunk.

But I’m not drunk.

On most days I don’t get drunk, no matter how much I drink.

4 or 5 glasses of wine and I’m feeling better but not drunk.

This is probably just a reason to send me to rehab.  This blog.  But I think I can really make something of it.  I think I can make this my job.  GET PAID to do it.

We’ll see how it goes.  For now I’m just writing and hoping I can build an audience.

Judging by the comments I’m doing a pretty good job connecting with people, but I want to do a lot more.  I want YOU on my list.

And in order for that to happen I really have to write some pristine stuff.  Something of great value to you.  And I really want to do that.

Part of me thinks that I can entertain you with my delusions.

I’m a schizophrenic and most people won’t hear about this stuff when I talk to them in person, so what better place to put it down then my blog.

Maybe that’s a mistake, and it’s just going to piss you off that I put myself out there, but that’s a risk I’m willing to take.  I might be able to touch people.

Like when I hear the voices and then I hear real people talking like the voices, not talking to me, but saying things out loud when I’m near them, that make me think they can hear what I’m thinking.

It’s all a delusion.  That’s part of the disease.  But you can really make it into a lifetime of spiritual experience if you adopt the attitude that the voices are a blessing.

Sure their are good voices and then there are bad voices, but the bad voices only serve to force you to find empowering meanings to the things that are happening to you.  So you can find good things in the bad things as well.  And plenty of bad voices talk to me on a regular basis.

Nothing really bad has happened to me in this life, so far.  In fact, I’ve been overwhelmingly blessed.  I have a beautiful wife and family.  2 kids.  A girl AND a boy!  I was so excited when I heard I was having a boy.  Thank God, someone who can replace me when I’m gone.

Not that having another girl wouldn’t have been a blessing.  It would have.  But we had a boy.

That was after a miscarriage, when we were going to have another girl.  But I guess that just wasn’t meant to be.  It disturbed my wife a little.  But we’re fine.

I’m telling you all of this because I like writing.  And because I think you might enjoy it.  And because I think that somehow, someway I could make money off of this blog. Is that really such a bad thing.

Some people would probably call me a scammer, selling overpriced information to the masses just to profit and watch the majority of them fail to their own detriment.

But I believe failure is just learning.  And that you MUST fail before you become successful, so really, who doesn’t want to fail.

But now the time has come for you and me to succeed.  I MUST succeed.  Success is my only option.  I am overly optimistic about the future.  I am going to be a success.  The world loves drinking and smoking.  There is nothing wrong with me.  This is NOT heroine.  I guess that’s just my justification.

Where do we go from here?

Improvement is the answer.

The voices tell me the answer is to die.  I just can’t believe that.  I can’t die.  I have a family.

The answer is to improve.

When the voices tell me to die, I think about how I can improve instead, because what else is there to do when you think your dying?

You can either go with the voices and visualize your life ending, or you can rise above it, be empowered, and think how you can improve your life.

When I ask myself how I can improve my life the voices tell me to quit smoking.  Maybe their right.  Maybe I will stop smoking.  But right now I’m addicted and can’t quit.

I spent my last $11.00 on cigarettes and a Rockstar energy drink.  This morning.

And I went to work and did my job.

And that’s what I’m going to do all week.  Go to work and do my job.  I have to be there at 10am tomorrow.  I might even get to do some sales calls this week and that would be good because I get mileage money.

But I guess I can’t expect you to listen to me when I’m only making $20,000.00 dollars dollars a year.

I’ve got to do better and make more.

Although that’s probably not going to happen.

So what do I have to do to improve?

I think I just have to write the best stuff on the planet so I can make my living off writing.

Or is that bullshit?

Is it bullshit to want to write for a living?

Many people I think would say no, it’s not bullshit.

But I think there would be some that say you should only do it for the art, and not to make money.

At this point I’m going to write whether I’m paid to do it or not, because I like to see the comments.

And I’m trying to split the atom here people.   I couldn’t do it with rock and roll so I’m giving writing a try.  Maybe I will come off better.

Because I’ve put it out there that I was the lead singer of Tigerstyle from the Old Bowie Town Grille.  I’m not going into that.

Other than to say I had a terrible time trying to be a rock and roll lead singer.

But I would do it again, and this time better, and we would make money from being a band.  People would WANT us to play for them.  And they would pay money to do so.  That’s just the way I see it.  And if I ever get rich and have time freedom, that’s exactly what I’m going to do.  I’m going to start another rock and roll band.

And make the absolute most of it that I could make.  Like I do with all other things in my life.  Make the most of them.  Make the most of my family, of my job, of my writing, of my drinking and smoking, of my walking, of my eating, of my showers, of my life.

This will be bad and good.  Writing all these things down for the internet.  My voices hear things I write on the blog and they tell me so.  It happens immediately.

As soon as I write it on the blog my voices are already talking about it.

But I can do it.  I know I can go to my job.  That’s really what this blog is about.  My job.  My income.  $20,000.00 a year.

I’d like to take it to $60,000.00 a year.  That would be a big jump and easy enough to fuel my drinking and smoking habit for as long as I wanted.  I would have to get a new job though and that would be scary.

I would definitely want some money saved up in case I didn’t sell and had to go back to my old job.

But the way I look at it is, I want to put at least another 3 years into my current job, and see if I can really take off as a salesman there, and then decide if I want to move or not.  They did tell me that I might be able to get an office job.  That would probably come with a raise and it might be worth it to stay.

I figure any job is a good job as long as your doing it.

And I can do my job.  I’m actually really good at it even though I’m a schizophrenic.  It’s incredibly easy work.  There’s no selling you HAVE to do in the store.  You just make sandwiches and sell ham and turkey.

I of course like to add an element of selling to everything I do.  So when I’m pulling ham and turkey out for people I’m really giving them the whole show.  The whole deal is designed to please the customer and I love being a part of that.  There is money involved and other people’s good feelings.  It’s really nice to be a part of.

This job is the second best job I’ve ever had, that I’ve done the best at.  The first was making guitars, and I got paid a lot more to do that than to sell hams…. but I couldn’t do it anymore.  I had to get out of there.  I really messed up for my to-be family.

But now I have the dream of writing and I’m optimistic that I can make it happen for myself.  For YOU, to make YOUR life better.  That’s what I want to do, because I figure that’s how you get paid.  Make people’s lives better, and you CAN get paid.

So really now, I can’t even play a lick on the guitar, even though I spent almost 15 years doing it.   I can however write to you and tell you how dear you are to me, and that I wish only great success, health, wealth, and wisdom for you.  Brings a tear to my eyes.

Because I know that you are just a part of me, and there is no better way to treat myself than to wish for my own success, health, wealth, and wisdom.  So go out there and make something of yourself that you can write about.  Go out there and blog and do the thing you were made to do.  Make it happen for yourself and your family and do the right things.  You can do it!  I believe in you!

Thank you for reading, you inspire me,

Jesse Creel

Sales And Pouring Out Two Blue Tailed Skinks From The Ashtray

Because I did both today.

At my job, and at home while I was drinking and smoking.

The sales calls were good.  A couple of people said they would buy.  Considering I only went to 5 places that’s pretty good.

I got off early at my request and then went home and had a friend stop over.  We drank a beer together and then he left.

When he was gone I saw a Blue Tailed Skink in the ashtray.

Well, what I was using as an ashtray.

It was actually my wife’s mother’s day present she was given by I think my mom and my daughter.

I didn’t have anywhere else to put the butts.

But there was a lizard in there a few days ago, and I tried to set him free by tipping the flower pot over.

He only went further into the cigarette butts.

So I let him be.

Today when I threw a lit cigarette butt in there I saw him again.  He sat there right next to the lit butt and the smoke at one point went into his eyes and he shut them.

Otherwise it looked like he was looking and blinking at me.

I couldn’t stand it so I took the flower pot out back to the woods.

I pour the cigarettes out and the lizard went deeper.

I poured more cigarettes out, ones that were stuck in there, and two lizards came out.  Black with blue stripes.

One looked like a baby!

There were two lizards in my ashtray and I set them free today.

When I dumped them out they took a bit of coaching to scurry off but the big one took off first.

Straight into the woods.

Then the little one was curled up on a cigarette butt and just laying there.

When he took a look at me I could see him breathing more.  His belly was moving.  It wasn’t long after that, as I was picking up the last cigarette butts, he scurried under the middle of my shoe.

I got the feeling that he thought I was his shelter.  I was talking to him afterall.

But I put an end to that and told him he could make it even without his mother.  And he scurried off underneath our shed.

I hope he makes it.

And then there was the sales.

I talked to my wife about getting a commission job and by the looks of it, she wouldn’t mind if I tried making $100,000.00 dollars dollars a year.  I might be able to do it finally.

But really I think I might be better off just writing and trying to sell Empower Network to my list, once it gets big enough.  And if I think Empower Network is the way I want to go.

All I know is that if I keep writing I’m going to get more comments and that engagement COULD turn into email subscribers.  I think my chances will be better if I give something away for free in exchange for them taking the time and energy to put their name and email address into this website.

So I think that I’ve got to do.

Because I WANT to send my list the most valuable content on the planet right to their email address.  I want to get in the business of building long term relationships with the people on the internet.

And I want to do this using this blog and my writing.

Give it away freely, and see what happens.

I hear good things happen, especially when it’s really valuable stuff.

I’m not much on links or headings or that kind of thing, but I think I might start  on trying to improve there.  I think it would do this blog good.

I think that might be for another day though.

Although I thought yesterdays post was really the cats pajamas.  You can read it here.

I’m listening to the rolling stones on repeat.

They talk to me.  They tell me to live.  I like them.

That’s the thing music can do for people.  It can help them live.

I write music.  I’m working on it now.  I’ve got three songs done.  I might even publish it.  Maybe I’ll make it free at first, and then learn and then maybe get something up for sale.  That way by the end of this ten year stunt blogging I’ll have a real business on my hands.

God help me this post was supposed to be about sales and lizards.

But I just write, and I hope you enjoy it!

I’m optimistic and I think most people will.

I have hope for the future.

But if you have a family you need a job, even if your a schizophrenic like me.

And hopefully you can make blogging your job… but until that day comes,  you have to work for someone else who will pay you.

The more I think about it the more commission sales seems attractive.  And I like being on the road.

So maybe I can find another sales job that will pay me more money than I’m making now.

I’d say after another few months working the sales job at my current job will put me into a pretty good position to get another sales job, building on my current success.

I think I can do it.  I think I can make $100,000.00 dollars a year or something selling cars or something.

That would be only if I could find my way to being a hero of sales.

Hard to do, easy to say.

Easy to say your quitting cigarettes.

So on, it goes.

I just keep writing.

On and on it goes, and it will for as long as I live, and I plan to stick around for a while.

I’ll probably improve.  That’s what the writing leads us to.

I’m drinking plenty and eating good so really I’m living pretty high on the hog.  I do love my job and I love my life.  I play to win the jackpot.  I know I’m going to win.

I’ve even entertained hitting the jackpot more than once, maybe even three times.

Most likely I’ll never even win one, but I hold out hope.

It’s a possibility.

And that’s only one thing I’m doing.

I’m also working and keeping this blog.

Who knows what’s going to happen to it.

Hopefully it’s get read, and I improve by writing it.

And write better stuff.

And I think I do.

Yesterdays post might have been my best post to date, and I can only see it getting better with my love and commitment to it.

Not to mention the drinking and smoking.  That must do something to the writing.  Sauce it up.

I do drink all the time, but some people would think that’s healthy.

I think I’d be better off quitting, but I’m having a hard time quitting.

That’s my personal struggle I’m going through right now, but I could just get stronger and just smoke and drink.

But I think the times coming to an end, what are you going to do?

I would say I’m going to live a better life with my family.

Or who knows, maybe I’ll learn how to drink in moderation.

And not smoke.

And then the writing would suffer.  It just wouldn’t come like it does now.

That’s probably mistake one.  Depending on drinking to write.

Though I don’t have to drink to write.  Sometimes it’s coffee.

I like to drink coffee and write in the morning.

I’ll probably do more of that tomorrow.

I have the day off.

My family won’t be home.  I have plans to go out and eat over at a friends house.  It should be a good time.

And I’ll be back in time to see my family before their off to bed.

Then back to work the next day.

All while writing everyday.

And telling the world about my experience, good and bad.

And it’s going great!

But in all reality, I’m probably NOT going to get another sales commission job any time soon.  I’m going to first PROVE myself at my current sales job, that way I have a golden foot in the door at the next place.  Coming from sales success already.  I have the ticket.

I have the stuff it takes to sell stuff.

And I don’t.

I’m the yin and the yang.  Something good about both parts of them.  People like you rocking it.  Even if you feel like you might be dying and the voices are telling you you are, and encouraging you to die.  It’s like the universe is trying to kill you.

That’s part of the life of a schizophrenic.

And I wrote a book about it called “The Schizophrenic Lives On”.  And it’s just about that.  It’s about living.  And it’s about supporting life.

Really it’s about me drinking and smoking and playing the lottery.

Everyday, I’m going to win, and each day just repeats the last.  And it ends with me successfully completing my first Christmas with my job.  That Holiday will really work you.  I couldn’t do it the first time around.

But now I can, and I do, and it’s a good experience for me, and I get paid a lot more than I do for the average week of the year.

And on and on it goes.

I do this for fun and profit.

I have fun, and I’m looking to profit.

And I hope you have the same spirit.

I’m sure some people would spit on me for the things I write about, but that’s going to happen no matter who you are.  If your being honest, there are going to be people who don’t like you.  That’s just the way it goes.  It doesn’t bother me.

Sales, what this post is supposed to be about.

Some people don’t like salespeople and they make it obvious by putting “NO SOLICITING” signs on their doors.  For a door to door salesperson that’s a blow.  But what are you going to do?

For me it’s a non issue because I’m giving them two free box lunches.  One ham sandwich and one turkey sandwich.  Both of them have chips, a drink, a cookie and a pickle.  It’s really not a bad deal for a little more than ten dollars.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s expensive, but you get your monies worth.  A lot of hard work goes into making that ham and turkey, and people’s love.

And there’s some sex in there too.

Like anything else that sells, there’s some sizzle and some sex.

On the holidays we don’t go without a pretty girl or two in front pulling hams out for people.

And we have some cute people that work for us.

Maybe we don’t have THAT much sex, but we definitely have hustle.  And our organization is getting better.  Coming into the store for me has really seen an improvement, a new staff, and building a community.

We smile.

It’s better.

We do a good job with reviews.

People like our stuff.

Sure we get some complaints, but even when people complain they are civil and no one is going to fight you.  Although after they’ve finished putting on that show you may want to fight them.  But you don’t because your better than that.

You have your job to think of.

People can be mean, and not want you… even if you are good.

But most people will so take heart, your in good hands.

Because I do believe people are good.  And that they are improving, and getting better each day.  That’s what evolution is all about!  We are doing it with our ideas.  With our reading and writing.  It’s glorious!

But the glory really goes to God, because he’s the one that made this all possible.

Thank You God.  Thank You Jesus.

I am a believer in Jesus.

He stands for forgiveness.

Not that I care to need that.

But I do.

And I want to be better so that I have to answer for less.

I think that’s a better way.

Maybe still going to hell.

Won’t know until we get there.

But I think that if I do enough good stuff maybe I will pass the test.  Who knows, maybe I can make enough money to give enough money to make up for all the stuff I’ve done in my life.

Maybe just maybe I’ll hit the jackpot tonight.

I’ll let you know.

Check on back, or sign up for the email list.

Leave a comment, let me know your out there…. I know you are.

Thank you,

Jesse Creel

Back To The Routine Of Working And Writing Everyday

Today I did 5 hours.

When I got off I bought a 12 pack of Miller Lite cans.

I’ve had 2.

And I’m still smoking even though I asked my subconscious mind to help me stop last night.  I slept in and then bought a pack on my way to work.

There are two ways you could look at the way I live my life.

Either you could say that I just need to be stronger and it’s fine to live the way I do.

Or you could say that my life would be a lot better if I stopped drinking and smoking.  I would say my health, my money, it would be better for my kids, a number of reasons.

All I can say is that I’m trying to stop, and it’s not working.

Maybe you can help me by leaving an insightful comment.

I’ve been reading the web about how to make money off of your blog.

I read a post on yesterday when I was hanging out with my family that made me think that maybe I don’t have it in me to make $100,000.00 dollars dollars a month off this blog.  They do it, but they have several products for sale, all of varying prices.  And the top price is $10,000.00.

You can read it all by going here.  They do it, and they want to teach you how to do the same thing.  Go here and read it now, and then you’ll know what I’m talking about.

That blog, along with another I’ve read makes over $100,000.00 dollars dollars a month.

If you ask me, why NOT be obsessed with money.  It’s a good thing.  It helps you get to where you want to be.  It makes you feel good.

That’s why I write dollars dollars.

The crazy thing is that after reading that post, I don’t know if I CAN make a product that I could sell for $10,000.00, or $5,000.00, or $2,500.00.

I’m working on an ebook that I was thinking of putting up for sale for $4.99.  That’s all I’ve got!

So what in God’s name do I do.

Considering I thought by writing this blog everyday I was bringing myself closer to quitting my job and being an entrepreneur by profession.

Granted I did need some rest.  If you haven’t been reading everyday, the new posts, I wrote for about a month and took 5 days off during that month.  3 at the very end of it, all in a row.

I was drinking too much and wanting to quit cigarettes and heaven help me I didn’t want to write.

I tried one of the three nights to write, but I wanted to write about the Powerball and it just wasn’t doing it for me.

But this stuff has to be useful for people.  Even if I make no money at all…

I don’t want to write shit everyday.

I want to be a man of value.

I guess it comes down to my personal life, and how I live.

Because I’ve talked about work.  I’ve talked about my income at my job, and doing sales there and getting raises and bonuses.  Even though I’m not getting much, I’m getting more than the average worker there, and there are only a few people like that.  Besides me, the rest of the people making more money is managers with years into the company.

Anyways, I’m doing great at my job and the future is bright.

The point is how I’m living my personal life.

The point is the drinking and smoking is influencing me, even controlling me.

The voices have said I need to get help.

I HAVE help.  I have a therapist.

Really, my life is going great, it’s just that I don’t FEEL good.

Everyday there’s something about my body that makes me feel like I’m dying and the voices then tell me to die.  It’s ugly.  My customers voices say I have a coffin.

Really, sometimes, I don’t know what they mean.

Really though, I’m good.

But a lifestyle change of becoming a non smoker, sober, runner, would probably dramatically change my life for the better.

Except the suffering of eliminating those problems gets to me and I break down and drink and smoke.  It’s really a weakness.

This is the brutal truth people.  I wouldn’t be telling you this if it didn’t matter.  This is what’s happening to me right now, and I’m happy to report that overall things are going great.  Really if I am a drunk, I’m only an amateur drunk that could easily be out drinken by Hemingway or Bukowski.  They would probably boast that they could out drink me.

But I do drink enough that I don’t easily get drunk.  For me to get drunk it would take a lot of alcohol and the better part of the night.

At any rate, I hope this serves you and you can crack a beer and enjoy yourself, because your not me and you don’t have these problems.  Most of the world can drink moderately and enjoy themselves.  They don’t go through this misery.

But they say the cure is worse than the disease.  And trying to stop I can see what they are talking about.  But really I’ve got to be stronger and give it another go, for myself, for my family, for the rest of the world.

Because I’m a schizophrenic, and I think the voices may not effect the whole world, but they do affect my neighborhood, my country.  That could just be a delusion, but when your smoking too much and you start hearing other people coughing, it makes you think you might be making them sick by proximity.

I know that could be bullshit too, but it gets me thinking.  And I think I really would like to give it a try.  Try not smoking or drinking and see what happens.  It would probably be a lot of hell for a while, but then I think I would stand a better chance at being a better person.

Living more by my values.

Alas, the cigarettes help me cope with the voices.   The statistic is that 90% of schizophrenics smoke.  That’s part of why they attribute shorter lifespans for schizophrenics.  They smoke.

I could be in the 10%.

I want to be.

And I don’t.

It’s screwed.

What are you going to do.

I guess tonight I’m going to ask my subconscious again how I can quit smoking.  See what happens.

For now I just want you to take something from this.  And what you should take from it is that even if your drinking and smoking you can still work a job and support your family.  And you can still blog.

Whether or not you make any money off your blog will probably depend on whether or not you can get sober.  But who knows?

Most likely I will never make any substantial income from this blog.  That’s what the statistics say.  I read somewhere that the average writer only makes a few hundred dollars off each ebook if that.

That’s not going to cut it for me.

I need about 15 million.

So I’ve either got to be an outstanding success and sell a million copies of several different ebooks.  OR I’ve got to make a $10,000.00 product and others go along with it.

The problem I have, as I imagine many people do, is I don’t know how to make something that’s worth $10,000.00.  I learned a lot at the Empower Network, and one of their products cost $3,500, but I don’t know how I would make one of my own.

And I might not even put my first ebook up for sale.  I might give it away as a freebie for my email list.  I thought by the comments I was getting that I was going to get subscribers right away, but it must be over a month now and I still have zero.

But I’m not giving away anything for free.

So really I think I just have to do a better job.

I’m still waiting for my friend to review my first ebook so I can edit it AGAIN and rewrite some of it, so that it’s good for public consumption.

So maybe I’ll make that my freebie and then go from there.  I AM still a leading learner, and this is where I am, so this is what I’m teaching you.

And I can teach you to write 6 days a week for a month.  I’ve done that.

And I plan to write 6 days a week for 3 months.  Today is starting fresh.  Once I do that, I will be able to teach anyone how to blog for 90 days with passion and value.

But you tell me if it’s valuable.  Leave a comment.

What I can tell you is that you can be successful, even if your a schizophrenic married with children.  You don’t have to be a house dad.  You can go out there and work.  And you can sell!

I sold 6 deals in a month.  That’s better than one a week.  And I only do it for three days in a week.  So really, I’m maximizing what I do for them in shorter periods of time.

Which is fine, because it gives me time to work on my personal life.

Though part of me wants to work 40 hours a week, with the Holidays off, at a better pay rate.

Part of me wants to go into commission sales again, where I could make 6 figures a year.  Pre-set appointments.  All I have to do is sell.

But I don’t think I’ll be getting into commission any time soon because of my habits of drinking and smoking.  I need hourly to compensate for my failings personally.  If I lived my life in balance, I would probably have a better chance for success in commission sales.  So I really have a lot of work to do.

I will be sure to keep you updated on this blog so if your interested definitely check back and read some new posts.  I will do my best, better than my best, to make sure there is world class value in there for you to read and be entertained by.

But I still haven’t lost the fire.  I haven’t lost the enthusiasm.  People make $100,000.00 dollars dollars a month off of this stuff.  Well maybe not my stuff, but they do it blogging!  Why can’t we shoot to do the same thing!  Maybe the writing is just trying to improve us and lead us to sober nonsmoking…

I don’t know.

What I do know is that I do enjoy drinking and writing.  They seem to go together well.  I’ve got to break this habit though because it could lead to the destruction of my life.

Then again, who knows how long I could live as a drinker and a smoker.  I could never stop and just keep working and writing and do my thing.  And people would love it.

Or I could go for stopping, and deal with the pain for a couple weeks of not drinking or smoking, and then live my life more in balance and maybe get into commission sales.  We’ll see what happens.

I’ll tell you about it if you come back and read more…

For now I tell you I’m doing well at my hourly sales job and I’m expanding the companies sales.  And I’m doing it all while drinking and smoking in my personal life.

For the longest time I thought it was the drinking and the smoking that was holding me back from making it in sales.  Now that I’m successfully performing I think it’s only a matter of getting a sales job that will pay you a sum hourly.  So there’s no pressure.  Your getting paid whether they buy or not.  It’s a good place to be, and it’s a good place to learn.

So really I’m rocking it, and I don’t want you to be worried.  Worry never serves anyone.  Just look forward to a better future, like I do, and check back on this blog to see what I’ve accomplished.

Thanks for reading, here’s to your success,

Jesse Creel

 

The Day In Day Out Work Of Writing

And that work is to write the most valuable content on the internet.

How are we going to do this as bloggers and ebook authors?

I say we have to read books that are going to help us achieve out short term goals.  If we work on our short term goals and consistently meet them then we will be closer to our long term goals.

But I do think we should always be thinking long term.  People are living a lot longer these days.

So really we need to do both.  The Yin and the Yang.

I am a schizophrenic and at one point when I was having trouble working I thought I was Jesus and was telling my wife all about it.

She was going along with me on it, and that made me even more crazy.  I think I was drinking a lot at the time.  And I was trying to sell Aflac insurance.

I really was a crazy man.

So maybe you can’t be like me, but I say you might be highly entertained by me.

The best part is I’ve made myself a success again at an hourly job and now I’m swinging for the fences everyday, on every blog post, to write the most valuable content in the world.

How do I, how do WE do this?

I say we just ask ourselves the question, how do I write the most valuable content in the world?

See what answers we get.

It all leads to writing, good and bad.

But I say you make BOTH the good and bad stuff spectacular.  Make it the most entertaining thing the reader has ever read.  I think that’s how we can really improve this blogging movement.

Some people make a lot of money writing books, e books or paper books.  How do we become one of them?

I say the first step is to write everyday.

I say the second step is to make sure your reading at least a half hour everyday.  Which truthfully I don’t get everyday.  But when I do read it’s for hours.

Again, don’t be like me.  I’m a sick person.  But what I do have in common with you is if you can read and type you can have a blog.  And we can both be bloggers.

And YOU could come up with the most valuable content on the planet, and join the club.

And we could do it together.

Because I’m not there yet.

My friend is editing my e book and he tells me I have a lot of work to do.  I’m probably going to have to take out some pages and re write some of it.  Maybe put another 10 hours into it.  I’ve already logged 40.  So that would be 50 hours of my work that at my job I get paid $12 dollars an hour for.  You can figure out how much I would have made if I put that time into an hourly job.

And if figure the work I do with my mind will pay a lot more than the work I do with my hands.  Sales is a good example of how you can make more money.  And it takes more brains!

So I must have that going for me.

Because they did promote me to doing sales calls, so I must be showing improvement.  And I do sell!

They pay me hourly so I get paid whether they buy or not.  Which is a blessing.  I love sales but because of the drinking and smoking it makes it difficult to work on commission.  So when your getting paid hourly and working for a company who’s food people love, it’s easy to drop off a free lunch, say your spreading around some love and letting people know my company cares about them.  It’s the easiest sales job in the world.  I only see people for a minute, maybe two and then I’m off to the next place.  I can get 8 sales calls done in 4 hours or less.

And in one month I made 6 sales!  So people are buying because of the work I’m doing.  And it doesn’t matter that the voices say they are calling me as I’m doing the sales calls.  People love the ham and turkey!  And they love that I’m being called to die and still working!  I am friendly and only want to make the most of my day.

Enjoy the ride.

So that’s what I do.

So far I’ve been smoking cigarettes for the sales calls and I think that’s going to stop.  But even with the cigarettes people still buy.  My company really has a gold mine.  Ham.  People love it.

But I am working for someone else.  I want to be working for myself.  I want my e book to sell and become a millionaire.  And then a multi millionaire.  And then I’ll be living the life of my dreams.  How is this of value to you?

To know there’s another person out there who is crazy enough to think they can get rich and become a multimillionaire.  No matter where they are in life.  So long as they had a decade or two to spare.  That really might be asking quiet a lot.  But when your doing something you love, something that’s going to help you grow, you shouldn’t be looking at it in terms of decades anyways.  You should be looking at it as your life’s work.

And BE THE MOST VALUABLE PERSON ON THE PLANET.

Do and write really good stuff.  The best stuff.  Think what you’ll have in ten years?

Think what you’ll have in one year.

GET IT DONE!

I’ve got to make sure I get my half hour of reading today after I’ve written this blog.  Get back on track.

And I will, because I want to keep providing more valuable content each day.  Just because you may be producing the most valuable content on the planet doesn’t mean you can’t make it better.

Really you MUST make it better because that’s how it’s meant to be done.  You could make a song out of it, and I do.  You might even be able to get your hands on it for a price.

Because really, we all gotta eat.

And I WILL have products for sale up on this website at some point and I hope you buy and enjoy them.  I will sell them no matter what my friends tell me about them after I share it with them.

I may edit my ebook a lot before I put it up for sale, but I’m still going to take my 40 hours of work and make something of it.  Something that I can profit from.  Why shouldn’t we profit.  It’s not a crime.

In fact the government encourages us to profit.  They get more money!  And that’s what governments need.  Along with great leaders.

But I really wanted to write hard for the purpose of providing you the most valuable stuff you’ve ever read.  Let me know in the comments whether or not you think I’ve accomplished this task.  And maybe how you think I might be able to improve.

Because really, this blog is alive.  There are people that comment on it everyday.  Today I had something like 11 comments.  Yesterday I had something like 8.  And it just keeps coming.

My most popular posts are Value Based Writing For Those Who Want To Improve and Selling And Getting 20 Dollars An Hour.

The comments come in everyday and have been for a while now.  It must have started about 2 months ago and now I’ve got many comments.

But what I want to do is keep improving and write even more posts that get as much traffic and are of better quality.

We all can travel this path.  The path of self improvement.  And I think we can increase our incomes dramatically because of it.

That we can get more friends too.  And effect the lives of more people.

And for the most part I think most of them will be happy they found us.  Sure their will be a couple of complaints but for the most part it will be good.

That’s just what I see based on experience working at other businesses.

So you may have to field a couple complaints, but you’ll be EARNING money and you’ll be working towards living the lifestyle of your dreams.

Don’t worry folks, the ebook “Take Action and Improve!” is coming.  Consider it en-route.

For now I’m focusing on just providing you with as much free content as possible.  That way IF you do want to buy something it will be easy.  I’ve already earned your money!

Well not really, your going to get the product, but really this is valuable stuff isn’t it, let me know in the comments.

Because really I don’t know if it’s like this for everybody, but at this point I seemed destined for success.  A success with what I want to do.  And to ride the wave high.

Right now I’m riding high on the hog, in more ways than one, but I intend to make this blog my income.  You can blog too.  I suggest you go for 90 days and see what happens.

I’ve still got another 2 months + to go.  But I’ve been pretty faithful in my dedication to writing the blog everyday.  I think so far I’ve only taken 2 days off.  In a month.

God is resting more than I am.

I should really take more time off, at least one day a week, but I figure it’s only 3 months, what harm can it do to do something you love each day for those three months for your benefit and the benefit of the people who read your work.

But if you can only give them a 1,000 words one day, then just give them 1,000 words.  At least you got that in.  I know, when your working a job and taking care of a family you can get tired.  But I say for the most part, go the extra mile and try to get a good 2,000 words in.  You can do it!  And think just how much more valuable that post will be!

Your writing hard for the purpose of making the world a better place.

I don’t see any downside to writing.  Your only going to become better at what your doing now.  For me I see everything in my life getting better because I’m writing.

That’s just the way it goes.

I hope your better for reading this.  I want to be of value by relying my experiences to you so you can be entertained. Because God help me I’m not very scholarly.  But I am alive, I am a human being, I am part of the world, I am creating new human beings to be the future, and I’m highly optimistic about the future.

But I am living in the present, so for now I’m just thankful for my job and for my family, and for food, and for shelter, and for everything I have that is good in life.  And I’m thankful for all the lessons the failures and bad things have taught me over the years.  They have helped me become the person I am today.  And today I am a valuable member of the community.  I feed people.

If I didn’t work I’d have to write about something else, and that’s going to be the reality at some point in my life if I can do it.  And because I’m so optimistic about the future I’ve already decided that success at blogging and selling ebooks is my destiny, and I will have it good bad and ugly.

But really it will, like my company, be mostly good.  And worth doing.

This is an accomplishment.  I worked 9 hours at my job today and wrote until I had 2,000 words.  And I really tried to pack the value in there.  The value being that I love you and if I can do it, a schizophrenic, you can certainly work your hourly job to help support your family.

I care about the world and want to see it get better.

Thanks for reading this post,

Jesse Creel

 

The Idea Of Generating Art For Income To Do What You Love As Your Job

And my job is to write and record rock and roll songs.

I just listened to all three I have recorded so far for my first album.  I love them.  They are my babies.  I think I’ll get good feedback from friends about this album.  People who love it with me.

And if people bought my album, and thought it was good too, there would be more people that would buy it.  And if it were really great then I COULD become rich.

Chances are I won’t be rich unless I have a band to back up my words.  And I quit my band Tigerstyle years ago.  Here’s a clip of one song we did together, you may recognize it.

I quit the band just as we were starting to make money.  I doubt I could ever get back what I once had.  It’s over and I would have to start fresh again.  I don’t know that I’ll name the next band Tigerstyle though.  That really didn’t have anything to do with me.

They were good to play with though.  They were the best band I had ever been a part of.  And I’d tried to form many bands.

But the way I figure it is, they didn’t want me writing the songs, so writing without them is really a blessing.  It gives me creative freedom.  No one telling you they won’t play that song.  Really I’m not a very strong guitar player, but I can play some rhythm.  And sing.  I used to have long hair.  I have since cut it all off.

But that doesn’t mean I still can’t rock and roll.  Hair or no hair I’m writing songs.  And I think they are good.  The world’s best stuff.  Get these songs together and maybe someone out there in Severna Park, MD will want to start a band with me.

I’m going for it, and I’m keeping my options open.  I still believe I have that multimillion dollar miracle inside of me.  So I’m going for it.  And I’m happy I am, no matter how bad at it I am at first.  I know with each day I’ll get a little bit better, until 10 years later I’m a master.  I’m going for it, I’m a blogger.

Because I know what it’s like to work hourly.  It’s nice because if your good they apprechiate you with raises and bonuses, but I think their secret motives are to keep you as an employee and you work hourly for the rest of your life.  I intend to do something with myself OUTSIDE of work, and make a living at it.

I may not make 100 million dollars over the course of my life, but I will still have the accomplishment of making enough blogging to quit my job.

Then again, maybe I will make 100 million dollars and become a household name.

Really, I have a lot of work to put in.  But I say the ticket is to write, so brothers and sisters, let’s write.

Write about your job, write about your family, write about blogging, write about your dreams, write about relationships, write about wine and cigarettes, write about whatever you want.  As long as your writing.

But I have this album in the works, and I think it’s going to turn out pretty good if not great, and I think I may put it up for sale on this site.  Whether anyone actually bought it or not would be a different story.  But I’d be doing my thing as an entrepreneur and an artist.  I read something that said “Real Artists Don’t Starve”

But people I know I’m not college educated.  But I write with passion, and I think I can improve, but I think this writing work is work worth doing.

I think writing is good work.  Something you can do to help other people.  Even if it is just to entertain them.  Give them a taste of something that’s happening in the world.  Give them the news of your life.

Because the way I see it, if you make your life a masterpiece, what better to write about than your own life.  Though I’m sure some of you would harshly disagree with me.  Those into fiction.

And there’s nothing wrong with fiction, I think I’m going to write a book of fiction at some point in my life.  Again, put it up for sale here.  If my ebooks are anything like my blog posts, I’ll have people coming back to one or two of them, and continuing to talk about it.  And really that could be all I need to quit my job.

Really though, it would probably take me years to do this.  I’m only 2 years in.  I figure I have 8 more years of blogging before I’ve mastered it.  So you can expect a lot of FREE CONTENT from me on this blog in the years to come.

And I think that’s good because I can build some long term relationships with some people out there on the internet.

So I’ll probably keep making rock and roll albums in the track of E, because that’s all I know how to play and it never stops because I keep coming up with new words.

And I think I can entertain people with my words, and the way I play the rhythm on the guitar.  Even some of my solos I think people would enjoy.

And I believe I can sell my art and make enough money to live.  Although if I’m not making a lot, if I don’t make multi millionaire status, then I’m going to keep my hourly job.  So I’ve got plenty to do there.  30 hours or more a week.

But I like being at home.  I like working on my writing.  This is what I really want to do.  This is what I want to be about.  Blogging.  And writing ebooks and selling them and making rock and roll albums and selling them.  And my vision is to sell so many that I can afford a completely upgraded lifestyle.  New house, new vacations, new cars, bills paid for life, children’s college educations taken care of.  Weddings paid for.

Lead a completely beautiful life.  And I am determined to get there.

If you want a taste of what the album is going to sound like, visit this post and you you can listen to 2:30 minutes of me rocking it.  Let me know what you think.

Thanks, and take care,

Jesse Creel

How To Get 178 Good For Approval Comments On Your Blog

And the short answer to that question is to blog everyday for a year and a half, and you’ll eventually hit the nail on the head a one or two of your posts will take off and get other people writing on your website about it.

And I have been blogging for a year and a half on this domain and I haven’t even been blogging everyday.  This is my first go at doing it everyday for 90 days.  I only have something like 74 posts as of right now.  For a while I was only writing once a week.

But I was still moving.  Now I intend to pick up the pace, and get more traffic and more subscribers, and more buyers to this site.  And I intend on doing that by creating valuable content.

So here’s my story.

I’m a family man, a worker, a salesman, a rock and roller, and I’m a wannabe millionaire off of ebooks.  That’s what my first ebook was about, upon reflecting on it.

It’s the story about how you can blog and create income.  And that it’s possible for ANYONE to do it.  The way I see it, I’m a writer first and then a business owner second.  The part of me that makes the money comes after the work itself.  Really though time will tell all.

All I know is that I MUST keep writing.  No matter what.  Wine or not.  Cigarettes or not.  I must keep writing.  That’s my ticket to freedom.  At least that’s what I believe I can free myself from my job with.  And after I finally do it, I’m going to tell everyone exactly how I did it, and how they can do it too.  And I’m going to create products people can buy that will put me into profit, but more importantly bless people.

Because I think you can bless people if you adopt the attitude that all human life is valuable.

And so far I’m making it.  Considering I’m a schizophrenic, just holding down an hourly job is an accomplishment, no matter how much I’m making.

Getting raises at that hourly job is even more of an accomplishment.

Now really my focus should be on HOLDING that hourly job and continuing to grow there. Because that is what is paying me right now.  That’s what I’m living off of.

But Lord is there room for improvement.

But even if I make no money at all off of my writing I still wouldn’t regret doing it.  I think it’s valuable and serves a purpose no matter what level of involvement in the economy I’m in with it.  But at the same time I’m highly optimistic.  I really believe I can make a million dollars writing, maybe I’m wrong.

But I don’t care and I’m not going to be reasonable on that.  I’m going to be UNREASONABLE and believe that I will make a million dollars and more off of my writing, songs, and network marketing. Doesn’t it make you want to get in and go for a ride?

Because writing for me is living my dream life.  You can escape to anywhere or anything you want with writing.  And your TAKING ACTION.  I say you can really go places with writing.  Definitely for me.  Definitely for us.

Plus you can get really good comments even if your not making any money off of it yet.  Like I’m getting.  They say nice things to me, and it makes you feel good that your brightening people’s days.  I love it.  I love my commentors.

And I can’t wait to get a few people on my list so that I can start loving and writing those people.  I think that’s a fun way to build a relationship.  Through email.

I am going to get this business off the ground and start selling a million copies of one or more than one of my ebooks.  I’m just going to write until I have that much value.  I’m going to write until I die or reach the masses.  Most likely though, I will just write and die, and not sell a million copies.

But you never know.  I’m keeping my options open.  I’m leaving myself open to the possibility of success, no matter how slim the chance.  That’s the way I think everyone should look at it.  Take the chance and do what you want to do.  It might work!

For me it must work.  I must free myself from the slavery of an hourly job and working for someone else.  But I’m not going to quit my job or anything.  Not until I’m making what I made in a year, in a month.  Once I’m at that spot, I can quit my job and find more effective ways to profit on my work from home.

I suppose there are a lot of ways you could make money online, but I think blogging is what I support the most.  I think it’s the gateway to all the abundance you could ever desire.  Is that valuable?  Does that make you want to write a blog?

I hope it does, and you can write about whatever you want, even if that’s video games.  I personally myself am not a gamer, I’m a reader and a guitar player.  But I know there are a lot of people that are gamers and I know it’s popular.

So if you can find a way to make money off of the games, go for it.  Maybe you can use some of the ideas on this blog to help you become more profitable.  Because that’s really my job.  That’s what I’m taking on.  EARNING PROFITS.

And slowly but surely I think I will get there.  It’s just gonna take blogging everyday, and eventually writing more ebooks.

But I do have one ebook that I think I could sell.  And the only way I think I can put it is that it’s “good shit”.

It’s shit, but it’s good shit.  It might even have the power to get you high.

Ever think about a reading high?

I get one when I think about all the things I could do to live the life of my dreams.

And when I’m talking about the life of my dreams I definitely am talking about taking a lot of vacations.  And living in a bigger house.

I figure I can have the home base and my family and I can travel the world, and then come back home.  I think that would be ideal.  That would be a masterpiece.

I would probably only need one or two million to get started.  Get the house and take the first vacation.

The dream life is really one that I’m living right now though.  And I think that’s valuable.  I’m writing my blog!  And this COULD turn into an income producing activity.

And I would probably write 10 books a year if I knew I could sell them for a profit.

I think this tells me I really just need to start on a new ebook, the next one I’m going to put up for sale after the one I’ve already finished and am having peer reviewed.

I can’t wait for the feedback.

I COULD site examples of bloggers that have made an impact and are PROFITING.  Intuition tells me that this can be done, and my counselor tells me that I have as good of a chance as anyone else would.

I say I have to work harder to overcome the voices, so I can just live and work.

But their not so bad.  I’ve never been restrained before, mostly because I don’t talk like a crazy person, but I’ve heard about other schizophrenics who have been.

It doesn’t seem like a pleasant experience.  That and being force fed medication.

I take my medication happily.  Antipyschotic.

The voices tell me I’m handsome or that I’m beautiful.  Sometimes I wish they were real people.  Other times when they tell me they want to kill me I would rather avoid that in a real person.

I’m sure at times my boss has wanted to kill me.  Or my wife.  Or my inlaws.  I’m sure this is the case for a lot of people.  Really though, I think overall everyone is pleased.  I’m succeeding at selling my product, and I’m suiting up and showing up.  I’m EARNING an income.  And for the most part it’s easy!

But it’s even easier to write, and I simply love to do it.

What’s the value here for you?  What’s the million dollar value?

Love what you do.  Even if your working for someone else.  It could really come in other ways and you could love what you do even more and make a masterpiece of a life.

And if you took what I wrote here and ran with it, and started blogging everyday for 90 days, nonstop, then you COULD make some money selling ebooks, and that COULD be worth a million dollars to you.

For me it doesn’t come fast enough so I just went out and bought a Powerball ticket.  I don’t know if it’s good news or bad news but when I folded the ticket and put it in my wallet, and then pulled it back out when I got home, the ticket was stuck together.  Some of the numbers stuck to the other side of the paper.  If I were to win I don’t even know if they could redeem the ticket!

It’s for 90 million dollars.  Plenty to retire my wife and I.  I would never have to work another holiday again?

What’s the value here?

What’s the million dollar value?

If you do play the lottery and you do keep a blog, you could write about playing the lottery on your blog.  That way if you won you could go public with your website at the press interview and your traffic would skyrocket!  The masses would read your work!  Wouldn’t that be lovely.

But people would also hate it, and I would have to deal with that.

I guess it’s give and take.  I’m ready for the responsibility.

Well, the powerball number is 17, and I think I have a 3 and a 7 in there as well as a 66.  We’ll find out tomorrow if I won the jackpot because I probably won’t stay up and check it tonight.

Then again, I might.  This would be the second time in a week I’ve stayed up to check the numbers the night of the drawing.

But the most I can lose tonight is 2 dollars so it’s not that bad.  But I’m optimistic, and I’m holding out hope that I’ll win.  That my sticky ticket is the jackpot winner.

And the way I see it is there is no other choice than for me to believe it is.

This could be the road to madness.

Or it could be the ticket to millions of dollars.

Only time will tell.

But really I don’t have to win the jackpot.  I still have this blog, and at minimum, even without ebook sales, I still have an hourly job.  So I’m working, but I’m also enjoying the weekend, and it could really lead to more money.  I’m working so that it does.  Time will tell what results I get.  I think they are going to be good all around.

But what if I win the jackpot tonight?

That means on Monday I put my two weeks in.  Not that I don’t like the job.  I just don’t want to work for anyone if I don’t have to.  I would go from the worker to the boss.  The one writing the checks.

And the voices entertain bad things that would happen to my marriage if I ever was a millionaire.  I fight those voices.  I love my wife, I love our family together.  I love what we do for each other.  I cherish her.  And that’s the way I’m going to be, or better, for the rest of my life.

And if I DO WIN THE JACKPOT tonight, I’m going to celebrate tomorrow and make sure I write about it on this blog.  Maybe people can learn from me and manifest their own lottery jackpot wins.  That’s my hope for the future, or one of them at least.

Here’s to you having a great day, I thank you for reading.  Take care.

Jesse Creel

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