Because that’s what I do, especially during the holidays.

I drove the box truck for 7 days straight for the Easter holiday.

It’s fun and the time passes quickly.  It is a little nerve racking though, as driving can be dangerous.  You have to use caution and move safely.

I started my day today driving the truck.  I went to help break down the off site location and that took about 2 hours.  Then I was off to the storage unit for the first time of three times there today.

The rest of my day was driving.

Thankfully they sent one person to help me for the second part of the day.  It really helps to have a second person.  He helped me move two kiosks and a store full of tables and chairs.

It was a busy day and tomorrow I’ll start my day driving the box truck again, this time to Virginia to pick up ham.

I really wanted two days off after the Easter holiday of working 10 days straight, but I have to work tomorrow too.  That’s alright because I have four days off this week so I get a break.  I think I’m going to get my e book up for sale on this site so I can begin to see a trickling of money.  And the idea is to turn that trickle into an avalanche.  I can see it already.  I won’t have to work holidays and I can spend more time with my family.  It will be wonderful.

But I really want this to be of value to you so what I can say to you is if you hate working and have no motivation, there could be something that comes along that could change all that for you.  It could give you your mojo back.  Hold out, hang in there.  It could happen for you.  I got lucky, and it is happening for me.  Driving the box truck and selling the ham is a good job.  What’s even better is that I can make it selling e books and I won’t have to work a job anymore, then I’ll be writing about writing and making money off of it.

Because that would be PURE EXPERIENCE.

But for me, I’ve been working this job for almost 2 years and the voices have gotten more outspoken at times, especially since I took the sales job.  I think a lot of has to due with me living or not living my life in balance.  But even if  I wasn’t drinking or smoking I think I would still hear voices.  I’m a schizophrenic and I don’t know that that’s something I can change.  I don’t know that I would want it to change.  Sometimes it makes me feel good!

But yes I missed yesterday blogging.  It was Easter Sunday.  I took the day off.  I spent it at church, and with family.  I drank about 8 beers and had my wife drive us home.  I had the day off!  I went right to sleep after I got home.  I spent time with family.  And I ate food.

I got a free 70 dollar ham for working almost 60 hours in one week.  Perk of the job.  I shared it with my in-laws and my grandparents.  I got food at each of their houses.  It really was a busy day.  A busy day for a busy week.  Thank God I got four days off this week.  I’m going to spend those days off getting my ebook up for sale.  An probably working on a rock and roll album.  It will all sound the same and all be totally different at the same time.  I’m really not much of a guitar player, but I get by.

And I get to express myself.  Who knows how many albums I’ll dream up.  And put them all up for sale.  As my work, that will allow me to make a profit.  So I can quit my job.  Sound like a dream, it is.  But I’m working towards it everyday.

And every week I’m getting more traffic.  That’s something.

That can be of value to you.  If you want traffic, write!  You will grow and other people will love you.  Some will hate you.  Others will love you.  It’s worth it to do.  And you can build a business once you get good at it!

You gotta figure, how many 90 day periods do you have to go through blogging before you make your first dollar? 1? 2? 3?

How much time are you willing to invest in yourself so you can make a profit?  Will you invest the rest of your life?

Because for me, that’s what it takes.  It takes your entire life to be a writer, a family man, a rock and roller, a worker, a salesman.  You had better get good so you can live a good life.

But I say, burn baby burn.  Do your thing.  Do it with PASSION.  Make it happen.  Be the best you can be.  Work an hourly job if you have to.  Work on your dreams too.  Make it happen.  You can do it.  You can be the best.  God Bless you.

Because I really do think God is with us, even if we’re drinking too much wine and smoking cigarettes.  The voices at church on Easter Sunday really had me thinking about quitting drinking.  And what I really was trying to do was quit cigarettes.

So I went to church first thing, the voices said don’t drink wine, then I ended up drinking 8 beers and today now I’m having my third glass of wine.  I think it’s good for me.  I like it and I don’t see any reason to stop.

But there are reasons.  But really I don’t really drink that much.  I drink enough.

There is a rich poetic tradition of drinking and writing, so I’m really in good company.  And I think a drink is good for business too, not that I ever drink when I’m working.

But I probably could do a lot more if I were sober and smoke free.  I would have a lot more money to do other things with.  I just can’t see a better way to spend my money right now.  Wine and cigarettes.

This is art, I don’t know that people would ever buy network marketing from me, but I could be a hell of an e book author, or a heavens of one, if your religious.

My bosses voice in my head told me that I was a great mix of hell and creation.  The voices seem to have their own ideas and say things I would never have come up with on my own.

Because you may get some good writing out of drinking and smoking, but beware, there’s a whole lot of suffering that comes along with it.  And you could be better without it.

But for now I drink and I smoke and I write.  I hope you enjoyed this post.  Here’s to you, Good nite.