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How Does A Schizophrenic Sell Another Deal?

The answer is simple… WORK!

For a schizophrenic in sales, work means more than one thing.

It means you do the physical work, of prospecting, talking to, and following up with businesses, and it also means you do the work inside of your head that allows you to think clearly about loving your customer.

For me it means eliminating sex from the equation.  Sure, sex sells, but so does a good product.  You don’t have to be sexy, and you don’t have to be wanting sex or wanting to give sex in order to sell.  What you have to do is talk to your voices and tell them that you love them and thank them for being in your head.

When my thoughts and my words have aligned, the voices will tell me to get “out”.  That simple means to speak what I’m thinking.  If I’m working in the store giving out samples of the product and I think to myself that I’m going to wish that customer that’s about to walk out of the door a great day, then I get “out” and say exactly that.  A lot of times the voices of the customers will say that “I am”.  It means whatever you want it to mean.  For me it means that I’m in the game, and I’m here to serve.

If you are a schizophrenic and want to sell another deal, or maybe sell your first one, my recommendation is get with a product that sells itself.  If you look for it, it will look for you and you will find each other.  For me, my product is food.  Everyone needs to eat to live, so as some of the great sales books I’ve read have taught me, you must be in the business of supporting life.  I think it was Tony Robbins who wrote that “Life supports that which supports life.”  All I can say is that I do my best, and I’m starting to sell some deals.

So far, my results have been ok.  They are not great, and they are not terrible.  For me, as a schizophrenic doing ok is an accomplishment.  I would like to do better, and I work to be a little better everyday that I’m alive, so I would eventually like to become GREAT.  For now, I just do ok and I have 8 deals under my belt that I know of.  I may be responsible for more, but right now I’m not interested in taking credit, I’m more interested in doing the job well.  So as far as I know, I have 8 deals to my name and am looking to up that number each day that I sell.

What’s great about today is that I found out that I made that 8th sale, and it came from the work I did the day before.  I dropped off a cookie tray at a construction business and on the very next day they placed an order.  The product and the sales system the company has in place do all the work for me.  All I have to do is suit up, show up, and allow the deal to happen.  If you are a schizophrenic like me and have been struggling in sales for years, then it may be time to get an hourly job that gives you a steady paycheck to pay your bills, and then work your way to a better position within the company.

For me that’s the way it worked.  I got a job at a low hourly rate, and worked my tail off.  I have to give credit to my boss that hired me, because she gave me a chance when I wasn’t doing well with working.  She believed in me, and helped me to grow.

Fast forward 2 years and I’ve received several promotions and am now a salesperson for all three stores in the company.  Out of all the people working there I was the one they chose to sell their product for all three stores.  It’s really a prestigious position as I get to work with the president and owner of the company. I am the only one who does what I do.  Part of the credit goes to my reading and writing habit which has helped me develop as a person and shoot off useful quotes in conversation, and part of the credit goes to me being honest with them about my schizophrenia, and my path of limiting alcohol and quitting cigarettes.  I’m trying to move my life in a more positive direction, and that got their attention.  Along with expressing a desire to be in sales because of the growth potential eventually landed me the gig I have now.

The main benefit is that it gives me a greater opportunity to serve, which is the purpose of my life.  Service is what I am setting my life up to do, at work, at home, and on this blog.  I especially want to serve schizophrenics, and help them achieve things in life that the voices, whether it be their own or someone else, say they cannot do.  I want to serve as the catalyst for schizophrenics to breakthrough addiction, dependence, and bad choices because of the combination of their own missteps and what the voices have led them to believe.  I want to be a light for schizophrenics to show them that you don’t have to cheat on your wife or girlfriend, that you can work and you can do ok in sales, and that you can quit smoking.  I want to do all this and more, and I’m not going to stop until it’s done.

So there’s a taste of my plans for this blog but mainly I wanted to let you know that I’m a mild schizophrenic, and I’m selling things.  I’m doing ok.  I’m quitting cigarettes and have reduced the number I smoke by one each day.  Yesterday I smoked 12, down from a whole pack a week and a half ago.  My quit date is on July 15th, 2017.  I’m not looking forward to smoking none.

Then again, I am.

I just wanted to write this to you to let you know that you can do it, you can sell.  Work with the voices and let your own thoughts co-create what you hear, and direct your mind and your feelings to a place where people will know, like, and trust you.  You can do it!

Here’s to your sales success,

Jesse Creel

The Blog Post To Help YOU Write The Next Best Blog Post

With this post I want to inspire you to take action and write your own blog post.  And if your reading this, and you’ll want to, you’ll want to write the best blog post on the planet.

One day at a time.  One blog post at a time.  Take over the planet.  Set your information free.  Get paid.  I say that’s what it’s all about.

And you can do it and feel good at the same time.

I’m feeling good off of the three beers I had leftover from a six pack I bought yesterday off of my sales mileage money.

Bad habit.

My work doesn’t have the best salespeople.  They drink and smoke, and don’t live balanced lives.  They definitely eat though.

And some times, during the holidays, work buys the food.  Yesterday they bought chicken, and today they bought pizza.  And they bought a lot of it.  The workers were taking home 4 slices a piece.  And donuts too.  I should have eaten more…

But I had three slices of pizza.  Two thin crust, chicken BBQ.  And one piece of cheese.  It felt good, especially since I had already had a turkey sandwich, a banana, and grapes for lunch.  That didn’t really fill me up though, I wanted more.  Especially after not smoking a lot.

I only had 3 cigarettes when I started work this morning, and that lasted me to almost 1 pm.  That was pretty good considering I did a lot of driving.  And when I’m driving I tend to smoke a lot.

I got bye though until about 4 o’clock and I heard my boss bought a pack of cigarettes even though she doesn’t smoke, just to give them out to the holiday help.

It’s not really a holiday, but these workers come in and help us do massive quantities of product, and without their help we wouldn’t be able to do the job.

So they feed them.  And talk nice to them.  Mostly.

They tell you to hurry up, or not to toss the tomatoes so hard on to the foil.  So as not to spray another worker with juice, especially when it’s your boss.

And I had that experience today.

Really I love working.

There is one woman there who says I’m one of her work husbands.  She says she has a lot of them, but I’m one.

And when my boss was telling the story today to 5 or 6 people about how a customer told me my eyes were beautiful, and she was in her 70’s and said she wasn’t flirting with me.

My boss overheard the whole thing and told the story about it today in front of all the holiday help.  And the rest of my bosses at that.

She was also remarking about how I was doing an excellent job doing everything.  Putting the foil down, laying out 2 tomatoes on each foil, wrapping the foil.  I was doing everything.  As it was needed.

When some foil needed to be laid down, I laid the foil down.  When it was better I wrapped the tomatoes, I wrapped the tomatoes, and so on.

I worked with the rest of the team.

And in that factory sort of setting I can really get into a groove.

Do it really fast, with a high quality.

And at the end of the day, my bosses always tell me I did a good job.

And I’m paying taxes.

I’m contributing to society.

And that’s more than some schizophrenics can say.

To be honest it’s a little much for me to take on making money off this blog.  To say that I’m working 30 hours a week and 50 hours on holidays is a miracle. I’m lucky to have my boss who helped me by giving me a job through my brother.  It really is a miracle I’m even working considering I got fired 7 years ago.

Now I’m suffering making half of what I used to make.

But it’s better than it was considering two years ago I had nothing and wasn’t really working at all.

Really what I’ve been up to is spending my money on alcohol and cigarettes and living it up.

Enjoying myself.

Bad example, but fun.

Now I’m winding down.

On Mother’s day I drank 10 beers, and I drank another 10 beers the Monday after that.  I drank 6 the day after, and now I’ve only had 3.

I think it’s about time I change my ways.

Quit smoking and drinking.

Makes me want to smoke just thinking about it.

I fight through it.  I have to wait.  I have to do what I’m doing.  I have a purpose I need to fulfill.  And so do you.  So write that blog post about that.  And do it with passion.  Write the best blog post on the planet.  And then try to do that everyday for 90 days.  I’m trying but I did 6 days a week for a month, and after that I’ve probably only written 3 times a week.

But I’m still keeping up with it.  And I think it’s only a good thing.  I think it would help any human being on the planet.  Become a better person.

For me it’s made me realize that I drink too much and I shouldn’t smoke.  Now I just really need to take action and quit the habit.

I had a meditation tool that I used called Centerpointe.  It was a product that you sat there for an hour with headphones on and it made the two lobes of your brain work together to get whole brain functioning.

It was like meditating for 30 years and then meditating.  All through technology.

One of my sales trainers in my head told me that I shouldn’t use that stuff.  It’s supposed to change your awareness forever.  For me all that happens is the grass is greener.  The sky bluer, my wife’s love deeper.

I’m happy I did it.  I think it may have had something to do with the schizophrenia?  I don’t know.

I certainly didn’t consider myself a schizophrenic when I was using the product.

That was years later that I was finally broken and admitted to a doctor that I heard voices.

After that it was medication and therapy, and has been ever since.

I’ve read in Elyn Saks book “The Center Cannot Hold” about how she would go off her medication because she was taught in a rehab that drugs are bad, and she didn’t want to be taking anything.

But she would always go crazy when she stopped taking her meds.

So I say stick on your medication, no matter what your taking, whether it be medication for schizophrenia, or high blood pressure.

The miracle of modern medicine.  Keeps us alive.

How do you write the greatest post on the planet?

Write about you.  You are original.  There is only one of you out there, and there will only ever be one of you out there.  You have the opportunity to make a masterpiece.  Make a masterpiece.

And who knows.  Maybe if you write good enough stuff for long enough, you ‘ll have enough readers that want to buy something from you and you can sell them things and make money.

Sounds stupid.  But so is drinking and smoking.

I figure I would give the blog a try sober and smoke free and maybe running.

I think I may really go for it.

I think I can do it.

I want to do it pretty badly.

I’m just so ugly.

People tell me I’m attractive, and so do the voices, but my cigarette addiction does make me feel a little less attractive.

The voices tell me I’m sick.  And a lot of times I do feel sick.  Not right.  Just making it.  In pain.  Can’t smoke any more.  Wanting to smoke anyways.  I almost want to go to cigarette rehab.

I try to smoke less and I smoke more.  It’s ridiculous.  At least it gives me something to write about.  Although I could be writing about more constructive things like working out, or running.

That would be better for me.  Healthier.  I would be a more fit person.  I already eat.  So I’m good there.  I just need to exercise and stop smoking and do the thing the best I can do it.

I say all this shit and then I smoke.  I’m addicted.  It’s ridiculous.

I really need to clean up my act and be a better worker.  The only problem with that is that I’m doing great at the job drinking and smoking.

Well I don’t drink on the job, but I do drink after.  And sometimes I do feel it the next morning.  Makes you feel like you don’t want to work.  But I always do.  I go to work.

I just got to quit the cigarettes.  Say it once, say it a thousand times.  Eventually I’ll walk the walk.  And I’ll be a better salesman because of it.  And my works salespeople will get better, and there may even be another promotion in store for me.

How do YOU write the blog post to begin all blog posts?

Write like your life depended on it.  Write like someone was holding a gun to your head.

Or write like you want to get the thing done so you can have a cigarette.

And if you really want to smoke then that could really get you writing.

Give you motivation.

To get the job done.

Not saying you should smoke.  I would never encourage anyone to do that to themselves.

But I do it.

And I say you should be sober too.

Except maybe on special occasions, with family or friends for parties.

There are not enough parties to have a problem as long as your not drinking by yourself excessive quantities.

The point though, especially if you want to write the greatest blog post in the world, is to make money.

I have a family, I need money. The more money the better.  So I’m all about increasing my income.  At my job, at this blog, and at the lottery.

If figure playing THOSE games will leave me rich at some point.  Especially if I can STOP spending my money on destructive things like alcohol and cigarettes.

I think sober I might even write better.

I’m sure it would be harder at first, but I don’t think that would last.  I think it would be better that I could take my wife out every month to eat somewhere, because I had an extra 200 dollars that month from not smoking.

We could go out to eat twice for that much.

And eat and drink and enjoy.  Out in public.  Playing the game.

When I go out and the voices of the other people start talking to me in my head, I don’t really say much back to them in my head.  I just let it ride and listen to them all.  Occasionally I’ll chime in for balance.

Really I like it when I go out and hear their voices.  Sometimes they tell me sexy things, and if it’s a girl it’s pleasing.  Men like talking too.  Sometimes they say murderous things, like they hate people.  All I know is there is no reason to fight and every reason to be civil with one another.

That’s what you learn when you’ve been fired from the best job you ever had in your life.

You learn your lesson.

Don’t fight.

It’s not the right thing to do.

Maybe you could scream at one another for a while, or maybe talk it out.

Or maybe just let it be.  And let someone go off angry and let them decide on how they are going to take it.

Hopefully they make the most of their anger and learn to become better.

That’s all I’m talking about so when you write your next blog post, the one that’s going to begin your journey on writing the greatest blog post on the internet, and write them everyday, think of how YOU can become better.

Write that all down.

That will be a journey for your reader to take with you, and you both will learn as a result.

So here’s to your successful post,

Happy writing,

Jesse Creel

How Do Schizophrenics Get A Job That Pays Them $20,000 A Year?

And the answer is to drink and smoke and hate working until your in such a bad place that you will take advice from your younger brother and take a job with him.

And if your lucky like me, you’ll advance, even though your drinking and smoking in your free time, because it’s easier on the voices.

And I love working.  It pays me.  I love it also because I like my bosses.  They are sweet.  They have the sugar.  And their women.  So it’s easier for me to get along with them.

I’ve always gotten along better with the opposite sex.  There’s no alpha male drama just the mother taking care of her children.

But I really could be more of a man and make something of this blog.  I could be a better man if I could take my yearly income and make it my monthly income.  Then I would really have a start.  I would of course pay taxes, as every man has to, but I would be rolling in the doe.

That is of course if I don’t first hit the lottery.  I’m playing for this Mega Millions $36,000,000 jackpot.

It’s a small one, but I think that might make it even better.  I have found that the people who win more than one jackpot win smaller amounts.  They don’t take away a billion dollar jackpot.  But really if you play it right, you only have to win once to make a life for yourself.

But I can do it.  I know I can.  You find out on this blog how I do it.  I’m going to win the jackpot, or I’m going to eat my words.  But I would rather apologize for being wrong then to never go for it.  And you never know, this could be the best story on the news for a while.

Man writes on a blog about winning the jackpot, man wins the jackpot, man writes blog, man writes ebook, man starts internet business with the winnings, man makes a life for himself.  It would be beautiful.

And it all starts here.  At this blog.  I write, I work, I drink, I smoke, I raise a family, I am a husband, I’m a salesman, I’m a schizophrenic, and I could change my life right now if I wanted to.  But I’m hooked.  I’m hooked on the lottery, drinking and smoking.

I’ll probably never win the jackpot.  That’s just a reality.  But I don’t face that reality.  I dream.  And I dream big.  I could win not just one, but several jackpots in my lifetime.  I could be a youtube star.  I could be famous.

Then again, this probably will never work.  I probably will never win not even one jackpot.  I keep holding out hope for it though.  I know that if I win my life will be a lot better, so I hold out hope.

I keep hoping I win, I keep hoping I win.

Like Jesus said to do, whatsoever you ask for in prayer, in believing you shall receive it.

So I believe I already have the jackpot win.

I believe that I am already a multi millionaire overnight.

Not that it happened overnight.  It took years.  But it happened seemingly overnight and for that I’m thankful.

I’m thankful for that because it finally happened.  I’m finally a multimillionaire.

I’m grateful.  I’m pleased.  I’m thankful to the universe.

I hope I win.

This is probably a good joke for a comedian.  At least I can fulfill a role in society by being the butt of a joke.  That is only of course if I don’t win.

If I DO WIN, there will be an instructional ebook on how to win one of the big games with your mind.  At this point I don’t know if I would charge for that kind of information.  I could say that I want to be a public service and give it away for free, or I could say that it’s too valuable an there has to be a price tag.

Either way I would write the book.  And borrow liberally from the past 10 years journals.  One of my therapists voices in my head told me if she ever read my journal that she would think I had a problem with the lottery.

I probably do have a problem with the lottery.  But that doesn’t stop me from thinking I’ll win.

The voices say my name and tell me no.  I don’t know what to think.

I think I’m going to win the jackpot.  Just wait and see.  It’s going to happen.  Then I’ll be famous and so will this website, and we’ll make merry of it.

That’s all I think is going to happen.

And I’ll get a free ebook for my list and start getting a list together, and then sell network marketing.  It will be beautiful.  If that’s what I do end up doing.

Because I might not sell network marketing to my list, I might sell ebooks and rock and roll albums.

I just recorded a rock and roll poem with no guitar.  Just me singing it.  The words.  It was beautiful.  It was about winning 36 million dollars.  Just a small jackpot, but something to live off so you could start a business.

And start a business I would.  I would buy traffic for this site.  Get people reading my work.  Get them to a landing page where I could get their email addresses.  Make money doing that!

What do you think, a blogger, an ad man, a business man, getting paid for selling e books.  And rock and roll albums.  And maybe end up getting a record deal.  There’s more than one way to become a multimillionaire.  The lottery, yes.  But there are other things too.

But I’ve probably waited too long to get going, I’m probably going to land flat on my face.  On the other side of the coin the only option is success and you’ve got to have it so… what’s going to happen?

I say the best possible outcome will come with diligent hard work everyday.  Getting the hours in at work, and then coming home and getting a couple hours in on the blog.  That be my way of life.

And there’s more to it than just work and blogging.  There is also family life.  Very important to overall well being.  A healthy family.

I love my family.  They are the best.

And the schizophrenia makes me a better dad.  It helps me guide my family to the path that I think is right.

But i could be better if I didn’t drink and smoke.  I could lead my family better.

But I must write.  That is what I must do.  I know this could lead me places, and my family places.  I just have to commit to writing everyday and see what comes of it.  I’m looking for a 6 or 7 figure income.

So how does a schizophrenic like me go from a $20,000 a year job to a $240,000 a year income from writing a blog?

I’ll let you know all about it on this blog, just check back for the new posts.

And the voices tell me I’m too high to make that kind of money.  I say I just have to work harder than the average person to make that kind of money.

So that’s what I’m going to do.  I’m just going to work harder.

And you won’t find a lot of quotes in my stuff.  It’s straight from my own heart.  In a way you could look at it as fiction.  My own personal dream world.  But I also say you could stand to learn a lot from me.

You could learn how to live even when your being told to die and you feel like your dying.  You could live to the next day and get better.  You might still be told to die, but that happens everyday, and it’s nothing your not used to hearing.

I guess that’s all for me today.  I hope you have a good time.

Jesse Creel

Schizophrenia And Drinking And Smoking

Yes, you could call me a schizophrenic.

But only if I told you I heard voices everyday.  And had visions of people.  People I know.

And the voices sometimes, a lot of times tell me to drink.  And a lot of times I do.

And basically I’m just praying I live.  Considering I smoke too.

I don’t advise this kind of writing to anyone, it’s too dangerous.

But reading it you might get a kick out of it.

I imagine feet.

That’s just how a schizophrenic writes.

I do my best though, and I really do want to bring massive value to the table.  And what I can tell you is even if your schizophrenic and drink and smoke everyday, you can still hold down a job and give some money to your family.

It would probably be more kid friendly without the smoking and the drinking, but they get by.

And I think my son has hater’s before he’s even done anything.  Because of me.  And my drinking and smoking.  Having a beautiful family.

Really I probably do lead a God damned life with all the drinking, smoking and lottery playing.

But that’s not stopping me from living.

And they say it’s a bad thing, but it’s legal!

What I have to do is find a way to get more traffic so more people see my list and will subscribe to it.

Because that’s how they say you can build a business.

It’s already costing me money to keep this site running, and I’m not making any money off of it yet.  I hope I will.  I hope that this is one of the ways I make my money.  The other two being my job and the lottery.

But really some authors think you should keep it a secret.  I say let it out and that way when you win people will have something to look at.  The story leading up to the win.  They can look back on it, and learn from you, and hopefully for some of them they learn how to win the lottery too!

Because that would just be awesome.  Getting a testimonial or several from people who have read your work, and then won the lottery.  Hit the jackpot.  Shared it with another person or won the whole thing.  Stories of both.  Because you won and shared what you knew.  It had a positive effect on the world.

The bible would probably say that is God damned too.  The bible with all of this God damnedness.

I’m probably no better than the devil though.  I’ll probably burn in hell when this life is over.  I’m a schizophrenic and when I go to church the preachers voice tells me not to drink and it makes me shaky.  I know they are just voices, but sometimes it’s like my body is listening to them when they tell me to die.

But I know it’s not.  I know I just have to be stronger.  I’m only 32.  I could suffer another 20 or 30 years this way.  This is far from over.  And I might even quit the life and live clean and sober and start running.

But really I’m already well pretty accustomed to this way of life.  I like it.  I enjoy the ride.

Probably going straight to hell though.

Even if I do win the lottery and give large sums of money away to charity.

That would be me just living life on earth.  Nothing to do with what happens to me after I die.

Or maybe it does.  I don’t know.

And if it pisses you off the way I write then go read something else.  Because your comments are what I need to stay just the way I am.  An artist.  A writer.

I may use and, and but too much, but that’s just the way I write.  I get the point across.  You know what I’m talking about and that’s what I’m talking about.

And I want to walk the walk too.  So I’m going to write the best blog post I can possibly write, right now.

And how do I create the worlds most valuable piece of writing everyday?

Just write and see what happens.

Probably with the drinking and smoking it will be less than average.  Or it will be stupendous.

I don’t know, you tell me in the comments.

What I can tell you is that I’m optimistic about tonight’s lottery.  I think I’m going to win.  Before I bought the two first tickets I wrote out a page in my journal about how I was a lottery winner, and drank my first glass of wine.

Then I went out and bought the first two tickets.

Then I ran out of cigarettes and went out and bought two more.

So I spent 8 dollars on lottery tickets today, and I’m praying I’ll win.  I’m praying to the universe, to my subconscious mind.

And what I’m hoping is that MY subconscious mind is powerful enough to influence a national lottery game.

Maybe I’m trying to catch the breeze with this one.

Maybe I’ll just buy my tickets and hope I win but do no more than that.

I doubt it.  I’ll probably never quit, and keep the faith, and eventually win.

I might even win a few times.  Just to win more money.  Just to be a winner.

If I could design it that’s what would happen.  I would win big several times.

I’m hoping that the 165 million on the line tonight is already mine.

I’ll write about it if I win.  I’ll also release my website in the press interview and get loads of traffic.

Then the world could see what I’m really all about.

Having schizophrenia, and drinking and smoking, and working a job, and taking care of my family, and cleaning the house, and writing, and playing guitar, and being a brother, and being a friend, and loving food, and dancing.

Well maybe not so much the dancing, but it’s more of a metaphor.

The dance of life.

And part of what I want to tell the world is that I love my wife.  So for all of you ladies out there, I’m taken, and I don’t plan on going back to a life of cheating any time soon.

I just want to raise our family in our dream home, and take lots of vacations all over the world.

I’m going to get my testes snipped so it will be impossible for us to have any more children.

And the vacation after that procedure will probably be well worth it.

It will be, and I intend to make it happen.

But really, I don’t think I can impose my will onto the universe.  Part of me thinks people just win the lottery.  There’s hardly ever any will involved.  People win by chance.

Sure maybe they get feelings like they are going to win, but I make myself have those everyday, and I haven’t won.  Of course that doesn’t mean I won’t win tonight.

I’ve already done a lot of work to win the jackpot.  I think it’s only a matter of time.  I would be famous if that happened, and this website and the Jesse Creel brand would explode.

How did I do it?

I drank and smoked, and played to win.  I wrote in my journal and I worked hard everyday.  I got to a place where I was secure at my job.  I succeeded at my job.  I helped my family.  I got to a better place.  I recovered from a loss.  Then I won the jackpot.  Then I got everything I wanted.  It was a miracle.  It was my special time.  I was a multi millionaire.

That’s how the story goes.

That’s how my story goes.  And if it’s madness I don’t care.  I like it and I’m a valuable part of society.  I deliver food.

Hopefully your reading this and I am already a multimillionaire.  Maybe you want to learn how to do the same for your own life.  I tell you my secret.  Never give up.

Even if the voices tell you that your wrong and your doing bad things, and things will never work out, and your going to die, you can STILL work a job and be a effective member of your family and your community.

Take the next step further like I do and keep a blog and you’ll start to influence the whole world.

There are going to be some special people that find your work and read your blog.  They will leave comments and tell you what they think about it.  Most of them will be nice.  You will like getting comments.  Subscribers would be better, but comments are still good.  They let you know how your doing.

And along with my own self navigation and the comments, I am lead to believe I’m doing good.  And I want more.  I must write.  I must deliver the content.  To the masses.  To my people.  To my good people.  The good people of the world.

Delusional?

I would say that “All are lunatics, but he who can analyze his delusion is called a philosopher.” -Ambrose Bierce

If I win the jackpot they will probably call me a prophet.  If I don’t a madman.

I’d rather have the former.

And I’m optimistic that I will.

Maybe I might lose some readers, but I stand to gain fame and fortune.

Time will tell what happens.

For now I stay optimistic.

I do the work on the lottery, though I don’t know that my work of writing and praying really does anything to your chances of winning.  Spiritually I think it does have an effect on your life.  Praying to win.  But I do it, because I never give up and I MUST win.  And if I get going once, I’m probably going to want to win a couple more times too, and I’m going to write about the whole thing.  It really should be spectacular.

And I do rock and roll albums too.

I have one in the works.

You can hear a sample of me playing guitar and singing here.

It’s not much.  It’s only about 10 years worth of work.  Maybe there is such a thing as not being able to work it into a success, but I can’t accept that.

I MUST keep doing what I do, even if it’s not good.

It’s all I know how to do.

I’m probably just too hard on myself, and I’m really great, I just need to keep working.

So keep working I will.

On this blog, on my job, on my life, on my family, on my friends, on the things that are important most to me.  Drinking and smoking the whole way through it.

But maybe I’ll win the jackpot tonight.  I’m very optimistic that I will.  And that I’ll have a good story to tell about it.  And that’s going to happen or I’m going to write for the rest of my life about it and be a loser.

Die empty handed.

I guess in the end it doesn’t matter anyways.  I say go for it.  It may be on the edge of madness but it’s also on the brink of genius.  Then again, that’s just what I think, go ahead and form your own opinion.  Am I mad?

Maybe if I got sober I would stand a better chance at manifesting a lottery win.  Maybe not.  All I know is my story could either be a really sad one or a really happy one, depending on how you look at it.

All I know is that people are going to call me a saint after I’ve given away some of my winnings to charity.

It’s going to be sinfully glorious to help other people out.  Going to burn in hell but at least I can live it up while I’m here.

Maybe I’ll be forgiven, Jesus afterall is a forgiver.

But you probably have to stop what your doing for him to forgive you and I am, still drinking and smoking.

I hope the best life for you,

Thanks for reading,

Jesse Creel

The Day In Day Out Work Of Writing

And that work is to write the most valuable content on the internet.

How are we going to do this as bloggers and ebook authors?

I say we have to read books that are going to help us achieve out short term goals.  If we work on our short term goals and consistently meet them then we will be closer to our long term goals.

But I do think we should always be thinking long term.  People are living a lot longer these days.

So really we need to do both.  The Yin and the Yang.

I am a schizophrenic and at one point when I was having trouble working I thought I was Jesus and was telling my wife all about it.

She was going along with me on it, and that made me even more crazy.  I think I was drinking a lot at the time.  And I was trying to sell Aflac insurance.

I really was a crazy man.

So maybe you can’t be like me, but I say you might be highly entertained by me.

The best part is I’ve made myself a success again at an hourly job and now I’m swinging for the fences everyday, on every blog post, to write the most valuable content in the world.

How do I, how do WE do this?

I say we just ask ourselves the question, how do I write the most valuable content in the world?

See what answers we get.

It all leads to writing, good and bad.

But I say you make BOTH the good and bad stuff spectacular.  Make it the most entertaining thing the reader has ever read.  I think that’s how we can really improve this blogging movement.

Some people make a lot of money writing books, e books or paper books.  How do we become one of them?

I say the first step is to write everyday.

I say the second step is to make sure your reading at least a half hour everyday.  Which truthfully I don’t get everyday.  But when I do read it’s for hours.

Again, don’t be like me.  I’m a sick person.  But what I do have in common with you is if you can read and type you can have a blog.  And we can both be bloggers.

And YOU could come up with the most valuable content on the planet, and join the club.

And we could do it together.

Because I’m not there yet.

My friend is editing my e book and he tells me I have a lot of work to do.  I’m probably going to have to take out some pages and re write some of it.  Maybe put another 10 hours into it.  I’ve already logged 40.  So that would be 50 hours of my work that at my job I get paid $12 dollars an hour for.  You can figure out how much I would have made if I put that time into an hourly job.

And if figure the work I do with my mind will pay a lot more than the work I do with my hands.  Sales is a good example of how you can make more money.  And it takes more brains!

So I must have that going for me.

Because they did promote me to doing sales calls, so I must be showing improvement.  And I do sell!

They pay me hourly so I get paid whether they buy or not.  Which is a blessing.  I love sales but because of the drinking and smoking it makes it difficult to work on commission.  So when your getting paid hourly and working for a company who’s food people love, it’s easy to drop off a free lunch, say your spreading around some love and letting people know my company cares about them.  It’s the easiest sales job in the world.  I only see people for a minute, maybe two and then I’m off to the next place.  I can get 8 sales calls done in 4 hours or less.

And in one month I made 6 sales!  So people are buying because of the work I’m doing.  And it doesn’t matter that the voices say they are calling me as I’m doing the sales calls.  People love the ham and turkey!  And they love that I’m being called to die and still working!  I am friendly and only want to make the most of my day.

Enjoy the ride.

So that’s what I do.

So far I’ve been smoking cigarettes for the sales calls and I think that’s going to stop.  But even with the cigarettes people still buy.  My company really has a gold mine.  Ham.  People love it.

But I am working for someone else.  I want to be working for myself.  I want my e book to sell and become a millionaire.  And then a multi millionaire.  And then I’ll be living the life of my dreams.  How is this of value to you?

To know there’s another person out there who is crazy enough to think they can get rich and become a multimillionaire.  No matter where they are in life.  So long as they had a decade or two to spare.  That really might be asking quiet a lot.  But when your doing something you love, something that’s going to help you grow, you shouldn’t be looking at it in terms of decades anyways.  You should be looking at it as your life’s work.

And BE THE MOST VALUABLE PERSON ON THE PLANET.

Do and write really good stuff.  The best stuff.  Think what you’ll have in ten years?

Think what you’ll have in one year.

GET IT DONE!

I’ve got to make sure I get my half hour of reading today after I’ve written this blog.  Get back on track.

And I will, because I want to keep providing more valuable content each day.  Just because you may be producing the most valuable content on the planet doesn’t mean you can’t make it better.

Really you MUST make it better because that’s how it’s meant to be done.  You could make a song out of it, and I do.  You might even be able to get your hands on it for a price.

Because really, we all gotta eat.

And I WILL have products for sale up on this website at some point and I hope you buy and enjoy them.  I will sell them no matter what my friends tell me about them after I share it with them.

I may edit my ebook a lot before I put it up for sale, but I’m still going to take my 40 hours of work and make something of it.  Something that I can profit from.  Why shouldn’t we profit.  It’s not a crime.

In fact the government encourages us to profit.  They get more money!  And that’s what governments need.  Along with great leaders.

But I really wanted to write hard for the purpose of providing you the most valuable stuff you’ve ever read.  Let me know in the comments whether or not you think I’ve accomplished this task.  And maybe how you think I might be able to improve.

Because really, this blog is alive.  There are people that comment on it everyday.  Today I had something like 11 comments.  Yesterday I had something like 8.  And it just keeps coming.

My most popular posts are Value Based Writing For Those Who Want To Improve and Selling And Getting 20 Dollars An Hour.

The comments come in everyday and have been for a while now.  It must have started about 2 months ago and now I’ve got many comments.

But what I want to do is keep improving and write even more posts that get as much traffic and are of better quality.

We all can travel this path.  The path of self improvement.  And I think we can increase our incomes dramatically because of it.

That we can get more friends too.  And effect the lives of more people.

And for the most part I think most of them will be happy they found us.  Sure their will be a couple of complaints but for the most part it will be good.

That’s just what I see based on experience working at other businesses.

So you may have to field a couple complaints, but you’ll be EARNING money and you’ll be working towards living the lifestyle of your dreams.

Don’t worry folks, the ebook “Take Action and Improve!” is coming.  Consider it en-route.

For now I’m focusing on just providing you with as much free content as possible.  That way IF you do want to buy something it will be easy.  I’ve already earned your money!

Well not really, your going to get the product, but really this is valuable stuff isn’t it, let me know in the comments.

Because really I don’t know if it’s like this for everybody, but at this point I seemed destined for success.  A success with what I want to do.  And to ride the wave high.

Right now I’m riding high on the hog, in more ways than one, but I intend to make this blog my income.  You can blog too.  I suggest you go for 90 days and see what happens.

I’ve still got another 2 months + to go.  But I’ve been pretty faithful in my dedication to writing the blog everyday.  I think so far I’ve only taken 2 days off.  In a month.

God is resting more than I am.

I should really take more time off, at least one day a week, but I figure it’s only 3 months, what harm can it do to do something you love each day for those three months for your benefit and the benefit of the people who read your work.

But if you can only give them a 1,000 words one day, then just give them 1,000 words.  At least you got that in.  I know, when your working a job and taking care of a family you can get tired.  But I say for the most part, go the extra mile and try to get a good 2,000 words in.  You can do it!  And think just how much more valuable that post will be!

Your writing hard for the purpose of making the world a better place.

I don’t see any downside to writing.  Your only going to become better at what your doing now.  For me I see everything in my life getting better because I’m writing.

That’s just the way it goes.

I hope your better for reading this.  I want to be of value by relying my experiences to you so you can be entertained. Because God help me I’m not very scholarly.  But I am alive, I am a human being, I am part of the world, I am creating new human beings to be the future, and I’m highly optimistic about the future.

But I am living in the present, so for now I’m just thankful for my job and for my family, and for food, and for shelter, and for everything I have that is good in life.  And I’m thankful for all the lessons the failures and bad things have taught me over the years.  They have helped me become the person I am today.  And today I am a valuable member of the community.  I feed people.

If I didn’t work I’d have to write about something else, and that’s going to be the reality at some point in my life if I can do it.  And because I’m so optimistic about the future I’ve already decided that success at blogging and selling ebooks is my destiny, and I will have it good bad and ugly.

But really it will, like my company, be mostly good.  And worth doing.

This is an accomplishment.  I worked 9 hours at my job today and wrote until I had 2,000 words.  And I really tried to pack the value in there.  The value being that I love you and if I can do it, a schizophrenic, you can certainly work your hourly job to help support your family.

I care about the world and want to see it get better.

Thanks for reading this post,

Jesse Creel

 

Schizophrenia, Healing, and Empowerment

Yes, I am a schizophrenic.

And I have been for about 7 years.  Since I lost my job in 2010.  That’s a landmark for me.  I’ve since recovered and have another job.

But it wasn’t always this way.  At one point I had to heavily rely on my family to stay with them and get by.  They helped me pay my debts when I didn’t have the motivation to pay them myself.  At one point I hated working and wasn’t able to like the things I had to do.  So I didn’t do them.  I would just sit around and listen to the voices tell me to die, and at one point they had me convinced I was going to die.  That this was it.  That it was over.  Tears came down my eyes.

And they still tell me to die.  But I haven’t yet, and I’m recovered and working.  And I’m in the process of improving.  Of living life again.  Of solving problems, or at least working on them… and I’ve come to a conclusion.

If I have schizophrenia all that means is that I have to work harder than a normal person to achieve success.  So that’s exactly what I’m doing.

I have some serious issues to tackle, like my credit card debt.  Which is almost more than I can handle… but I’ve got to stay committed to paying it off to a zero balance in the shortest amount of time possible.  And I can do it.  Tied into my problem of debt is my problem of not getting enough hours at my job.  I’m working and that’s a success, but I’m not consistently getting 40 hour work weeks.  I’ve got to increase my income, and get full time work… so I’m working on finding another job.

I do love the one I’m working now though.  I’ve met some great people working there and the job is practically easy.  But it’s something you do when you can’t do anything else.  And at the time I took the job, I really couldn’t do anything else.

But now I’m getting it together and I’d like to work at a place that offered benefits like a 401k.  I’m looking forward to the future now.  For my family.  You see, I have a wife and two kids.

And I’ve really got to start looking out for myself, for them.  Rock and roll, sales, and network marketing really took their tolls on my working life and I lost far more than I gained.  At the same time those were some of my most valuable life lessons.  I learned later that you should only seeks gains when there’s little or no risk.  Otherwise you could end up losing it all.  And that’s exactly what I did.

And although I’m working successfully I still haven’t recovered from the losses I took when I was finding my path.  My path now is not to rely on social security for disability but to work 40 or 50 hours every week and pay off my debt as fast as possible.

And there are millions of jobs out there so I’m optimistic.  I’m thinking I’ll will eventually find the right job for me and I’ll be able to work full time, and I will have improved my life again.

And I must keep those improvements coming.

So now that I’ve healed parts of my life of the schizophrenia and I can still work in spite of it… I’m ready to move on to other parts of my life and heal and become empowered in them as well.  And if you want to take that journey with me as well, my friend, you are more than welcome to.  The way I see it is we are in for a lot of hard work, and a lot of blessings too.  May they come in avalanches of abundance.

So I’m empowered to make progress, and the faster it is the better.  We’ve got to find ways to speed things up because you do know that our time is one of our most valuable resources.  Only so much of it, and then it’s over so better make the best of it.

I know for certain that hard work is a good thing and it amounts to something.  What it amounts to depends on how well you do it, but no matter what your capacity hard work is a good value.  I have learned to like hard work.  And I love putting hard work into my creativity because that’s just so much fun.  So as we work, we can have fun, and doesn’t that make your day just so much better?!

If we could only get our creativity to lead to income, now then we’d really be talking.  And walking.  Walking the walk.  That’s what we want to do so it’s time to take massive action right now.  Think of something you can do that will add value to a massive number of people, and do that thing right now!  Stop reading this and go do it, the blog will be here when you’ve finished.  Take massive action!

I hope that empowered you to take the first step, or the next step… if you didn’t yet stop and take massive action toward one of your goals, then go do it now!  I’m writing this to tell you I believe in you and I know you can live the life of your dreams.  Get on with it!

And if your a schizophrenic and your say, waiting to get on disability, and you need money now, go out and find a job!  You can do it!  And you can work and recover and get your life in better shape.  I did it, you can too!

And you know there’s going to be haters out there, hating on you for doing you.  You just got to “Shake it off” as Taylor Swift says.

And work your tail off.  You can do it!

So if your schizophrenic, or suffering from any other problem… heal! and be empowered!  Share your story with others once you’ve got a better hold on your life and help others to avoid the same mistakes you made.  A few will learn from you and put into action what they’ve learned.  And those few people who become better because you helped them are benefited by your contribution.  Become a better person and have a more positive impact on the world!

I love you, thanks for reading.

Accepting Limitations, A Personal Story Of Living With Schizophrenia

There was a time when I thought I had no limitations.

I tried to be a rock and roll superstar and make it like the Rolling Stones and take over the world.

I failed.  And became a schizophrenic.

I also had a family.  Got married and had two kids.

Now my kids are 4 and 1 and I’m just working to help support them the best I can.

My wife does most of the work.  She is a teacher and makes an average salary.  Enough to keep us in our little town home and keep the lights on and the dishwasher running.  I would not be able to do what I do if it wasn’t for her.

So I have support and Thank God for that.  But the desire to become independent of my wife is strong in me.  I want to make more money.  Right now I work at a little Ham shop where I do deliveries, help the store run, and make sales calls.  I’m working on becoming a successful salesperson there.  And with that I have the opportunity to make more money.  But I only make 15,000 dollars a year and even if I did sell my ass off I doubt I would even be able to come close to doubling my income.  I may be able to make another 1,000 dollars this year selling it through bonuses.  That would help but it’s still nowhere near where I need to be.  And thus my struggle with accepting my limitations and living with schizophrenia.

You see, last night as I was visualizing winning the lottery, which I have done some of in the past too, I imagine the excitement of winning and how it would look and feel.  And then out of no where my visualization takes a turn that I have no control over and in my mind I’m tackled by an unknown person.  It’s as if the schizophrenia doesn’t want me to win the jackpot.

When I was working in sales at another job I would visualize selling my desired number of packages and the same thing would happen.  There would be a shadow that came in to consume me.  To bite me and to stop the visualization.  It’s really a pain in the neck.

What does the schizophrenia teach me in this way?

The answer is not simple.  And it’s a hard fact to choke down.  I, because of my problems visualizing success probably will never do anything that breaks records, or even comes close to outstanding success in winning the lottery or in sales.  At my job now, mostly what I do is unaffected by the schizophrenia.  I’m working with my hands and just have to do my job.  There is no visualization required to perform a good job at my current job and do the job well.  So really, I count my blessings that I even have a job, and that I have an income.  So my limitations may include not making more than 15,000 dollars a year.  That is really a hard fact to choke down.

Granted, I could make something of my writing if I keep reading and write valuable things.  Tony Robbins says that wealth comes from being valuable so what I can do is read and write and get my work out there and see what happens.  It’s worth it to write whether I make anything of it or not (meaning whether I’m paid well to do it or not) because I grow in the process.  I improve and become a better person.  More valuable.  And that is invaluable to me.  Reading and writing really is a gold mine.  For schizophrenics, and for everyday people.

So I’m accepting the fact the right now, although I could improve in the future, that I am only capable of making 15,000 dollars a year.  I am accepting the fact that I will probably never win the lottery.  I am accepting the fact that I will probably never be a six figure earner as a salesperson.  I am accepting the fact that I will probably never make it in music, rock and roll, blues, or anything like it.  I am also accepting of the fact that my writing will probably never make me any money.  I hope I am wrong, but these are safe assumptions that can serve me by increasing my humility.  And humility can serve me by bringing me back down to earth and allowing me to work my job distraction free.  And working hard and fast is valuable for the mind body and soul because your making an honest living and doing the job well.

But boy would I like to make 6 figures.  Even 7.

I suppose it comes down to how much I can learn.  How much I can read and turn my reading into value for my readers.

But I guess that is just my failure to accept my limitations.  And that is probably a good thing as it keeps me striving to get better.  I know I can’t just go out and get a sales job and sell my ass off.  I have to keep my 15,000 a year and work with that.  Try to quit smoking so I can save more money and help to support my family the best I know how.

But I think my limitations can serve me by allowing me to be grateful for what I do have.  Because with a family, I am very blessed, and money isn’t everything.  You could always love God, because he gives you everything you need to grow and become a better person.  Really, with free will, it comes down to you to make those improvements and change your life.  What I do accept is the challenge to improve.

So I suppose that as M. Scott Peck says in his book “The Road Less Traveled and Beyond” to paraphrase… life is full of paradoxes.  And accepting your limitations while attempting to improve yourself is exactly that, a paradox.  Peck also said if I remember correctly that if you have a paradox on your hands your probably standing in the light of Truth and that what you have discovered is actually the way things are.

So I am improving within the constraints of my limitations.  I accept my limitations and work with them, but I also seek to improve and break through into new ground.  A paradox.  One that I am happy to have in my life.

Thank you for reading this post, may you break through your limitations and set the bar higher for yourself, and may God Bless you and yours now and forever.

 

 

Create A Wealthy Life, Create Great Wealth Along With Great Health And Wisdom

What more could you ask for… health, wealth, and wisdom.  I tried to cheers to that at family events and my grandfather only wanted the health.  But I have a dream.

And my dreams are turning into reality.  I have a plan.  One I can make public which would make it all the better.  Document the road to riches.  The road to great wealth.  That’s the end game.  Die wealthy.

Leave a legacy.  Something the world can live off of after your gone.  That’s doing a service to the world.  And Tony Robbin’s books will still be around after he’s dead.  Hopefully that won’t be for many years.

But in “Money, Master the Game” Robbins says ” The secret to wealth is simple: Find a way to do more for others than anyone else does.  Become more valuable.  Do more.  Give more.  Be more.  Serve more.  And you will have the opportunity to earn more.”

And that’s exactly what I wanted to make this blog post about.  Becoming more valuable.  And translating that value into the written word.

I’m valuable at my job.  I make 10 dollars an hour there.  Not bad considering I don’t really have to do much.  There’s not much heavy lifting involved.  It’s a pretty easy job.  And I love it it’s so easy.  And I get paid to do it so I love it even more.  Even if they don’t pay much.  They are flexible with time, so I can take time off to see my therapist or write, or spend time with my family.

But I can give more.  I’m taking my family to church tomorrow and I’m going to give the church 40 dollars.  I could and really should give more, but I want to give at least two twenties to them to get the karma wheel going in the right direction.

Because I’m going to invest and I want my investments to mostly work out.  It won’t bother me if some of them don’t work out, but by and large I want the vast majority of them to work out.  Consistently and on the long term.

But isn’t that every investors dream?

Really I have no idea what I’m doing as an investor.  My plan for tomorrow is after church I take my family over to the community college and I sign up for the winter class which is basic investing.  My wife was helping do the research on the class and wants to go with me.  She is excited I’m going to be taking a class.  I’m exciting I’m reading and writing again.  I really took some time off there doing nothing and listening to the voices and playing the lottery.  I definately want to get back into it in a big way and I’m doing it everyday now.  I don’t have enough hours in the day to do all the things I want to do.  I miss reading one night and the next night I miss writing.  I’m writing a new book, don’t you know and it’s about quitting cigarettes.  It’s going to be good.  I’m giving myself all of 2017 to write it.  Write everything.

The goal is to write 2 pages a day but I don’t get nearly that much, maybe half of that.  If that.  But I still write on a regular basis and I do that for a year and then find out what I have.  I have to put on my to do list to print out my last book from 2016 that I haven’t re-read yet.  I want to edit it and maybe even sell it on this site!  Wouldn’t that be fun!  Content is king, and baby I got that.

I think the main answer to my question of how I can become more valuable is to read more books.  I read some, but I read slow and I buy books and they sit on the shelf.  I only read when I get really jazzed up about something… like money, or God.

And aren’t they really the two ultimate things? That and family.  And friends, and work, and life all together…

And my question is why can’t you have both money and God in your life.  What’s wrong with having a lot of money and loving God at the same time?

The voice tells me there’s nothing wrong with that.  It tells that to me now as I’m writing this.  It speaks to me as I write.

Sometimes I write down what it says, sometimes I don’t.  It all depends on how it’s going.  Schizophrenia is not something I share with people right off the bat.  It takes a few conversations before someone knows that and knows I have a blog and a book.  And that I’m writing another book.  It’s on the way.  There will be many if I live to 100 like I plan to.

But how long I live will depend on my quality of life I think.  And that’s part of the reason why I want to quit cigarettes.  So I feel better.  And I’m doing it now.  I haven’t had a cigarette since 9 am this morning.

I have been hitting the vape a lot though.  What purpose does this serve you you may ask?  It’s to tell you there are alternatives to smoking.  Smoking is bad but there are alternatives that are less bad that you can use until your ready to go cold turkey. Just don’t smoke, and don’t do drugs, and don’t drink.  Some would say let them do those things but I want you to get wealthy so I think you should avoid anything that is going to waste your money.  All you need to live is food and water.  And shelter and clothes.  Things like that.  You don’t need cigarettes, or pot, or alcohol…

Even though I bought a 16 dollar bottle of port that is just sweet and hard to drink.  My wife got the idea to get a bottle so I went out and bought one and I don’t think I’ll ever buy port again.  I just got it because I heard about a couple famous writers who drank it and liked it, so I thought I would try it to.

I did not like it.

I’m still drinking it though, for the feeling.  Even though it’s sweet it still gives you the feeling.

That and I have the vape.

What value is this to you?  Well, I guess I’m telling you that you can vape and drink one bottle of wine and be fine and enjoy yourself because that’s what life is for, just don’t smoke.

Really, I feel like I’ve already achieved the success I want in my life.  I’m just happy to spend time with my family and grow old with them.  This is really going to be an amazing journey with money and not smoking and being sober.  I have a sober friend that supports me so that’s awesome.  Really all things are an outstanding success in my life right now and it’s only getting better.

Why am I telling you all this…?  Because I’m a schizophrenic who is not supporting myself completely right now but I’m supporting myself and my family some and desire to support them more now.  And if I can go from not working to working and saving money and taking care of my responsibilities then I think that anyone will a strong will could do the same thing.

So the question is for me, and for anyone else who desires… can a strong will be developed?  Can the weak become strong?  Can one turn one’s life around completely and become wealthy?

The answers to the questions must be a resounding yes!  You need hope, you need a future to look forward to.  You need improvement.

We can do this together.  I know it.  We can write and read, and read and write, and go to college and invest in the market 10 percent of what we earn and we can get rich writing by providing the best value with our writing known to the world.  Something different, something new, something better.  I give a lot of credit to Tony Robbins for setting these ideas into motion in my life, but I think I always knew the right things to do, it just took Tony telling me to do them to get me into action.

And I want to take what I learned, and I want to take my art of writing and turn it into an empire.  Write everyday, write every week, write, every month, write, every year.  Until I die.  Die with my boots on.  David Bowie did.

But hopefully I won’t die for many years… I’m only 32.  I have a family to support and the better part of my life to live.  And with books as my aide and writing as my tool I think I will be able to accomplish anything with this life.  I am so happy I started this blog under my name so that every one knows exactly what I’m about….

Improvement.

That’s exactly why I’m vaping right now instead of smoking.  Hope you think it’s funny.  I still relate.  People are fucked up.  We’re each our own brand of insane.  And other people bring it out in us.  This is just my philosophy and the value it brings to you is to let you know that it’s all ok.  Like in the Micheal Franti song… “all the freaky people make the beauty of the world” and aren’t people a lot like art.  You don’t have to have a college education but it helps.  Tony Robbins only has a high school diploma, like me.  I went to Severna Park High School.   I would go so far as to say that’s the best high school in Maryland.  And I screwed around at college.  Didn’t take it seriously.  Didn’t want to be there.  Thought 12 years of school was enough.  Boy was I wrong.  The more school the better.  Now, I value education, that’s why I’m going back.  I’m going back to school to learn how to invest.

And the trillion dollar value in this for you is that there’s nothing stopping you from going back to school either.  Just save a little money and go back one class at a time… get your associates.  Then take your bachelors online.  Go back for your masters and before you know it your a therapist.  And wouldn’t that be better than working for 10 dollars an hour.

As a therapist you could probably get 50 dollars an hour or better if your good.  And the best I would have to be.  The best you have to be.  That’s my trillion dollar value.  Is that I mean for you the be the best… put your passion into it.  All of it, your heart and soul.  But don’t cut yourself.

Now, I could be wrong, but I think that the way to wealth is through words.  It’s through creating content.  Creating something of great value.  For other people it could be a song or a painting.  For me it’s blog posts and books, and every once in a while freestyle blues guitar playing.

But I just started this thing and I hope you’ll join me for the long haul.  To see how it goes and to improve along the way.  I will let you know if I make it with this blog and with my books and I’ll keep you up to date on how things are going at my job, as a worker and as a salesperson… and I’ll let you know if I win the lottery.  I’ll let you know if I’ve been drinking or smoking and hopefully that’s to a bear minimum.  I’ll provide blog posts and books that are worth trillions of dollars everyday in every way because I love you.  I want you to read and write and live life and enjoy.  And improve along in your hard times.  I hope you’ve immensely enjoyed the read and wish you a wealthy day and night.  If you want me go to the support page and write me.  I might arrange for you to purchase my book.  If you like the blog you will love the book.  Thanks for reading.  I love you.

Jesse Creel

So What’s Happening With This Blog

I’ll tell you it’s changed alot since I started it.  First it was about the book and winning the lottery.  Then It was about Network Marketing.  Then my therapist talked me out of Network Marketing because he thought I would feel bad if I sold to a bunch of people who could never be successful at it.  So now this blog is stagnant.

I’m writing my book, slowly, about a page a day.  It’s coming along but I run into my issues along the way.  Like for instance right now the attachment wont send to my email address and I wanted to print it out to get a page count.

So really this blog is about marketing the book now, as that is what I want to do.  I want to get rich writing.  Most people will probably tell me that’s not possible, but I think it can be done and I intend to do it.

I have nothing else to do but write my thoughts and the voices I hear in my head to tell everyone what it is that’s going on with me.  I think people will find the book a breath of fresh air and an interesting read.

Or I could have a publisher do all the marketing for me and I wouldn’t have to write this blog, I could just focus on the book.  And maybe they would have other writing gigs for me to do and I could start to write full time.  Work from home…. That would be awesome.

I’m not going to let the schizophrenia hold me back.  True, I can’t sell stuff.  I suck at it, and the schizophrenia messes me up with it.  But I can write, and I can work a little job so I do both of those things with success. I have goals and dreams.  I want the book to be done by 2017.

That gives me a little less than 6 months to do it in. And I want to sell copies of this book to the public.  I can do it.  I could do it all on my own.  Who needs a publisher when you have a blog that people visit.  And I could get more traffic.

So what is this blog about?  It’s about schizophrenia, and life, and drinking and sobriety, and smoking and not smoking, and working and writing and trying to get rich one way or the other.

The voices tell me I’m rich because of the polo shirts I wear.  I feel rich.  I have a rich attitude.

I’m broke though.  I’m barely paying off my credit card.  I have very little money to last me over the two weeks it takes to get paid again.  Really I’m poor and I want to change my situation.

And I think writing this book is a good thing for me, whether I make any money off of it or not.

My credit card will be paid off in a few years and I will then be able to afford to give my wife more money for bills.  We may have enough to even move into a new house after my credit card is paid off.  It makes me excited for work tomorrow.

But I know I’ll be fine and that God will take good care of me.

Thank you for reading.  I love you.

Jesse Creel

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